k so i am mtf and before hormones i used to masturbate to transsexual porn, i would imagine myself being them and obsess over how they made themselves look more and more female etc
i eventually exclusively masturbated to post-op mtf, and female pov porn. i fantasized about being female and being fucked by guys, but i would look at female bodies with a strange sexual lust of wanting what they had.
when i started hormones everything changed. i lost interest in porn, and i exclusively fantasized about men, and wanting to be held by their strong arms and overpowered and dominated, and when i see a hot guy i get a kind of floaty feeling now
Also i like sucking dick ^_^ and being with guys
However more recently i have started to have strange feelings when i see pictures of passing or cute early transitioners. a few months ago i would have got sad of them and jealous that i am not cute like them, but now i am getting the urge to masturbate to them, its weird :(
i am pretty sure i am straight, but i am super confused about these feelings... wtf is happening to me? is this hormones doing this to me?
>>8670805
that's a known possible side effect of hrt feminizing/growing your brain...
your pre hrt self should have set goals and markers to check and balance if being attracted to men is worth the rest of teh hrt
how's the rest of transition, mentally speaking?
>>8670810
>how's the rest of transition, mentally speaking?
fan-fricking-tastic. omg i love evything, cute things are so cute now, also when i take estrogen i feel so happy, and want cudles
its not like ur turning gay. ur going through female puberty and developing a female brain. imo if your doing hrt for non sex reasons (like the gays who wana be cuter) then there's no problem.
>>8670805
Just out of curiosity, how long have you been on HRT?
>>8670805
AGPs are often GAMPs (into trans people) and often become more meta-attracted (into guys) with transition.
>>8670805
I'm pretty sure it's a normal agp thing, I'm the same too. I've also been thinking about how it would be to be with a girl/mtf, but I've decided that it would probably not work since I like being dom'd by guys. I certainly wouldn't mind an occasional fwb thing with a girl/mtf, but I know I wouldn't be able to last without a domineering guy.
>>8672205
11 months
>>8672216
>GAMP
>meta-attracted
it's amazing what bs blanchardfags will meme into existence to make their system work
>>8670890
>tfw I had 5 months of female puberty before I came to my senses and repressed
Fucking tranny freaks
>>8670805
sounds like weird fetish shit to me
>>8670805
Sorta' similiar thing happened to my gf, she was only attracted to women before hrt and only after starting hrt did she realize she may be bisexual.
I was sorta' reverse, I had a weird psuedo-non-attraction to women pre-eveything, and was only comfortable being intimate w/ men. It turned out (I think), that before hrt it was just too dysphoric to compare myself so immediately to a cis woman and most trans women, and being near really manly men really had a feminizing affect.
Hrt can affect sexuality in all sorts of ways, and adjacent areas of life, a few months on hormones and I started desiring to have children, you mentioned cuddles too. (GF has a similiar experience).
Hrt affecting this sort of stuff is super normal and nothing to worry about
hrt can't effect your sexuality. you're just being more open with yourself and exploring it more as you grow as a person. it's normal for everyone not just confused transgenderists
>>8670805
Your brain didn't have estrogen flooding it before, therefore the part of it that govern your being attracted to guys was inactive.
The part of it that governed your being attracted to girls is no longer active because of reduced testosterone.
>>8670805
seems like your hrt isnt working, do blood tests
>>8670805
>i am pretty sure i am straight
>when i started hormones everything changed. i lost interest in porn, and i exclusively fantasized about men, and wanting to be held by their strong arms and overpowered and dominated, and when i see a hot guy i get a kind of floaty feeling now
Life is stranger than Japanese pornographic comics, yes.
>Be me
>Stereotypical AGP MTF
>Start transitioning
>Start becoming seriously hot and bothered around hot guys irl
>Want to touch biceps
>Want to touch flat hard chests
>whatisgoingonhere.bmp
>Start becoming attracted to decade old best friend
>He starts becoming attracted to me as I feminize
>Have secks, fucking amazing
>Fast forward, engaged to him
>mylifeisananime.jpeg
>>8672216
>AGP
>GAMP
>meta-attraction
>Blanchard
>HSTS
aaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
>>8674312
my version
>Be me
>Stereotypical AGP MTF
>Start transitioning
>Start becoming seriously hot and bothered around hot guys irl
>Want to touch biceps
>Want to touch flat hard chests
>whatisgoingonhere.bmp
>I am gross tho so will never get a boyfriend
>die alone
>>8674341
I've been there girl, nothing would have convinced me things could get better, but then it did.
I'm actually happy now, you just have to hang in there!
>>8674312
Tfw my story is the same except my bestfriend of over 10 years got himself a girlfriend just before i started transition :(
I am trying to make him leave her by winning control of his dick. Everything is going just as planned so far, as we have been having cyber sex, and a few weeks ago he visited and i sucked his dick ^_^
I was a 5 on the Kinsey scale before HRT and I think it's getting closer to a 6
god why care though, men are just the best
>>8675256
People like you are seriously gross. Do you have no ethical or moral discernment and just live for sex and your own feelings? Sort yourself out, find a man who will actually love you and be your best friend and not some "best friend" fetish object.
>>8674312
envy
but also a boner
>>8673788
I would say all orientations and all gender identities rationalize their way of living.