Race, Politics and Conspiracies

File: 1435435827963.jpg (156KB, 1024x768px) Image search: [Google]

156KB, 1024x768px

I've got enough problems. I don't care what you guys do to me when SHTF
>black
>ugly
>fat
>poor
>single mother
>dyslexia
>shitty eyesight
>depressive
>terrible memory
>never had a gf
>never even been looked at in that way by a woman
>only reason I'm not a khv is because I frequent prostitutes just for the comfort of being held by a woman

No matter how I look at it, every sign points towards me being a loser. There is nothing that indicates that I was ever supposed to be successful or happy. For a while I maintained hope and even managed to make friends, but it was only once I made friends that I realised how truly alone I have always been. None of these people would stand by me in a time of crisis if it even slightly inconvenienced them. I can't talk to them about my problems or issues or they'll just stop talking to me because it''s "awkward". I can't confide in anyone or rely on anyone or be loved by anyone. I can't be held in the arms of another person and just let it all out as they assure me that they'll always be there for me. I can't pierce their middle-class, two parents, healthy romantic relationships lifestyles and be like them.

All I have is fantasy and even that is slipping away. I am nothing on the outside and nothing on the inside. A redaction of a human being drifting through the world. I'm the sort of person happy, healthy people like to pretend don't exist so they never have to be confronted with the knowledge that they're fucking lucky to have their cushy, wonderful lives and that there are people out there who don't. The same happy people who talk about how much depression and charity are important to the world and change their Facebook pictures to rainbow flags every time LGBT month comes along only to turn away whenever someone needs their help in a real life scenario because it's to hard.

Fuck them all. I'm alone. Always have been, always will be.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_WUSk6_Conk&index=4&list=PLE7A9AD501C496423

Pride not hate