So...I've started transitioning a week or so ago. I've gone out in public wearing nail polish before, so I'm not afraid of being seen as faggy or whatever (I'm definitely not going to dress up if it looks bad tho).
Problem is, I've known I was bi for a while, but I'm having a bunch of transitioning fears.
Like, when I'm around girls who I don't know, I assume masculine form, and start being overtly masculine. I'm not trying to, but my body just kinda does it itself. I'm normal around guys, being all faggy and stuff, but the moment girls start hanging out, or I meet someone's GF that over never met - I start hiding all my female stuff. It gets better if I know them and I can't kind of "come out", but idk, I feel embarassed about how they see or something.
And another thing is. I have a few guy crushes. But my guy crushes and relationships don't have the same oomph that my female crushes have.
I'm honestly getting afraid I'm just a trender, and I'll get past all of this and settle down with a wife.
At the same time, my therapist seemed pretty certain about all of this, and everytime I think back, I've had people telling me throughout my life since like 5 y/o that "I'm different" or my old step brother would tell me "it's ok to be gay" when I was like...8.
Am I delusional and reading too much pol? Am I a transbian? Is it wrong if im not attracted to other trans people, even if they pass? Am I some sort of faggy trender?
>>8857166
Do you have dysphoria?
>>8857198
Duh. I wouldn't be shooting myself up with estrogen if I didn't. Is dysphoria really the only thing that matters with being trans?
>>8857166
Natal males can't be trenders.
>>8857250
>lies that mansbians tell themselves
>>8857217
yeah its kinda hard to be trans if you don't have dysphoria
>>8857273
You can be trans without having dysphoria. There's something called "gender euphoria" – you may be comfortable with your assigned gender, but if you feel better with another gender, you should transition.