>current song
>current feel
Thinking about her
>>71497672
>my ex is the only girl that has ever said to me that I'm attractive and I'll never know that feeling again
>Beach Boys - Surf's Up
I need to go to sleep
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rLFxMXlZYbo
>tfw I barely see her anymore and she gives half ass kisses
>feel overwhelmed at the mounting evidence of elite paedo rings and media blackout
>All I have in the fridge is ice cream but it's 10AM
>I'm Deranged - David Bowie
This one time I was walking behind a blind dude on some backroad and it started raining really hard, he broke out singing "I Can See Clearly Now by Jimmy Cliff" and I was the only one there to witness
>Suf - All of Me Wants All of You
>sad, autistic, no gf
Mark Hollis - The Gift
tfw girl you've been crushing on for a while and thought liked you has in fact been dating a guy (friend) for two months already, but still wants to keep contact
what should I do lads? she was a close friend (see her almost everyday) and the whole situation is making me really sad, this shit happened to me before as well in high school
>>71499536
>I'm a delusional orbiter
What are the chances this happens twice? She liked you but OH NO ! She's dating another dude!! If only she was single! That's the problem!
Move on man
>nothing
>I'm hungry and I need to shit
>>71499604
should I just cut off contact immediately? or how should I move on? thanks for the advice lad, needed a reality check
i feel like i wait for the other person to make a move since I'm scared I'll get hurt if i do it first
>>71497672
>current song
10_10 freestyle
>current feel
>>71499611
>>71499657
Stay friends and hang out but seriously move on, girls like guys who have options...not pining orbiters
>Joy Division - Colony
I'm off like 4mg of some anxiety medication and I feel alright, although it hasn't really done anything.
Life has been very contradictory lately. I'm very lonely, but I can't stand being around woman. I feel the need to write out and tell someone everything going through my mind but I trust nobody. I thought about how nice it'd be to see some old friends, but than I instantly remember no one wants to see me.
>>71497862
Same. I'm probably going to take a shower, eat some chips, and go to bed. Hope you sleep well.
>>71499536
Do you like hanging around her as a friend. Wait 2 or 3 months with absolutely no contact, and then try to see what she's up to.
>>71499719
>>71499716
i guess the best option is just to cut contact off immediately. i was thinking of some delusional scenarios where she would end up with me but i'm realizing that it's not realistic. i do like hanging around her but i'll stop for a bit desu, else the oneitis will continue
thanks lads
>>71499748
Cut her off, delete social media, and just do normal shit you know that you like without always having her in your mind. In a couple months, ask to hang out with her and you'll still have all the fun parts of being with a nice person, while all the lovey dovey feelings have been removed. Godspeed anon.
>Galaxie 500's Another Day
https://youtu.be/NW0lrGumzjE
I've been falling again,
I worked pretty hard through the past few years to pick up the pieces after letting my life go to shit, and just when I thought I was doing alright, well enough to stop taking my medication, personal tragedies and issues with relatives have brought me right back down to the compulsive, self destructive habits I thought I was over..
every day feels like a meaningless repeat of the last, and the few differences are in the things that are only getting worse
dunno man, at this point I feel like I'll either kill myself soon or run far far away and try to start over
realistically the second option would probably fail as well and I'd end up killing myself miles and miles away from home too
whatever
>why do you cry today, just because the sky is gray?
>it's just another way that every day is not the same
>Swans - Jim
I feel pretty weird. Depressions are catching up to me again.
>>71499772
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ywhtFqJ8t1Q
>>71497672
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d54VEZa0z2I
drive soundtrack is kind
>>71499794
too grating and high pitched for my mellow mood...
https://youtu.be/Ji0xDg6EVvI
2 months passed since she said no to me, feeling more angry and depressed rather than sad now.
>>71499794
>rap outta fucking nowhere
>>71499836
Anger comes after sadness my friend, had the same experience. Even if she used to be close, try to distance youtself from her as much as you can (like for that other guy's case in the thread). Focus on yourself (and try to improve) and the wounds will heal
Listen to something calm but melancholic like Hatful of Hollow
If you can help it, don't listen to very depressive stuff (I used to listen to Nick Drake after every breakup or rejection and once I almost offed myself)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=__uzwNtisKI
Angst
>calm before - quelle chris
>bored
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dV_G0Xsbvhc
>New Ionnalee's track is shit and she takes a wrong direction, but at least there was another good synthpop release yesterday, thx Alison
>Judas Priest-Night Comes Down
>general bad feels
>I HATE MY JOB
> I HATE WOMAN
>GENERALLY I HAYE EVERYTHING
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AO1tGlgufeA
>>71499903
Thanks, that's what I've been doing for the whole time, lifting helped me to keep my shit together somehow. But to add to the problem, I've been in relationships for almost 6 years before falling in love with the girl that rejected me. So it is a break up and rejection at the same fucking time. We both know this shit ain't gonna work, we see each other like once a week and still can't let it go.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BxgosbHC-y0
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5anLPw0Efmo
got banned from /fit/ so i'm hanging out here for a couple days
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZaYUz0vzI0Y
thinking of reactivating my facebook after 6 years and want to talk to my old friends again but i get the feeling they don't even care about me anymore :^(
>>71500007
Just stop seeing her, cut off all contact (if it hurts erasing mementos of her, archive them or store them somewhere), if she initiates contact try to be polite and nice but do nothing more than that. Do not get angry at her because it's not her fault. Your emotional stability matters more than hers, so don't feel bad at all for going cold turkey
Good luck anon
>>71500038
I just reactivated mine after 3 or 4 months
yeah people don't give a shit bc they have their own life. i talked to them when i reactivated then after that they dont reply anymore
>>71500038
>> want to talk to my old friends
that's literally what facebook is for
>>71497672
Joy Division - Sister Ray
>comfy, thinking of how much i want to improve my body
>Nick Drake - Place to Be
Kind of sad I'm 23 and never kissed/held hands with a girl before (gone out on first dates tho). Wonder if there's something wrong with me or I'm just not taking my chances.
>Kate Bush - Misty
Overwhelmed, tired and sick
>>71500164
Great song, same feel but younger. Girls tell me I'm cute but when they get to know me they could tell I'm weird as shit. I went on a date with someone then she blocked me on facebook afterwards
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FjZevONOIEQ
>Fast Animals and Slow Kids - Montana
nostalgia for simpler times and simpler relationships
>Cocteau Twins and Harold Budd - Why Do You Love Me?
Confused. I had something great happen to me yesterday and felt nothing, but now I just woke up and feel pretty good. I don't know what illness this is, but it's extremely frustrating.
>>71497672
>'Born to Run' by Bruce Springsteen
>Feeling good for a change; it's Friday, I knocked out two website designs this week, and initiated a massive UI project
>>71497672
Mr.Bungle - Violenza Domestica
Quite good actually :)
new suicide silence
ffs why
>>71497672
Talk Talk - Such A Shame
I miss my boyfriend, and worry I'm getting jealous of him being around other people :\
>>71497672
Insect Warfare — World Extermination album
>working in an internet provider tech support and hating everything
Colin Stetson - Red Horse
>I want to stop existing
>>71497672
BtS - i would hurt a fly
okay because painkillers
www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tit5gHtVEls
I should probably go to bed but I dont want to
>Joni Mitchell's Blue (the album)
>grandfather just died
>some autchere song
im bored
>Madonna - Future Lovers
okay but I cheated on my diet
>>71501613
sorry for your loss anon
Thinking about wether or not I made a bad choice going into education.
The Pixies-Where Is My Mind
>>71501922
You did, and that song is too on the nose, fix your life.
>what am i doing with my fucking life
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZGMDBppWBOo
>In the early stretches of taking a break from college (things got a bit heavy/stressful) and now I'm trying to find comfort in killing all this newly-found free time by doing nothing.
>I've been single for a while (six years), but it hasn't hit me.
>Growing up alone, while despite having some friends who never really made any effort to reach me to hang during offtime, has steered me in the belief I think I've grown predisposed to live solitary.
>Not too certain if I like the silence or if I just grew numb to it.
>I occupy myself with hobbies and find that days, weeks at a time have just zipped by.
>Yadda, yadda, yadda. Very complacent early-twenties' cliche melodrama.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=prW-qgEQxBI
>Dirty Projectors - Keep Your Name
I'm stressed, but I'm okay. Life's good right now but I just have so much work to do all the time, I'm just afraid I'm going to burn out soon
>Kanye West - Gone
>ready for spring break even though I don't feel like I really deserve it
>>71497672
>Nine Inch Nails - Wish
>Tired, I just woke up
>Sleep Maps - Those Days Are Gone
>How the hell am I going to survive the next few years
>A$AP Rocky - LSD
>after some pretty dark times i've been pretty good lately
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zSUt_0xRBcc
I need to start doing things besides browsing chans.
>>71500038
They don't, one of my classmates tried to keep contact with me after school, but stop after a while.
>through the late night- travis scott
>waiting for my boss to approve this email marketing design so i can go home
>>71497672
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F_S8bPXK8ao
I'm okay.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=foEDFkbD9q4
Mild despair, my default feel
>>71502834
That's great but too short
>Devendra Banhart - Saturday Night
>accidentally sent porn to a girl instead of a wikipedia article. surprisingly unembarrassed
>>71503109
Just laugh it off.
>Get Innocuous - LCD Soundsystem (on loop)
>Dreading the thought of not getting any shifts next week, on the one hand, no work means I can just sit around and do whatever; but on the other hand no work means no money. Plus I do all my best creative thinking at work and I haven't done any writing in weeks.
>Snow (Hey Oh) - Red Hot Chili Peppers
>Happy feels
Third month of learning guitar, almost nailed that riff, same tempo as John.
>Starboy
I'm in the worst mood.
>The Beatles-I'm So Tired
>half dead, just worked a double shift through night, and came home to an empty apartment and feelin lonely
>Jets to Brazi- Sea Anemone
>Panic attacks, bipolar hypomania(from missing a med dose), and a small migraine from lack of sleep.
>Beethvoven - Mondscheinsonate
>I'm listening to this stoned
>the funeral of my already burned grandpa is on Dienstag
>hitler was a vegetarian
>>71503056
keks he said higher
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FHbAC7oZ0fg
content
>>71497672
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NqTvXVi8zhE
Been feeling really good lately.
>That night-John Maus
>Stressed, and a little depressed, because girl
https://youtu.be/2aEaSZ_UTwg
tfw no gf
>>71497752
dam...
Fucking shit taste, all of you
>Weird Fishes // Radiohead
>Just ended a nice skype call with the girl he's been talking to that he met at Lalapalooza. He told her that he's going to bed but in actuality, he can't sleep so he drinks some coffee to stay up, do some homework, watch science videos on YouTube, and contemplate; he's contemplating the current state of his life, thinking wishfully that things turn out okay with this girl and he manages to finish college with his Master's in Computer Science.
After a night of productivity and tranquility, he grabs another cup of coffee, checks social media, and plays some Radiohead as the sun rises in the background.
>>71499719
>I'm very lonely, but I can't stand being around woman
I feel you there man. I'm about to start some new medication for depression/anxiety... I fucking hope it works.
>>71497672
>Ol' Dirty Bastard - Proteck Ya Neck II the Zoo
>Feeling tired af, but looking forward to the Mad Professor soundsystem show in my hometown this weekend.
>Lone Star, by Sun Kil Moon
>Came back from an amazing trip and now I'm so clueless about how I used to handle my day-to-day life that I'm posting on 4chan for the first time in like 8 months
>Gutter - nothing, nowhere.
>fine i guess
been feeling super apathetic lately, imagine my death two or three times a day
>>71504056
Eat healthy.
>>71504054
I don't even have church shoes.
>>71504234
No milli point 2. Not even point 2.
>Vivian Jackson - Covetous Man
>Decent. I just listened to King Tubbys Meets Rockers Uptown and it was fantastic, so maybe I can get into dub.
Still have apathy, but something I read convinced me it's worth trying out medication now, so at least I've got something to put hope in.
>Killer Bug - Steaming Gash
>slight pain and discomfort
>bored, waiting for my shift to be over.
>Sugar Kane - Sonic Youth
Power and Sacrifice - Swans
I'm 2 weeks without taking klonopin and my anxiety is killing me from inside, but it's better than being a zombie.
>Pixies - Hey
Chained.
>The Rolling Stones - Let's Spend The Night Together
>tfw no gf
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-QvIllIIoQw
nothing in particular. i was feeling my freshly shaven neck (like the feeling) and was thinking about what to eat with my tea
>ballad of big nothing
>can't stay sober
>have Shostakovich's Folk Dances stuck in my head
>lying in bed with a hangover headache
>>71497672
>Alice In Chains - Nutshell
>sad
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HRdipWxO2ig
feeling cozy and tired.. snowed early so it's very bright out
> Song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8m8yVeXII2s
> feel
Fucking scatterbrained with a dose of unhinged stress to the point of becoming numb. The fucking apartment is not ready yet after it caught fire three months a go, and the hostel threatens to kick me out. No focus to uni semester task whose deadlines by the end of the month, and no cash till wednesday.
Life's fun though.
>>71505879
make lists dude.
sit down and make a list of priorities and attack each one systematically.
best of luck
>bad day - darwin deez
>I'm so sick of being in love with someone who I can never be with
>>71505922
Thanks for you advice, but I am out in the dark with the money (student loan) and the apartment. I've connected the insurance company to the ones who'se suppose to fix it and found out the motherfucking project leader went on a vacation for a month with no notice or step-by-step plan. Suppose I could do the uni task to make it feel easier.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8v90UTFGNCs
I like it
>Broke Boi
>Homicidal
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h0LHj3Xu9ac
stressed out
>>71497672
>Rime of the ancient mariner (Iron maiden)
>Alone in my room while my flatmates drink with stupid people in the living room
>>71499719
Best song on the album
https://youtu.be/u_3qhH5OerA
I feel trapped like the world is going to end within the next 5 years or I'm going to kill myself within the next 5 years. I really have lost my social ambition. More and more I believe literally no one cares about me, but it's not empowering because i suffer endlessly with no end goal.
Micheline
Somewhere between happy and sad
>nothing. I was listening to parson sound but that shit is boring
>took all my meds but still feel like shit
like what do you want from me at this point
>Devo - Satisfaction
>I feel like I'm lost in the world. I believe that people have limitless potential should they break free of the mental shackles they've put in place to ever keep them from taking a chance, but at the same time I don't see a way forward. It's creating a weird cognitive dissonance that I don't see a way to escape from. I'm also becoming increasingly aware that I'm stuck in the worst, most soul-sucking rut I've probably been in, even worse than my 2 years of NEETdom. It doesn't help that it doesn't feel like there's anyone here that I can really connect with about topics that actually mean something to me, and not just random bullshitting around or 'Hey, how ya doing?' kind of superficial bullshit. I would just like to find someone I can connect with so I can feel less alienated from the rest of society. I don't really even know if there's hope for that, and it depresses me greatly. I don't really know anything.
>Bowie - Ashes to Ashes
>Wondering how I ended up being such a useless fuck
>>71497672
>Travis Scott - 3500
>Thingken about life
>Rod Stewart - Standin' in the Shadows of Love
>nervous about going out alone tonight. snowy and cold but I need to get out there Æ’am
>tfw have new internet gf and i've never been in a relationship before and i like her but i dont know what a relationship is supposed to even feel like, and i don't feel the same spark of love i felt for my oneitis
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nKOhDNsS4OQ
>James Taylor - Carolina In My Mind
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SazxqiMRlUQ
>almost done with sophomore year at college
>no actual friends
>still kissless virgin
>have barely spoken to anyone other than my flatmates since september
i wish i wasn't such an awkward fucking piece of shit
>Mac Demarco- Passing out Pieces
I stayed in bed watching Trigun with the gf for three hours and boy is she soft and cuddly with that sweater. I'm generally fine.
>>71502518
kek I was not aware of that
>>71504348
do it, Tubby is an actual genius
the macgyver of audio producers
>>71508040
a hug, cmere man
>>71499903
Nicky is amazing for breakups
>>71508227
Know that you're a pretty cool guy.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e_ybiHBotes
helpless contemplative sadness
>>71508665
>Know that you're a pretty cool guy.
I'd like to believe that. Thanks.
>John Martyn - Don't Want To Know
Life is a farce. I reached my goal, got out of the rut I'd found myself in. Still people manage to die and get struck by debilitating diseases. I'm wasting away to get my survival tickets so I don't have to be shunned by society and I find it funny that the less "root of all evil" you have the less people will think of you. Maintaining relationships have become a chore, it's no longer enough to just be me and them, my presence is no longer enough to captivate their attention. No longer are glances filled with wonder and curiosity, instead they're filled with fear. I can no longer give an honest answer to "how are things with you?" because the regret I see in their eyes for asking is disdainful. People expect more, because they see it on their TV shows and I shatter their expectations. I don't know if I'll be able to keep this "upward trajectory" on this line graph of my life. If there was a god then there is no heaven because you only have to go back a few thousand years for common ancestors to start popping up all over the place and we're out here killing each other over ancient metabolized corpses, imaginary lines of who rules where and general distrust. We're a family, killing ourselves and some people sit on their knees with their hands folded praying and the price we've paid for not adheering the almighty is that our ascension has been prolonged. As the children of god are forbidden to play in the garden and the proverbial son of god left us and died for our sins. I didn't know him, he didn't know my sins. The need for more of one organism amongst septillions upon octillions of planets within several quintillions of galaxies contained in an endless universe is choking us slowly and there'll be no angelic choir to usher us into the afterlife. Still my personal need for human interaction, physical closeness, emotional bonds and morbid curiosity keeps me from escaping what I think of as hell
tl;dr: this is hell
>current song
Frankie Knuckles - Live at Ministry of Sound, 1991
>current feel
She doesn't love me and I'm never going to fall asleep in her arms
>>71497672
Post Malone - Congratulations
Feeling lonely
>The Avett Brothers - The Weight of Lies
I'm coasting through college right now studying engineering and don't really know why. To be honest all I want is a profession that will be enough to let me by on my own. All I wanna do is put in 8 hours and go home and play video games or something. People keep telling to go out and get all internships and do research and shit and like I'm not feeling it at all. I have no curiosity or motivation enough to try something knew. I wanna write music about it but whenever I pick up a guitar I can't make anything come out. I kinda forgot what my point is.
Matt Elliot - The Maid We Messed
Loosing the will to live.
>>71497672
>current song
Everyone's Gone to the Movies - Steely Dan
>current feel
Losing old friends and losing new ones rapidly. Just feels like no one wants to be around me but they don't want to tell me, so they quietly walk away instead.
>>71497672
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UlIDp7Rk2Ag
a bit sad, maybe even disappointed. it doesn't hurt as much. all i can do is throw myself at school work in the meantime.
>>71499536
see if you can distance yourself from her for a while, keep busy, hang out with other people. if you can't separate from wanting to get into a relationship with her, or if you come back and you're still crushing hard, it might be best to just cut her off and move on.
>>71501362
>>71502221
i feel y'all
>>71502624
take it easy, take breaks, treat yourself
>>71509731
you don't have to compete. also, i think you'd like free writing.
>Lifelover - Shallow [Konkurs]
Exhausted? More like tired, actually. Shit none the less.
Kendrick Lamar - Backseat Freestyle
Shits tight.
>Lake Fever - The Tragically Hip
Not looking forward to work tomorrow but things are going decent, also stressing about what i'm gonna do with my life instead of rotting away working at a supermarket for my entire life.
>New Town Burnout
>burnt out
ITT
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8S_R13jV11Q
high af
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DWWtose1YcI
i hate myself and i want to die
Autechre - Doctrine
I should go to sleep aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
>>71501491
great album
>>71511721
good track though
Just ate a pot brownie and about to watch ODDSAC
What do after? any recs?
>>71511975
you are about to embark on a wild ride my dude. i did the same once with a good friend.only on shrooms. Don't think about what lies ahead of you. Only think about the now
>>71501491
solid ass band. Sad they broke up
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tvuev67DIDg
>Coming up from a depressive spout, so I'm listening to weird shit
>>71512047
schweet. see you on the other side friend
>One More Time
>she hurt me really bad
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=887lax8LDDg
Im on a ghost kick right now
On the downside not to bum ya all out but I think my old good friend probably offed himself And I really hope he didn't. But his Grandfather who I know pretty well called me up and didn't sound like himself and wanted to meet me asap and wouldn't say anything over the phone so now Im worried.
>fuck