I am someone in a very similar situation as you; I recently realized that I have burnt through almost all regular forms of entertainment and normal art just seems so repetitive that it's plain annoying at this point; I am essentially bored with movies, tv shows, games and porn; Novelty can sometimes cause and a kind of bland curiosity but it can't hold my interest long anymore.
I am not sure if I truly enjoy books but it’s the only source of new insights and I seem to need new insights to stay alive or I fear that I might simply stagnate until I become obsolete and die.
So, what do we do? Do we burn through literature and philosophy until it becomes boring as well? Do we reach the apex of philosophical understanding just to realize that "True" understanding of the universe is merely the state death?
I don't know but I propose this; we don't seek intellectual enlightenment, we do not seek to embody god on earth; instead we seek to live an earthly existence to its fullest.
That more often than not means a traditional existence; A simple family, a decent partner to bring that much need feminine energy into your life which further allows you find purpose in work even if there is no novelty or sense of intellectual fulfilment. So, basically, what I am saying is that we should not fetishize knowledge because the world of intellectuals is a sterile wasteland. Maybe we should seek fulfilment in simple earthly things so we won’t need knowledge to justify our existence. Then again, maybe I am wrong about all of this and maybe redemption lies in knowledge. I don't know.
Desu, don't listen to above anon, but maybe you are right
I was in a similar situation but I think I might be addicted to the dopamine rush I get when I find new information
>>9137058
>the world of intellectuals is a sterile wasteland
What would an autistic brainlet know about the world of intellectuals? Also:
>talking to a pasta
>>9137079
what ? why would some someone do something like that ? I thought I was talking heart to heart with anon. Is everything fake on the internet ?
>>9137220
I made the pasta and I always post it. I see your posts.
I always post it because it is a high level description of my malaise without going on about the philosophical parts in more detail.
My current solution is to avoid all advice and just do stuff that is fun or challenging and try to do the bare minimum of what is expected of me (reading boring canon books). I will hopefully wake up tomorrow having accepted this.
>>9137058
How to understand Art:
>find a crush
>ask her out, no matter how autistic and shy you are
>get obviously rejected
>as the emotional suffering starts start reading poetry and channel all of those intense feelings into something as beautiful as artistic contemplation
That's it. Regardless of how jaded and cynic you are, after that you will be able to read comfortably poetry without feeling pretentious, since you know now how it works. Later on you may want to study metrics and composition to deepen your appreciation for it.
Don't listen to people who tell you to "just" start reading. Out of boredom only entertainment can arise, and that's not what classics are there for.
>>9137385
I am not autistic, I am dyslexic.
>>9137058
>That more often than not means a traditional existence; A simple family, a decent partner to bring that much need feminine energy into your life which further allows you find purpose in work even if there is no novelty or sense of intellectual fulfilment. So, basically, what I am saying is that we should not fetishize knowledge because the world of intellectuals is a sterile wasteland. Maybe we should seek fulfilment in simple earthly things so we won’t need knowledge to justify our existence. Then again, maybe I am wrong about all of this and maybe redemption lies in knowledge. I don't know.
I WILL NOT AFFIRM THE WILL TO LIVE
I WILL NOT AFFIRM THE WILL TO LIVE
I WILL NOT AFFIRM THE WILL TO LIVE
>>9137542
What do you mean by this ? Is this something that refutes my assertion ?
>>9137385
>get rejected
Is that the most necessary part?