Who else suicidal

ill p rob do it soon desu i dont give a fuck anymore

sick of seeing people who got lucky with genetics bitch and moan

>>8831308
I'm thinking about doing it this weekend or soon I'm past the point of caring too.

>>8831306
I'm definitively ending myself within a year (though the temptation to do it right now is pretty strong) if I don't become at least somewhat passable (which tbhon is unlikely despite what some people have told me - my body frame is simply fucked up beyond repair).

>>8831344
I totally get this I gave myself the year but yea my body and face are messed up I'm just to masculine to pass but I hope things get better for you tbhon I wouldn't wish this on anyone

>>8831308
>>8831336
>>8831344

you think when you end your life, it is your end.. you are very wrong.. This life will be like paradise compared to what is to come.. don't be foolish..

>>8831357
What do you mean??? Like hell or the vast nothingness?

>>8831369
Hellfire..

>>8831357
[citation needed]

>>8831372
Yea still would rather take my chances than to live this shitty existence.

>>8831382

I am warning you now..

no matter what hardship befalls you in this world.. no matter how severe it is.. the punishment of the Hereafter is beyond worse than it.

>>8831395
>>8831374

who tf aint

>>8831306
kys then

Yeah but not even because I'm a tran

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>>8831306
It's a matter of time
I keep trying to make friends, it never works. Hell, I don't even fit in on discord channels

All I've ever wanted was a place to belong, people who genuinely miss me when I'm not there

I keep trying and embarrassing myself and making things worse. It's time to take a hint

just know that you have been warned.. and when you make that move, I hope it remains in the back of your mind.. I was only trying to protect you from eternal pain.

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>>8831422
I would be your friend desu.. what kind of music do you like?

>>8831306
me! me! :3
only gotta find a good time to >~< when no one's looking hehehe

>>8831432
I really like rock music, most anything from Elvis, Nirvana to metal
You?

Me!

>>8831442
Same tbqhon I'm into a lot of psych rock Tame Impala, Tycho, Washed Out stuff like that... Im from the US northeast hbu?

not really suicidal. But regretted that I missed some war and chance to leave world in style.

>>8831516
Not the same person but I love washed out have you heard the new album??

>>8831516
I live in Texas, it's not any worse than anywhere else I've been is all I can say

>>8831422
>I don't even fit in on discord channels
That's because discord isn't designed to form close communities, If you want to fit in on a text-chat try IRC.

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>>8831573
What's IRC?

>>8831577
internet relay chat
like, primitive chatrooms

>>8831577
For all practical purposes think of it as the predecessor of Discord.

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>>8831306
>suicidal
>tfw got bored of this feel
wtf do i feel now, it's like there's nothing left

Me. Feel unloved

>you live your sexuality as a spinning wheel and you have conflicting feelings about it for years
>you feel like you'll never be ready for any relationship even though you want to be with someone
>you're never enough for others and your efforts are always useless
>you don't have the balls to kill yourself so you wake up every day and do the same hateful routine until you fall asleep crying in your bed
Shit, I hate this life

>>8831306
Not lately, although I pretty much spend all my time alive avoiding living anyway.

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>>8831306
Me but I just found out ketamine works for my type of BP in preliminary studies so I just have to be a vegetable 5+ years until it gets approved for treatment/clinical trials I can actually be a part of show up (so far it's all major depression here)
https://www.jbrf.org/wp-content/uploads/JAD-article_KetaminePilotStudy.pdf


I everything goes right I'll be stable enough to either transition or help my issues with gender and then I'll be able to continue to be an ugly NEET with no chance of mating or landing a job due to lack of general experience because I was stuck in my basement for the first 30 years or my life

Might be better to just end it now but I have someone relying on me so I'll just hibernate and hope for the best


>>8831573
But IRC has the opposite issue of forming cliques you can't get into unless you joined when the channel formed (and discord has the same one it's just harder to find smaller channels usually)

> because discord isn't designed to form close communities
Elaborate?
From what I remember about IRC discord works pretty much the same and from my experience has the same social dynamics if the right size of group is reached
The only reason it feels different because discord has those giant servers with hundreds of members imo

>>8831577
Like discord but old and really crude

>>8831357
Even if there is hell, I'm going there anyway.

>>8831395
okay.. thanks.. anon..

>>8831573
this
and overall people online dont give a fuck and dont bond
it all feels expendable, non-personal and almost not real when all the communication is so trivial and has no consequences

>>8831684
damn it hurts to realize that Im walking the same path, uselss neet for 10 years and I've lost all the social skills and ability to work even if I could before, Ive no clue what to do even when Im nnot that depressed I feel so lost
yeah its the same and the same group dynamics everywhere - irc, jabber, skype, discord, whatever -
people form groups then get tired of eachother, start conflicts and fall apart,
Ive been through so many and the only really old one that still functions and has core of the same guys (for ~15 years no less) is people connected by the same hobby/profession

and big public servers are completely garbage for finding even online buddies or for communities even if its fun

>>8831306
See >>8827139

>>8831306
I remember being like you guys :/ feels bad but sometimes things become less shitty you know.....

Or u get the right medication desu and you can go about your life feeling nothing at all uwu

>>8831920
i wish i had medication umu

>>8831920
If you are going to feel nothing,you may as well be dead.

>>8832129
I got on HRT and Im feeling much better
life still objectively sucks tho and I will die alone but at least I dont hate every second of it

>>8831585
Except it's better.

>>8831306
Pretty much everyone who isn't rich at this point.

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>>8831306
I think I will go to a psychiatrist soon.
I have been having some hardcore panic attacks, mixed with the depression and stuff.

I'm not even sleeping properly and I feel like I'm having a heart attack every day or so.

I went to a doctor a while ago, did a ton of blood tests and he kept telling me I was super healthy and fine despise me feeling really shitty all the time.

I'm starting to think all these terrible feels that make me stay in the bed all day are just my dysphoria going out of control because I have been repressing for quite a while.

I will ask for all kinds of strong drugs they can give me so I don't an hero or break down so I can continue repressing instead of telling my family about this tranny shit.

But yeah in the worst case, I will grab some duct tape, some tubing and an hero with the car exhaust.

Probably nothing I'm saying makes sense or sounds coherent but I'm kinda having a panic attack right now so It's hard to think straight.

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As long as i die in a threesome from being sucked dry from pussy and gaging on a nice cock while i play with her tits ill i have stamina like a meth addict

I'm suicidal because I don't value a life without love and romance.

>>8831422
i know it sounds cheesy but... there's always people who care about you. you can add me on discord if you want, my discord is a k a n e#2033 we can talk about all sorts of random shit.

>>8833411
>Any other LGBT anons in this thread who are suicidal, but not because they are a self defeating tranny or NEET that inflicts their own suffering on themselves? I feel like I am the only one.
Did you miss my post about treatment resistant basically inborn mental illness? >>8831684

>>8833358
My dude

Anyone here willing to kill me? You can do w/e with my body

anyone in ontario wanna form a suicide pact?

>>8834926
I'm in Ontario. Let's make a pact NOT to kill ourselves, and to make the best of our lives.

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Already tried killing myself once before with an overdose a few months ago. I was in the hospital for a day and a half attached to a machine that pumped an antidote into me then I was placed in a psych unit for a little over a week. The unit was a complete joke and just felt like some type of summer camp.

Been thinking of finally killing myself soon, possibly by the end of this month. Trying to decide if I want to jump off a building or onto an oncoming train. Shooting myself in the head sounded appealing until I read that it can fail if you do it wrong and you'll just end up with a fucked up looking face and probably have brain damage.

I haven't talked or seen in my friends in almost a month so I won't be missed.

>>8834976
not unless you're willing to be my bf

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>>8834996
I don't know, this seems kind of sudden... are you cute?

>>8835016
...no

okay back to looking for someone to make a suicide pact with me

>>8835028
I'm in nb

mtf and had male pattern baldness start at 17, 18 now. i have like no relatives that have had it bad until their 40's, and my hairline is already patchy and fucked. hrt isn't helping it either
my gollum rat hair is probably the worst thing stopping me from even slightly passing tbhon. i've also always been pretty low T, not sure why that didn't prevent it

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>>8831306
>>8831344
>>8834990
>>8831336
>>8831308

I'l see you in the next life anon

>>8831357
*draws katana* For me... *grins wickedly* it'll be like going home.

>>8831357
Only one way to find out.

>>8833104
Im pretty much in the same situation
Dont wanna hurt my parents.