Can we get a feels thread? What's bothering ya /lgbt/

I've already moaned about this in /gaygen/, but I can go again; my dick doesn't work and I'm 22 and I'm incredibly sad. My balls are fine, and I'm still getting horny, but I've got a literal broke dick.

>>8719475
>tfw you will never be a real girl
>tfw you were too late to even be an approximation of a real girl
>tfw a couple years made all the difference in how your life turned out
>tfw you will be miserable forever

Trent is dead but his barbarian hordes persist still. Unorganized and weakened, but there.

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can't stop thinking about my ex who dumped me last week.

I'll never meet a trans girlfriend that will actually love me and want to have a meaningful relationship with me

>>8719503
Why, anon? What makes you think that?

I am white but I only read this board to understand minorities but god damn I must admit how much I hate these degenerated piece of shit like how much they are antistraight and complaing so much of "heterosexual normitive" Jesus fuck how mentally ill thinking that is. And why the fuck do gay couples put the wedding ring on the right-hand not everyone but thesedays its somehow cool to go against le norms xDD so fucking degenerated

>>8719505
Because the majority don't want nice relationships just fuck buddies under the guise of a relationship. I want someone to love and someone who will love me

>>8719513
I see. But why do you want a trans girlfriend? What attracts you to them?

I think I fucked up really bad

i met an amazing guy and by being insecure, now he isn't answering my messages and the last time he seemed tired of me being so insecure, he said I was too distant, we were about to go to out in our first date

feels bad man ;-;

>>8719517
First I thought they're different than cisgirls. Nicers, more loving, less slutty. Boy was I wrong.

>>8719487
whats wrong with it?

>>8719521
what happened, anon? why were you insecure. also, maybe take this as a lesson learned. don't let your insecurities show until you've gotten them hooked. then they'll just want to make you feel better rather than get annoyed

>>8719525
So why do you still like trans girls even knowing this? That said, maybe try to join some trans-related discords and talk to trans girls on those

TFW no gf/bf
TFW both physically plain and riddled with emotional problems

I don't feel like I have anything to offer because I'm so far behind on a social level.

>>8719547
I can't find any.
And I've still got hope.

>>8719528
well, I recently came out of the closet so everything is new and scary for me, he was amazing, we talked for about a week, he was really charming and kind and confident, I wasn't sure in how to date to put it in a way, he after a while became warmer with me and became flirty and I became insecure and sometimes didnt know how to keep the dynamic to put it in a way

and the worst part is that actually I was really into him

he hasn't blocked me in whatapp yet, so there is still hope, but I gonna give him a bit of time maybe til tomorrow and see if I can save this

>>8719475
i'm agp.

i hate myself.

>>8719475
every male-presenting person i've ever though a single romantic thought about turned out to be a trans woman

i think i'm an accidental transbian chaser

>>8719564
Ah, I understand, anon. I think you'll get one if you keep working at it. As far as discords go, I see some pop up around here now and then.

Do you have any specific requirements when it comes to trans girls? For example, must they pass or be pretty, or have a certain type of personality?

>>8719475
>MtF
>Can't pass
>Make a pretty decent looking fem guy though
>Have chin surgery to shorten it a bit
>Surgeon fucks up
>Chin went from attractive but bit to long
>to just downright wrong
>Need revision surgery but have basically no money again

This was really the last thing I needed.

>>8719606
No, not really. I just wanna have similar interests as them, and I guess the age limit is 25 since I'm pretty young haha

>>8719586
Mtf or cis girl?

I wanted to transition when I was 18 but it was the 90s and I had no idea what to do, and was too scared to say anything.

I wanted to make a serious try at 24, then again at 29, but I still didn't know how to get help, was too scared, and thought it was too late anyways.

Become intensely suicidal at 34, discover it's easy af to transition now and my wife is practically calling clinics for me. Made appointment at IC clinic within a week.

Now 2 years on HRT, kind of passing - at least nobody stares at me or misgenders me as long as I dress strategically. Still dysphoric as fuck, I look like a man and want to die but I can't leave my family destitute.

Jealous as fuck of shithead kids who can just come out now and it's all fine. Fuck all you 15-23 year old trans bitches on this board complaining about stupid bullshit.

Fuck this life.

Going to try to be anorexic for a while to get rid of as much fat and muscle as possible and then gain it back and pray it helps.

Pretty positive my cause of death will eventually be suicide.

>>8719475

sad that the GSMR community involves so much infighting and presents such a divided front to the world

>>8719633
>tfw 30 and think it's too late

>>8719633
How do you manage to stay on this board when it's crawling with whining youngshits

>>8719527

It won't get hard and the sensation is noticeably reduced. I'm calling the doctor first thing.

I should've come out sooner.

I would've started started truly living earlier and it's not like the extra years in the closet changed any peoples opinion of homosexuality

> 34 year old queer guy
> My wonderfully big dick has a dent in it from peyrionnes disease - it might heal in a year, or I might have to get surgery
> At the point where I might just become a power bottom, I'm so fucking sick of having been a top for my entire life, always dated (even married once) women, messed around with a guy a few times and loved it, I like getting pegged, etc.

>>8719475
What is bothering me is the browning of the U.S, which is normally fine, but mixed with the browning of all of Europe. It saddens me to know that soon the third smartest on average race will no longer exist. That said, also tranny fags and none-binary commies who need to inhale some Ziclone B.

>>8719670
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Peyronie%27s_disease
>looked this up
>wished I hadn't

>>8719655

Because everywhere else is even worse.

>>8719649
It's not going to go away, and it's just going to get worse. Might as well try it now and kys if it doesnt get better after like 5 or so years.

>not having both T and E made me totally not interested in anything sexual
>the pain of dilation made me think what's the point when i'll still die a virgin and can't even justify the pain to be worth it for something great like giving birth to a child
>the smallest dilator being bigger than the original penis used for this hole
>the "surgical packing" was just a long string of disgusting gauze shoved inside

i think i can understand why some folks say vaginas are disgusting now

>>8719666
I feel you, I also came out recently and now I regret the wasted time

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>tfw no gf
>tfw khv

>>8719510
>Muh degeneracy
Also where are these anti straight posters? You are aware they could just be joking right?

>>8719702
What if I don't pass and only end up more miserable?

>see crush of 3 years today
>didn't notice I exist again
Time to kys myself

>>8719525
;_;
Some -do- want a relationship..

>>8719475

I'm a disgusting pig dog who deserves to die... You know just the usual shit.

Friendly reminder: Suicide is always available

>>8719761
Yep that might happen. If you do nothing you might also get to where I was and it's try or die. You have better chances of passing if you start now than waiting for that to happen later. Either way its a completely fucked hand to be delt. Sorry.

>>8719780
Really? Point me to them please.

>>8719781
If you have so much self hatred why do you post disgusting pictures online for everyone to see? Do you not care about yourself? Or the person who will eventually fall in love with you? How do you think they'll feel when they find out you post sexual pictures online

>>8719475
tfw even after you pass and are attractive people still think you are a mentally ill degenerate.

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>>8719823
>disgusting pictures
>sexy pictures
W-which one is it anon

>>8719833
I called them sexual. Not sexy.

>>8719823
>Eventually

Lol no one will ever love me for me only for the person that makes them feel good about themselves.

I have no family, I have three friends and everyone I meet seems to end up hating me... Not sure why my friends bother tbqh...

>>8719838
Poor you
So instead of trying to find someone who actually cares you make yourself the object of random people's lust? There are plenty of people who'd befriend you if you weren't such a disgusting whore.

>>8719521
How were you insurcure?

>>8719841

See no one could ever love me for me.

>>8719837
I can't read very well *shrugs*

That pics okay to me tho

>>8719845
So you decide to make yourself a worse person? Instead of improving? I'm guessing you attract the wrong people because of the pictures you post. You're drawing the wrong crowd that won't love you for you, but because they know you're easy

>>8719846
And you're also a slut so of course it is

>>8719838
>Lol no one will ever love me for me only for the person that makes them feel good about themselves.
>I have no family
Bro we're like twins

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>>8719849

Worse? I haven't changed. I've been a sexual exhibitionist since I was very young.

>>8719855
Hmmm... I wonder why no one loves you for you... it's your own fault. You can change but you won't. You'll just continue to whine about not being loved

>>8719854

Wanna hook up and hate life together?

I can't promise you'll love me, but I know you'll feel loved.

>>8719854
How did your family abandon you?

>>8719695
>Because everywhere else is even worse
In what way?

>>8719865
And this is why no one will ever love you. You're really digging your own grave

I've begun to despise my roommate even though she is supposedly like my best friend. I'm sitting with her in my living room right now and it's just the worst, I can't stand a word that comes out of her mouth. She's so incredibly self absorbed it's astounding. It's to the point where she's not even interesting and doesn't know about things everyone knows about, because all she cares about is her own issues and things that are relevant to them. And now we sit in silence because she asked me to turn off the ambient music that I was playing, despite that if she had been playing her fucking singer songwriter half Christian music I wouldn't have asked her to turn it off.

Also, I'm horny but have decided to stop looking at porn. Which is for the best because I'm 27 and have only had one boyfriend, which was when I was 18 and wasn't a real relationship. He was 30 years old and it was long distance, we saw each other in person twice. So I'm horny and lonely, and miserable with this intolerable around me, and yearning for more.

>>8719849
>you're also a slut so of course it is
I dunno do you think?

>>8719866
I know you're not asking me... But

Dad left when I was two because mum caught him fucking a man in our kitchen.

Mum got hooked on heroin and I got sent to dad.

Dad abandoned me at the rehab farm thing where mum was.

Mum got back into drugs and shipped me off to some relatives a thousand miles away...

Then they abandoned me when I had mental health issues. So I've been independent since I was 16/17. Thankfully I had gotten a scholarship to a good college. But being crazy fucked all that up.. been circling the drain ever since.

Just super confused in general about my gender identity. Used to think I was cis, and that my interest in "gender bender" stuff was just a fetish but I'm not so sure anymore.

>>8719873
I had roommates once. After that I decided I never wanted any ever again.
Living alone is pretty great.

Why have you only had one boyfriend?

>>8719800
Transition and not passing are so scary I don't think I can even choose them, even knowing I have better odds starting earlier.

>Either way its a completely fucked hand to be delt. Sorry.
It's miserable. I'm glad you found a supportive wife.

>>8719865
It's a shame. You seem like a nice person. I'd like to get to know you

>>8719617
cis, but i do like /tttt/

>>8719865
I got a gf tho and nah you can't make me feel loved
>>8719866
why does it matter?

>>8719896

I'm not im a gigantic piece of shit.

>>8719902
Can we be friends? I'd like to be the judge of that

>>8719868
Full of random non-binary identities, hug boxing, overly politically correct, old people dressing like they are 12, going on about their "periods" etc, passing isnt allowed to matter, etc. At least here I can say fuck you all, people are more honest about passing, etc.

>>8719633
Why are you jealous of them, anon?

>>8719781
get that mole checked out asap unless you actually want to die

I'm going back to school next week. I'm feeling confused and indecisive because I need a new laptop and there are literally 500 billion to choose from. I've been searching every day for the last week and every time I search I find a completely different one that I like.

>>8719842
I came out recently, never dated before, I mean irl I'm not a social cripple but dating was a first for me

he with time became flirty and I kinda messed up, I didn't catch the signals sometimes oro was too oblivious to his advances

>>8719913
underage b&

>>8719911

Nevii are checked biannually. You know... Thanks though.

>>8719904
Why... It's not a good idea. I mean you'll walk away stronger and better for it. I'll be straight back here.

>>8719917
I'm 35
I'm going back to school, meaning I already have a degree and I'm getting a new one.

>>8719888
I've never not had roommates, and it's always been awful lol. This is a different situation than I've had before, because me and my current roommate have been friends for like 7 years and only lived together about a year, but it's still terrible. And everything that I have always disliked about her is just magnified, as one would expect.

I've begun to realize that I view love as a prison because of my relationships with my parents, particularly my mom. She was bipolar so from like age 7 I was her counselor. Then after I got out of high school she got really bad for about 4 years, during which time I was actually trapped with her because she would go through suicidal periods and I was the only one around. She eventually did kill herself. So now I have this complex about relationships where I feel immediately (or pre-emptively) trapped by them. And it's not necessarily a false feeling because I do fall into the caretaker role really easily (see current roommate situation). Over the past several years I've been really really picky; I'm realizing now that maybe because I view love as a situation that will trap me, I'm only willing to engage with someone that I feel is at least worthy of being trapped with. It's all pretty messy lol

>>8719920
I'd like to be your friend. How can I add you? Do you have discord or something

>>8719909
Are you dense?

>>8719913
reddit.com/r/suggestalaptop

>>8719930
Lonely#1823

We can be friends and you can drain me of my money and emotional energy.

>>8719895
yep, especially if you have other shit to lose, family or whatever. gl whatever you decide to do

>>8719915
Aweh :(

>>8719633
I feel you so much girl Im from a rural part of the US and there was no resources to help me understand my feelings growing up. All i had was the small amount of internet there was and Maury Povich

>>8719931
I'm not trans, so I'm not quite as aware of trans issues as many here are. You said you pass, so what's the problem? It's not like you're Caitlyn Jenner

>>8719963
I'm not the same as posted about jealousy but is it hard to tell why? When you see some underage complaining about trivial bullshit when they've had basically everything handed to them

>>8720021
I suppose, but young people go through their struggles as well. The goal is to pass, right? That sounds like her goal was attained. The life she wants is now hers to live. So I don't understand why that jealousy is still there, and why she intends to kill herself.

>>8720090

Because I can't just be like a normal woman. My face passes well enough, and I can hide my body with clothes, but I still have to look at it every day.

My voice can pass when I focus on it enough, but it sucks having to concentrate on your speech for every word you say. I can't yell or speak very loudly, which comes up often enough to be an issue.

I forgot to mention I have bad balding, so I have to wear wigs - which means running, swimming, camping, staying at other peoples houses etc are all added stress.

Even when I do my best to hide my body with clothes I look like a masculine woman, especially from behind because of my wider shoulders and complete lack of hips/ass.

I just want to be normal, and never will be. Every moment requires effort to not be seen as a man, and I don't know if it will ever get better.

I am jealous of kids today because trans shit is all over the media, there's multiple gender clinics in every major city, it's obvious how to get help if you want it and there are thousands of examples of successful transitions.

>>8719500
Know that feel man. Been five months for me and I'm still driving myself crazy over it. He moved on almost instantly. I feel fucking pathetic.

Wanna talk about it?

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>>8719959
update, I didn't fucked up, holy shit, he was watching a movie and couldn't reply, the universe gave me a second chance

>lived in the city for several years
>moved back to the country with my mom because I thought she needed me there
>no friends there, only made it back to the city to see my friends once in a while
>feel like I'm missing out too much, move back after a year
>have fun for the first month, drinking and doing drugs and hanging out with my friends again but it quickly starts to feel boring and pointless
>girl i used to date has a bf and only wants to be friends now (and isn't affectionate like she used to be even as friends)
>don't know what to do anymore

how to happiness? I thought getting back here and having a social life was the first step but it hasn't really helped. I just feel so hollow.

I just started my MtF transition at 18.

I'm afraid I will never get a cute boyfriend. That there will not be a guy who sees me as just another girl.

>>8720285
>>8720285
Can we be friends
I'd like more younger friends

>>8719475
Cant feel like I trust this guy because of bpd, even though he reassures me telling me im doing fine.

The last person I was with always reassured me everything was okay and then exploded on me, I feel like its impossible to fully trust anyone

>>8720341
Rock a tag on here. Otherwise it'd be hard for me to keep track of you :)

I'm Olivia, but Livs works too!

>>8720285
>That there will not be a guy who sees me as just another girl.
So be happy with a guy who loves you for who and what you are.

>>8720365
I'll pass on that. If I need to be a tripfag to be your friend I'd rather not

>>8720374
Huh? Well I don't see how we can be friends here if I don't know when im actually speaking to you, silly!

>>8720398
Do you have steam? Maybe we can play a game sometime also
Or discord or anything

>>8720406
I only play on PlayStation network. Sorry hun.

>>8720417
I've got a ps4 and ps3. We can play sometime on there. And a vita

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>>8720176
>tfw transitioned in my teens
>tfw still will never be like a normal woman
>tfw will always have dysphoria and self loathing
You're not missing out on much

>>8719475

I wish gaygen would get shut down.

>>8720627

Considering how slow it is, compared to how fast it was in the past, it's almost like it has been.

I want a trans girl community that is like 4chan but is left wing and not full of so much trolling

no, tumblr is not what i'm looking for

also i wish i could shapeshift and had eternal youth

>>8721346
that'd be awesome

>>8720617
that helps tbqh, sorry to hear you're miserable too.

>>8721684
If there's one thing that ties trans people together, it's their misery. A sad truth, unfortunately

I'm retarded af and didn't work on my voice so now when I talk rip passing

and school starts again in a week...

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>>8719475
>gay
>fap
>not gay anymore
wtf is wrong with me?

>>8719475
>tfw can't find decent lace-up boots for a human price that exist in my size

>>8721346
agreed

tumblr is nice but the format doesn't really work as well as this

>>8719811
I'm MtF and I've been in a really great relationship with my bf since november, plus I can even count the number of times we've actually had sex on two hands.

>>8720176
The worst thing for me is also my voice. I pass if I put on makeup and put effort into my voice but I agree that it's torture never being able to feel comfortable singing/shouting/laughing. Half the time I whisper or use hand gestures with my bf because I hate my voice so much.

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>>8719475
im angry
angry about the hons

>>8719475
Everything fucking hurts.
Literally every joint in my body took a pounding over the weekend.
I have a major hangover.
My hearing is dead.
I spent all weekend disconnected from reality, living in a field, being a metalhead, in a society where it's perfectly acceptable to strike up conversations with random people, or to wander around drunk and sharing booze with people in exchange for some of theirs, mixing a wierd sort of punch/cocktail as you go.
I have never felt more myself, or more like I belonged somewhere.

Now I'm back in reality and I have to go back to being my usual self again.
How can I go back to my shitty job and normie life after that? It took me 15 minutes just to remember how to drive a car, and I'm still not used to being indoors again yet.
I have experienced heaven, and then I had to leave and go home because it ended.

How is this lgbt related? I got hit on by guys so much over the weekend. I'm still not entirely comfortable with that, or sure how to go about fucking guys I randomly meet. Or if I even CAN when I'm drunk.
And I met a flaming camp ginger cutie who's training to be a massage therapist, and found out that playing Queen at night attracts half-naked gay men.

>>8719475
I'm not sure if my penis is average

>>8719633
>Pretty positive my cause of death will eventually be suicide.
Just try and hold on until everyone who cares about you is dead.

That's my plan. Once there's nobody else and I'm just faced with eking out the last few decades of life dependent on the state and charities, wasting the time of younger people as they cater to my needs? I'm just going to save everyone the effort and kill myself on my own terms. Live like a playboy and kill myself when the money runs out, ideally somewhere easy to clean up and where I won't be left to rot for weeks before anyone finds out what happened.

>>8722531
Oh, and american society apparently fell apart over the weekend, and all I can find are analysis and bias and 'why we need to talk about X'.
Can anyone explain to me what the fuck actually happened? Or link me to a news site on it?
I'm still readjusting to using a computer again, and having electricity and trustworthy water on tap.
And indoor plumbing. I have fucking missed proper toilets that aren't surrounded by mud.

>>8719475
I'm thinking about my feminine penis

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>>8722536
is this ok?

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>>8722596
>be me
>heavy agp mtf
>think id actually be happy in a relationship with a man, as a woman
>this guy posts his dick, it doesn't even look so bad
>almost puke

good job idiot for shattering my self image. ima go back to celibacy as a filthy transbian I refuse to acknowledge myself as

>>8722606
Ehy, better on the internet than irl baby.
What would have happened if a man pulled his dick out in front of you and you reacted like this?
I saved your life

>>8722615
true story

but I actually enjoyed talking to gay men and hanging around them, and really deluded myself into thinking that it would be ok to date or have sex with a guy

because for me it's not acceptable to be the manly one in relationship. however as AMAB I can never be anything else than the man in a relationship with a woman, or a transwoman

fuck my life

>>8722596
I like it.

>>8722596
what's up with that scar on your right thigh?

>>8722683
>>8722683
It's from when i was very very little. Nothing interesting.

>>8722596
are you cis male? That dick is hot, the scar is cute, would sniff

I wish just one time a hung Trans / trap would let me sick on their dick.

>>8722785
I'm bi-curious, I'm lurking here out of curiosity because I've never been on this board before. Thanks btw

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>>8719510

>>8722805
oh, well you should definitely try out a boyfriend, the right one will love you more than any girl!

>>8719475
I haven't had an erecting in the past 5 days and it is really worrying considering erectile dysfunction shouldn't set in in about 20-30 years.

>>8719475
A year ago when i had a girlfriend i've met a gay young man. In the meantime i've broken up with her and questioned if i'm bi many times. Now he came back from a year in Italy and we've matched on Tinder. I'm really confused and we haven't texted yet.
Pls halp magic internet people

My boyfriend is a manchild. I honestly can't see future with him, but I'm also afraid to break up. I'm just tired of him having no ambitions and just wasting his time.

>>8723265
If you're questioning it, you're probably not straight anon. Do you like the guy? Message him! Might as well give it a shot.

>>8723350
What ambition do you want him to have? What are your ambitions? Bi mtf or gay dude?

>>8723371
Gay dude, I'm 27, he's 26... I'm not asking him to be the next Donald Trump I just want him to get education or a job. He just wants to live on welfare. I'm a registered nurse by myself so I can't ask for much but one day I want to buy a house, and that's impossible with him.

>>8719475
im a chaser and none of you stupid trannies will give me a chance. i hope trump makes hrt illegal

The guy I love has given up on fixing his broken life and will probably kill himself eventually.

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>>8724026

>>8719503
Try me! LGBT, and I think it's safe to say especially transgender people, have a lot of difficulty meeting people who they believe will accept them for who they are. We have a lot of love to give, maybe more than usual, but nobody to give it to!

>>8724036
Does he know you live him? Give him a reason to live.

>>8720195
damn sorry to hear, and sure anon have a kik?

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>no gf
>nearing my 30s
>horribly shitty manufacturing job
>sober
>have to pay back disability overpayment when I was a neet
>poor
>refuse to suck dick to better my life
>want to kill myself

what if i'm lonely because loneliness is all i've ever known? does this mean i hate myself if i do not actively pursue or cultivate meaningful personal relationships?

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>mfw gender identity issues in my mid twenties
I have a fair amount of personal issues with myself and I am now convinced it is due to gender dysphoria. I still have my doubts, but I still want to talk to someone about it. If I am right, then I worry about my parents never talking to me again, losing job or not obtaining a better one and just overall feeling worse than I already do.

What is bothering me is that I am afraid of saying goodbye to the man I love when I have to leave the state in a few years. I know that there are other men out there, but I still love him, and it hurts to think that I'm just going to have to cut loose and forget it altogether. It fucking hurts.

>tfw. ywn have a transbian gf
>20s are almost over
>lonely and depressed af
>decently qt but no one wants me irl

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Can straight girls still get horny when they sleep with girls?
I feel like I'm fake bi because i don't get turned on by secondary sex characteristics and I can't imagine having a girlfriend.

I'm a straight guy, first time to this board. Today we had an orientation and I met a really cute girl, she was really nice to me, was checking up on me to make sure I register for my classes etc. Then we talked for a bit and I asked for her number. Her response struck me: she's been dating a girl for over a year. I was never turned down like this in my life, so I replied that I won't need the number and break into the relationship. I used to live with lesbian couple for a long time and I normally could distinguish one from the straight woman. But with this one it was a different thing, I definitely felt some affection between us or at least a positive vibe. She offered to be friends but I said no. Now I feel bad about that. What would you guys say.

>>8725487

You are straight.

>>8719586
Tell us more, that's pretty interesting

>>8719475
The thought that someday prople from my past are going to see me and think that i went through transitioning for "attention" or that "he just decided to be a man one day." And none of them will even consider that all the "attention seeking" depressive suicidal shit i did in my past was because of my dysphoria.

But all of them hate my guts for political differences now, so Ill never get to explain how I fixed the majority of my mental problems by discovering who I really am. Instead they'll all just think I'm the same person I used to be and judge me for it for the rest of my life.

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>>8719475
Well, I'm getting old. I'm 29 now and realizing I'll never find that cute little boyfriend I've always wanted. I'll never have that little spoon. I'm also struggling with drinking too much, and anxiety issues. I have no idea what I want to do with my life, and I'm running out of youth.

Every day it just seems like I'm bound to be alone forever.

i just wanna b a reel gril. but that will never happen. yolo.

>>8725735
> political differences

what are the political leanings of an (ex) attention seeking ftm 4chan user

>>8725752
Im left leaning centrist.
I would consider them far-left (basically communist)
But then again, they would consider me a nazi.

>>8724090
Okay. Give me your love!!!

>>8724390
>>horribly shitty manufacturing job
You want a shitty job, work retail. THEN you'll know suffering. I'm applying for manufacturing as a step up.

>>8719475
I HAVE MAJOR DEPRESSION :DDDDDD
IM ONE OF YOU NOW

>>8725746
>I'm 29 now and realizing I'll never find that cute little boyfriend I've always wanted. I'll never have that little spoon.
Dude, you're big spoon. You can always find a little cutie into older guys that will buy him things and fetishize his cute little body. You can even trade him in for a newer model when he starts to get old.

>>8719475
I'm confused. Do I want to be the cute catboy-like bottom, snuggling up to bigger guys and purring and enticing them into fucking my boipussy, or do I want to be tall and charismatic and fuck smaller weaker guys?
I will never be small and cute, but I'm at least skinnier than most guys and can look fairly girly with clothes on. But, on the other hand, I'm tall and have muscle and can swing my personality around like an axe due to years of having to pass as straight and push back against guys twice my size.
And I like girls too, but I'm really bad at dealing with them and don't have my life together enough to attract one long-term and don't want to deal with the drama either.
Of course, I realise that transgirls are like girly guys that are even more girly, but showing any interest in them brands you as 'creepy' and a 'chaser', so I have to pretend to be attracted to them as females instead of as someone cute and girly that doesn't come with the usual female evasiveness and ridiculously high standards.

>>8725764
you didnt ~recoils in horror~ *whispers* vote for hillary... did you?

>>8725910
take a chill pill ur harshing my depressed vibe

>>8725930
Lol hell no. But they did.

>>8725946
do you not think hillary is a left leaning centrist?

>>8725954
She's a centre-leaning rightist. American politicians are ridiculously right-wing by the rest of the world's standards.
Even fucking Bernie Sanders was considered a whackjob commie by the americans for being slightly left of centre by everyone else's standards and just trying to bring america up to european standards of welfare and healthcare.

>>8725964
these views arent sufficiently left for your leftists friends? holy shit...

do you like sam harris?

>>8725924
On top of all the confusion, I think I might want to call myself asexual due to my low sex drive and just not fucking bother.
Or there's an MtF friend who's having boyfriend troubles. I could probably get her if I wanted to, but I'm not sure if I do, or if I'd be what she wants in a boyfriend.
And there's always the easy way out of snagging an immigrant girl with an extended family to help raise half-breed children while I don't get held up to SJW ethics like checking for a watermark. That's appealing sometimes, but my english is terrible and I'm really bad at learning other languages.

>>8725975
M8, I'm british. Sanders is left-of-centre by our standards. If you want the european version of a left-wing loony, look at Jeremy Corbyn.
> FREE TUITION AND WE'LL REIMBURSE YOUR STUDENT LOANS
Oh wait no we can't afford that lol sorry we promised that during the election lololol.
> GLORIOUS SOCIALIST REVOLUTION
> ABOLISH THE MONARCHY
lol jk lolmeme
> LEGALISE DRUGS
Not really but stoners vote, right?
> PROTECT THE NHS
So it can enforce my authoritarian dictat and decide who lives and dies according to their political leanings.
> NATIONALISE EVERYTHING! NATIONALISE THE RAILWAYS! NATIONALISE THE MINES AND THE FARMS AND THE FOOD DISTRIBUTION
Get those toffs off the farms, right? I'm sure the students know how to plough a field.
> SCRAP THE NUCLEAR DETERRENT!
> OPEN THE BORDERS TO IMMIGRANTS AND REFUGEES!
> DECRIMINALISE EVERYTHING!
> BAN THE CAR!

You think socialists are a threat, try dealing with a fucking KGB fifth columnist left over from the fucking 1960s.

>>8725975
Eh, >>8725964 wasnt my response.

I consider Hillary to be a classical left wing type. So I would say, yeah, she is left-centrist. But not in the same terms I am. I dont agree with open borders, socialism, no gun laws, refugees, etc. While thise are things she wanted. The only things I agreed with Hillary on were health care ish, lgbt rights, and abortion etc. But I dont trust the Clintons, like most left wing people.

However, I did vote for Bernie at first. Even though, I turned to be against most of his ideas, I still saw him to be a rational, honest, and fair leader. But I didnt vote in the final election because I didnt want Hillary or Trump.

My ex-friends, however, are full blown SJW commies. As in, white people are to blame for everything, men are the reason for every female problem, wage gap believers, TERFs and/or gender is a construct made by the patriarchy, etc. So of course, they ostracized me from every single one of my friends as soon as I voiced my own opinions on politics.

>>8726009
>So of course, they ostracized me from every single one of my friends as soon as I voiced my own opinions on politics.
Good. You're better off not talking to people who use phrases like 'problematic' and 'we need to talk about', and use social manipulation to silence dissenting opinions.

The trick is to look for their SJW tendencies and disengage from them as soon as you uncover them. Ostracise them first. Shun them, stop talking to them, block them on facebook, screen their phone number.

The political left is infested with SJW commies. It's a fucking tragedy, because as a worker I want a party that represents me, but they keep getting yanked further left by non-working parasites who want hard-working men to be thrown into labour camps.
I don't want a socialist revolution. I don't want to go on strike. I just want someone to make sure I'm paid a living wage for the work I do, and have job security.

But, alas, the best I can vote for it 'don't wreck the economy', 'will bribe the working classes with higher minimum wages for votes, and actually deliver on the promise', and 'won't open the gates to Putin and lay out the red carpet for his tanks'

>>8726022
I wish I had cut them out of my life back then. This was about 3 years ago when this happened. But I was still a SJW in training. After they cut me off, I was upset for a long time but then I grew up and formed my own opinions on politics and social morals. So yes, now if any of my friends tried to change my opinions with that bullshit shaming crap, they would be cut off first.

I feel the same way. All I want is the safety to not fear death from people with out punishment, a wage that can pay for everything a human needs to survive in our modern world, and to be sure I will have that job (or a job) until I am able to save enough money to retire. Thats all I ask from a politician.

The issue I had with choosing one or the other was that Bernie wanted to increase minimum wage and also make health care essentially free. But our health care in America is capitalized on, so it costs more than a brand new car most of the times. So if we increase minimum wage to support working class people more, and medical costs are no longer an issue, they would not be making the minimum amount monthly to live as a comfortable human in America, they would be making more.

Idk, personally i think minimum wage should be raised, but we've already fucked the free health care idea in the ass. Because we allowed the companies that supply these medical supplies to profit from their sales. Which.... I am very much in the middle on rather or not I think that is morally okay.

>>8726056
>Because we allowed the companies that supply these medical supplies to profit from their sales.
If you don't profit on it, no corporation would do it.

The problem, I think, is that american corporations have no fucking morals. I don't think the problem is the law. It's more a social problem; there is no higher authority. At least in britain, it doesn't matter how fucking rich you are, how much you make a year, you're not the fucking Queen and she still fucking outranks you and according to the class system, is free to judge you. Would YOU want to disappoint a gently sarcastic grandmotherly matriarch like that?

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>>8725910

>>8726066
Well yeah they have to make profit in order to keep people coming to work to even make the supplies. But i meant there is no consequences for deciding that the profit they are going to make from it is more than 10x the actual production cost.

But of course American corporations have no morals. Money is like food in America. Its the idea that "if youre stranded on a deserted island and I'm selling burgers for $1 million each, eventually you'll pay $1 million for a burger or youll die." Not good morals, but the government can't tell you how much to sell it for because you paid for all the supplies for it. Its fucked. American money is fucked. But were doing better than most non-capitalism countries.

Our money issues are more... end of the month/not having fall back accident money related, rather than not being able to afford 1 meal for a whole day.

>>8726094
>But i meant there is no consequences for deciding that the profit they are going to make from it is more than 10x the actual production cost.
Sure there is. Medical corporations will flee the sector for somewhere with higher margins, or try to upsell people to medicines with more expensive ingredients.
Or, worse, creative accounting. A corporation buys ingredients and sells them on to the drug manufacturers at a huge profit. The drug companies then produce the drug and sell it at a modest profit margin to the hospitals, but own the first company through subsidiaries.

America is capitalism gone mad. McCarthyism made socialism a dirty word, so any sort of socialist controls on capitalism were abandoned and you end up with an entire section of the economy literally preying on the poor by driving them into debt and keeping them there, bleeding them dry and forcing the government to keep them alive with welfare as their money goes on interest and payments on things they can't afford and don't need but were told they HAD to have by the mainstream media that constantly reassures them it's the only truth and never to question it. Their parents were too busy working 14 hour shifts at car factories to afford to raise them to actually raise them, so they were vulnerable to indoctrination by absolute authority in the form of the church and the television.

And so, you have poor people driving expensive cars, wearing gold watches, growing fatter and fatter on cheap HFCS-laden foods bought with food stamps, with no culture of their own, despised by the middle classes who just do the exact same thing but with more money and nicer houses, and with an upper crust of celebrities and conspicuous consumption floating on everything like pond scum, feeding off the adoration and conspicuous consumption of the masses.

The american economy is stuck in a cycle of eutrophication, and it's approaching the point where there's no oxygen left for things to even decompose.

>>8726110
>>8726094
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eutrophication
Like a pond so full of agricultural runoff that it's ended up full of floating dead fish because even the decomposing bacteria have died.

America is going to end up like Mad Max at it's current rate of consumption, especially with the trend towards a service-based economy and isolationism. You can only give so many haircuts, manicures, and handjobs before the money runs out, and people are consuming value faster than they create it.
All it's going to take is the arabs turning off the oil taps for a few years, and american society will break down.

>finally get the courage to get a nametag for my new name at work
>such an emotional fuck up that I mean mug everyone the entire night because it's my way of putting up a social barrier to keep myself safe
>everyone's annoyed

'nother day in the life I suppose

Why does repressing things become so much harder as you become older. I have no idea what I am but all I know is I constantly think about gender and transitioning way more than I want to. It seems to occupy my thoughts almost all the time and I just want it to stop. it was easier to repress things when I was younger, and if this is the way things are going I'm scared its only going to get harder.

My main hope at this point is that I can drink enough daily to forget about thongs for long enough that I can sleep.
Seriously, I thought you were supposed to be more certain of your identity as you grow older, not constantly question it.

>>8726159
>Why does repressing things become so much harder as you become older.
The longer you pretend to be who you're not, the more it wears on you. It builds up over time, and the pressure demands relief.

>My main hope at this point is that I can drink enough daily to forget about thongs for long enough that I can sleep
>forget about thongs
I do hope that's just a typo.

>>8726022
problematic is problematic

Not really LGBT related but
>tfw you come to the grim realisation that due to being a disabled talentless hon poorfag you will almost certainly not achieve the things you wanted to do with your life and will spend the next 40 years slogging away at menial jobs struggling even to cover the cost of living

>>8726170
Yes. Don't let anyone tell you what to think. Decide for yourself.

>>8726167
Yes that was a typo. Apologies for the stupid rant, but I'm almost at my limit of keeping things bottled up and never having anywhere to say what's really on my mind

>>8726180
Talk to a therapist. It sounds like whatever, but a good one will certainly help.

I consider myself straight but I am really just attracted to femininity. I like mtfs and ftms if they look feminine or androgynous and would have sex with either including penis play.

Is there a word for that? Or am I just a bi in denial?

Im a gross manly hon. I try to present female and practice my voice but people still gender me male 100% of the time.

But Im working on coming to terms with the fact Ill never pass and maybe just live as a woman in private

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faggots getting brainwashed into thinking they need authoritarianism to protect them

>>8728288
>I am really just attracted to femininity
You're gynephilic, and it means you're still straight, not bi in denial

>>8728614
But playing with dicks is like super gay unless it's your own.
It is such a conundrum for me.

>bi female
>girls are so fucking cute
>haven't done anything more than friendly with a girl
>with a boy right now
>wanna do shit with girls ... as if i could
>wanna stay with lovely boy
>uuuUUUUUUH

>>8728632
That's why you should be in an open relationship

>think im a guy
>people find me attractive
>now i think im a girl
>no one's gonna find me attrractive and everyone I've ever been with/thirsted over is only into dudes
y is every ftm dude only into dudes :( i'm never gonna date one again once i go on HRT

>>8728669
Because dysphoria.
Because cock is objectively superior.
Because men are superior.
etc.

>>8728632
bruuuuuuh same

m/straight

>>8728134
Trying to find one is easier said than done, but thanks. Maybe I can be put on the wait list for some kind of public mental health services, but who knows if I can last a year or however long the wait is.

>>8728673
i know
sometimes I really think I should just suck it up and deal w my own dysphoria just to fuck trans dudes