What's inside your heart right now?

I fear for my future. I will eventually be kicked out and be forced to live as a homeless hobo or get sent to the mental ward of a hospital. And in less than a decade, probably less than 5 years, I will die either of a stroke or a heart attack, I shiver just thinking of the pain it will be. It's sad being a retard with a really shitty life, and I deserve it because I'm bad too. I pray for peace but there's no way out of this ride. There's no silver lining to any of this. I was unlucky in the lottery of life. It's that kind of thing that is in my heart. I'm sorry if your thread is supposed to be a shitpost and you didn't actually mean to ask it.

>>1530227

Blood

>>1530260
>I deserve it because I'm bad too
You don't have to be.