Have any anons here had an experience of metanoia? Converting

>>9570637
Yes, this happened with myself twice. Once when I was 10 I decided to actively become an edgelord, and again when I was 17 or 18 (that time I decided to be nicer, revert from being a edgelord.)

>>9570645
that's not metanoia. the definition is right there and you couldn't understand it. fuckin brainlets

>>9570637
Reading Crime and Punishment irrevocably shattered my belief in moral relativism.
Now I'm wracked by guilt all the time, thanks Dostoyevsky.

>>9570637

yes. I sorta cheated on my gf and she found out. we ended up working it out but part of that was the process of me effecting a fundamental personality shift in which I dropped a lot of old attitudes toward women, sex, culture, and purpose through coming to terms with the traumatic thing id done to her without even really thinking.

>>9570645
not metanoia

>>9571261
kek that's brutal, sorry for your loss of moral relativism

now you're a cool tortured demo-catholic or whatever, it's got to be an improvement over meme-tier atheism

>>9571333
so are you now pro-feminist or pro-redpill or something else

my own story is boring, i'm basically just slowly becoming a christian i think, although i'm digging in my heels b/c i'd rather be a lazy slob even though i'm already disgustingly lazy. for what it's worth, and that ain't much

glad you guys have more interesting stories than me

>>9571375

I'm neither. Im just not somebody who would hurt someone that way unthinkingly again. I guess in some ways I'm more conservative but i dont interact with the sjw-redpill axis on anything more than observational level.

>>9571261
Christianity and discipline are solutions to that.

>>9570637
I've had two, although I can say that it is not enough. I used to be a Christian. I was the smartest or among the top 3 in my class throughout my childhood. I read philosophy in junior high, theology and all sorts of things. I wasn't cultured enough to digest it, so I reverted to nihilism/materialism. I reduced existence to the mere models we use to describe it with. I had the realization that "This is it.", guiding my life for the next 8 years. I sabotaged my days. I slept through them, to get to the next, knowing that there will be a last. I had been bullied before, so it was not like I couldn't wait.

This change coincides with the time I started watching porn. I guess nihilism was a series of lame excuses to reduce my guilt.

The second one is the realization of the wholeness of existence. I saw the 'glimmer' things had when I was a child. The value, the meaning, the importance... It was so organic, so holy, so great. It was when I realized the reductive nature of objective reality, the models and the words we use to describe it all.

>>9571261
You forgot to read Brothers Karamazov afterwards

>>9571396
i see

>>9571414
that's a good story anon, hope you stay with the glimmer, or it stays with you

i'm starting to realize how truly bad porn is for you. i'm not going to stop watching it next week or anything but it's basically like ultra-sugar for your eyes

>>9571482
Just let me fuck up a little more first