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hey, so i wanna tell you guys the story of my degeneration.
>be me, 21. six months ago
>officer in the army (not the USA)
>am gay
>moved out of my folks to live on my own in the big city (am from a small town)
>get a shitty salary as an officer
>parents give me extra money to get by
>im beautiful but have body issues (used to be fat when i was 16, lost weight but still have this constant thought that im still obese)
>start going out to clubs
>have so much fun, have sex like 5 times a night in the bathrooms, dance my ass off, go home
>up to this time just smoke weed (a big no-no in the army obviously)
>even though i have fun in clubs im still really lonely and have no actual friends to just hang out with
>start drinking on my own
>stop eating (used to not eat for 4 days, then have a big meal, then not eat for another 4 days)
>lose 12 kg in 2 months
>am borderline anorexic
>stop visiting parents
>parents eventually see me
>i look like a skeleton
>mom breaks down (she has a lot on her plate with my dad and brother and grandma [they considered me theyre only good achievement cuz i was gifted and love reading and really kinda intelligent])
>dad doesnt know what to do
at this point its just club sex, weed daily, alcohol and no food
>they all give me an intervention
>i promise to change
>am willing to change and start eating and working out and living a bit healthier (i smoke cigarettes)
>start trying to make an effort
>become miserable in the army
>start going to heavier clubs (not the usual edm ones, but hardcore techno parties)
>dont tell any of this to parents
>start doing speed
>start doing MDMA
>proceed to cocaine
>proceed to ketamine
>proceed to gina
>proceed to MD coated with meth
this was a prolonged process, not all of them came in one time
>be 3 weeks ago
>resigned from the army
>be last weekend
>been partying for 4 straight days (still waiting to be released from the army)
>took all of the above in those 4 days and a lot of them
>been depressed ever since
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>deal with equipment in the army
>am in charge of A LOT of equipment
>i think some is lost
>i may go into prison for a long time
>scared
and another instance that happened that made me almost insane:
>be a month and a half ago
>on sick leave
>arrested for possession of narcotics (just weed, hash and oils)
>they find out im a soldier
>by law they have to tell the MP
>released after 5 hours, not told anything
>dont sleep for 2 days
>take a lawyer
>dont actually have any money becuase of the drugs and bills and rent so have to take a lown
>now im seriously broke
fuck guys, i dont know if you can really tell how crazy all this shit was, like all of this happened in 6 months.
im seriously down, sad and depressed and having some bad thoughts..
but thanks for the read!
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>>8764876
https://youtu.be/Hm7vnOC4hoY
is it illegal to tell people to kill themselves on the internet nowadays?
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Wow who fucking cares
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>>8764875
>military officer
>lives with parents
seems legit
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>>8764875
>gina
>MD
What are these?
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