thanks pol >:(

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> be 23 college grad
> soft dev 70k / yr
> student loans
> still drive college car
> had to replace fender
> two toned blue car now
> see nig driving black challenger in apt complex
> lol wtf how can you affor- wait probs drugs/welfare
> get out of car and start walk back to my place
> nig is walking straight at me
> eyes down at phone, pretend to be scrutinizing email
> he is sizing me up, straight on looking at me
> I'm in business casual
> I swear I can read his mind as he swaggers past me, gives me dirty look
> "fucking white boy oppressin' me w his privilege"
> I barely even glance at him
>almost back at my place
> see 8/10 blonde girl sitting on steps (don't recognize her, why is she on neighbors steps?) with nig in baggy sweats and black t-shirt
> wtf is he doing with her
> think about my ex gf
> she told me she is dating a turkish guy she met at a bar
> why are you telling me this

When I was a kid I didn't like black people because they were stupid, and ugly, and arrogant, and the color of poop. My parents are mortified and tell me to judge them based on their character. Well guess what their character is shitty too.

I've always been hateful. People (even white people) are pretty awful sometimes. But I've never hated entire races. I know their are decent black people, I've worked with some. So I know blanket hate is unreasonable. but fuck me if it isn't most of them.

I want to go back before I found this place. I fucking saw a screenshot of some funny edgy humor on r/Imgoingtohellforthis and curiosity took me here. So much anger and no release. An infinite well you can never drink from.