What's that word for when you realise that you'll look back at the previous year and a half and realise it was completely wasted?
>finished a degree I hated
>worked retailcuck part time jobs
>barely read more than 5 books
>did maybe a month's worth of productive stuff in my free time
>went to the gym regularly and lifts went up but ate lots of junk food and had coffee enough to harm sleep at times
>main hobby was taking walks or driving and feeling sad about my life and telling myself I would work extremely hard to learn productive skills tomorrow
>wasted gigantic amounts of time on internet and 4chan browsing
>told myself every day that I'd start working hard and eating healthily tomorrow and having genuine false hope almost every time
Anon you sound a bit like the Knight of Infinite Resignation.
>>8785070
existentialism in the past regard
everything in the future is just as meaningless btw
We call it being.
Life is like Ice Climber. Even if you become good at it and reach your goals, it still is fucking awful. Your sense of happiness must come from something else besides "success" in life.
>>8785070
my
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Alcoholism
>>8785094
fucking lol this is a good metaphor
>>8785094
you just have to pick something so hard that you probably won't be able to achieve, why do u think rich dudes always talking about going to mars or curing hiv or something? it's cuz there's only a tiny chance those can happen in our lifetimes, which mean dudes who already blew through their goal of starting a billion dollar business still have something to strive for...that's what makes humans so rad, they just keep striving for greater shit, who knows what wacky shit homosapiens will dream up next, enjoy it
>>8785070
welcome to postgrad life
>>8785070
Not one word, part of the human experience. You will learn from it, then move on. Or not. Both things are true.