Music for depression and/or self loathing. Help me over the edge, /mu/
if it has to do with a relationship
>>72378993
do it
>>72379068
Usually does, at least a little bit.
>>72379120
Thx bb. I kind of lost track of this dude well before this was released.
>>72379215
weren't you like 10 when that was reliesed?
>>72378993
Listened to this on repeat while reading Anna Karenina a few years back. Fuck me, how does it have such a duality of beauty and utter despair?
What's up OP?
Brave Little Abacus's Discomfort is an essential everyone hates me-core album
A new favorite.
>>72379281
Haha, yeah. Not 10, but you're right, it was earlier than I realized. I guess I just didn't make it that far into his discography.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K02aiv7jrEs
>>72379348
Well, I was already out of college and in the "real world" when Dear God I Hate Myself was released. It feels like an oldie to me, and it came out in my adult life.
>>72379336
Excellent call, that's what's up.
>>72379346
Surprisingly decent, considering I don't generally get into emo. Thanks.
>>72379402
Very nice, I've never heard of them. Thanks.
>>72379420
At this point it is an oldie. I just missed it. I got into him around the time that album was released, and liked him a lot (still do), but I guess I didn't dig it enough to listen to everything he had made at the time, which is a shame. I'll correct that.
>>72379402
>>72379551
Still listening to this, and wondering why the fuck I haven't heard of it before. They seemingly don't even have a page on discogs.com, which is unusual even for relatively unknown artists. Anyway, it's really fucking good. Thanks again.
>>72379551
>>72379641
yall are welcome bros, found it in that thread where they were making a chart for power electronics and harsh noise the "endurance chart" it got taken off but holy shit this hit me like a ton of bricks when i first heard it
>>72378993
Listen to the latest touche amore album. Get better soon anon.
Carissa's wierd - songs about leaving
Listen to the song So you wanna be a superhero
That should send you over the edge
https://youtu.be/12RnKyivaVc
Pornography by The Cure is some heavy shit
Try this
you can make it
Do it OP
Wait so is it a general self-loathing over a girl? That way I know what to recommend.
>>72378993
isnt anything - MBV
or listen to noise rock if you want to give yourself a break from the negative self talk you bludgeon yourself with... i recommend "sign of four" by metheny/bailey/bendian/wertico
records of my voice
https://youtu.be/Ea6gZmli16w
>>72378993
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=03yOgbABX8w
Wow.
Great thread.
/mu/core and other associated albums anyone who's lurked for over a week has already listened too.
Just a great, great thread.
>>72384282
Well that's the thing about depression and/or self loathing, it tends to limit you, make you less imaginative, creative, interesting etc so you just repeat the same old routines and memes. Why would you want more of that shit, why would you want to be pushed closer to the edge? If you can't climb down there yourself you don't deserve to be there. I suggest going and taking a listen in the Bossa/Samba thread and cheering the fuck up you wastrel.
I'm currently listening to this
only for the truly masochistic
>>72384342
Unless everyone that's posted a recommendation ITT is depressed and/or hates themselves what you just said is of complete irrelevance.
And that's clearly not the case, because people who were depressed wouldn't have the energy and motivation to post a recommendation, and people who hated themselves wouldn't hold their opinion in high-enough esteem to even post it.
So, basically, you're full of shit, and are trying to excuse the pedestrian, trash fucking recommendations that litter this thread, and you should stop.
Seriously. Just stop.
Don't try to defend this shit-stain of a thread any further. I'm already a wrathful person, and I already don't like you.
Just stop.
>>72384411
Depression doesn't work like that as I am sure you know, that is why it is so easy to goad you in to an angry response. Just calm down and listen to bossa you idiot.
>>72384282
I don't think you belong here
>>72384451
Depression is defined by an absence of feeling and/or motivation. It objectively does work like that.
Also, you didn't goad me into doing anything. I didn't make this thread, you dumb shit. As if I'd let some bullshit failed romance or miscellaneous teenage trauma hinder me. I'm beyond that, beyond your bullshit, and beyond you.
>>72384460
The only thing I shouldn't be doing is responding to such a lazy, bullshit post. I should certainly not be rewarding whitenoise shit-stains like you with a reply, but I'm angry and this board is beyond saving, so what's the harm.
>tfw cheated on my girlfriend (made out with someone else not sex)
>told her and shes incredibly upset
>i feel very guilty
i cant even wrap my head around this. i never thought i could do something like that.
>>72384535
That's ok, let it all out, you're among friends here.
>>72384553
Don't fucking patronize me.
You people are beyond a shadow of a doubt not my friends. The only reason I'm talking to you, the only reason I'd EVER talk to you, is to tell you how much of an insufferable SHIT you are.
That is LITERALLY the full extent of my interest in your existence. You couldn't pay me to give a shit about you beyond berating you at every conceivable instance.
I say all of this in order to make one, simple thing crystal fucking clear: Neither you, nor ANYONE ELSE HERE, is my friend.
If you say that you're my friend beyond this point, just know that I know that you're full of shit and I will NOT respond.
I REPEAT:
BEYOND THIS MOMENT, IF YOU RESPOND TO ANY OF MY POSTS CALLING ME "FRIEND" OR SOMETHING SIMILAR, I WILL KNOW THAT YOU'RE FULL OF SHIT AND HAVE NO INTEREST IN THIS THREAD BEYOND MAKING ME MAD AND I WILL IGNORE YOU.
>>72384613
relax love
>>72384613
someone needs a hug
>>72384613
hmmm where have i seen this autism before?
>>72384613
Well I won't call you friend if you take against it so sweetie but I will repeat my prescription for bossa. It's a little quiet though you might have to turn it up so you can hear it over your furious capslocking.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BSjJN10i4Ls
>>72378993
The most seriously suicidal people don't talk about doing it. Like my cousin who after having her kid a few years back, ran out in front of the high speed Amtrak here in Connecticut. That's wanting to die, and doing it. And it sucks for everyone else. Don't treat people in this thread like shit who try to say nice things to you or actually care. If you're in the USA too though here's a number you can call. 8002738255
>>72384613
holy fucking shit my friend
>>72384546
Sorry dude. This is a terrible feel
>>72384703
I told you I didn't make this thread.
I told you I don't identify as "depressed."
Whatever reason you have for responding to this point, I can't reasonably attribute it to anything beyond stubbornness because an intelligent person would have realized by now that recommending me something is an exercise in effectual nothingness within an eternal ether.
Anyway, I'm done with you.
>>72384724
yea its weird. feel like i dont know myself. not something i ever thought i would do and cant wrap my head around how or why it happened. made myself feel awful. made my girlfriend feel worse.
Cliche sad tunes, but I loved this album. Got me through freshman year at uni
it working
>>72384783
been in the same situation. I don't understand what I even do anymore
ladz if we can put aside the usual unnecessary/ infantile namecalling a sec, it is true that these threads do show a fundamental misunderstanding of depression.
i don't think i'm just speaking for myself when i say that if you're genuinely clinically depressed then all music is 'for' depression. doesn't matter if you're listening to navel-gazing slowcore, post-rock, jazz, hip-hop, funk, soul, or even the most mindless pop or EDM. it's all just a distraction from having to face the real world or confront your problems in any meaningful way. music is an escape. listening to music is an escape, collecting music is an escape, reading about music is an escape. i'm sure plenty of well-adjusted people like Low and Carissa's Wierd - similarly there will be huge swathes of depressed peeps who love Taylor Swift
tl;dr the habit an individual forms around consuming music is a much better indicator of any psychological disorders than the kind of music they listen to.
this is all you need my man
>>72384546
i just did the same thing but neither me nor gf think its a big deal cuz i was drunk plus its a long distance relationship so... a boy gets lonely sometimes...
but also >>72384783 i know how you feel when you say you feel like you dont know yourself cuz this wasnt even the first time i've cheated. The first time i cheated it was a huge deal and i had an identity crisis to some degree. but humans are irrational and impulsive so what can you do.
>>72384886
>i just did the same thing but neither me nor gf think its a big deal cuz i was drunk plus its a long distance relationship so... a boy gets lonely sometimes...
i was drunk at a party at my own house. my girlfriend was there in my bed sleeping.... i wasnt lonely. i love her and am happy in out relationship. i dont know why i did it. a sellfish impulse.
>>72384851
I think a lot of people are trying to find stuff that they can empathize with because of their situations I guess.
>>72384750
You're an insufferable cunt. This thread is supposed to be calm and healing and as far as I can tell you're the most unhealthy thing about this thread.
>>72384613
get off my fucking board holy shit
i don't even care if you're an oldfag, your time here is over
>>72385103
of course, and it's great that people can find that. i just wonder how much of what people talk about in these threads is melancholia rather than depression. sadness - especially sadness with valid cause (often people mention broken relationships or lost family/ friends) is very different from depression, which as one of the more hostile shitposters itt correctly pointed out is the absence of feeling and motivation at all.
i dunno, the music i feel like listening to rarely correlates in any readily apparent way with my state of mind. now you could say that makes me an outlier and there must be something wrong with my brain chemistry and uh... yeah. isn't that kind of the point?
>>72384613
yo chill bruh
>>72385663
Lmao
>>72378993
80's U2 ballads and downbeat songs are where it's at. I'm 100% not shitposting.
https://youtu.be/5bF-8cCCNoY
Listen to the haunting beauty of them, and think of the pervasive sense of wistfulness and longing that they show for a simple, innocent happiness that long since passed you by and isn't ever coming back.
>>72385439
You're mistaken.
This thread is for recommending music. It's not your therapy session. This thread isn't for alleviating whatever bullshit affliction and trauma you've convinced yourself you suffer from and warrants constant melodramatic whining.
>>72385491
Your board?
YOUR board?
HA
HAHAHA
Oh God you're fucking cute.
This is my board. It's my home. You're just a wayward migrant from some tumblr off-shot trying to supplant your bullshit, ill-conceived desire to appear counter-culture and edgy.
Jesus. I can't believe I even wasted time responding to you two shits. You're not even SAYING anything.
>>72385720
Your contribution is nothing but nasty, black, negative bullshit. What are you trying to achieve exactly? I think our responses are exactly what you want, to feel like you're triggering a reaction. As some retard once said, "I'm done with you."
>>72385775
My contribution is an observation. It is a consequence of what was posted before me.
If you're angry that my observation was scathing disapproval, share that discontent with the people that littered this thread with pedestrian bullshit that everyone on this board has already listened to.
You are clearly narcissistic as fuck to assume that my ultimate intent ITT was to make YOU mad. I don't give a FUCK about you. Not about how I make you feel, not about your circumstance, not about a SINGLE, GODDAMN THING.
I'm posting angrily because this thread made me angry.
>>72385831
>Angered by thread
>Stay to make all others miserable, trying so hard to do so, meanwhile insisting you don't care about what we think
Sounds legit.
I just love spiteful pieces of shit.
>>72384613
what kinda pasta is this
>>72385775
>nasty, black, negative bullshit
anon, do you need reminding where you are?
This album really helps me go through hard times.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yAf01cef70U
Also XO is probably his most healing album
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=elWEQzv5sXY
>>72386111
Ok this made me laugh. You're right.
John Prine - s/t
PRETTY GOOD, NOT BAD, I CAN'T COMPLAIN, 'CAUSE ACTUALLY EVERYTHING IS JUST ABOUT THE SAME
>>72384613
holy fucking shit dude
>>72384613
https://gdsenn.bandcamp.com/releases
There you go.
I'm depressed, AMA
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NIqQ01RduIw
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LkmUn0WUgFE
i can't say for the whole EP, but this did it for me
>>72384613
fucking lmao
Jesus christ, this is the edgiest fucking thread i've seen here in ages.
The funniest thing is - he's unironnicaly posting this shit.
Okay, friend, try some silencer. It's pretty depressing.
>>72384613
>>72384546
>told her
>>72386804
that fucking cover, man ...
>>72378993
When is dan going to re record this instead of spending all of his time being bald and gay
>>72387233
she would have found out. people who know all involved saw. i would have felt incredibly guilty. sure i guess internalizing my own guilt and inflicting the entirity of the pain on myself would be ok rather than hurting her with the information. i feel fucking awful about it.
>>72387281
>re record
the poor sound quality adds to it though
does anyone itt have any experience with any kind of self-medication
so sick of useless ssri's & nhs 'therapy'
>>72385873
I'm not staying to make others miserable. I'm staying because I expect responses like this from shits like you and I take it upon myself to tell you how retarded and wrong you are.
I don't give a fuck about how you feel, narcissistic shit.
>>72384613
U N T Y
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>>72387586
Self medication is usually the worst thing possible, especially in regards to mental illness. If you are not mentally competent to deal with society what makes you think you will be competent enough to judge your moods accurately and objectively.
>>72387586
i self medicate with marijuana, works for me
>>72384546
try cheating on her and feel that feel next time
>>72384282
>Bashes everyone else's recs for being pedestrian
>Doesn't recommend anything new or different
What did he mean by this?
>>72378993
Some /v/ for you.
https://youtu.be/9zwg8KrjwNY
I don't tend to listen to music like this actively, but here's a I couldn't stop listening to while depressed, even though it wound up giving me a long lasting anxiety.
https://youtu.be/RGIbR5jdA58
Usually I prefer comfy sad songs, though.
https://youtu.be/ZNrexCxTOv4
Most of the Modest Mouse's The Moon and Antarctica is pretty edgy, but Life Like Weeds has always been kind of soothing for me.
>>72384684
why do people think he's wrong?
>>72387873
Firstly, I don't want to be the only person giving decent recommendations.
Secondly, anyone that is content and/or pleased with such pedestrian "recommendations" hasn't explored music with any sort of depth or grandeur for more than a month and quite frankly doesn't fucking deserve the spoils of years' labor finding obscure releases.
You don't.
I'm not going to fast-track you from basic-bitch to my level just because you ask. You work and demonstrate that you've genuine fucking interest in this shit and then I'll give you some recommendations.
>>72387940
Lmao dude I didn't even come to this thread to get recs, I don't care. I'm just saying you could've posted at least one amazing rec before calling everyone out. Now you look like a hypocrite tbqh.
>>72387940
It's a scab you just can't stop picking at isn't it.
>years' labor
You should really reread this >>72384851 and consider just what your labor is worth to you or anyone else.
>>72384613
damn nigga i didn't expect to see anyone go nuclear in a music recommendation thread
>>72387634
You realize everyone here is laughing at you, right? Nobody is going to care if you waste your precious time to tell them that they're a retard for listening to crappy music. You ain't shit, my friend.
Have you ever tried Dandelion Hands?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qZ_WVsP9RkE
>>72388140
I don't care if who's laughing at me.
Any crywank album, but this is my favourite
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8CnEaPgNo4w
>>72384613
thanks for the pasta ya goddamn maniac
>>72388008
I'm fine being a hypocrite in this instance. This thread doesn't deserve anything but my condemnation and my hypocrisy. This thread doesn't deserve anything good. This thread is shit. It's just shit.
>>72378993
Nine Inch Nails' entire discography
>>72387586
yeah and now I'm a drug addict with more issues than I had before I started self medicating with marijuana progressing through alcohol and hard drugs. don't do it, it just makes things worse.
>>72388532
Don't listen to this guy, he has no spine. Self medicating can help but it can also do you worse
>>72387586
Dude, don't
I drink way too fucking much and it's ruining my life, cause i'm running out of money and constantly hung over. Every paycheck goes to vodka, i'm on day for of a bender
Maybe change your script to Lexapro, that shit works wonders better than Zoloft or Prozac
>>72387586
>>72388620
not that guy but marijuana helped me quite alot once i was able to be responsible and use it like a medication and not like a dumbfuck pothead.
another option is MDMA under a safe setting.
it's important to view them as floaties to keep you afloat while you make it back to shore and not as something that will take you back to the shore.
reality is you probably lack in either your work/relationships area of your life. drugs won't fix that but it can make it more bearable while you try to fix it.
>>72388754
>not that guy but marijuana helped me quite alot once i was able to be responsible and use it like a medication and not like a dumbfuck pothead.
and how exactly do you do this? how much would you smoke and how often? i've only ever smoked a few times recreationally and obviously i went completely ott every time. i am curious about the idea of self medicating though
also as someone who's insanely socially repressed and hasn't really felt any emotion for the past 7-8 years, I'm kind of fascinated by mdma. from what i understand about it, it does seem like an instant temporary fix for basically every psychological problem i have. literally no idea how to get hold of it though, far too sheltered and terrified of other people
>>72387586
Yes, alcohol works fine for me. I'm a student so nobody cares if i'm drunk or have a hangover.
Derek and the dominos - layla and asociated love songs - it's about breakup/unhappy in love, just listen to it it's the best album
This got me through some tuff times listen to the whole thing
https://soundcloud.com/abzion/sets/saga-spine-vol-3
>>72388532
>>72388630
>>72388958
>alcohol
why would you pick the objectively shittest tier drug
literally anything else would be better, especially for a sufferer of depression. even becoming a heroin junkie would at least give you some pleasure before dying
>>72388435
Why do you care so much about the quality of one thread on a Chinese basket weaving board?
This and Giles Corey are what I listen to when I'm feeling extra suicidal. And maybe I'll throw on Frigid Stars by Codeine
>>72385720
>>72380547
seconding
adding in her solo album "I'm not as Good at it as You"
>>72380547
That song is amazing. I like the album plenty but that song is by far the best.
The Downward Spiral
>>72389564
I really love opiates and benzos, but they are fucking expensive in europe. A bottle of vodka costs 5€. No other drug is as cheap and easy to get as alcohol.
>>72384613
it's ok friend, idk where you live but go talk to Samaritans
>>72387586
marijuana and nothing else, also a therapist as quick as possible
avoid alcohol
>>72384546
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9sBQYSYH0IQ
>>72384613
i'll be your friend unty
>>72389564
Before i drank i did Meth and by good did it give me the worst feeling when i was coming down desu, alcohol is more bearable than the dystopia, paranoia and lethargic feelings it give you after the high
So i drink now
>>72390352
im drunk as fuck so alot of typos, excuse them
>>72384613
>>72388936
2 joints a week, religiously. one one wednesday, one on sat/ sun
i have been collecting depressive / melancholic songs for some time now, here is the playlist:
https://open.spotify.com/user/11179443551/playlist/5Cfz1tWWzbv2LDefEMzll4
>>72391169
solid list, i'll listen for a while
Gregor Samsa 55 12
>>72384613
find your chill love
>>72384613
holy fucking shit friend
>>72385103
Yeah. Music can make you feel less alone when it feels like no one you know understands what you're going through. When your ability and desire to connect with others deteriorates music can help.
>>72385720
>>72385831
>>72387940
>he hasn't left my board yet
I don't know where else to post this but it's driving me mad.
In Dan And Tim, Reunited By Fate, all the online lyrics say the line is "I’m calling and I’m calling like no one ever did," but all I can hear is "calling me home like no one ever did", which makes far more sense in the context of the song.
But that can't be right because there doesn't appear to be anyone else on the Internet who thinks this. The fuck, brain
>>72384804
So you're a sophomore at Uni? That came out in 2016.
>>72378993
Ironically, I listen to it so I can cope with my depression.
You'll be surprised how powerful accepting it is.
>>72392836
Burial Society is my pick-me-up song desu
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EpR64j8qskM
>>72384613
Even if we are not friends, we should all help each other, some people on /mu/ are really nice, you shouldnt be spreaing this much negativity
How bout depressive vaporwave?
>>72394617
Just slow down deathconsciousness
>>72384613
do you think this friend over here has killed himself yet
>>72379336
Listening to this will make you want to kill yourself.
The guy in the band actually committed suicide too.
>>72384613
holy fucking shit friend
>>72384613
>>72395201
do you have any kind of source? all i could find was that he had a hand injury somehow died, it never mentioned how.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h3Fl0Ufb8NA
>>72384613
sure thing friendo
>>72384613
now this is autism
>>72378993
>>72378993
Man where the fuck was this thread a few weeks ago when I was ready to blow my brains out? Now I'm on meds and depressing music just doesn't do it for me. Anyways, good luck out there OP.
>>72396452
>meds stopped you from killing yourself
t. high schooler
makes you feel like a hero
https://youtu.be/nOr0na6mKJQ
>>72396452
>when I was ready to blow my brains out
You apparently weren't.
sadcore artists 4 u, OP
teen suicide
the mountain goats
pat the bunny
andrew jackson jihad
elliott smith
nick drake
codeine
the velvet underground
slint
jeffrey lewis
daniel johnston
>>72396452
you still can do it, faggot
>>72384613
unty is that you?
>>72397801
Teen Suicide sucks
go back to Tumblr
>>72399395
Fuck off, cunt
>>72392075
if I remember correctly they didnt released a booklet with The Unnatural World as they did with Deathconsciousness which is pretty sad desu because you can't make out all the lyrics
>>72394249
thats from The Unnatural World and this is literally the Deathconsciousness thread gtfo my board m8
>>72401396
I want to ask Dan. How do I ask Dan.
>>72396004
Weather Systems was also fking sad
>>72401412
Facebook. For real though. ELHR facebook page.
>>72401462
I've actually become friends/pen-pals with some of my favourite musicians through Facebook. Just didn't imagine they would be active on it, forgetting that there's an entire label to run. Thanks.
>>72384613
i love u2
>tfw got over 2 year depression a few months ago by cross dressing
>>72399395
haunt me haunt me haunt me
ooooooo
>>72384613
Friend
>>72384613
it's okay, friend