I feel deeply unfulfilled. I feel that I have been forced to make the "right" decision my entire life, always aware of the future and consequences. As I hear stories from friends and even relatives, about reckless youth and stupid mistakes, I wish that I could for once turn off the reason orinted part of my brain and take a stupid risk. I've told that the way I live is ultimately the best, that it would lead to best outcome but all I feel is blandness and the promise of more blandness. I feel like Cassandra.
>>74484128
>I feel that I have been forced to make the "right" decision my entire life
There's yer problem in my estimation anon. No one held a gun to your head. You made the safe decision because you thought it was better than the others - "stupid risks", "recklessness", etc. Don't lie to yourself.
Honestly, what you probably need is more testosterone. Eat brazil nuts, celery, white button mushrooms and lots of saturated fat. Expose your genitals to the sun. Do heavy weight compound lifting exercise a couple times a week. Listen to Meshuggah.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rTPiwNVYmIs
>>74484128
>>74484183
Also, the lyrics are relevant to your situation OP.
Everything's fine but nothing seems right
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5kubSsm5l6k
Just listen to Real Estate
>>74484128
SIN, GODDAMNIT
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7n1CN7HnTDY
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