Feel my pain /lit/. I'm heartbroken

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So I wrote this "spoken word" piece. Obviously haven't spoken it yet.

But here, I just needed to share it. See if you can guess what happened. I hope the emotions come through:
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Your animosity towards me

It comes earned and deserved.

There's a reason for everything on this earth, and the reason you hate me is the same reason you hate yourself and your worth

You tried so hard to deal with our sin as if you didn't fuck over your best friend.

You tried to pretend nothing happened, that there wasn't a semblance of emotion that went into the action....

I too, messed up,
I too am guilty

We are both filthy with lies and deceit, but only your desire makes ends meet

and what about mine?

What we did was wrong,
What we did was our swan song, our final retreat into bliss, our final kiss, before we took all the missteps into darkness

You swore my emotions and heart, you'd never twist

just as I swore to him

but I guess with this arrow I missed
and narrowly it was flicked with my wrist

and fallen, just as he am I

so when I think about your hate towards me, I already know why

There's a reason for everything on this earth, and because you knew that I had such worth

you bit the apple, took the bait and swallowed it. Hook and all, you fell

and I did not grace your fall

I followed straight after, with laughter and an amalgamation of patience,
you waited

Now we're stuck in this dark plane of shade, and while i always knew I was jaded, I didn't know that the choice is make would be the blade

stuck in my back by your hand, all because, yes, I cheated on my man and your best friend

But congratulations,
you get to leave guilt free, because your desires and whims don't involve me

and boys will be boys,
just as dogs will be dogs

So wolf and bark and play with your paws while I bawl and bawl my eyes out

feeling a gut wrenching pain, your disdain doesn't come easy, believe me

I regret it all too
but if there's one thing I don't regret
it's meeting you

because through you I found myself and learned that no amount of wealth or self-hatred could bring me to my knees again

a friend you were and even then

You couldn't care to make amends, and just like that

this is the end