https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5FafojqMsuo
unemployed feels
bump4feels
>>70850394
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4N1iwQxiHrs
>a crossroad is coming up and I don't know where I'm going
>material girl
>the world ended in 1809
>>70850451
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=VdAlmkRWTys
Also this
>favorite song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dQEmaj9C6ko
>feel
I've realized I will never have sex, at least with someone I love.
>song
Careful with that axe Eugene (the ummagumma version)
>feel
Feeling pretty balanced
https://youtu.be/MrLqKc3dU5c
>what's in my way?
>what's in my way...
>got to have it to get over it
>tfw no gf but still optimistic and enjoying life
The Gerogerigegege - The Gerogerigegege
>Various "why do people do this" and depressive nihilism
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GQJ1rBAuZ60
>starting a job tomorrow and nervous about it
>first serious thing I think I've ever done in my life
>not even interested in the job
life is a fucking meme
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yh0hGoESFcE
want to turn my life around but none of the good habits stick
>NIN - Down In It
>angery @ the world
>Talking Heads - This Must Be The Place
Its been a rough couple of weeks but things are looking up again. I'm sure the song will change with my mood.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tpNcyzav7j0
Because i'm listening to that album, Nick Cave And The Bad Seeds - Into My Arms has been in my head since yesterday though.
I'm just kind of excited and nervous and hoping i don't completely fuck things up, it's the good kind of nervous though, wish me luck. That and i'm just hanging in there. I've been worse.
>>70850394
>song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lxVcrFTzZMs
>feel
Kinda decent. I started taking walks and reading The Iliad to combat my apathy, and it's going well so far. The long ass fight scenes get dull, but the language and God interactions keep things fresh enough to maintain interest.
>Geese - The Noise
Torn between qt hipstr grl who smokes cigs with me and my 10/10 Muslim work wife.
>Song
Radiohead - Life in a Glasshouse
>Feel
Kinda apathetic
>Aphex Twin - 4
>Cry wanking and soda slurping.
>>70852865
have a sad cum bb
> Song
Pulp - F.E.E.L.I.N.G.C.A.L.L.E.D.L.O.V.E.
> Feel
Finally stopped being in love with a girl who would never pay attention to me, happier but at the same time I wish I could finally find someone, but I just can't, I have never find someone. My obsession with sex returned as well, but I'm kinda ok with it. It's suddenly harder to listen to new music as much as I used to do so I just keep listening to my favorite stuff. My melancholia never goes, it just takes different forms. I'm ok with it, I'm happy with it.
>>70852901
k ;3
>The Goldheart Mountaintop Queen Directory
So fucking good.
>Tfw sick leave so broke, also mid through a break up. New medicine seems to be working tough.
>The Smiths - I Know It's Over
I wish I was more confident about myself. But all I do is giving excuses to myself for things I do not dare to try because I'm too shy.
Also, fear of rejection.
I hate myself.
>MF DOOM - Tick, Tick...
I'm feeling pretty good. Got to skip a day of work because of snow.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z5PDs2VlnSc
Sad but at the same time happy for having discovered this album
>Song
Hurt - NIN
Feel:
Two wonderfully talented people I know hooked up, and it really fucking hurts seeing how much better their lives are than mine.
https://youtu.be/HMKkbco7UFE
I'm just lonely... All I want out of life is to find my other half, someone who completes me
I have friends, I've been with plenty of girls but I feel like none of them get me. I have to put on this fake persona of confidence and aloofness to get people to like me. I just want to find someone I can be real with who understands me
>current favorite feel
perplexity
>current song
Michael Hoenig - Departure from the Northern Wasteland
>>70851443
sounds/looks like its straight from adult swim
>>70851448
great song first song i heard from them
cant tell which i like better, but i love the sample: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vyl1eOdIdFY and https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YIHtYQpe6m8
>>70850394
> Bloodhail - Have a nice life
> I'm afraid to get friendzoned by the girl I'm going out with
>>70853579
bloodhail is honestly one of the best songs of all time. It captures angst in its purest form
Why are you afraid of being friendzoned, anon?
>ASMZ - Could've Moved Mountains
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d1bQ4Xh1er4
>Feel
Too many things to do too quickly, no gf feels hitting harder than normal, what little faith I had in my future is fading, my only lifeline in this shithole is leaving
>>70853264
i know that feel man..
>>70853702
I've been rejected three times before. Stopped trying to pursue girls for a year and worked on my appearance/personality. Things are going well but I'm still insecure about myself because of those past rejections, anon.
>>70853448
damn man. that was really depressing
extremely relatable, but oh so goddamn depressing
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TJGLp33KsFE
feel: sad as fuck. a girl i used to like used me to hook up with my exbandmate. had to unfollower her on social media cuz she keeps relentlessly telling everyone how "good their relationship is going." i feel like a lethargic fuckhead, but in all honesty im just trying to use this anger to practice drums more.
im playing a show on friday, and her and the exbandmate are going :(
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=129kuDCQtHs
This song hits hard when you pay attention to the lyrics. I always thought it was just a kind of cheesy 80s hit, but damn...
Burning In The Undertow of God
>tfw no one to hug and snuggle with
anyone wanna be my qt gf/bf
>>70853970
Girls dont like insecurity anon
Just try to work on being a fun and aloof person to be around. Girls want a guy that's fun and helps them forget about all the bullshit in their life. not someone who is constantly worried about his appearance and how he comes off to other people
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eqksy-991sI
Joy.
My Dad Is Dead - Boundaries
Dealing with how vulnerable being in a relationship makes you, realizing that it feels good but it is scary that with a small action one person could instantly bring me back to the brink of suicide.
>>70853970
>>70854240
This. Girls don't like guys that overthink every detail.
>Surfs Up
>Alright
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DivvcAD1-60
Feeling ok
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mHFhPleh3tY
I want real friends, not friends to simply waste time every now and then but friends that'll actually stick with me until I grow old. Quite cheesy but that's how it is.
Girl in Amber - Nick Cave
Boyfriend broke up with me two days after my Godfather and a cousin were murdered. So yea
>>70850394
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XKAaYtdxYZk
I want to die
> The Predatory Wasp of the Palisades is Out to Get Us! - Sufjan
>Just recently had a mutual breakup with a girl who I really loved but the relationship was unhealthy for both of us
>Feel free. I think?
>Might try gay
>>70855640
that's a weird decision, did you expect it?
>>70852622
The LONG ASS fight scenes
I ended up losing interest after an early one continued for I think more than a book
>>70850394
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uVgnp4PStUg
high af, desu.
>>70855746
No, but yes. We were going through some rough stuff, but when I got the call about what had happened with my family everything seemed to calm down.
Literally a minute before breaking up with me he was acting loving and caring. I feel heartbroken and angry because he left me when I most needed him. But, oh well...
>>70850394
>tfw I finally found a gf who is great but I'm leaving for Europe after I graduate for a job
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UlkEeWeQF6w
>>70855853
this is why I dont trust people enough to be with them
>>70850394
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LIc6OIPZMHg
>>70855957
which part?
>>70855964
To be quite honest it isn't the first time a loved one fucks me over during a moment of need. Feel like I'm taking it better than I did 5 years ago.
>>70850394
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NGfXGV9QV-Q
best rapper out
any1 says otherwise is being dumb..........
>>70856002
Madrid, Spen
>tfw I have found the love of my life but I'm scared to start one of the first serious relationships in my life after years of loneliness
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SJIT8mX2w-U
>John Cale-Dying on the Vine
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qOhVEtTsU4I
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UdeCGkusLco
>still trying to figure out whether or not my hot lab partner is DTF. I know she's interested in me but at the same time she is like middle eastern or someshit so idk if she's down. I have been thinking about this for like 2 weeks now it's driving me mad
>>70856230
>current favorite song
this heat - a new kind of water
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NLMoDU9Tl_E
>current feels
waiting for the apocalypse
>>70856520
how do you know she's interested. how far can interested be from being dtf
>>70856563
i didn't mean to quote you, nails - abandon all life is pretty cool though
>>70853970
act like mc ride
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xHVL0glwVYQ
found work after 3 and a half months of being NEET
feels gud
>>70850394
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6bfTTeZOrs4
kinda sad but in an optimistic way that makes it not feel so bad
>>70856590
>exchanged numbers, she texted me first
>started wearing make-up to skool, not really a fan of that actually but that is besides the point
>added me on snapchat
>gives me this very specific look all the time, that only girls whom I have hooked up with or fucked have given me
just off the top of my head
>>70855581
>real friends,
>friends to simply waste time every now and then
one and the same thing
you have a romanticised notion of what friends should be
>friends that'll actually stick with me until I grow old
impossible given the Death of God.
this shouldn't be a cause for despair but a motivation to discover a new mode of being
You have to discover the divinity present in every human soul
in the meanwhile, cheer up bruh, ill be ur friend
Can't stop listening to this, can't stop drinking, can't stop wanting to be loved.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3kcbc2gqvvU
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cbLeP0cPeAg
>I got the "I have ideas, but I can't draw worth a damn" blues
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dYZq5QlJHkI
this plus Heavy Water/I'd Rather Be Sleeping seeing as they should be one song.
Feeling shitty about dropping out and having a dead end retail job, at least it's full of qts some of which like me but I'm a sperg.
>>70857234
Why did you drop out anon?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=odRG-3XrPc4
>meeting with my boss before work in the morning, I've been depressed as hell the past few weeks and other brain shit. missed a few shifts, i'm fired if i fuck up one more time
>>70857252
I just stopped going to class and moved out one weekend without telling anyone. It was the best years of my life, I really had it all and blew it by being a depressed twat.
>>70856771
Dude look at that list.
At least try to take her on a date or something like wtf.
>>70856520
what do you study
>girl i like and hung out with ane was intimate with constantly told me she wanted to take things further
>i ask her on a date she says she needs some time
>two days later she is in a relationship with some other guy
>completely heartbroken, never felt this way about a girl since my 5 year relationship
music for this feel?
>>70857786
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wza6OgYGypo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L5gBt-zpb-w
I haven't talked to any of my friends from where I used to live in several months. I've moved 2 years ago and I haven't also made a single friend in my new location. I just don't understand why I lack the desire to have any friends or just a friend in general. I sometimes think how nice it would be to find someone it'd be cool to shoot the shit with but when I think about the possibility I get sad because I know it's such a rare commodity to find that one friend.
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y2cQvZPX3OY
>GLASS BREAKS
>>70857555
you're right, those trips cannot lie. Haha actually after class last week she did the whole "anon I am hungry! I haven't eaten all day! *wink wink*", would have taken her someplace but my car was as dank as the memes on this hard-drive (since I'm a faggot stoner), and I didn't want to ruin everything on something stupid like that. I will have plenty of opportunities to ask her out.
>sidenote her friend is DTF too but she's not as hot
>>70857657
electrical engineering, pic related
also this is also stuck in my head and I waste about ~45minutes a day listening to itc since I listen to it 3 or 4 times a day
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uog1U_Kemlk
https://youtu.be/nMWGXt979yg
Spent so much time alone the past few months i get the nervous shakes just buying things in stores and meeting up with friends it's hilarious
I Talk to the Wind
Peace and comfort, but also a lingering sense of woe
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tH2w6Oxx0kQ
Plebs.
>>70851486
good song! tomboy is very underrated
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ZSGv0pYOKs
Probably sub par for /mu/ standards but it felt really good to play this at the arcade yesterday. Sounds like ass but it got me really energized when stomping on those arrows.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rL0xOdI9cZA
>when you get accepted to your favorite university and you still feel really numb inside
>>70850394
Happy - Marina and The Diamonds
sad and depression feels
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9sVSuxw9qZg
Bullied feels
>>70850394
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cANcbev6ZFc
About 1 year ago, possibly to the date, I sort of went into a depressive stupor and lost track of the date entirely, I know it was in February and I think before Valentine's day, my gf broke up with me.
I'm still in love with her, but I've more or less gotten over it. It comes and goes in waves. We talk as friends fairly often. Lately though, there have been a few really loving couples around me, in my general social group, and it's been getting to me. The way these people talk about each other, being in love, god it hurts.
I miss her. I miss being loved by someone. I miss being able to talk about how much I loved her.
>>70850394
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c2EJMd7ZN7w
all of the feels right now, mainly not the good ones
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ak7R2CIiRJg
lonely
>>70850394
pixies - distance equals
no feels
>>70858293
>listens to shit that gets played on the radio everyday
>has the audacity to call other people plebs
>alabama - frank ocean
>had a noice sexy dream with a girl i barely talked to from school
>The Dismemberment Plan - The City
>I'm fucking sick of being unemployed and feeling useless, rotting away in my bedroom shitposting and pacing the floor all day like a retard.
>>70850451
Entered this thread to say the same anon. Good luck on the job hunt!
>>70852188
Tuneee
Frame by Frame
>mother is in an abusive relationship with a retarded hick
https://youtu.be/DM3s7539RWs
starting to come out of a pretty long depressive phase, working on music again for the first time in a while
metallica - fade to black
depressed
Not sure what my current favorite song is so I'll just say
>Pope is a rockstar - SALES.
which I am listening to right now and its pretty nice.
>Girl I have loved for years has just left, and I have been too much of a pussy over the years to confess. I wanna die. She is the best person I have ever met. I am always tired. Why do I hate my friends?
>>70850394
>paint it black -The Rolling Stones
>the music makes want to be involved in politics, and then spend a day destroying my nemesis carrer, becomingPOTUS in the process
>I AM FORGIVEN, I AM FREE, I AM A FIELD OF FIIIREEEEE
Feeling shitty. But this EP puts me through sweet roller coster of emotions
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SLi7Ljcy6n8
Transcended NEET and Unemployed feels
Damn it all
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0q7wDISQPK8
> New Dawn Fades
> can't cope with emotions
>>70852622
Good taste. The Dreaming is my favourite Kate Bush album.
>>70855810
I'm on that one now, it's more than 30 pages of battle. It's annoying but when you consider it's a story handed down from a Greek oral tradition some 2500+ years ago, it's really impressive, and it's easy to push through regardless.
>>70850451
>>70859314
Enjoy it. If you can survive while you are unemployed maximize the time. 24 hours a day no real obligations. Use it. TIME is the most important thing you have.
>>70850394
>Charles Mingus - Better Git It In Your Soul
>I wanna fucking neck myself
I could listen to this song for hours and keep on crying about the death of my nation
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7PpwAJMhFDI
t. /int/ and /pol/ and /ylilauta/
>>70856035
Happens to all of us.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=64x_RCArfjU
>>70853538
Yeah same here
From which album is this? >>70851448
>>70853478
Extremely relatable anon, take it easy
Everything is gonna be alright
Nice song btw
>Current fave song
The smiths - suffer little children
>Current feel
Deadline looming, pretty unhappy
>>70850394
Grouper - You Never Came https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tYnZbEtf7YM
I've lost my best friend and I'm sad :(
Favorite Tracks:
>Yves Tumor - Seed (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BfNVBaDpdzA)
or
>Street Smart Cyclist - Kiss Kitty On The Lips (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XBv_Q2-HZc8)
or
>Pedestrian Deposit - Textile (https://pedestriandeposit.bandcamp.com/track/textile)
Current Feeling:
>Fell hard for a girl but never pursued anything more for fear of ruining what was already there - we're getting house together later this year. Now she's with someone else, and exuding all the signs I took for being a lack of interest; I feel physically sick seeing them together. Been starving myself for a few days now, as a sort of self-flagilation to take my mind off things, and I'm begining to get the shakes.
>Sufjan Stevens - The Henney Buggy Band
>Favorite track
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w71N7MX9HcQ
>Current feel
Been a stressful day but it's cool now because I've got nothing else I have to do
>>70861260
Oh fuck I cant even post a feel without fucking it up.
Current Song:
>Sufjan Stevens - The Henney Buggy Band https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S-L6kmssozY
Current Feel:
>Finally found a perfect roommate who I click with and as long as everything goes on plan, my city rent is cut in half and i now have a new close friend to enjoy city life with after being lonely and kinda depressed for a year and a half now, since life never gives me a fucking break. even if i dont have a bf
>>70861278
Sounds comfy anon, glad yr doing well
>>70851443
>>70850451
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TjPhzgxe3L0
Employed feels
Ha only joking NEET for lyfe.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=swHHJlzPDT4
Everything, it all just pisses me off and reminds me of the bad.
>>70850394
>current favorite song
Sukiyaki - Kyu Sakamoto
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C35DrtPlUbc
>current feels
Nervous, tired, angry and scared
>>70860805
Go to the moor
>>70856563
where from is that pic? google points to some spazzkid dj which cant be true ...
>>70861287
Thanks pal, as long as my landlady doesnt bitch about him moving in or anything i'm pretty set
its a studio apt so it's just one big room but we'll manage for now
>current favorite song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zol2MJf6XNE
>current feels
"my sex drive is going through the roof but i can't see my gf before a couple of weeks" kind of feels
>>70861328
closest i can get is the peak district
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XD4XqUzeJXA
i feel alone
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S6kPXH9HJvE
The pills are starting to work.
>dropped out of uni
>started on SSRI again
>really dreading the thought of moving back home in a few months to be a neet loser again
>Grouper - Headache
>>70850394
>Kon Karne
>I feel ready to vomit every morning I wake up and I can barely retain my day to day life
>>70862096
damn, this is nice
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wnw7-YfSaQg
met a girl who was a friend of a friend. she was only visiting town for a while and went back home. I don't think she would remember me if we met again but I just had a dream about her and its fucking me up.
Song: Suburban Muse by Abandoned Pools
Feel: In love lads
>>70850394
>100 Years of Choke, by World's End Girlfriend
>Feels pic related
>Also tfw no gf
>>70850394
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Qp6Cf2J1nk
got out of suicide ward a few days ago, cut myself, went out with some friends, got made fun of for being depressed after they made fun of how i have no friends besides them, and now i'm considering telling them all to fuck off and then i'll genuinely have nobody.
Impossible Nothing - B
>my sweet little sister started dating a muslim
>>70862719
did they know you tried to an hero? If they did, that's some seriously fucked-up behaviour man.
>Don, Aman
>Responsible
>>70862825
nope. they're not real bros they're just people i have fun with. can't really discuss something like that without them thinking i'm depressing to be with and stop inviting me out.
though they should know better considering everybody tells me i'm obviously depressed based on how i look
>>70862952
Sorry to hear that mate. Most friends are fucking shit when you're young and have nothing in common. Have you been seeing a therapist/are you hooked on meds? Because I can tell you it works in most cases.
none
none
>>70863203
Not like favourite but listening and liking it, thinking about past times, nostalgia and stuff. Was thinking what if was not involved much with internet culture. How different things could be, how different person.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3YxaaGgTQYM
>>70863055
yes to both. don't wanna blog but obv neither are working for me. thanks for the concern anon but i'll make it.
Cuckoo Cuckoo
Had one of those days where you just don't know if you can make it to the next one. Despite nothing happening to trigger this, which only makes me feel worse and stupid.
Also listened to Manos Hadjidakis for the first time today and it nearly made me cry. Fuck I'm such a wreck
>sweet trip - your world is eternally complete
>tfw I love a woman but she love anotha man
>>70850394
>Helge Schneider - Es gibt Reis, Baby
I feel like I'm just awaiting my death, maybe I should see a shrink, but what is this person gonna tell me?
>song
Up My Sleeves
>current feel
Drained by seperation
>>70863741
Shrinks don't help desu
They just want your money.
>>70860762
It's from their Hi-Scores EP.
>>70863664
you'll make it anon
have some happy Aveys to cheer you up
>>70850394
To Wish the Impossible Things When the violin comes in the song I tear up a bit
>>70850394
Wish you were here
Feeling angry/bitter but motivated
>Failure - Swans
>Unemployed and heartbroken
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vm_nE4YEYHQ
>going back and forth on whether or not to deal with the crippling guilt of leaving my special needs job or to keep going and deal with a stressful situation beyond my experience
Grimes is very soothing
Help
>>70866308
>unemployed and heartbroken
I know that feel
>>70866885
>>70866308
me too, friendos
>>70853448
Jonny Cash did a cover of that you should check it out its pretty good
>>70850394
>Ween - It's Gonna Be A Long Night
>confused, unfocused, unsure, but kinda happy
Pink Floyd - Welcome to The Machine
Losing hope for society
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ju8xO_Zvfo
>Nothing feels like it's worth doing
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lBYcOGkWEJY
went on a depressed binger since thursday over a friend of mine low key rejecting me
kinda funny because I'm pretty sure the reason I'm not good enough for her is because I'm too prone to week long drunken bingers where I try to escape myself
oh well, so it goes..
>song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vM5U66XEe30
>feel
I've got tfw no gf, but I'm trying to stay hopeful for the future despite being a 20 year old khv.
https://soundcloud.com/jynxworld/honey
feeling alienated from my closest friends, like nothing that comes out of my mouth when I talk is of any value to them. wishing I was more extroverted and cool. but my music is going well
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vthig-LH7Mk
peaceful sadness.
>>70867330
Nice song, I've been looking for some shoegaze bands to listen to. :^)
>>70867330
Man you're 20. Stop feeling sorry for yourself and go meet a girl off Tinder or something.
You'll never be as young as you are right now ever again.
>>70867430
Hey man thanks. When I first found that album I listened to it 8 times in one day, which is a lot for me considering I'll usually just listen to a new album maybe four times spaced out between several days so I can accurately judge it.
>>70867590
>feeling sorry for yourself
???
I never said I was feeling sorry for myself. I said I was feeling hopeful. Besides, I'm not really down to hookup with some random girl in my city. Would much rather lose my virginity to someone I actually know and have a connection with.
>>70867631
Stop. Losing your virginity to a rando is the same as losing it to someone you "love".
Do it so you can stop complaining internally.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BQR_w0m99bQ
Waiting for a phone call that never comes, I really want that job.
>Song
After the Party by The Menzingers
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vBTN0i-sscc
>Feel
In my final semester of college and need to be focusing on my senior project and what to do after I graduate but instead I let myself fall back in love with a girl who seems into me but I'm really bad at reading signals BUT I JUST WANT TO DATE HER SO BADLY
>>70861364
https://myanimelist.net/anime/795/Oniisama_e
best googler 2017
>reverse search on iqdb
>check tineye
>one of the links is some guys memewave music
>one of the comments on the track mentions the characters name
>google Nanoko anime character
>find an image of her titled '1000+ images about Oniisama e on Pinterest'
>find it on MAL
i wonder if it's even any good
>Neutral Milk Hotel - Gardenhead/Leave Me Alone
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LO-zSxWRSVI
I broke up with my ex a week ago, but I found some new pussy last night. Lots of mixed feelings, but most of them are good.