Write what's in your mind.

Trying to write Christmas-themed erotica desu. Tell me if you get a boner: http://pastebin.com/0pWkgH4h

how much longer are we going to have these thinly veiled "write about your feelings" threads? when are we going to have a blue board general discussion board?

just because you type out "write" doesn't mean it's literature related 2bdesu

>>9186189
This.

>>9186159
I'm a European who is starting to believe the naive glorification of liberty in the US is the only master discourse I can find any reason to live by anymore

>>9186189
it's a containment thread you fag. hide it if you don't want to read it.

Polnareff was clearly the best character.

I'm starting to believe in /pol/.

This is my IRL situation desu I'm quite bored and want to write something autistic af.

I'm currently sitting in a box near a gate and protecting a location, so let's talk about the internet.

The internet is practically a world of its own, it has its own physical laws, antrophologies and human social activity works well in it, and yet, it seems no one really cares about doing the most basic thing and applying some thinking into it.
The internet provides both sadness and happiness, so let's try to fix that, let's make an ethics for it.

The virtues of the internet:
Creativity, Creating, Being nice

Creativity is being up to date enough to know how to create original content(note: all content is original, even about the same ideas, as long as it isn't a copy of a previous work and or doesnt add anything of value to said work)

Creating is the virtue of making stuff.
The internet does not care if you make bad or good content, making any content makes the internet bigger, the size of the audience does not matter, those who make high quality videos for no one are better than those who make low quality garbage for everyone.

Being nice is the ultimate missing part of internet debate.
People take things too much to heart, they rarely participate in honest and thoughtful conversation online, this is hurtful to them, to waste time on false debate instead of doing the right thing and engage in calm debate, debate is, after all, a conversation of allies in a quest for knowledge, not two opponents in the quest of finding who is right.

>>9186159
>implying childhood isn't the zenith of human experience

>>9186232
Same. Before I knew /pol/ existed, it used to baffle me how someone could still be a white nationalist or anti-Semitic or whatever. But now, there is something exciting about seeing the white race dominate over the rest of the races.

>>9186184
>phallic-shaped spacecraft called Erector

dropped

wtf dude... this is some kindergarden humor. hue hue i drew a cock

there is NO way this story is ever going to get arousing in any way

>>9186159
I have been having multiple doubts about God and His Nature, how His Presence influences my life and multiple things.

Fortunately some good friends and a kind anon here helped me. I still have lingering feelings of fear about Death and non-existence, but they're no longer consuming me. I know that I can trust God and find salvation on Jesus and I wish everybody else with problems would find salvation on him.

>>9186232
I sometimes feel /pol/ not on racial grounds but on religious grounds.

Yes, YES I have a problem with Muslims you fucking atheist pigs. Muslims deny the divinity of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Muslims blaspheme against the Son of God. Do you expect me to tolerate that? I'm pretty polite, but I wonder if I should be. Christ is worth burning it all down for. Everything can go into the fire, if it means I can be true to Christ. Christ specifically said not to accept offenses against God, either.

No one ever makes compromises about their stuck in 8th grade metaphysics to another man of the same status. That's what books are for. Worship the book, deny yourself for the book, absorb pure intellect and status. You don't even have to understand or agree with the thing. The only thing that matters is representation, that you special snowbunny feel an inner sense of accomplishment for "understanding" Nietzsche and no one can prove you wrong and therefore it is not only permitted but necessary you speak with assuredness and authority on the matter.

Punchline: Not to Socrates or your professor but to fellow retards.

I would, but since you asked I feel too distracted by the pressure to do anything. I'm sitting here, looking at the blinking cursor. It's taunting me. It's a reminder that everyone else is free to run with their ideas while I'm distracted, focused on your words. "Write what's in your mind, write what's in your mind." The words of an imagined person play like a voice recorder in my mind. It's on repeat. I try to focus, but the harder I try the louder the voice gets. I've done this countless times. I was 5 years old the first time someone told me to do something. That's when I learned this little dance of try and fail. Then I turned 6 and 7 and so on to today. Everyday of the chain I danced a little and learned how to fail a little more. I fail and failed and failed. I couldn't focus when they asked me to but I kept training. The Little Engine that Could really sunk in deep. So I set my mind to suicide and I did it.

>>9187097

Damn, the power of belief is a hell of a force.

That feel when you'll never be a student in wacky Dave's English 102 - Literary Analysis class.

god is love bro. frfr

>>9187052
Thank you for the honest words, anon. I will go kill myself now.

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>tfw /lit/ will never be an internet hub of intelligent people sharing ideas about literature because plebs like to ruin everything

I JUST WANT TO LIVE IN A PERFECT WORLD

Sometimes the utter degeneracy in my life gives me literal nausea.

There are way too many trap threads up on other boards, which disgusts me because they're awful in real life.

About 40% of trans people have AIDs, they're the sluttiest people imaginable. I tried getting a trans girlfriend, and it was a huge mistake. She started topping me, which was really painful because her dick was bigger than mine, and tried to convince me to use HRT so I could "become cute like her". Eventually she started sneaking testosterone blockers into my food, which I didn't learn about for like eight months, and when I couldn't get hard she would always top me. When I started growing breasts I had an argument with her and we broke up, a couple months later I realized she had given me AIDs from fucking me so often.

Believe me, never do it. I'm impotent now and have resigned myself to being a gay bottom.

I gave up on pornography but there's no way I can stop masturbating altogether.

Why does this fucking thread keep existing? It's almost retarded like kpop generals on /mu/

>>9188352
I get your point but there's no way this is real.

death

>tfw no Jewish gf

https://youtu.be/UKdZU9Db6fk?t=1327

Who is he apologizing to and what for?

I just can't stop thinking about fucking, I have already masturbated 3 times today. I swear to God I don't even look at porn. Being a undesirable virgin is killing me.

“Then it would be fitting, Glaucon, to set this study down in law and to persuade those who are going to participate in the greatest things in the city to go to calculation and to take it up, not after the fashion of private men, but to stay with it until they come to the contemplation of the nature of numbers with intellection itself, not practicing it for the sake of buying and selling like merchants or tradesmen, but for war and for ease of turning the soul itself around from becoming to truth and being.”
“What you say is very fine,” he said.
“And further,” I said, “now that the study of calculation has been mentioned, I recognize how subtle it is and how in many ways it is useful to us for what we want, if a man practices it for the sake of coming to know and not for trade.”

Plato on the Jews.

>>9186232
People will believe anything if they spend all their time reading propaganda for it.

>>9189653
Everything is propaganda.

>>9189668
Agreed. The only difference is between agitprop and mellowprop. Also, malaprop.

>>9189668
I didn't say it wasn't. You just control the sort of propaganda you read. You just have to recognize that if you spend time on 4chan you're going to move in that direction generally, regardless of the quality of the arguments or politics of it all. It's what happens when you get exposed to a mindset over and over again.

May the Love of God be with every one of you.

>>9190507
Thanks anon, you too!

>>9186159
Synapses, cerebellum, corpus callosum, grey matter, white matter, hippocampus.

>>9190526
But that's not inside your mind cheeky cunt... unless you're a neurologist

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D7ha9-1CbQ8

>>9190532
Eh, good point. Mind isn't synonymous with brain.

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>>9186159
Blog post incoming, I usually hate these things but it's been a problem I've had for years now and I'm tired of being Pagliacci, so I'm just gonna get this off my chest.

In high school, people always told me I was really funny. This validation felt nice, feels nice, but only makes the reality of the situation more painful. Nobody seems to want to be my friend.

People always loved me at school, and laughed at everything I said. But the minute I left, every day, nobody ever invited me to anything. Nobody ever called me, texted me, nothing. I thought maybe people assumed I had friends because "of course he does, he's so funny!" so after graduating, I started taking the initiative.

I'd text them, ask them to hang out, or send them something funny. And they'd reply, or we'd get lunch, or they'd laugh at what I sent. But it never went anywhere. They'd stop replying, even if I had asked a question. If we met up, we'd leave with a respective "We should do this again sometime!" and I'd never hear from them again. Everything always went one way.

I kept telling myself that they're busy, and I just need to be persistent with them. But at what point does radio silence just mean "Leave me alone"?

I can't fucking figure out what's wrong with me. Like, if we're having interesting conversations and laughing whenever we're together, why do 100% of people never try to initiate anything with me. I just want to turn on my phone and see a message that isn't a reply for once, just a simple fucking "What are you up to?"

I don't know why I'm posting this on /lit/, I feel like such a fucking tool for complaining about this, but the loneliness is really getting to me and I'm honestly getting more and more paranoid every day.

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>>9188717
same man, hard to meet nice jewish qts in the South

>>9191173
how old are you?

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>>9191173
Hang in there m8. Look for people in the same situation as you - you might be surprised to find that you don't feel like inviting them to anything, not for any particular reason, but because the thought never crossed your mind. Give them a shot and you might be surprised. I think it really comes down to people being far too susceptible to making deep ruts and never leaving them, inviting the same people to do the same sort of things over and over.

>>9191207
This has been my mindset when I'm thinking clearly, but depression can warp your view of things. Normally I combat it with logic, but I can't give it an answer to this one so it uses it against me a lot.

It's been almost a full year since graduation, and when none of my friends attend my college and I can only see them when I go home for a break it gets hard.

I think I'm just fucked up right now because I'm supposed to be seeing them right now, I was going to drive home today but my car keeps overheating so I'm stuck here till the auto shops open again on Monday. If I end up stuck here alone for all of spring break I don't know what the fuck I'm going to do.

>>9191201
19, finishing up Freshman year, why? Is this just a petty teenager problem?

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I'm going to be a groomsman for my cousin's wedding.

>>9191259
I also eventually lost contact with most people that I cared about when I was 16-18 years old, I'm 22 right now. What you've got to do is build meaningful relationships. Watch which people worry about you and in which ways.

Instead of trying to keep a relationship with everyone just center around 3-4, max 5 people. If possible build a group of people that like to be friends with each other. Watch with which people you can have meaningful relationships instead of being their laughingstock.

You also need to keep trying multiple times, if someone's not interested you will simply be ignored.

>>9191294
I've been trying, after graduating I thought of the 3-4 people who I actually connected with on some deeper level, people who opened up to me and vice versa. These are the people I've been meeting up with and then getting ghosted by.

I know most of the people I knew in high school aren't going to mean much to me in a few years, just like people I meet in college wont in as many more. My problem is that I keep getting the same treatment from everyone, whether it be new people I'm trying to become friends with or people I'm close with and trying not to lose track of.

I can't tell if I'm making any progress or not, it feels like I'm hitting my head on a wall hoping a door will appear.

>>9191181
Come to Florida

>>9191278
Don't sweat it, nobody will pay attention to you unless you're the best man.

I want to die.

"Holy Motors" is insulting. The metaphors for the message are blatant. Either the filmmakers think the audience is too stupid to understand subtle references, or this is ironic. In that case: Ironic garbage is still garbage.
1/10

>>9192283
What's wrong mane

>>9192384
ED

>>9191259
>Is this just a petty teenager problem?
Maybe a little. I don't know, I remember being in a similar situation to you when I was in highschool and going into my first semesters at university.

Unironically, alcohol managed to solve a lot of my problems, at least as far as my social hangups went.

But I suppose that doesn't help if you live in a country were It's illegal to drink before 21.

>I was going to drive home today
Why don't you try making friends in college instead of relying on your highschool buddies. For what it's worth I managed to make a lot of friends in uni, but most of the better quality ones were after my first year. Sorts out the quality form the chaff.

>I don't know why I'm posting this on /lit/, I feel like such a fucking tool for complaining about this, but the loneliness is really getting to me and I'm honestly getting more and more paranoid every day.
It's a horrible way to feel anon.

>>9192412
Sildefanil?

>>9192422
Not really a solution desu.

>>9192437
Have you tried therapy

>>9192449
Never heard about that kind of therapy.

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In the country of my residence, military service is mandatory for males above the age of eighteen.

Going through basic military training, the basic dogma pushed was "to push one's limits and gain leadership skills.

High energy routines were carried out on a day to day basis, building peer motivation and mutual support.

This environment based on the cultivation of oneself did not last for long however.

Completing basic military training, despite the high energy and effort expended during its course, I did not make it to command school, instead, I was posted to a relatively unknown camp. Left to rot.

In consolation, I believed that the camp would not have a strenuous lifestyle planned for me. I was right. Worse things awaited me.

The first few months passed without fuss. Minor oddities were noticed among my peers but written off by my mind as nothing worth considering.

Then, as rough times approached, their regular selves peeled off, to reveal an old enemy. Only this time, it was bigger and stronger. Furthermore, it wasn't something escapable.

Gone were the days where I could avoid social politics by simply disengaging from the crowd. Being in camp meant that hiding or disappearance equated to getting sent to the detention barracks. In other words, military prison.

In camp, I had the naive notion that without the presence of females, we would not have quarrels over trivial, petty things like emotions and gossip. The feminisation of society decided otherwise.

Boredom and annoyances had festered in their hearts, fermenting to become something positively dangerous. I knew that holding young menin their prime in camps for two years had an adverse effect on their mental state. I simply didn't expect it to be that bad, or the psyche of this generation's male to be so weak.

Here, in this military complex located in nowhereville, the unthinkable had happened. Men with zero discipline became the emotional equivalents of women. The camp housed drama which had or that would make the drama of a Shakespearean tragedy look like juvenile.

Hate. Theft. Manipulation. It was a masterpiece of treachery and insanity.

I have slightly over a year left in this camp. Again, I shall try to render myself invisible. I will survive.

I'm about to get busted for drugs and thrown out of school

>>9192542
Dealing?

>>9192694
Nah got tested before and failed. This weekend I got really drunk and smoked some again, huge mistake. Feeling the impending doom, bet they will test me again this week.

>>9192542
>>9192785
undderage b&

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what's up with having music constantly in your head?
Is it ocd? Or maybe i'm dumb or something.

>>9192794
Ecksde

This is top-notch propaganda.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lDUwXFvTJfA

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I'm an awful pseud, a bad, lazy and unattentive reader but I often feel a deep connection to the author and the writing
The same thing is true for the world in general
It feels like I'm a liminal observer, but it does feel that way because I pushed myself into that position for years due to a misled belief that it's "superior" to a normal life

Also about to have a gf who loves me so reality is crashing down on me hard and I'm having to re-evaluate a lot

>>9192809
i also always have music in my head, but by choice. if its involuntary its a neurological disorder, but without any serious implications - it doesnt lead to anything.
if im not thinking about something, or playing music in my head, or rather, if im not focusing on something, my personality disorder or what you would call it kicks in, where i hear voices. it could lead to schizophrenia, but im fine with it for now.

>>9192844
The female gaze changes everything, doesn't it?

>>9189502
Start working out

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>>9192849
Yeah, more than I would have ever expected, it pierces through me, I totally fall apart
I feel so fucking weak and everything that I valued about my loneliness and isolation is fading into the background
help me mane, I love her

>>9192856
Do you have your shit together?

>>9192859
No, I'm still depressed and lazy, prone to isolating myself, doing bad at Uni
But I seem to have learned how to make a connection to a human being, I'm honest and I'm also quite attractive physically it seems
She's beautiful, ambitious and pretty robus, so I feel like it's a recipe for disaster anyways
Then again, I've become way to good at doubting

>>9192867
If you don't yourself out, she will 100% leave you. Maybe that means having a job or some other accomplishment, but if you are not providing her with any kind of safety, emotional or otherwise, she won't be happy.

>>9192844
>>9192856
You nigga need Jesus. No, seriously. Christianism can fix most of your problems if you take it at heart.

FUCK

WHEN YOU ARE LIVING IN A FOREIGN COUNTRY AND YOU CANT FUCKING HELP BUT REACTIVATE YOUR OLD FACEBOOK AND SEE THAT THE OLD LIFE IS ALL FUCKING STILL THERE, THAT EVERYONE IS OBSESSED WITH FUCKING PRIVILEGE, AND I AM NOT A FUCKING PEDE OR ANYTHING BUT I CANNOT HELP BUT QUESTION WHETHER THEY ARE ALL IN A CULT FOR FULLY TALKING ABOUT PRIVILEGE AND LATINX AND LITERALLY NEARLY NOTHING ELSE, HOW IMPORTANT IT IS THAT WE DONT TALK ABOUT TRAVEL AS SOMETHING EVERYONE CAN DO BECAUSE SOME PEOPLE CANT AFFORD IT OR THEIR BODIES DONT LET THEM, WHAT I MEAN IS I WANT TO KNOW WHO IS RIGHT, ME A WHITE MALE FUCKING INTROVERTED AND INTROSPECTIVE AND SEEING THE WHOLE WORLD HINGING ON HOW MUCH PLEASURE I ALLOW MYSELF FOR THAT DAY, HOW IF I USE HEADPHONES ON THE SUBWAY I WILL FEEL GOOD AND MORE ALIVE IN A WAY, I WILL BE OKAY WITH BEING ALIVE AND SUFFERING, AND IF I DONT USE HEADPHONES I WILL SIT THERE SQUIRMING INSIDE BUT WHAT USE IS THE SQUIRMING OH YEAH IT INDUCED ECERY GOOD THING EVER, AND WHATI MEAN IS SHOULS I BE PUSHING ON THE WALLS OF LIFE AT THIS POINT SINCE NOW IT MEANS TAKING SRUFA OFF OF THE SILK ROAD WEBSITE AND SPENDING MOAT OF MY TIME ON ELECTRONICS, WHY COULDNT PUAHING THE LIMITS BE DRINKING ALCOHOL CONSTANTLY LIKE IT USED TO BE, AND SHOULD I QUIT MY WRITERS GROUP SINCE THEY DONT ENCOURAGE MY WRITING BUT JUST THINK ITS FUCKING WEIRD, AND OBVIOUSLY MY BRAIN IS FUCKING AWFUL WHEN EVEN FUCKING SLASH LIT SLASH WONT LIKE MY RAMBLE AND IM BEING SELF AWARE IN THE HOPES OF COMPLIMENTS LUKE DFW WHO MIGHT EVEN BE A FALSE GOD BUT NO HE IS REAL LIKE KANYES MUSIC AND MAYBE THATS NOT REAL LIKE SHE WASNT AND I NEED TO REDACT HER NAME AND MY CITY NAME AND MY COUNTRY NAME BECAUSE I DONT WANT ANYONE I KNOW SEEING THIS AND KNOWING ITS ME, FUCKING FAGGOTS ALL OF THEM INCLUDING ME OF COURSE, I AM SORRY THIS POST HAS NO VALUE I JUST DONT KNOW WHO IS RIGHT OR WRITE OR WHATEVER, ME OR THE PEOPLE WJO BELIEVE THAT PEOPLE WHO ARE UNPRIVILEGED ARE SUFFERING AND WE NEED TO FOCUS ON THEM. I JUST NEED TO GO TO BOARD GAME NIGHTS MORE AND ULTIMATELY JUST SHOOT MYSELF IN THE HEAD AS SOON AS ITS REASONABLE, WHICH IT WILL NEVER BE, IN WHICH CASE I BETTER FUCKING DO SOMETHING WITH THIS LIFE, SHOULDNT I, SAYS THE GUY WHO IS NOT FAMOUS FOR LEADING PROTESTS, AT LEAST NOT ENOUGH TO BE RECOGNIZED FOR IT, FUCKING POSER I AN REFUSING TO APPROACH BEAUTIFUL GIRLS WJO DESERVE TO HAVE THEIR DICKS SUCKED LIKE LEMONADE BY DYING ELEPHANTS. ON ACID.

>>9192867
take measure to get motivated like working out, quitting vidya, going to sleep at a regular time/waking up at the same time, etc. you wouldn't believe what miracles shit like adhering to your circadian rhythm does. form HABITS like meditation and the likes, as long as they're positive habits. after they become habits, no more effort is required to get them done. having the feeling that your life has some structure kicks the lazy out of you.

and dont be afraid to fall in love. you might get burned, but you might not. being in love gives you a good dose of motivation.

you dont need to change yourself, but you should really determine if you ENJOY spending time alone, or if you just persuaded yourself that you do. either way, you'll need to adapt to your gfs needs, somewhat.

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>>9192882
I've come to this conclusion as well, as far as the emotional part goes, I listen to her a lot and we talk about our deepest feelings in a way that's more honest than I could have ever imagined it being
But she has just come out of long-term relationship (in fact, her bf still doesn't really know that it's over between them) and she quite clearly has a different expectation of it all than me, I barely know what I'm doing. She worships me though and my appreciation for art too
Oh yeah, she plays the Piano icnredibly well
In all honesty, she's almost perfect


>>9192883
I have a lot of respect for Christian teachings but I'm not really religious in the spiritual sense

>>9192902
I'm trying, have been going to the gym for a while too, but I had removed myself so far from everything normal and real that I have to learn it all again, even just communicating my thoughts to someone else honestly

>>9192883
>>9192882
thanks for your help anons

>>9192918
i've been there, my friend, i still am with one foot. i found it helped when i decided i dont give a fuck about anything but my ambitions. once that anchored itself into my being, i became more relaxed with people. i was anxious at first, but each time i conversed it became easier. you should join some sort of workshop about an interest you have, where you would engage in team building games and conversation. that helped me quite a bit.

>>9192852
I do but that only fills like an hour of my freetime.

>>9192952
That's really not much, what kind of routine are you doing?

>>9191181
Come to Pikesville, Maryland. It's an area of Baltimore that's completely packed with Jews.

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>>9192955
You're going to laugh at me, but pic related. I'm too anxious and broke to go to the gym and I don't care about looking muscular anyway, I just to like to make my body sweat. Besides, this only makes more horny.

>>9192993
Not going to laugh at you at all, bodyweight training is okay if you put enough effort into it, although if you're looking to develop your body equally all over it's not the best thing

>>9192998
LOL

>>9192998
I know. But honestly, I have worse problems.

>>9192980
>Any part of Maryland not the Eastern shore
>South

It's true there are many Jewesses around Baltimore, but all the wifeable ones are Orthodox and they would send the Shomrim after a goy trying to get with their women

"Conservative" and reform jewesses are mostly spoiled coalburners

I've been practicing Lent this year as a way to get my life together. I got fired last April for being a fuck-up and now the only gainful employment I've been able to find is as an Uber driver.

The stress from all this ruined my relationship. I broke up with her on Valentine's Day before she revealed to me she knew it wouldn't last back in September but didn't want to leave me. Her parents, who live far away, never thought I was good enough for her and hounded her to dump me. She told them she broke up with me back in November. It was fun to piece together all her odd behavior since that time.

The act of giving up all your self-identified "vices" brings about a different feeling than I would have expected. This past week I've mostly felt off as my experiences this week don't feel normal or genuine, like I'm wearing another man's life.

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>there are 45 posters in this thread

give it up fags no-one cares how your day is going

>>9193131
Who hurt you, anon?

>>9193061
No offense but you sound like a numale who can't handle a woman, I hope you're genuinely sorting yourself out.

>>9193159
None taken. You sound like bitter neckbeard who's never seen a vagina. You're at least half right though

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>>9192418
I'm at a pretty big party school, so the alcohol thing wouldn't be a problem except I've got some hangups from childhood about drinking/ being around intoxicated people.

>Why don't you try making friends in college

I guess I forgot to explain this part, I have been trying to make new friends here, but I've been getting the same treatment that I did in high school. I'm usually able to get out of my own head and look at things as they probably are, and when I do I feel like I just need to keep trying with them, but when you keep putting so much in and keep getting nothing back it starts to eat at you.

>It's a horrible way to feel anon
Thanks, it feels nice to know my frustrations are valid and I'm not wasting my time thinking about this.

>anon

What did he mean by this?

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>>9193131
I care

>>9193287
What was her name?

Why aren't you having and raising kids?

>>9193309
There's a lot a pain out there, anon. It's normal to feel resentment. To lock your deeper feelings up in a fort and sling rocks at the lonely people looking for genuine connection. It's probably better to open up about your own troubles and grow as a person. Nobody trolls a slow4chan board on a beautiful Sunday afternoon if their life is going right. Tell me your problems, anon. I really care.

>>9193353
I'm too anxious to read because I have an important trip tomorrow.

Isn't there anyone in this thread with such a well-put together life that they can afford to spend a few unproductive moments out of an absolutely fecund afternoon to belittle and insult complete strangers that are alienated on the internet?

>>9193374

I don't think people with good lives do any of that.

>>9192501
>The camp housed drama which had or that would make the drama of a Shakespearean tragedy look like juvenile.
heh?

>>9193374
>absolutely fecund

Are you frustrated?

>>9190558
It is. IQ190 here. Just trust me.

you're not special

nobody is special

people occupy different motives, stigma decides it's social position, social position is meaningless unless it's important for you to be social which it isn't, socializing is inherently a distraction and to convince people of richness in their life, richness can only be achieved through the seeking of knowledge which is true testament to intelligence in a social poition, to be intelligent is a classification and doesn't apply to individual, an individual cannot class himself for there is no classification for a singular entity, be true to yourself and stop socializing, an individual is nothing but itself, your fucking identities are death of the individual, classification is an individual death cult, you cannot collectivize me, you cannot collectivize us, some people can't help it they are just people, but the singular is not, you are flesh and gore standing, you are pulp, scum scum scum scum scum dirt fucking scum vermin vacuous cunt slit gash, you fuck death as it stands, you are death fucking itself, death fucks itself as it spews cum and spit, no one will know of you, you are what has risen for the horrid filth spewed from the cunt of dying god, you killed him with your rusty axe you fucking sub species, air rapes your mouth you object, flesh bound atom perpetually roasted under it's incestuous star must be burned out burn you all you will all surfer under famine life will die stars will puke in your cunt mouth angelic marketeers will give you what you want you fucking whores you are dirt you belong in a void

>>9193450
good post

>>9193450
bad post

>>9193450
Schizophrenia: The Post

>>9193450
>EDGY: the post

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>>9193502
i promise i am not crazy

>>9193523
probably

>>9193450
who hurt you

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>tfw I'm inevitably going to marry a nice Catholic girl

Feels good, mang.

>>9193967

Maru

:3

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>>9193967
>I'm inevitably going to die childless and unmarried

>>9194053
But it doesn't have to be that way, anon.

>>9194138
I don't have what it takes to be the leader of a family.

>>9194203
Seek God, then, anon. He'll teach you to live a holy life, one that will prepare you for fatherhood. Try Catholicism, friend.

>>9193967
details anon, details
How did you met? Is she cute?
How's the sex or the foreplay?

>>9194234
>going to marry a catholic girl
>implying there's any sex or the foreplay

Anon, please.

every tantrum gesture of giving up is so brief that it's hardly worthwhile.

I mean I see or think of something that reminds me of my situation, of some sore point, of something I want & feel I can never get, and I want to go away, smoke a cigarette, drink to excess, SOMETHING!

but at the same time it hardly seems worthwhile, wouldn't prove anything and would just dig me deeper into this hole. Why bother?

I have no hobbies. I know a lot, or at least above average when it comes to many things, but because I'm so bored with everything, I never get to talk about those things with anyone.

Nothing interests me. Nobody interests me. I don't know where I can go from here.

>>9194257
Dude you're on fucking 4chan you can talk about anything here. Don't be a fucking nihilist

>>9194257
You're depressed, therapy might help you

>>9194222
I was raised protestant, but it's not a bad advice.

>>9194246
so not even passionate kisses?

>>9194257
>I know a lot
take that arrogance away, you don't know shit
>Nothing interests me
Seek God. His Love may make you better and acting His Love through charity work may give you a purpose.

I wonder what WH40k book I should start with

>>9187902
Kek

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>wrote every undergrad term paper in the five days before it was due
>swore I wouldn't do that for my thesis
>wrote BA thesis in the five days before it was due
>swore I wouldn't do that for my MA
>wrote MA thesis in the last five days before it was due
>swore I wouldn't do that during PhD
>writing PhD first-year thesis in the last five days before it's due

>>9194246
>he doesn't know about the anal sex loophole

>>9194866
And people wonder why the liberal arts are meme degrees.

>>9194866
>being able to write a thesis in a week
>humanities students thinking they have to do even a fraction of the work that STEM students do

>>9194866
This is probably fake but I'm triggered

>>9194925
>>9194930
Well, it's mostly that the research itself interests me, so I spend every waking moment of my life doing that, but I don't do any actual drafting and I find it hard to cram and trim my ideas down into something straightforwardly writeable.

The actual writing process is me forcing a 70%-finished too-ambitious idea into a paper, by torturing it out of way too many notes and 217 library books.

>>9186159
>Got first ever actual review from someone who bought my book
>Absolutely positive
>They've reviewed MANY other books, not all 5-star like mine
>5 eReader sales in 2 days
I haven't gotten any sales in the 2 days that followed, but I'm still feeling proud as fuck and actually beginning to think that if I keep writing, and keep publishing, I'll someday be a full-time author making a respectable amount of money, able to work at home. I can already envision my future home, /lit/, and it is the compfiest thing on Earth in my opinion, though other's opinions would probably differ. It's taken a few months, but I think I'm finally getting a good start. Just need to get that third book on the go.

I take heroic doses of pscilocybin just to feel sadness

>>9193450

>An individual cannot class himself

Retard.

This is such a weird reversed situation. I wish that girl had the balls to ask me out instead of posting puppy-eyed heartbroken texts of resignation indirectly aimed towards me. I'd like to ask her out, just because it angers me that she won't and I like her back also, but she won't even take the risk because she's not sure, and I don't have patience for this beta female attitude anymore, which is ironically how I managed to attract her in the first place. I get the feeling she kind of enjoys her own sorrowful state in a very selfish way, like the type of childish pouty girl that doesn't know what it's like to really love someone, just likes the idea of being in love. And I'm afraid she likes me because she sees in me a stronger male figure that will scold her and not take any of her bullshit, unlike that other guy that was courting her but would just make her laugh and not confront her, which only made her lose interest.

If we get together I'll fuck her into proper womanhood.

I am very lonely but I don't hate women enough to have ever asked any of them out. The idea of being with one romantically scares the absolute shit out of me, and I'm not even unattractive.

>>9195485
why?

>>9195512
No idea. I don't care at all about virginity, but on an emotional level I love the concept of a pure romcom-esque relationship. Whenever someone brings up my permavirgin status,, the thought of me being with someone else causes me to go near-mute and get incredibly nervous, like a fucking autist. I usually at least come off as very confident, and I love a lot of things about myself, so I have little clue as to my lady struggles. I used to be fine with it, but now it's creating so much anxiety within me that I've developed OCD-lite habits and have been almost completely unable to focus on a book.

>>9195549
are you uncomfortable with the contact with another female?

My first instinct entering this thread was to quote Chuggo lyrics.

I don't know how meaningfully express my own sorrows.

it distresses me that i'm nogf yet every time a woman expresses interest in me i sperg out and walk away. basically i'm a fag.

>>9195928
i came out of a vagina once

>>9195549
>>9195485

>I usually at least come off as very confident
>and I love a lot of things about myself
>I'm not even unattractive.
>I don't care at all about virginity

>No idea.

It's because you've been raised to self-reflect constantly, and the idea of loving anyone other than yourself, as in, actually having to abandon yourself to them and deal with their bullshit, terrifies you. In extreme cases, this feelings express themselves pathologically as narcissism, and then sociopathy.

Were you bullied in school?

You desire the wanting of the woman. not the thing in itself.
>but on an emotional level I love the concept of a pure romcom-esque relationship.
You've already realised that this idea of feminine otherness that you've built up for yourself is slightly detached from reality

But you seem like a smart guy and I think that you already know this
>The idea of being with one romantically scares the absolute shit out of me
>I don't hate women enough to have ever asked any of them out.
It might have a little to do with that. but I think you're real fear in this situation is that by taking action, asking a girl out, either of the possible out comes, her saying yes or no, will damage the idea of yourself that you've created.

If she says no, the classic fear of rejection tells you that it'll be an injury to your pride.
If she says yes than you'll have to accommodate another human being into your sense of self. Either way you fell like you're going to lose part of yourself by trying to ask a girl out. And unfortunately we've been trained to believe that our sense of I is the only thing that we really have.

Nobody knows how to help you other than yourself. But you could start by trying to immerse yourself more fully in the world. Actually try and ask a girl that you like out. Let your pride take a hit, or alternatively actually get to know her. In either case you'll discover that the world wont end.

>I am very lonely
Same 2bh

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I've been stuck with this story and it's killing me. I just don't know how to end it. My original ending was ""good"" but felt a little too ham-fisted and it felt like I was pandering. Every other iteration just sort of trailed off into trivialities. I've decided to just put it on a shelf and try to return to it later with a fresh pair of eyes but is that just procrastination? Not sure how I'm supposed to be writing and I'm worried I might be spreading myself thin by sticking to a variety of narratives rather than staying on one and building that up.

Shouldn't I just pursue what I enjoy though? Why does writing have to be masochistic?

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I don't feel like a complete self. Sometimes I feel like my past selves are not really me and I have a hard time getting emotional over memories because I'm so detached

>>9196332
>past selves
buddhism?

>>9196401
By past selves I simply mean how I was living up until this present moment.

>>9195372
im ready to learn why, but that's also out of context

>>9196332

How is this a bad thing? Narratives are opium for the infantile.

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>>9195999
not even the guy you're replying to, I'm
>>9193211
>>9191322
>>9191259
>>9191173
in fact, but you've managed to perfectly summarize how I've been feeling, as someone also in OP's situation.

I can't speak for him, but in my case it comes from how I was raised. I'm an only child and we grew up in a rough economic situation (dad worked construction and got hit by the housing crash, mom worked at a Gulf Coast seafood restaurant and got hit by the BP oil spill), so I had to learn to be independent and not expect much. I never went hungry, but I remember lots of talks about how I shouldn't expect much for my birthday/ christmas every year.

We all had coping mechanisms, dad smoked, mom drank, (thankfully they've both quit now) and I mostly played vidya (trying to wean off of this now). We all leaned on each other for support, and I feel like I raised my parents as much as they raised me.

So I've got this weird mix of feelings, I've got a bit of a superiority complex because I've always been more mature than my peers, but my confidence has isolated me which has given me these deep-rooted insecurities.

I relate heavily to what you said about losing my sense of self, but it's also a fear of becoming emotionally dependent on someone, because I've never really been allowed that luxury before and I'm afraid of what will happen to me if I can't live without it.

I don't know what to do at this point, but either way, thanks for explaining some things that I couldn't.

>>9195994
Never came in a vagina since?

>>9195356
Don't most people do it the other way around?

>>9196332
I know it's probably not what you meant, but I feel incomplete as well. Incomplete in the way I know I am, and the way I want to be, and the difference between those two.

>>9198711
no :^(

>>9200517
Don't do it; it's not fucking worth it.

http://www.cosmopolitan.com/sex-love/a9088252/no-sex-for-a-year/

Can you believe it? No sex for a whole year. Crazy!

>>9200873
Looks like the type of girl who in a week has more intercourse than the average 4chan user has in his lifetime.

>>9188316
tfw you're that pleb.

>>9200881
once?

>>9200873
Fuck I thought that was Morena Baccarin for a second.

I have to write an essay tomorrow and take a test I haven't studied for, so I think I'm just gonna skip instead and enjoy a breath of fresh air outside.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1y7G1Jig7Jk

>>9194257
Me too, Anon.

>>9194866
You'll get it right next time Anon.

>>9194257
you might be depressed. try exercising I guess. helped me a lot.

I think the only way I can improve my life is with more money. But I don't know how to get it. Its all I think about and it makes me miserable.

I just want my own place and a few simple things. I went to school, worked my ass off, got a technical degree and I have this shit tier go-nowhere job where I earn peanuts. Other people in my class started companies, got hired by the big tech corps and will be able to retire in their 30's.

Every time I mention what school I went to and where I studied I get looks of confusion -- How could you have gone there and be such a poor dead-end loser?

I just want enough to be on my own. No more listening to room mates fucking at all odd hours, parking spot battles, awkwardness, passive aggressiveness.

Why is it so hard to earn enough to get your own fucking place?

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>>9201094
Money won't make you happy anon

>>9192998
>although if you're looking to develop your body equally all over it's not the best thing
wew lad
tell that to the gymbros who have skipped legs day for years

>>9201133
I just want my own place. Not earning enough to afford a 1br apt with all of my other expenses is what really makes me miserable.

Money won't solve all my problems but it'll give me stuff that'll make me happier I think.

I even started reading a bunch of econ and finance books... but I feel like its not in my blood to ever be anything but a poorfag.

>>9201138
I saw a guy at the gym last Friday who had pretty obviously been skipping leg day. Poor fucker's legs were like toothpicks, despite having bulky arms and a big chest.

>>9201162
I wonder what's with that attitude? Anybody can see their chicken legs. It looks even worse when their upper body is so big.
Developed legs look so fucking good.

>>9201161
>Not earning enough to afford a 1br apt with all of my other expenses is what really makes me miserable.
Take my advice with a grain of salt. But maybe given your circumstances, finding new room mates might be an easier solution than obsessing over how to make enough to live on your own for the time being.

I'm stupid as hell. I ate a bowl of Nutella and now feel like I'm dying. This is not the first time this has happened, either. I should know better by now, but I always repeat my mistake.

I'm going to have a painful shit later. To keep it related to the board, I'm trying to figure out how I want my comic to go and nothing feels right yet.

>>9201264
>I'm stupid as hell. I ate a bowl of Nutella and now feel like I'm dying.

This is pretty funny. Hope your comic turns out fab, Nutella-bro

>>9201295
Thanks. My main struggle is the beginning. I know most of the scenes, just not necessarily their order. I'd like it to be as captivating as it can be right out of the gate.

>>9201332
Start with the protagonist lighting a cigarette after just having fucked some broad

>>9201365
That's not quite an option, but I do like the concept. It's intended for young adults, the protag is a teenage delinquent. Unsure if I want to start off with her spying on people, skipping class, or something else. What kind of stuff does a rebel do in a small, close-knit community?

>>9201133
money doesn't bring happiness, but it tends to ward away certain specific kinds of unhappiness... i.e. the unhappiness of living in a capitalistic society populated by people who tend to be much more viscous and driven than me

>>9201377
smoke and drink malt-liquor behind the cornerstore

My fetishes have reached such a depth that they are no longer merely disgusting, but depraved.

This realm is the crucible of a crusade for the inevitable ragnarok. our greatest heros will use word smithing and conjury of the spoken word to craft this reality, but ultimately all will be destroyed and something more beautiful will emerge. This is not an endorsement of giving up, but contrary keep up the good fight, be strong and hold steadfast in knowing that others share your struggle.

Kurtz did absolutely nothing wrong

I could get up, walk to the ocean and then into the waves...right now...nothing would stop me and it'd be done, so simply and so easily.

>>9202222
The numbers are telling you to kill yourself, anon.

>>9202232
That, or to go buy a lottery ticket.