Am I a bad person help

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>be poor AF student
>for kicks check craigslist m4m
>some guy offering to be "generous" for a young guy
>why not
>ask how generous
>he offers $100
>I take it
>we trade info and decide to meet at a gay bathhouse
>i've never been to one before
>meet up with him
>he's like 60
>notice ring on finger
>oh no
>want to run but also kinda want $100
>he pays our way in
>we get a room
>spend like 15 minutes searching for room
>wonder if he's senile
>we sit down on the bed in the room
>he tells me about his first gay experience on a skiing trip when he was like 18
>complains about regretting his marriage and shit
>says he's never liked his wife and hasn't had sex in 10 years
>i sit and nod awkwardly
>we get naked
>he's hard
>i'm super soft
>like I am the softest I have ever been. My cock has shrinked from what size it usually is. It's cold from lack of blood flow, I am that unaroused
>he's so attractive
>he basically directs me through various positions, he's clearly ashamed that I'm not in to it
>i pretend to smile and moan and shit
>eventually he just jerks off on to his chest since we mesh so poorly
>we clean up and leave
>he hands me the $100
>try to not take it, I felt bad that I performed so badly and was generally not good
>he insists
>end up taking it out of pity for him
>"see you next time" he says
>give awkward grin, wave and say yeah
>instantly block his email

I feel bad about this /lgbt/ what do? Pic related its me RN