>He that loveth his life shall lose it; and he that hateth his life in this world, keepeth it unto life eternal.
Only by despising yourself, and purging yourself of weakness with pain and suffering, will you ever become somebody who others can count on.
Self-love leads to excuse making.
Kill yourself, and be reborn.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oIrT1eHs1b0