How many different times have you come to a revelation about

>>8641150
Just twice
Most of my teens I thought I was bi, then realized I was gay around 19

>>8641150

Not that remarkable for me, I realised I was gay at 12-ish and it's been downhill from there, never wavered from that

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>>8641150
I knew I liked boys a LOT as far back as I can remember but I grew up isolated from any kind of sex ed, so my first revelation was watching Oprah around 10yrs old and finding out what "gay" actually meant. Then I spent a while being very confused and upset that I had to choose, until my second revelation while watching Oprah around 12yrs old and finding out what "bi" meant.

When I got older I figured out that you don't have to let labels define you, and you can just live your life. I'm technically bi but since I've never felt women were worth the effort (I'm very lazy), I'm functionally a total faggot.

>>8641388
Lol that's pretty funny. I have a lot of memories watching Oprah with my mom growing up too. I wouldn't be surprised if that's where I first heard about being gay myself.

>>8641166
r u me

Could have gone either way, but I chose to be with other guys. I figured it out when I was probably 12, but I had always imagined myself as feminine. Ironically, as I grew up, everything about me except my hobbies and interests were considered 'masculine'. Now, I really don't care so much, as long as I can find a cute guy

>>8641150
I dunno how to fully describe it, like from age 6 to about nine I liked girls then at around 10 I think I started seeing boys as good looking at at 11 thought okay think i'm bi. 12 I think was when I tried things with other guys for the first time (started a 5 year long crush too)
Despite this it never really dawned on me I just went with it. So around age 16 it really hit me oh fuck I like both what do ? But I got over that and just kept on with what I've always done, hang out with some friends go skate get drunk and watch anime and occasionally get in bed with somebody

>>8641150
I've known I was bisexual since I was about 12. I am honestly not sure if I became bisexual because of fooling around with girls and boys at that age, or if I was innately bisexual and that's why I started doing that.

>>8641150
many, many...
-nerd, mediteranean, alpine, dinaric, obsessive-compulsive, cyclothymic, paranoid, schizoid, borderline, androgynous ... and then they just become completely fucking sleazy

Figure what? The world is a kaleidescope of horseshit and torture-tier noise. There is nothing to figure out, your existance is a sick joke, it's all about making the other bastards around you even more confused, the only winning move is low blows.

>>8641171
Same, I was about 15. It's just been a gradual increase of loneliness ever since

>>8641150
I still havent

>>8641150
Like twice-ish. My first crush was on a boy, and I've known I liked guys since like 11 or 12 but I grew up in a christian household and repressed myself because I was religious at the time, and repressed myself for an extremely long time afterwards even after I stopped being religious. I can go more into that if anyones interested, but anyways. Around 9th grade I had strong fantasies about people I knew (I had in the past I just thought nothing of it and repressed) and thought I might be bi, but a day later I repressed and continued to believe I was straight. I continued to think of myself as straight until a couple months before I was 18 when I had fantasies about guys like usual, but instead of making myself think of something else I decided to just let it happen, and stop repressing my feelings. Basically I day later I was just like guess I'm bi, and then a couple days later realized I never thought or had feelings for women and realized I might just be gay. I then for weeks struggled with this, and tried to look at gay and straight porn and see what I like, and I obviously only liked gay shit. I like held out on calling myself gay for a while, with the hopes that I might be attracted to a girl, I never did. So yea, now I realize I'm just gay but for whatever reason am still hesitant to say it for the reason I just said. It's stupid because I know I'm just gay, and call myself gay when people ask me on this website but whatever. I suppose I'll come out kinda soon so I dunno. I have more childhood/teenage experiences to share if anyones interested, just ask.

>>8650698
Id like to hear more, you sound a lot like me

>>8650778
Ok then, I'll detail my first crush like I said. So basically this was in 6th grade gym class, and there was this guy that I saw every day that sat across the class from me while we took role, so I only ever saw him from far away. Basically I realized I was attracted to him and got erections every time I looked at him or thought about it. I was really angry and upset at myself for a couple weeks because I grew up learning that homosexuality was wrong, and I heard it every week at church and youth group. I tried my best to not look at him or think "sinful thoughts", but I still became aroused. Eventually I saw/met him up close and realized that he didn't seem as attractive as I thought he did from far away, and realized that he was an asshole. At the time I was relieved, and remember thinking to myself "whoo glad I'm not gay", but of course I still am. Anyways now I'll just get into other weird stories like I mentioned. The only other gay related memories I have from middle school was once in 7th grade when I realized I was looking at this guys dick for a really long time, and immediately looked away, and one time in 8th grade where I went to my friends condo for the weekend and for a split second imagined having sex with him before casting that thought away. One of the things I was going to include originally was that I actually watched gay porn a couple times in 9th and 10th grade and got off to it. Those was the only times in those grades when I acted on my gay urges. I remember specifically 3 times when I did, and each time told myself it was a one time thing, and felt bad for getting off to it afterwards, and told myself I was straight. Also in 9th grade I realized I fell in love with my best friend, and later on of my other friends. I pushed these thoughts aside because not only are they gay thoughts, but they are about my friends. That's basically it, so yea. I'mma continue this because this is to long

>>8651566
>Continued
There was also this time after after going to a friends party where my friend who I had became friends with like 2 or 3 months before messaged me asking if I liked him. He was asking me because at the party he put his arm around me as a joke and sat right next to me on the same chair real close, and I put my arm around him jokingly, and didn't mind. So I guess he thought I was coming onto him, but anyways, even though I went by as straight at the time, and never really thought of being with guys besides repressed fantasies, I was really anxious. Thinking of him liking me made me really anxious and happy, I now know why of course. I said I'm not gay, and that I wasn't coming onto him at the party, and he said that he just wanted to clear things up. Also after realizing I'm gay I realized I really like him, and that he's pretty cute. He comes back from a foreign exchange thing this school year, so maybe I'll chat him up. So yea, that's pretty much it.

>>8651599
Good luck with meeting your friend, you never know