Why should I fight anymore?

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This isn't about the shitshow at charlottesville. Nor is it about anything else in the media recently. I just want to know why I should fight anymore. I feel like everything that I want to achieve is something that I'll never do because of myself. I tell myself, "I'm gonna work out" and yet I can't do it, no matter how much I stress the importance of it when I talk to myself. Everything I do just feels futile. I'm aware of my problems, and I want to confront them, but its just not there. Every time I see other people, even friends, who are happy, it just makes me feel more alone. I feel like the only people who care about me, are the people who are supposed to care. Whenever I hear some inspirational monologue, something in me just says that its just words that make me feel a certain way, that none of it is even special, its just chemicals in the brain. And if someone were to mock me for these problems, saying that I'm "just a weak pussy who's not special and needs to man up", I just accept that I'm everything they say I am, which only makes me feels worse. I want to break free from it, but I feel like its the only thing that speaks the truth. It doesn't matter that someone's nice to me, after all, they probably just want something from me, or do it out of pity. Nothing feels real, or special, or like it really matters, and anything to be said to encourage me is null.
I'm not surprised if you didn't want to read all of that. It pains me just typing this out. But if anything, I just want peace with myself any everyone else. I know that life's a struggle, but that doesn't mean that everything should feel like hell.