ITT: Post your current mental/emotional state, and other anons

content but worried I'll have another depressive episode

Currently the worst hangover of my life, feeling nauseous and it's cold as balls

Worried I'll never have a gf

content, about to take a shit.

>>69931763
Any Peste Noire album. If you like Black Metal at all.

Enjoying life and happy because I'm surrounded by positivity and good friends/family

>>69931734
Emergency & I
>>69931763
Pink Moon
>>69931793
pinkerton
>>69931811
The Mollusk

Horribly lonely but avoiding it with jrpgs and music

>>69931793
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EIurAP4yHtQ
I get the same feels, Fang Island is what makes me feel better

Worried and depressed about not being better.

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I get triggered by /v/ easily
It's like, it's fine for a while, but when you start to feel comfortable something shows up that make something switch.

Wish I could go back 10 years and do everything differently.

>>69931840
First song is literally ''Tired of Sex''. Are meme'ing me?

>>69932022
No, just to show you that sex ain't all that

>>69931905
not being better in what way?
>>69931919
Right thread bro?
>>69931980
pretty /mu/core but MBDTF
>>69932022
it's all trash but it'll fit your feeling

also make some recs yourselves faggots

>>69932106
>Right thread bro?
Nah, but it happened this morning
>be travelling for 1:30 hs
>get triggered by what some anon said about burnout paradise
>go to /mu/ and start being normal again and laughing at the shitposts
I rec you this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LoF_a0-7xVQ

>>69931680
Deleted Facebook and Twitter in a fit of self isolationism. Want to die.

>>69931871
this is retarded

>>69932172
I feel ya
ty for the rec but I stopped being 14 five years ago
Mine to you https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZqCPU5wBrx4&index=2&list=PLAB174D9ADFE42FAB

In love with someone who's unavailable
My meds normally flatten my feelings but it can't be controlled this time

I want to die but have to wait before I can. Every waking moment is suffering, and has been, for months on end. I can know no relief from this.

I really want to die but I'm also happy with my loneliness and weirdness

My gf's parents rejected me today, but we were doing so fine ;-;
listening to closing time right now but I also accept your recs mu

>>69933109
Joy Division - 24 hours

My foot hurts and I think it might be because I drink too much

>>69933130
Creatures MIW

miss my ex gf a lot so im having another girl over who cares about me a lot for a meaningless hook up for some distracting gratification that will make me feel like shit after

Dreading having to do college assignments over the next couple of days, mostly without internet and with the extended family annoying me.
Looking for some escapism. Just finishing a glass of wine and I might smoke some weed.

>>69931680
I feel almost as if I've become lost in a surreal dream-world. Nothing is tangible, and the world spins around me.

i'm starting to get really fucking lonely now

>>69932230
Escape the Fate Dying is your Latest Fashion

I am on a 3 month trip and met this petite qt that actually seemed interested in me, but now she told me she only wants to be friends. It's weird though because I was taking her home since she got too drunk and she hugged me the whole way back and it wasn't a "friend" hug if that makes sense. I don't know if I should continue to pursue this or just leave it there, she is so nice and I've never felt this way about someone before.

I've been listening to pet sounds a lot lately and relating to it much more than before especially Don't Talk (Put Your Head On My Shoulder), any other good albums that have that sort of theme?

Bummed out, feel like i won't amount to anything

On the recovery from a mental breakdown. Started self harming again after seeming like nothing went "my way" and that I'll be alone forever and unloved. Put a hole in the wall by smashing my head against it so I feel really stupid.

>>69931840
I've never seen someone have this feeling before. Good on you. It might be cliché and overrated, but Sublimes 40oz to Freedom is an album I've listened to during my happiest days.
>>69933109
Xasthur - Telepathic with the Deceased
>>69933240
Iceage - Plowing Into the Field of Love
>>69933416
Starry Cat - s/t

>>69931840
Louis Armstrong - What a Wonderful World
>>69931871
My Morning Jacket - Z
>>69931919
Korn - S/t
>>69931980
Scott Walker - The Drift (essential 2006-core)

romantically jealous

afraid of what the future will bring, or rather, what it won't

>>69931680
JUST and im not listening to anything

I want to kill myself, but I'm too poor to afford a gun, and I'm scared of doing it any other way. Also I feel bad that my gf would be left alone.

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confused as shit and stuck between whether i want to stay with the person i have built a loving relationship with for the past 2 years or date a guy who does cute things and takes me on cute adventures and lets me borrow his baby pink hoodie when i'm sad

aaliyah - at your best

>>69934300
in the same boat, also afraid of the unknown aka the other side of death

>>69934410
>also afraid of the unknown aka the other side of death
If the universe is in any way merciful there will be nothing but void. Conscious existence is pure suffering.

>>69931680
flesh-eating anxiety, borderline paranoia/delusion, lots of guilt, lots of shame

>>69934461
so, i should live this life and suffer instead of taking the easy way out? bc fuck. it hurts. and it's just getting worse with age

>>69931680
Tired but satisfied

>>69932231
then gtfo
people listen to music when life hits sometimes. this is /mu/, i feel like this is allowed

Eyes hurt form staring at the computer, have to take a piss

>>69931680
recently had a mental breakdown over something insignificant due to months of build up and i have bruised knuckles cause of it, suffering the aftermath of it.

Pretty shitty. I lost my job today. I don't know what else to do. Both my parents are dead, I live alone, gf broke up with me a year ago. I'm not living, I just exist...

Currently a schizophrenic hallucinating a disgusting multi-faced monster that is eating my flesh
(Looks like the cover of Autopsy's Mental Funeral and Morbid Angle's Alters of Madness)

Hard mode: can't recommend either of those albums

feeling good-ish i think?
>tfw constantly surrounded by smart pretty girls who care about me
>tfw not gonna fuck any of them because that's my decision to make
>tfw pretty solid gpa

going to virginia in a few days to see some friends. can't drink but not a big deal really

Hoping that I my obsessive thoughts will fade away eventually

>>69937373
Nirvana - Incesticide

>>69937009
Leechmilk - Starvation of locusts

>>69936963
Leviathan - Scar sighted

>>69936864
Korn - S/T

>>69936198
Artificial intelligence (on warp records)

remember when these were feels threads and did not have to be disguised ?

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my crush, who is the only person I see myself having a genuine strong relationship told me she's not currently looking for a boyfriend. I've had a crush on her since we first met, and I've had to wait months while she was with her bf to ask her out, and shes moving out of state this year. I also hate my job, and want to stop seeing my therapist so I dont get judged everytime I want to smoke or drink.

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Doing well professionally and socially but I'm constantly dissatisfied because of my nonexistent love life.

>>69937796
True Love Waits, AMSP version.

>>69937643
I dont 'member any dat shit

I'm in a full fledged panic mode because I have so much shit to do but I keep procrastinating

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I'm not depressed but I've pretty much lost a lot of motivation, I've disappointed my father and other people in family, and my future is slowly dwindling in front of me. I'm dying slowly and everyone is sad around me and upset that I don't feel bad about it

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On the verge of something big

I only sort of know what it is

>>69931680
lots of anxiety
have a crush
it's eating my soul

>>69939387
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TeccAtqd5K8

I feel like my brain is stagnant. I am become boredom.

>>69931680
full of guilt and regret. :(

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>>69939460
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uOJFhKriSH8

>>69939387
Try to look at it as feeding your soul, those feelings unlock more doors for your mind i think than they close/other such cliches

>>69933459
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SK_WfF6hf2E

el bumpo

Depressed, angry with fate and hating the god forsaken country I live in.

Energetic when I should be sleeping. I think I ought to be feeling angry over disappointing developments during the day or perhaps lonely, but instead I feel apathetic.

>>69939959
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8-r-V0uK4u0
RAT IN A CAGE
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>>69931734
Early Of Montreal

>>69931734
Cherry Peel

>>69931680
Lonely, depressed, suicidal, in love with someone who no longer loves me, hopeless

>>69931680
kinda melancholic but mostly just tired

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TgJ9e7tdoaQ

>>69931734
Pinegrove - Cardinal

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in a year long depressive episode that shows no sign of stopping, had to withdraw out of first year of university. not suicidal, i just want to be okay. all i do is sleep and draw.

comfortable but having to face up to the fact mentally that I probably won't make it as an electronic music producer

>>69931680
Lonely
Trapped
I want to be somewhere else

>>69939320
Borgore - #NEWGOREORDER

>>69933291
get to the library and do them my dude

State: Worried about not getting to know any girls + Worried about university for taking a little bit too much years. Feel like I'm wasting my 20s. Song for this?

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>>69937980
same (listen to loveless)

dude what the hell you need to absorb this through headphones because it is you as waves
https://soundcloud.com/tenstring/ten-strings-sn-science-nature-instrumental-ep

Bummed I didn't realise a girl was crushing on me and now I'm watching her try and get with her ex again.

reccing /mu/ basics

>>69942318
Jon Hopkins - Immunity

>>69941568
Brand New - The Devil and God are Raging inside me

>>69939994
The Strokes - Is this it

Calm with a slight hint of a lingering sense of the dread that my future will end up in total failure or death.

When you feel so empty and tired you're not sure if you're a real person anymore.

Post holiday blues

had a recent mental breakdown over months of build up because of something slightly bad happening to me.

i wish i was normal

just got back home from the holidays, now I'm smoking some shit weed and listening to Beta Band. any more recs?
>>69941568
https://suffocateforfucksake.bandcamp.com/album/blazing-fires-and-helicopters-on-the-frontpage-of-the-newspaper-theres-a-war-going-on-and-im-marching-in-heavy-boots
>>69942742
Cleaners from Venus - Under Wartime Conditions

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>>69931680
pretty good, listening to music, stayd up the whole night, but still not sleepy, i can be alone tomorrow and do stuff i my way

Moving on from a girl

Great thread btw

Feeling pretty good! holidays are great so far, three parties to attend tonight, though let's hope I don't run into my (very recently) ex-gf

>>69943293
Crescent, by the stars and the fields
>>69946988
It was hot, we stayed in the water. Or silver mt zion if you're feeling like drowning in it ATM
>>69943323
5 hours of Sufjan Stevens Christmas music

>>69931680
It's been a year and I miss her more than ever. I'm also depressed and worried I'll never become the great artist I've always wanted to be.

>>69947281
Joy Division - Closer

Just feeling kinda empty and directionless.
I had a huge crush on a girl at the beginning of the year but that just blew up and now I don't feel anything and I just sit around and masturbate too much.

>>69943293
Big Star - Third/Sister Lovers

>>69939959
This Heat - Deceit

>>69946988
Genesis - Duke

>>69931763
Pretty much anything by post-1980 Tom Waits.

>>69931680
want to fucking die like always
i need new music pls, thx

>>69947461
Teen Suicide

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paranoid, jealous, delusional and scared

give me the saddest shit you got, i want to cry

The conflict, confusion, and pain of leaving your and your family's religion and finding a new one.

It feels like my feelings are muted like a point beyond depression where everyday consists of me distracting myself from a reality which i will eventually be forced to face or i could kill myself

>>69947566
a flash of dark // a wash of light - Jon the Archivist

realising that i can never be with the love of my life

>>69947664
James Is Going To Die Soon - Crywank

Extreme loneliness and isolation

>>69947730
Same as this
>>69947664

Feeling inadequate

frustrated, hesitant, in obsessive compulsive limbo

>>69946988
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=16c7qllK9RE
>>69947664
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XMuoJrcbtGU
>>69947730
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Srznfj4cQ9I
>>69947769
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xGCEqnJAPKM

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pic related

I'm so in love

>>69949175
iggy pop's "the idiot" to give you some inspiration to actually do it you weeaboo

>>69950097
thanks senpai

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Suicidal and homicidal. Not trying to be edgy and not joking. I'm going back to the psych ward soon.

I was a total cunt to my gf and she asked for some time; meanwhile, I changed a lot and she said she wants to be with this new "me" but still needs some time by herself

We met in a hotel during a weekend seminar (not sure how you guys would call it) organized by a group in our school like a month ago.

We were drunk, she wanted to take pictures together so we did, we laughed. We talked, a lot.

I basically fell in love with her. I've liked girls before, but never fell in love with any of them. The way she talked, the stuff she likes, her face, her eyes, her smile. I don't know what had hit me.

I saw her at school after meeting with her that weekend. She smiled at me and we talked. She smiles everytime she sees me, always in a different, more cute way. She smiles even when I'm with my friends, I love it.

We chatted online for a couple of weeks but for some reason we stopped. We snap photos often, and chat occasionally on snapchat which I specifically use because of her.

I feel like shit. She's perfect and yet I'll probably never be with her, never kiss her, never touch her, never listen to music with her. I'm sad, I know you'd probably tell me that being sad because of a girl is not worth it, but she's different.

I'm not thirsty. I can easily hook up with girls. But she's like everything I will ever ask for - as cliché as it may sound.

I can't stop thinking about her. I even dream about her.

No happy stuff /mu/.

Feeling like I'm in love with no one in particular or someone but I don't know who.

>>69953134
Used to get that feeling when I first woke up some mornings

>>69953134
i feel it

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>>69933318
flying lotus-pattern+grid world

worried i might never get away with murder

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Anxious about doing shrooms. Which is probably the worst feeling to have right now. What should I listen to? I was thinking just having some IDM, but any recs would be appreciated.

>>69931871
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IUVmcKcTZ4A&t=439s

I GOT YOU BRO

feeling like i should stop being self-pitying but I'm just so pitiful, when i see myself in a mirror when I put a tie on for work I cluck my tongue and sigh and shake my head because I don't actually work anywhere

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Just got home from a long day at work. Looking for something to sink me into my bed and take me on a journey.

>>69955492
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OMD8hBsA-RI

>>69955492
Forgot to do some recs

>>69951077
Street Sects - End Position
>>69955396
Mort Garson Plantasia
>>69947490
The Antlers - Hospice
>>69947045
I Hate My Friends - The Front Bottoms

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On massive tooth pain
I'm soon gonna remove a wisdom's teeth, need something really light, like dentist putting a mask on you and it slowly fade to black.

SOME VAPOSHIT I DONT KNOW

Really tired and just in need of a good night of sleep.

>>69955396
Infinite Body - Carve Out The Face of My God

Stressed about shit that's probably nothing

Worried about our future as a species and whether we will die a futile existence on this planet or escape the cradle of our birth and somehow accomplish something of importance in this cold, dark, uncaring cosmos.

Not quite separation anxiety, but I'm sad she isn't around.

>>69931680
>Hang out with this 10/10 qt who I like a lot, (she seems to be flirty with me sometimes), but she gets mired so hard by every other dude and now I'm terrified I'll never be able to compete.

Music for this feel?

>I just wanna git fit and make it ;_;

>>69956289
Death cab for cutie-transantlacism

feeling very alone and slightly suicidal. kind if sad, but mostly empty.

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Mostly depressed

I have a few disabilities that make it hard to fit in anywhere so it feels like I don't have a chance at living a normal life.