Some would probably appreciate their mothers making mention of their depression, but for me I just end up feeling like a fucking failure who can't even summon the enthusiasm to temporarily pretend I'm okay for the sake of not bringing anyone else down further..
also I've been incredibly anxious all day kms
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>>34108017
>herb
>lad
>= derp
No thanks brother, I don't smoke.
Yep. First time i had a depressive episode my parents wanted to talk about it (more so on how I can fix it). Of course that was nevee helpful for me and at the time I only resented them for it.
Second time round they were more educated and treated me normally (e.g. always inviting me to join them for dinner, talk to me about other things when they had the chance).
I'm sorry you're going through this atm and hope you get well soon. I hated feeling as you do now. It really sucks to have feelings of guilt and shame to such degrees.
>>34108116
Thanks dude.
As much as I hate a sob story, I have a history of depression dating back to 2000, at the age of 7-8 years old. My parents had just divorced at the time.
I guess what bums me out is the fact that I'm oblivious to how I am, but maybe from an outsiders perspective I would be able to plainly see just how down I am.
Anyway, I just wish it wasn't so obvious.
>>34108223
At least my mum's stopped criticising me for being tired all of the time.
I'm far from lazy per-se, I don't own a car so I'm forced to walk virtually everywhere - which I don't particularly hate, but from the moment I wake up until I go to sleep again I have almost no energy whatsoever..
>>34108223
It's not a sob story. It is how your life unfolded. My parents are together still and I'd hate to think how my life wouldhave turned out if they had divorced when I was your age and given my disease (probably worse if not dead already).
I am a bit confused though, have you been diagnosed with any depressive disorders?
If not, and you believe you may be, speak to your gp. That may not be what you want to read but it was regular encouragment that finally got me to go. I hope that coming from a depressive gives my advice some more weight.
>>34108317
Yes family can be very unhelpful sometimes, despite their best intentions.
Have you tried to investigate other possible causes for your tiredness? I usually tire myself and go back tosleep if I open up the laptop before I even get out of bed.