Asexual, does best friend have sexual feelings for me?

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sorry for posting again, I just figured a title might get a couple more responses

>ftm
>best friend has expressed crush on me numerous times over the last 2 years an made me feel horrible dysphoria
>still friends because I was desperate for friends
>now he thinks I have a dick because I showed him a pic of me in underwear and pack around him now
>I asked once and he denies feelings now but I'm still scared

I'm still pre t but very andro, most strangers label me male, and have gotten a lot more masculine than when he first liked me. The complication is that I have feelings for him romantically but would never never want to kiss or bang him, and the thought of him wanting to do that or jerking off to the thought of me makes me suicidal. We cuddle when we're alone together very often, and even though he never has a boner even if we spend the entire night and morning holding each other, does that even mean anything?

I guess I'm just paranoid because closer to the beginning of our friendship he told me he only talked to me because he wanted to fuck me. He made it pretty clear since then he wouldn't stick around if that was the case, but I just really really don't want him to like me that way.

Is there any way to know if he does? Is it possible for a virgin guy like him to even have this sort of relationship where we cuddle and can be sort of sub/dom at times, without him thinking sexual thoughts? It would literally make me want to die if that was the case, but l need to know for sure.