I'm literally can't get passed my sexuality

File: 1503086992884.jpg (76KB, 742x651px) Image search: [Google]

76KB, 742x651px

I'm like a demented madman when it comes to my sexuality and what I get off too, I keep asking myself do I really like cocks or do I like girls. Am I just a perverted mentally ill person?

When I jerk off to porn I get a numbing effect, and don't think about what I'm actually attracted to because the screen has hot sexual tension, big cocks, hot girl bodies/faces, girls moaning. I'm pretty sure porn made me this way and this confused. (((They))) said pornography was healthy, (((they))) lied. Not even once.

Porn actually made me suck dick, think about it for a sec, porn made a straight guy with low self esteem suck dicks, there's no going back from sucking a dick, the Pandora's box has been open.

I never get pussy because I had crippling social anxiety and learnt to avoid people so I never got to know anyone of my peers. Also, im so afraid of any kind of social reject that I completely avoid being in that kind of situations, so I don't get rejected (pic of a black guys pointing index finger at his temple). This is basically how I've lived my whole life and that's a big reason why "don't get any pussi". Also autism.