British Model Allegedly Kidnapped in Italy

>>136598365

https://archive.is/oP5c1

>>136598365
I think its a publicity stunt desu

Where ever will we find another young lady that makes a living from her looks to replace her???

>>136598620
This. Shes trying to get a career going.

>>136598365
>British Model Allegedly Kidnapped
>British

Wow. Kidnappers with zero taste.

>>136598365
>>136599005
those baby feeders disagree with you

>>136598886
>>136598620
I thought as much too. How do we deal with the vaginal menace?

>>136598398
Fuck off you.

Spam her shit medias with victim blaming lel
https://www.instagram.com/p/BWXMoyAHkZ_/?hl=fr&taken-by=chloeayling

>>136598365
>According to Ms Ayling's account to Italian investigators, she was told several potential buyers had been lined up before the kidnappers had a change of heart.

Get the fuck outta here. When kidnappers have a change of heart your body is usually found in a trunk at the local dump, 9 months later.

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>kidnapped instagram model
Motherfuckers.

>>136598365
I dont give a fuck. She looks like a coal burner. She can die.

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Who'll start the bidding?
Can I get $100?

>>136600186
i can pay $50, already wasted half my allowance this week

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yfw it turns out Trump was one of the potential buyers

>1 British "model" kidnapped
>National scandal, media coverage, arrests, public outcry
>1400 girls, some prepubescent, sexually tortured, mutilated, threatened, and worse over the course of almost a decade and a half
>Oye mate, we avin non a dat hate speech, git a loif, bin that noif

I have negative sympathy for anyone with a Union Jack flag.

>that hair
>those brows
>them tits
>them lips

sure, anon
a model

>>136598365
>those soulless eyes
Nope nope NEWWWWP

Dated a girl with the same look (and ugly olive eye color) that was a mental disaster. It took me 8 months to cut that bitch out of my life. Never again.

Her face is a little derpy but I wouldn't have a problem keeping her

>>136598365
ITALY NOOOOOO!!!!

>>136600418
This

>British model
Nuke this shitty island already, fuckin disgusting people

>>136600418
Only reason was because the perp was caucasian, that is the only reason why, they swept under the rug the scandals involving the grooming of underage girls because the perps were Arab

Pretty much at this point if you are kidnapped in EU you will soon be dead or trafficked. There really is no other option any longer in that monkey infested area.

That's a model in bongland?

>>136601804
Implying you wouldn't fuck her

>>136602165
I would not. She's below average and appears filthy

>>136598365
Maybe she's just so stupid an narcissistic that when ever a camera is present she puts on her model face.

>>136600346
So far he's been offering the money directly to the girls so nah...

>>136598365
It's likely that this is a publicity stunt but i'll leave her the bennefit of the doubt.

Estonia, Latvia, Moldavia and Bosnia have the greatest problems in terms of kidnappings in Europe.
Latvian women are particulary targeted and often sold into countries ranging from India , Egypt, Saudi Arabia, China etc.

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>>136602422
Does this adequately convince you?

Chloe Ayling is going to do a topless photoshoot just days following her kidnapping ordeal.

I think most people would be so shook up that they avoided media attention so if this isn't genuine we should herald her as a national hero for her resilience in the face of such a traumatic event.

>Link:
http://www.independent.co.uk/news/uk/home-news/chloe-ayling-page-three-shoot-kidnap-sex-slave-gang-milan-glamour-model-friend-a7882091.html

>>136602812
Into archive https://unvis.it/independent.co.uk/news/uk/home-news/chloe-ayling-page-three-shoot-kidnap-sex-slave-gang-milan-glamour-model-friend-a7882091.html

>>136602763
>Latvian women targetted most

Why is this? Are their police the least effective or is it something else?

I must say though, Lukasz doesn't have a very good taste in women.

>>136602812
Yeah. I'd say she's just trying to sling shot her "career"

>>136598365
I've read somewhere that they want to make poland look bad since the alleged kidnapper is polish.

>>136602972
Apparently they had gangs of men in the streets selling of women since the 90s.

Corruption is allways an issue if you talk about a formerly communist country so there's that to take into account along with poverty having driven many people towards crime.

I'm not saying Latvia is shit or anything like that but... Well if you ever go there with your GF or daugter then make sure to keep an eye on them. Same goes for Bosnia which is even worse with Muslims kidnapping at least 100 women every year...

You now know why Croatia wants to bring back mandatory military service and introduce American style gun laws.

>>136598365
>What's /pol/'s opinion on this case?
I don't care. She probably hopped into the kidnapper car because she wanted black cock.

>>136598365
Lots of east euros are being used as sex slaves in this very country, it's been going on for decades thanks to freedom of movement. Don't know why this kind of thing is a surprise to people.

>>136603624
Thank you for your wonderful insight.

>>136603439
I'm a little removed from the issue because I've never been there but I know a few people who regularly visit those countries for festivals.

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>>136598365
island beauty

She changed her story. This was just a publicity stunt for a washed up slut. Now she's doing a topless shoot to "cope with the trauma."

>>136598365
she looks like a meth head with a kilogram of makeup
would not fugg

This has become such a shitty world for women, where they get kidnapped, beaten, and raped on mass by jealous men. Men are fucking cancer to this world I swear

>>136605495
Stop letting shitskins into your white countries and this won't happen nearly as much.

>>136605594
she was kidnapped by poles
lmao

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>>136598365
Gibs me white women.

>>136599251
»vaginal menace

What an idiot you are.

If it makes good business then it's good. But because it a female it doesn't fit your narrative

>>136605594
Do you think white men bebe do this?

And btw, YES all men are cancer in Gerald.

>>136605711
> »
--> plebbit

>>136598365
Never trust Italian prosecutors, they are fantasist, they love to create the most incredible stories. Criminal trials can last years, and the sentence can be overturned twice, before a final sentence is made.

>>136605895
why are women so stupid when compared to men?

>>136605389
Don't lie, you would fuck the shit out of her before tossing her away like the used jizz rag that she is.

>>136605985
We have scientist working on that right now. I'll let you know when we have the results.

>>136598365
I wish they banned peroxide so all the false whites in the west would be easily distinguishable.

>>136598365
How can i join the Black Death group?

>>136606117
okay
would fugg but would not marry
>>136606157
female iq is lower than male iq on average

>>136606117
I wish she was more than a jizz rag... feminism and post modern ideal have degraded women to just being objects while they used to be so much more. But for real though, look at those boobs and that skin, she is a fine jizz rag.

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Lombard body language analysis video when?

Love that shit.

>>136598398
i known you're doing a good thing but jesus christ are you annoying.

>>136598886
trying to get her career going

also surprised nobody has mentioned trying to draw support for banning tor... that's pretty obviously the big point of it all

>>136605985
I see masses of millenial women having careers, while the men are all vidya playing neets.

I guess in a society of equal opportunity, men can no longer keep up with women. And to think in the past , men stopped women from being in careers. Guess they were scared of being outsmarted.

Lol it's funny when men want to trap women in a house when in fact she can have her own life fucking whoever the duck she wants in bed before hitting the board room the next morning.

>>136606368
we are work on the why. The facts are no longer worth disputing.

>>136606577
Well banning having tor or any other dark web access means. I have p2g and tor, anyway to hide these on my computer so they wouldn't be visible even in the event of a ban?

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If you are light haired you are feminine, if you are dark haired you are masculine. Nobody has ever heard of a "blond lover", it's always a Latin lover, Arab lover or a black lover. Time to get used this. Sex slavery is the natural role of Northern Europeans. You were designed by God to be our cum dumpsters.

>>136606639
What jobs do they actually have?
As artists?
Middle school teachers?
Women are stupid and emotional, the only use for them is being able to make children.

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>>136602763
>>136602972
>>136603439
>>136604643
Nice one, Croatia.
Its BS, maybe stuff like that happened during WW2 (pic related), but not now.

But a lot of emigree women in the West get caught up in fake marriages with shitskins.
I.e. Women are promised a lot of money exchange for marrying them to get permanent EU residence. But they never get the money and those guys disappear so they beg for donations online to buy plane tickets home. Media shames them afterwards.

>>136607426
baltic men are known for raping norwegian women
he's not wrong

>>136606873
That's weird because white people; men and women are objectively the most attractive race. As shown in baby gaze studies. Sorry hook nosed moe.

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White race is inferior and recessive. Similar to magnets there is one positive and one negative, Yin/Yang.

Dark = Masculine, powerful
White = Feminine, submissive

The white race is the prey and the dark race is the predators. Its only natural white women get bred by dark men and white men get murdered by superior wogs.

Accept nature, you have lived an unnatural life for too long. In the future, women will throw away the Northern European patriarchal shackles of unnatural white society, and they will be naked when outside their house, having sex with wogs on the streets. We should encourage the natural state of thing and destruction of your evil albino culture.

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>>136607581
Get used to it blondie, your race was designed to be dicked down by dark men.

>James Dewey Watson (born April 6, 1928) is an American molecular biologist, geneticist and zoologist, best known as one of the co-discoverers of the structure of DNA in 1953 with Francis Crick. Watson, Crick, and Maurice Wilkins were awarded the 1962 Nobel Prize in Physiology or Medicine "for their discoveries concerning the molecular structure of nucleic acids and its significance for information transfer in living material".[5]

>While speaking at a conference in 2000, Watson had suggested a link between skin color and sex drive, hypothesizing that dark-skinned people have stronger libidos.[82][83] His lecture argued that extracts of melanin – which gives skin its color – had been found to boost subjects' sex drive. "That's why you have Latin lovers," he said, according to people who attended the lecture. "You've never heard of an English lover. Only an English Patient."[84]
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/James_Watson

>>136607022
Women are in white collar jobs where not needed as much.

Men are just needed for the dumb psysical yet needed jobs that require no brains.

Brain work, higher pay, and white collar jobs are fem territory

It really US turning into a world where Men aren't needed.

Women will dominate the world, have harems if men who they pick, and artificial wombs so they can continue their careers

>>136598365
she most likely whored herself out to some arab sheik, got shit and pissed on for a week, didnt get paid and made up a shitty story no one believes

>>136606873
>gets subjugated by northern European powers
>northern European power gives you freedom due to Jew Marxist philosophy
>dirty sandmonkey gets a hard on because a few people are kidnapped for a monarchy that is probably more than 50% British anyway

Sure thing sweetie

>>136598365
If it wasn't for the fact that a guy has been arrested I would say it's all a publicity stunt
She doesn't exactly look traumatised

>>136607868
lmfao what is this horse shit, nice b8

>>136607868
you are stupid
more men work at IT jobs
more men work at engineering jobs
those jobs are the most paid jobs you can find nowadays, and you need to be smart to actually get a job in those fields
you're pulling out information out of your ass, your feelings have taken over facts
you will always be inferior, doesn't matter how hard you try

>>136598365
she is supposedly going to be doing a page 3 shoot in a few days

.......this is all bullshit right?

>>136607426
>I.e. Women are promised a lot of money exchange for marrying them to get permanent EU residence. But they never get the money and those guys disappear so they beg for donations online to buy plane tickets home. Media shames them afterwards.


So that's what went on?

I wasn't trying to make your country look bad.
I just repeated something i've read from a report at least a year or two ago.

>>136608104
>>136602812
It is true, she is.

>>136608242
i think some serious investigation needs to take place then, because i think her story is bull

trip cus fuckery might be afoot.
I've investigated this as much as is currently possible, also sent a geolocating link from 15 addresses to the 7 BDG emails I'm aware of. All on Tor2Mail etc.

This is the source of their "calling card" image, it was first published in 2008 by this woman who doesn't seem to know anything: https://www.flickr.com/photos/annaehoffman/2346548900/in/photostream/
Made a gallery of images here:
http://imgur.com/a/pOk7t

tl;dc: DELET THIS REE

>>136608616
Just quickly tagging on to the back of this post, the group seems to have been active for a minimum of 2 - 2.5 years. But there's some sources saying they've been active 1994. I'm not sure if I believe it though, as I can find absolutely no activity on their behalf from before 2015.

Here's a link to the Overchan post where they're looking to recruit "super hackers":
https://ev7fnjzjdbtu3miq.onion.link/t/2e6b95147073febeba4975396caef30d5f452cdd/

Enjoy bois, all i got time for today.

>>136608100
mmm, no hun

More Women are in tech than ever. Silicon valley goal is to be all women soon.

Again, men should leave white collar jobs as blue collar is calling for their Labour work. Women can have white collar. It makes things so much easier, prove me wrong

Men are just in the fucking way when it comes to white collar. Chopchop, the factory needs you.

I bet you think all women should be housewives all the time

>>136607812
Eh, 99% of white women won't touch a shit skin. It's just more evidence that every race on earth wants what the white man has. If you're able to impregnate any white women, good, we need their low IQ line totally eliminated from western society.

>>136598365

Love me some big titty bimbos

>>136609183
i go to the best engineering faculty in croatia and there are no women in my classes
you're full of bs
weak bait

>>136609271
Actually white men prefer black women while White Women prefer black men. That's pretty much how it works nowadays . Look around you. If you think whites aren't looking up to black rappers like gods, then you need to get out.

>>136607581
Med men are thee most desirable men. They even did a study in the U.K. and British women overwhelming chose Italian men as the most attractive

>>136610147
I forgot you guys are in the 90s relative to the US right now.

>>136609183
Get off /pol/

>>136609183
And no Silicon Valley is 71% male. Mostly white and Asian not as Jewish as you would think.

>>136609930
Thats because you live in Muslim shithole in central Asia somewhere. I can't even pout it on a map, and that's no surprise it's so irrelevant seeing that they're restricting women from work thanks to fragile masculinity.

>>136598365
Sand nigger have shit taste they're worst than niggers

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The beauty queen who was drugged and murdered in Kubrick's Eyes Wide Shut (1999) was escorted away by a man in a plague doctor (black death) costume.

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>>136598365
She's pretty hot and thicc

>>136600346
Although he could afford, he wouldn't lay an eye on this ugly chewed rag whore,
anyone who calls her a model is blind or should reexamine his life and hang himself

>>136599251
Leave nordbot alone you fucking cock sucker

>>136610339
White women get very territorial over them.

>>136598365
Research says psyop to throw us off the trail of the jews and hurt public perception of bitcoin. Keep focusing on Pizzagate!

>>136598365
>some dumb roastie (probably a coalburner) was kidnapped and is now treated as property
>/pol/ thinks there's something wrong with this

>>136598365
Is she being inseminated by niggers?

>>136598620
>run a criminal human trafficking ring
>by kipnapping peoples then letting them go

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>>136611315
Well she's back in Britain safe and sound, so probably yes.

>>136607868
Your a weak disinformed faggot bitch we LET you have then jobs don't forget who the 1% are women will always be inferior to men period

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>>136609183
Name one society from the beginning of time that was successfully run by women faggot?

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So...it was a hoax right? Like some Anons pointed out, six days is way too short of a time to be held captive, and once they have a change of heart, they just kill the bitch and dump her body somewhere hard to find. The captors released her because she had a child, right? Maybe because virgins fetch a higher price. Then why didn't the captors have their way with her at least? I'm pretty sure dudes in that line of work would love to fuck some model pussy, consensual or not. In addition, she's doing a topless photoshoot. Like the anon said, wouldn't she have some trauma? But no, she's a queen who slays. Honestly I wouldn't be surprised if she comes clean in a few weeks and admitted to making the whole thing up for attention. Then again. she won't get punished for it.

>>136610903
Underrated post

>>136598365
>this is the pinnacle of British beauty

>>136612300
Sweden

>>136598365
bollocks. ask what happened to her baby...

>>136602372
Says the virgin.

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>>136598365
>When women get kidnapped it's all over the news for weeks
>when little boys and girls get kidnapped, no one gives a fuck

>>136612890
So king gustav had a vagina did he? Fuck off peasant

>>136606516
it is super annoying, don't even know why. maybe it's the rain man way he does it.

>>136613059
What is this referring to?

I almost feel like the dude kidnapped her because he heard he could sell people on the black market but then he realized that it's actually really difficult to sell people on the black market.

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>>136606873
The only thing between your kind and extinction is the reckless compassion of the western powers.

>>136613175
>toothless whiteknight comes to the aid of his pure FAS waifu

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>>136615631
And mad amounts of dosh.

>>136606873
you were designed by god to get bombed the fuck up

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>>136615609

>>136598365
I woke have paid good money to fuck her while she was tied up. Great tits

>>136606873
the day will come when we gonna destroy your homeland , your culture and all of your people. the whole world will watch it but not intervene because they know it's justified violence against an aggressor.
Hit us, spit on us commit terror, commit sexual violence, kill our children let the hate grow bigger and bigger. Till we paid enough for our right to exterminate your kind once and for all from the face of this world.
You laugh today, but you will cry tommorow.

>>136598365
4/10 face
10/10 tits.

We all would.

>>136598365
Probably jews

>>136606516
>>136615353
>getting angry at LITERALLY nothing
found the autists

shes a fraud, this is a publicity stunt gone wrong and i hope she has legal repercussions for wasting resources and time that could have helped real victims, dumb bitch.

>>136618540
Nah, she's been enriched ten times over.

>>136598365
The youtube channel that posted the Dutch banker pedo expose claims it is a hoax

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=presdJjppfo

>>136598365
This thing could be a deliberate hoax, a psyop meant to 'cry wolf' about kidnapping rings because the heeb state risks being found out, so they want to make it appear like a casual thing

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>>136598365
>British Model

>>136598365
>b-but british girls are ugly
Yeah, that's right. Our girls are so beautiful they're literally stolen by jealous untermensch slavs.

>>136618394
Man, you Rothschilds are cruel, honorary aryans.

>>136600418
Exactly what I think. She's going to open her legs sooner or later to dindus or sandnigs.

She is probably using this as a stunt to start her porn career, and will say that it doesn't matter anymore as an excuse for turning to it. She wants it so her parents will accept it.

>>136612635
>redit fag gets called out for his redit spacing so much he is too scared to separate paragraphs at all
>still easily recognizable by inane rambling post and beginning it with "so", the calling card of a reditor

And it's a leaf to boot. How truly pathetic

>>136598365
(((kidnapped)))

Check out her press interview, it's hilarious. Even the Sandy Hook parents saw that and thought "jesus bitch, at least put some effort into your larping ffs"

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>>136598365
She's a Page 3 model who shows her tits. Her endgame is to advertise herself to a rich buyer/sugar daddy.

I have no doubt that the trafficking network involved is real, but it really seems like she made up the whole bit about this being against her will. This is reinforced by the fact that the buyers were apparently from the Middle East. It's possible that the group traffics others against their will though.

There's two additional factors here which are probably misrepresented

1) This supposed message given to her intentionally instructs that what happened be distorted to make the gang look good. So details are probably accurate but being spun in a misleading fashion.

2) It was mentioned that her child became an issue, but that's more likely because the buyers wanted a "pure" girl and not because of some internal rule of the gang. Sounds more like the deal just fell through due to bad communication and some Ahmed cancelled when he found out about a child being involved. This would explain why she's immediately back to doing topless shoots (advertising to a new buyer).

>>136626039
I still think she would be a lot more phased by the whole incident.

And if it was the case that she was rejected by the intended buyer then why release a potential witness? Killing her and being done with it would be the modus operandi of any group successful enough to have avoided ANY reporting prior to 2015, as the earlier anon posted.

>>136615353
>the rain man way
welcome to /pol/

>>136598365
Non-Westerners are subhumans.

>>136598365
"Black Death" in Italian translates with "Morte Nera" which is the name used for the Death Star in the Italian dub of Star Wars
So are they a nerd criminal gang of sorts?

www.tagthesponsor.com

instagram models are always sluts anyway

she has a nice bottom

>>136598365
this thread is TL:DR so I'll write this again.

Brits and Polacks in britain are the same level of IQ more or less so...

they were threatening her agent that they will sell her if noone will pay for her.

This stupid blonde brit girl with her Polish boyfriend were trying to trick her agent for the money.

Well... shit, it didnt worked out (shocking!) so he released her, but they tried to keep up the lie so they would avoid the conseqnences of fraud.

Unfortunetly, the case went loud and police started to investigate, and find out, that they were just chilling in Italy together.

And all this hate for us Polish Noblemen, for the pair of idiots.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W3jEG2T6upI

>>136598365
>that face
>model
I don't even have an image to show how disgusted I am.
>>136608069
She probably enjoyed it.

>>136623089
Says the weeb who's teaching English in Japan. Just thought I'd tell you that Japanese women, like western women, don't want some fat, shit smelling neckbeard as a bf. Sorry everyone lied to you.

This entire thread has 0 nudes.

Way to go /pol/

>>136598365
This whole thing reeks. She went to this supposed photo shoot alone? They had her for a week but she swears no one raped her even though she was supposedly naked the whole tume. The supposedly darkest gang on the internet kodnaps her but balks when they learn she has a kid? Dafuq? 10 seconds on her Instagram and you could see she had a kid. Also, she now admits she went shopping for clothes and shoes with her "kidnapper". Oh, and she said she was present at one of the French terror attacks BUT THANK GOD SHE ESCAPED OK.

Fuck this attention whoring liar.

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>>136606873
t. buttblasted sandnigger

>>136598365
>british models

top laff

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>>136598365
by the looks of her she's good and raped by now

>>136598365
It is complete fucking bullshit, she was all posing for cameras and shit like that.

She's some fucking retarded liar.

>>136598878
kek

>>136632257
>>136626039

>>136633074
This.

She's a mixed whore, impure despite being the mother of a 2 year old. This isn't what white women should be

>>136598365
Shunt be a slut.

>>136627954
That's why I'm guessing that it might not have actually been a kidnapping but an arranged sale that she was aware of and went along with. Models sell themselves like this all the time.

Papers are making such a big deal out of her kid, it's possible that her Saudi buyer actually checked out her Instagram and saw that he was about to get bamboozled.

Killing a Page 3 model is just sloppy. Also consider that the group's actual name might be something different than the "Black Death" or whatever. Also the papers say that it's been operating since the early 90's so clearly law enforcement was aware.

>>136636917
>Active since the 90s

Let me know if you find anything on them, sounds like some interesting reading.

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>>136606516
>>136606516

>acknowledges good thing

>calls him annoying for good thing

>discourages doing good thing

>being this autistic