>tfw I have accepted the black pill please help me. how

There is no turning back after you realized the dark grim truth about this universe.

I smoke weed.

>>132396219
Eventually you'll realize you like watching the world burn

>>132396695
>>132396444
So what do I do?
Just keep working and studying like nothing is wrong? I feel fucking lonely as fuck now. I had no friends before this of course, but now I feel like I'm 1000x more alone and it bothers the fuck out of me more than ever now.

Christ, positive Nihilism or final solution. Your choice, probably your first own choice. Don't fuck it up, or do but don't forget to live stream
>>132396444
>weed
Helps or makes it worse, very risky. I would go for low doses of a weak phenethylamine, if any drug.

>>132396219
Listen to Fash The Nation. So many white pills

And if that fails, this>>132396695
It's like watching a train wreck. You don't want to watch, but you can't look away. Except most here do want to watch.

>>132396830
I am trying to subscribe to positive Nihilism, but my faith and will constantly waivers day to day.

I understand that since everything is meaningless and the universe doesn't care about me, I should value every moment of happiness I have and try to make the best of every second, so I've dedicated most of my day now to just simply learning as much as I can about Science, Religion, Philosophy, and I've started Meditation.

I am taking my college tests in two days, where I will then go on to Community College for a 4 month Welding program, and then I'll get a job doing that... But then what? Will I just exist as a lonely robotic servant?

I'm trying to live every day learning as much as I can. Shit, I've even taken up learning Russian. Been studying Russian for the past fucking 4 weeks. It helps to keep the fucking pain at bay. I just try to ignore it and work so hard I can't think about it, and I exhaust myself until I can fall asleep at night (not without taking like 4 benadryll and a shit ton of melatonin though).

This isn't any way to live.

>>132396695
I liked watching it before, but now I'm fucking tired of this stupid shit. It's the same shit over and over again.
>Something goes wrong, everyone thinks the end is nigh
>It never fucking happens
>Repeat
This has happened with North Korea a fucking million times. I've grown sick of watching. It's like watching a fucking movie with an ending that just drags on and on for so long you just lose interest.

>>132397584
>>132397741
Oh yeah I've also developed massive anxiety.
My mother is an EMT, and she is gone all day for like 4 days a week then gets 4 days off, and I'm just fucking worried as shit she won't come home one day.
That, and I have become grimly aware of every way that something in my day to day life can go horribly wrong and kill me or those around me.
This morning my grandfather drove me up to the gas station to buy a drink, and this nigger driving in some shitty ass truck swerved out infront of us, narrowly hitting us. A cop car started chasing him after.
If we were just a second early, we would have been hit dead on.

This shit is fucking terrible.
Are there any books or something I can read to help alleviate this shit? Is there a way to induce a blue pill? I want to go back.

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>>132397584
>I'm trying to live every day learning as much as I can
You sound like a cool anon 2bh. How about sharing that knowledge you acquired with others and use the positive nihilism to not be afraid on going to talk too someone and listen what that someone has to say, after all you accepted positive nihilism, so you give a fuck if that someone tells you to fuck off or not.
>anxiety
>Paranoia
Get off the downers and maybe get a hard manual job for some 2 months
>back to the blue pill
Nope, no way, you can try another pill, but in the end you will not forget what you saw. Sorry

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>>132398868
some more pills

>>132398868
So far I've compiled a bunch of books on different Scientific subjects and what not. I've read up some books on basic Electronics, Electricity, Atomic Theory, Physics, etc, and now I'm working my way through a Chemistry book. I have a shit load of notebooks to my left full of notes. It fills me with some slight form of satisfaction to see how much I've learned.

As for sharing knowledge, I'm still insecure somewhat about what I know and what I don't know. I'm always afraid of spreading the wrong information or saying the wrong thing, so depending on what the subject is I'll probably just wait until I know more before sharing.

I do kind of want to find some form of an outlet for things I've learned not just in a Scientific sense, but also my thoughts on Religion and Philosophy and Politics. I've thought of starting a Journal for this and just keeping it private.

Anyways, as for talking to someone, biggest problem is I am not entirely sure where I can go to find like minded individuals to speak with. I'm only 19 so I can't go to a bar, and even if I did go to a bar the only thing for me there are a bunch of drunks and bitches. I don't care for that.

Really the only people I talk to are on here, and a few Steam friends who I barely know and don't want to know.

I guess the main problem I am having with the Black Pill so far is just that I'm incredibly lonely. I can handle the anxiety and depression with time I'm sure, but this loneliness is fucking killing me.

>>132399040
>>132398868
Whoops. In my ramblings I didn't complete the first paragraph.

I've compiled a bunch of different books and I have made sure to get only quality books. I suppose maybe I could upload these books somewhere on a dropbox and let other Anons who want to learn download them. That'd be kinda cool. And then let them add things to it as well. Yeah that'd be sweet.

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>>132396219
Take the silicon pill

>>132399473
>I'm always afraid of spreading the wrong information or saying the wrong thing
You can't control what others do with what you tell them, well not 100% and not without experience. Really most people just enjoy hearing stuff they haven't heard yet, or even a new perspective (that's how one redpills). I wouldn't be afraid about that.

About where you find like minded people, who cares that they are like minded, look at the pit out there, it is a permanent fight, no one on here thinks the same, that's the whole fun. Just don't walk into an Antifa protest. Maybe visit your church, a book club in your college.
>I guess the main problem I am having with the Black Pill so far is just that I'm incredibly lonely
Pro tip, even those who party every weekend with 100s of "friends" feel lonely, unless they are shizoid. And you know what, they like being seen; be the one who sees them.

>Compiled books
I hope you are already uploading them :)

>>132400439
>be the one who sees them.
but don't be an /r9k/ orbiter, that's just sad

And as you seem to be Murrican, how about joining a shooting club or going to the range.
Ask >>>/k/ for some tips. They love naked feet btw

>>132400439
Here's what I atleast have as a goal.
I want to learn investing, and eventually I want to build my own house somewhere and then provide my own electricity for this house by building some sort of generator for it. I already have a few ideas of how to do it, but with my beginner's knowledge on Electronics and Physics I'm not sure if they're feasible or not. I basically just wanna make a perpetual motion generator and a series of solar panels with wind mills and all sorts of other power generation methods. Then I want to have either an indoor or outdoor hydroponics area to grow my own food, and I'll then get some water by making a well. Then, I'll just have to figure out how to get internet.

I just wanna live off the grid in my own world left to my own devices. I am hoping Welding will allow me enough currency to begin saving up money to put this plan to action. I also wanna start up my own electronics and chemistry lab out there when I'm up and running.

I'm going to try to save as much money as I possibly can. I'm even living with my mother. (Paying rent of course, I'm not a mooch.)

Anyways,
I guess you're right about controlling people and finding like minded people. I've always sort of been able to see the value in anyone. I feel like someone always has some sort of insight that can be dug out of them and is worth learning from them and talking to them, some more or less than others. Maybe I just need to go take a shot in the dark. Go do something instead of crying about being lonely. Go meet people. Maybe a church would be good, since I'm studying the Bible anyhow.

>>132400721
Oh man speaking of /k/, maybe I can even somehow make my own ammunition for rifles and stuff and hunt game too. That'd be nice.

Maybe I can create something out there too and go sell it at a market or something to make money on the side so I can enjoy some of the outside world's shit every now and then...

Oh and homemade alcohol. Lots of homemade alcohol.

Fuck, and a refinery...


Well atleast I have something to aim for now that I think about it. This will be my goal: to learn as much as I can, and to eventually be self sustaining in every facet, no matter what. And above all to just stay alive. And when the time comes, watch the world burn.

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>>132396219
Literally no reason to turn back anon. Embrace it while you still can!

Nihilism is the ideology of the weak.

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>>132398868
>>132399040

All these pills are DISINFO that tells people to LARP instead of making babies and getting rich.

Only the original REDPILL of real-world power and dominance is real.

Not coincidentally, the original REDPILL is missing from this list.

Fuck you, shill-poster.

>>132401424
Okay.
Then what is the ideology of the strong? I'm rather curious because at this point I can't see anything being better than just accepting the truth and trying to fucking just navigate this mess and keep my own interests at heart. I can't save society or save the world so I'm just going to try to save myself and maybe bring some people with me and help others along the way. Or something.

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>>132400915
>>132401206
>having a goals
well there it is ;^). Just don't exhaust yourself, a plan with detailed and defined steps, else the next crisis waits around the corner. And if your mother has a good stable income, maybe ask for a rent decrease, as you have goals, they cost money, it is indirectly her fault everything is so expansive and she is your mother after all.
>Well atleast I have something to aim for now that I think about it. This will be my goal: to learn as much as I can, and to eventually be self sustaining in every facet, no matter what. And above all to just stay alive. And when the time comes, watch the world burn.
That's the lesson of the black pill
>>132401622
>Taking /pol/ memes too serious,
dude

>>132396219
You are going to die regardless of whatever you do. Might as well serve an illusion of resistance, instead of the inevitability of decay.

With all paths being equal in pointlessness, the path that upholds the illusion for others is the most logical one.

Be a nihilist if you want, but be a productive nihilist.

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>>132396695
This.
>>132396798
You can do anything. Keep working and studying to get enough power to do anything else you want
>>132401424
I am anything but weak. If anything, enduring pain and accepting it as just another part of lfie turned me into this.

>>132401959
dont talk about things you dont understand
in this case, its nihilism

also OP, if you actually "took the black pill" you wouldnt be here asking for help, you would be at peace, the happiest moment in your life finally you no stress and anxiety, just serenity

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>>132401864
> not taking memes seriously
> that flag
Jew detected. Remember, your kind has always pushed the goyim too far, and gotten BTFO. why does it have to be this way?

just let the goyim keep their lunch money, and your kind would rule the universe. but nope, you're too greedy. and history shall repeat itself once again.

i'm a GATE oldfag. and sad experience has taught me that /pol/ is right again.

>>132396798
No such thing as being alone. All the particles within your being are part of a greater ensemble of interacting particles. Your brain is tricking you in thinking you are apart from it all. Let go of attachments by meditating and realize that relationships are toxic and useless.

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>>132402499
>Gate
>Oldfag
Have another meme
btw, I wrote don't take em TOO serious. It's a difference in blindly following the devil into the darkness calling him the bringer in of light and being aware who you are following.

You haven't accepted the black pill.

>>132402479
Nihilism is accepting that all life and all actions are inevitably pointless. Regardless of the heights or lows we choose, the outcome is to be grounded to space-dust no matter the choices in our miserable lives.

I speak with as much force as standard issue words on a computer screen can have.

With every choice being equally pointless, choose the option that is percieved to be "good" simply out of default. With no other values to weight you down, you might as well invest some pointless lipservice to what others hold in high value.

>>132402479
Well what pill is this? Because this sure as hell isn't the Red Pill.
I can't imagine being serene with just sitting there wasting away with a "lol it dont matter" approach.

>>132402724
Hm. True.
Today I actually read since atoms are neither created nor destroyed, that means we're all made up of atoms that are endlessly old. That makes us all ancient. It sounds like an incredibly simple scientific fact that everyone probably already knows but it's pretty neat to me. I'm made up of older than sin atoms that will eventually decompose and become something else. It's a very odd feeling that comes to me when I think about it like that.

I feel much better though now having spoken to people here in this thread. Thank you anons. I will continue browsing the thread until bed here in an hour or two.

>>132403411
You have great insight. No need for a God conjecture if time never existed in the first place and ''creation'' has no actual meaning since the notion of beginning and end of processes becomes arbitrary. Good luck and may you find a sanctuary from the noise.

>>132396219
wait till it hits you with the apathy pill when you realize there is no free will and that itself as a general idea is retarded

>>132396219
Make more money

>>132396219
Black pill is just a start. Than you will realize that you have magical superpowers to edit reality, if you won't fail, and that all these black pill stuff is just irrelevant.

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>>132403008
> implying infintychan is superior
> implying shills aren't instantly called out on /pol/
> implying shariablue didn't lose the meme war
> implying consuming shitty pozzed content is superior to seeing the corrupt heart of reality and planning a good way forward with other jaded high-IQ patriotic oldfags

the memes shall flow, Jew, and your wiles cannot stop them. accept Christ and join the good side.

let me put it in your terms: accepting Christ, or what the nigs call "acting White", means having FIDUCIARY RESPONSIBILITY toward every other member of your race.

This means being honest. only do business that will improve your customer's lives...that, if you were in your customer's shoes, is what you would do as a thoughtful, responsible person.

Only do careers that "make the pie bigger" for everyone.

Don't profit from interest income. Don't profit from ownership of other people's relationships. Don't profit from telling people lies. Don't profit from false-flags. Don't profit from helping people destroy their futures (e.g. with drugs, Tinder, or bad debt).

Do labor (mental or physical) that will benefit your community, and enjoy the community doing the same for you.

good luck m8.

>>132399473
Why you are afraid? If nothing matters, why do you care? Existential death after black pill is empowering and freeing

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>>132396219
Black pill is the last step before finding the white pill. Once day you will realize that no matter how grim things look there is a glimmer of hope, and that even against the greatest odds victory is still attainable.

>>132405007
Because again, nothing matters, so I should try to live life to the fullest and cherish moments that do matter. I'd rather do that than just sit and fucking be an emo all day.

>>132405077
>>132404851
Well that sounds neat I guess.
Any books on this?

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>>132405077
This nigga gets it.

Hope is only truly found in the darkest of times. When there is so much evil, and so many bad things have happened you wonder how the world could ever go back. But you keep fighting, because there is some good in this world, and it's worth fighting for.

>>132405007
Your subjective pain and suffering will be real no matter how you try and rationalize your way out of it.

>>132405489
General occultism and hermeticism. Black pill is just a nigredo, in alchemical terms.

And yes, because nothing matters, you realize that there is nothing to fear. And than you start to see the world through different lenses, and start to transform it, until you start sitting bricks because of syncbronicities and mystical occurrences.

>>132405489
Lord of the Rings

>>132405817
Mystical Occurrences I've always been inclined to believe in. I used to browse /x/ a shit ton and I kind of already believe in some Occultist stuff. I think there is something to Runes in particular that make them stand out as something that could be maybe real. That and Nordic magic is kind of interesting.

I don't believe in Aleister Crowley nonsense though. That shit is just retarded. And he was a memelord edgefag.

>>132406086
Allister Crowley was correct about many thing, but his procedures were extremely degenerate. It's true that destroyed person achieve freedom and supernatural control over the world, but the way he promote to do it, is a shortcut, almost a cheat, that works only for a short period. It's literally satanism.

>>132406086
Oh and Astral Projection, though I am kind of inclined to believe it is just a fancy form of Lucid Dreaming.

>>132405817
>>132406086
>>132406330
I tried magick and it doesn't werk boyos. Sigil, charging, whatever. What do you guys do?

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>>132399040

>>132406496
Oh yeah Sigils. I've always wanted to try those.
I am kind of cautious with occult stuff though on the off chance I mess with something I do not want to mess with.

>>132396219
There is a reightous angle to all the pills that a lot of nerds here cannot handle and it's hard to find it coincides with the evolian dilemma, but I'm not giving it away to faggots who are black pulled for free. Read you pussy Donald immigrants. And not stuff by anyone who gained fame and prominence post 9/11 examples include Gavin McGinness and Lauren southern.

>>132406787
Robert Anton Wilson?

>>132406496
All of it works. Just change your mind, don't be dependant on the outcome much. You may have bee trying to use it for personal gain and we're craving for the results too much. It's won't work this way, because it places solution or manifestation into infinite future, not NOW. You literally have to have a master race mentality to manage magic well, it is Ars Regia, Art of Kings, you must think like a king and do shot like a king in order to make it work properly. Furthermore, it always work, it's just you who desire things incorrectly, in the way you would never get them, that's why you don't get them. Many stupid cucks have this problem, for example there are many left leaning idiots, who hate capitalism, but want to get money via magic. How are you going to get it if you hate it????

>>132407162
>All of it works. Just change your mind, don't be dependant on the outcome much
I tried it. I've done some and forgot them. Burned them etc. It ain't working boyo. I tried even sigilizing meaningless shit that I had no care whether it goes one way or another. Still no go.
What did you do so far that worked?

>>132407337
Khm, all of what you described. Everything worked

>>132407162
Got any magic to give me some extra luck on my college test I take in two days? I've studied my ass off for it but anything to help me get an extra push helps.

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>>132396219
Jordan Peterson helped me escape the black pill. His theology lectures are amazing.

>>132407452
can you be a bit more specific?
i had shit work with intent/visualizing from the first person pov

>>132407501
Watch frater fx. Best magic you can do is to learn and understand a subject well. I'm not joking.

And in general, these magic stuff need enormous mental discipline.

>>132396219
>be me
>completely black pilled
>6'3''
>IQ over 160
I can honestly barely hold myself together with the knowledge that I actually am superior. Without it I would no know what would happen, I would probably just drop to a weaker state.

You need to realize, that classical things associated with black pill like depression and pointless violence, are as pointless as anything else.

The problem with black pill is that there is no "you should do that". Everything is pointless.

So unless you can simply endure the abyss staring at you, and stare back into it, it will break you, it's only a matter of time.

I don't think you have already reached the full depth of black pill, what you describe is only the surface. For example if you still believe in Free Will, or if you assess any value to happiness, then you are far from there.

So just take some antidepressants, and go out with friends, you are just depressed

>>132409364
I don't even really believe in free will all too much. I think we're all just slaves to our own selfish desires.
>"I want that"
You want it not because you want it but because something naturally greedy and selfish inside of you wants it. That's not you being free that's just you being a slave to your own desires. Or something. Very confusing, but I think I understand it the more I think about it.

Also I'm on antidepressants and mood stabilizers. They just don't work.

>>132409857
>"that's just you being a slave to your own desires"
Yea, that is exactly at point.
But now that I have read your previous posts, you case is actually crystal clear.
Just get make some friends, that will fix everything.

>>132410559
I hope that'll fix it all.
The problem though is just at the moment, I have nothing. I have no car, no job, nothing but the GED I earned by working my ass off studying, and soon come day after tomorrow, I'll take my Community College test and hope that I pass that and get started on a Welding class. My mother says she'll start on getting me a car and I can make payments once I get a job.

But that's all like... Months away. I just feel fucking horrible. Are there any places online people go to make friends? I honestly don't know.

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>>132410920

>free gibs from mom
>claims GED was an assload of work
>recognizes good things in future, "But that's all like... Months away."

i wont start medical school until next year (although i already have a bachelors degree) and will not become a licensed physician in any less than 7 years from now

>>132396219
kys

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>>132399040
What's between Gray and Silicon?

>>132411559
Jesus dude.
I can't even imagine being in your place. Man, how did you push yourself through the boring idle moments of life where you just do the same run of the mill shit? That is the other big thing I am afraid of in life. Man, I can't stand the thought of doing the fucking same shit every day as a slave for fucking money. That's why I want to become self sufficient. Jesus Christ man I'd kill myself. Although honestly, I feel like at this point, no matter what position I'm in in life I will eventually Sudoku. It just feels like that'll be the end. Eventually my vices and drive will cease their pushing and I will just stall and wither. I'm just passing my time until the eventual suicide. It's edgy to say it but it's true. The only reason I persist other than experiencing life is just my family would be let down, and at this point I feel like I'd have wasted my potential if I just blow my head off now. I've come too far to give up now. Might as well just see it through until the end. The lord hates a quitter.

>>132410920
>"places online"
Join a club at your college, or just make friends with people from your class.
Also, sport is very good anti-depressive,
join a sports team if you are any good at one.
If not, try martial arts if there is anything like that where you live.
Or just go to the gym.
If you want to make friends, just look for people you might get along with, and then just talk to them.
If your social skills are so bad that you can't do that, then I guess an online community would work. An MMO for example...
But I don't need to tell you, that you want real live friends, not online friends.

>>132396219
Commit suicide

>>132412153
I've got a road bike that I ride every now and then. It's just been too damn hot in Texas recently. And when it's not hot it's fucking raining down piss. Recently I feel like not even riding my bike is helping though.

And yeah I do want real life friends.

I have one real life friend, but he's like fucking 17, and he smokes weed all day and has always tried to push me to smoke weed as well, but I'm just not interested in that shit, and if that's all he's going to do is just push me to do drugs and not actually fucking relax then fuck it.

>>132396219
I took the black pill awhile ago.

>was in depression for months

>woke up one day and said fuck it

>carry on with life

>you aren't dead yet so don't lay down like a bitch

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>>132403008
Who /2010/ here?

>>132412125

i realized i actually enjoy studying medical topics of all kinds when found myself doing so in my free time. i figured i could do this and become a physician to always be interacting with people and learning new interesting things.

even in my late 20's, studying undergrad sciences alongside 18-something SJWs was relatively enjoyable versus the other things i had done in my life, jobs and self-employment included. i'm sure i'll like the next phases too.

>>132412613
If you want friends, just take a course in anything you might like.
There will be people who share the same interests as you.
Talk to them.

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>>132413009
/2010/ reporting in my man

I was so fucking young when i first entered this site yo

>>132412125

if you don't like the options you have it's probably because you know they're bad.

if you want meaning in life, you're probably not going to find it in a script. go take some chances, live on your own, you'll find meaning. i found a lot of satisfaction in the challenge of living in new states and countries, testing the extremes of the ability to support myself.

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>>132413009
/2007/ although I don't know where the fuck my pre-2008 images are anymore.

>>132413733
That's the shit I'd like too.
I mean honestly, I really feel like I have no choice in life but Welding anymore. Before, I thought my only choice was Computer Science, and I have programmed for like 6 years as a hobby, and I just don't want to do it as a fucking career. It depresses me even worse to think of it.

Welding depresses me less so, because I know it's hard work, and I think I might even enjoy it somewhat. It'll atleast pass by fast, and if I play my cards right, my studying Russian will come in handy since there's lots of Welding jobs in the former Soviet Union. I can go travel there.

But fucking God. I just still feel so empty.

But if not Welding, what else is there? Atleast Welding I can be assured I'll have money or whatever. And shit, with money, I'll be able to eventually put my self sustaining plan into action... But then after I do everything I want, what the fuck am I to do? God damn. I'll eventually just end up sitting there in a fucking monument of loneliness and self-defeating self-loathing agony. Might as well just put a bullet in me now.

What a bleak fucking world this is.

>>132396219
The blackpill is the bluepill in disguise, idiot. You have been Jewed

>>132396219
>blacked

Never take the black pill, just get gud at the Bible and be happy

>>132414194

really sounds like you need a perspective change.

check out some places outside of the US. for example, ukraine, easy to get a tourist visa to go there, relatively cheap. you can probably border-hop to the EU and back to auto renew the visa, too. can do online work in ukraine and learn russian at the same time, which is the de facto language. probably able to teach english for money too.

flights are really cheap right now because of cheap gas.

a life's journey begins with a single step

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>>132396219

Why not accept the Nuke Pill, op

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>>132405489
just watch Jordan Peterson, youll feel good after it

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It doesn't bother me. I know how you feel though, it isn't a sense of hopeless or anything of that sort, it's just emptiness.

All of this, it's pointless, it doesn't matter what ideology wins as long as those above remain influential. We're just pawns fighting over grains of sand in a larger, more complex play that we've yet to fully grasp.

I could care less anymore, whatever happens, happens. I only look out for myself now. That's all that matters anymore; me.

>>132414824
That sounds kinda cool too.
What sorts of online work is there in Ukraine? Even though Russia is where Communism had a rape spree, I'd still like to visit it someday. The Russian people seem like a hardy bunch of folk.

They got cool vidya too.

>>132414886
What video in particular should I start with?

>>132401424
Ignorance is bliss.

>>132414937

generally speaking you want to target the big markets with lots of demand. that means the US, typically. you can work in the online US market from anywhere in the world. i'll leave it up to you to find examples.

there's no online work in ukraine, but there are cheaper prices, which is kind of like a source of income in itself. you can get an apartment for half the price that it would be in the US, probably less.

>>132415390
So what if I were to just save up a shit load of money and then go live in Ukraine with all my USD? Is that a good idea?

>>132402009
You forget that friends will pop out and they won't judge you

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>>132396219
Get revenge on the people you hate
Speaking from experience here, it's the only way out

>>132412125
I relate to what you posted. I myself see suicide as something that's almost set in stone for me so to speak, in that it feels like im destined to commit suicide. There is no purpose, reason or meaning to this life. No respite nor peace. These anons telling you just do this or just do that, or "bruh git sum friends" have absolutely no idea what you or i have come to understand. These people are lucky individuals. Try not to pull them into this with us.

On the other hand, opiates are something that help me get through the shitty motion of life. You should try them sometime.

sure it's one way to do things.

you could also try some kinds of online incomes, wait till you're reasonably satisfied with how one works, then just go, and continue doing them while out of the country. you can get a 'virtual mailbox' stateside that will scan mail for you as you get it that you can read online, usually theyre 10-20 bucks a month. i recommend opening bank accounts before you leave the country. if you go small business route, open an llc and its bank account first before you leave, if you can.

ukraine's not the only place. india has a 6 month renewable visa. southeast asia has many easy tourist visa options as well. belize too. even though you receive income from the US, you don't need a work visa, just a normal tourist visa.

>>132415835
Thanks Timmy

>>132414194
Im a construction worker and i can tell you right now, no it does not get better. You know what i do after i get off work? I think to myself "what now? What the fuck am i suppose to do? Nothing matters." Then being depressed as fuck i go home and either get drunk or high as fuck, pass out, wake up and go to work again.

Life sucks and then you die.

>>132415655

i should point out that i've never gone the "save up a shitton of money" route, usually i have low bank account balances when I move. it's motivational. although, i prefer moving with at least a grand or two and having an analysis of likely expenses. to get an idea of the cost of living i just look at numbeo. to find an apartment, i search the internet in the local language, usually there's 1 or 2 big peer to peer apartment sites. find a cheap hotel for when you don't have an apartment with kayak.com or booking.com. use kayak and google flights for flights. rome2rio for strange transportation methods. google maps for point A to point B. skype for calling the US.

>>132416145
I mean at this point, its only a matter of just experiencing some of the things I want to experience before dying. Even then I still feel the call to death growing stronger with each passing moment. Even now I lay in bed and wish I will not wake up. Shit sucks. Grandpa has a .22LR in the garage but I dont think its a strong enough caliber to do me in, plus my mom will be devastated. Gott keep fighting the fight I guess.

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>>132417068
Ya same here anon. I know my dad would be devastated if i killed myself. But a few weeks ago i had my rifle pressed against my forehead but then i thought about what my dad would find, my head half blown off with brain matter on my walls. Made me feel like shit, knowing id make him see me (for the last time) like that. Idk what the fuck im gonna do when he dies tho. But then again i slip further and further into not giving a fuck either way day by day and the drugs and alcohol arent helping as much as i wish.

>>132396219
Whats the black pill exactly? I thought it was knowing that the world is controlled by a jewish luceferian elite that fucks/cannibalises/kills children?

>>132414194
>>132416858
Welder here. The time passes way better than a desk job but the money isn't half as good as the Mike Rowe memes would have you believe. About to be an apprentice boilermaker where I'll at least have the possibility of reaching six figures. You aren't getting out of your hole through wagecuckery. You need to look towards something bigger than yourself. Something you can at least die in the name of. If you don't mind death then you might as well strive for something in life.

>>132405489
That's depression. Probably you are waiting to get a clear idea of what you want. That won't happen. Just try to enjoy the day.

Also, a lot of friends just went to religions and sects, but I think that's more escapism.

Go to the shrink, do the job, is a lot of work and time, but in the end you'll find yourself. And you know what? Anything that bothers now, (and a lot of fellow autistic /pol/acks) just doesn't matter, because the next day you'll be able to do what makes you happy, or have to work.

Make yourself the Übermensch.

>>132396219
You need to reach the omni pill.
That is the final pill can only be obtained after black pill.

The omni pill is s "true enlightenment" or to become one of the "enlightened ones"
. Hindus knew about it.

Good luck.

>>132417440
I have thought of calling the police right before killing myself so they can come get the body. They see fucked up shit all the time whats one more thing?

>>132417882
God damn it I was hoping someone would not come and destroy my pipe dream. Fuck. Fuck. God damn it. There is NO money in Welding then? Is it atleast enough to live alone? Damn.

>>132416145
>opiates

never turns out well

>>132417068
>>132417440

death is not the change in your life you're looking for. you're just looking for a change. make a plan to make that change then execute it, it will be fun. protip: if it's the kind of plan that the media hypes up... it might just be hype

i know you probably feel tied down to your current life. figure out how to release those ties and make it happen. stay in contact with your friends and family as you see fit, though.

>>132409364
You get used to it. But that could be pretty dangerous if you get used to be broken by the abyss.
The thing is he have to catch it quickly.

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>>132418183
this

>>132417882
Quite frankly even if i had all the money in the world i still have no doubt id be miserable. For many people money really does by happiness, and i envy them greatly.

>>132419088
Buy* fuck me

>>132418216
>. There is NO money in Welding then? Is it atleast enough to live alone? Damn.

even $10/hour jobs in america will let you live alone, you just have to make a lot of sacrifices. the more you make the less sacrifices.

even entry level welding should get you enough of a salary to get your head back on your shoulders right.

one more thing; try cutting out social media if you haven't already. it's always been a throbbing pot of crazy in my experience. strange times when 4chan is more sane than normiebook

>>132398219
>I want to go back.
Try some Buddhism

>>132401206
Welcome home, anon.

What's the black pill exactly, seen the term thrown around a bit recently just thought it was some ironic kangz bollocks.

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>>132396219
Accept anime into your life.

>>132419183
I never bought into it in first place. But as for welding, I guess I am fine with $10 an hour. I am assuming the money will come in the more I work. Only job I have had is $9 working at whataburger. Hopefully I can find good job in Texas for Welding. I was planning on calling up local businesses and businesses an hour and 30 minutes away asking if they would like a Welder, and if they could check me out by having me drive out there and work for them for a day for free or something. You know, just network. Maybe I can land a job if I am lucky.

But $10 an hour I would be fine with if I can just get an apartment and afford internet and Ramen. Fuck everything else.

I am still planning on living with my folks for a while so I can stock pile money that way too and invest maybe. I dunno.

>>132411559
Shit takes time

>>132396798
In the exact same headspace, working, isolated and lonely. want to become friends?

>>132419019
TFW you are one with the abyss.
http://www.gutenberg.org/files/2680/2680-h/2680-h.htm

>>132415079
The biblical series are a great series to run through, they're on-going so there will be more coming out weekly. I'm really digging them, he just discusses the metaphysics of the biblical stories and suggests what they could mean and how they relate to the struggles of man no matter the millennia.
His maps of meaning lectures from this year are also pretty great.

Peterson has definitely helped me get out of the nihilism feedback loop I've been in for the past year. However, once you take the black pill you can't go back unfortunately; but you can embrace it and use it to become a better you, in fact, it's probably the first stepping stone.

I'd also suggest checking out Louis Rossman on youtube, he's some NY laptop repair guy that streams him repairing motherboards but also uploads some pretty fucking good rants, he organizes them into playlists on youtube so you can only watch those if you want. He's pretty straight-forward and a much easier listen than Peterson. He's not a genius but he's doing life better than most people imo.

>>132396219

Absurdism is solace for the blackpilled.

Always remember that it's more about what you think of during this descent.

>>132419474
existential nihilism more or less. With a healthy dose of suicidal thoughts.

>>132396798
You are here forever. And you have us :^)

>>132396219
Same, now I just want a cause to die for.

>>132396695
So a degenerate?

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>>132420786
Too bad you're never gonna find it.

>>132420786
>>132421134
the white race my dudes :^)

>>132396219
Stop caring. If you die, whatever. Stop worrying about petty shit, and do whatever makes you happy.

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>>132420786
>blackilled
>anarcho-capitalist

>>132396444
digits confirm that smoking weed and fucking chubby sluts is the only way to cope

>>132420137
Nice, but where is the abyss?
Yes I'm ignorant about him.
>>132414194
Make it a goal.
You'll always have a choice, as you chose Welding over Programming. Also you have the choice of doing nothing and shit. But at least you prefer welding.
Being slave of your desires is a good thing, if you have no desires you are dead, but at least you want something, if not you wouldn't have started this thread.
Just let fly your imagination. It's difficult at first but once you get it nothing can stop it. Now making a plan is the next step, but you don't have to worry for it right now, you have one.
In the meantime, go shopping, go to the park, complain about the heat, go to the movies. You don't need anyone but you to make that stuff.
Also Sleep.

>>132422280
Goodnight and thank you all.

>>132421338
If it were only worth saving at this point. I feel like my countries going, it's barley salvageable as is. I know some on this board say it's only a matter of time until RWDS group and reform europa. But until more little girls get blown up at concerts and civilians stabbed nothing is going to change. And if it takes that for a nation to wake up is it actually worth preserving? I'd rather it be erased and begun again.

Look at Germany for example, in the late 20's they were on the brink of collapse, that spurred political extremism which consequentially led to war. Now 80 years later the population is guilt tripped into ethnic replacement (mostly) because it's ashamed of it's heritage. Europe needs a huge resurgence in traditional values/culture to be worth saving otherwise we're going to be going down this path again in 2 generations if we do fix ourselves through war.

>>132422457
Night buddy, just remember; if you do kill yourself, try not to leave a mess.

>>132419647

intro welding is probably closer to $12-15 in texas

it used to be marginally easier as an independent in your 20's until obamacare made the millenials pay 2-4x more for their health insurance so that boomers could get a reduction in theirs.

at 12-15$/hour with a decent deposit and 1-2 years of work history and an FHA loan you can probably get a mortgage, but then you're planted, so just make sure that's what you really want. apartments are faster, but in the US that almost always means signing a one-sided lease with a landlord. i've had to pay a 2 month breakage fee before, current apartment i'm at the fee is just 1/2 of one month of rent, should i need to break contract before the end of the lease. overseas in many countries there's often no breakage fee at all.

Welcome to the darkest effect of the red pill, anon.

>>132398868
Where is black pill and BBC vernacular pill?

>>132398219
Try Blaise Pascal's ''Penseės'' - see if it works for you, itworked for so many and is considered a must read part of French education. Atleast so I have heard.


Other guess would be Albert Camus ''Myth of Sisyphus''

>>132421967
The only thing that keeps me in the game is muh principles.

>>132422457
You're welcome, and thank you for giving us proof that /pol/ still could be saved.
>>132416875
This /trv/ could give you advice on the subject also.