>tfw you look in the mirror and you see the girl you've wanted to see your whole life
>tfw she's a punk-as-fuck lesbian
AGP is comfy af sometimes
>tfw you want to look like a cute and innocent girl
>tfw you really look like a hardcore lesbian biker gang leader who was forced to put on a cute dress
fml
So like, the hypothetical cis dude version of me that exists in an alternate reality where everything's better is totally a cooler person that real-world post-transition me. I was never scared of what people thought of me before, I was always generally well liked, plenty of people male and female were attracted to me, I never had a hard time being skinny, I had confidence, everyone thought I was unique and quirky and had cool interests, etc.
But now, I feel very worried about what people think of me. I pass, but no one but my girlfriend's expressed any attraction to me, I can't get into a healthy weight range for the life of me(for whatever reason estrogen turns me into a fat ass, whenever I temporarily went off hrt before I lost all the weight again), everyone thinks of me as kind of a weird person, I have no confidence, and for fucks sake I'm just so fucking ugly. Like, I look like a girl now and that's really nice I'm happier than ever, but god damn I wish I didn't make such an ugly girl.
>>8634035
#truthhurts
>>8634035
This is a really bad feel, I have top male genetics not look wise (but I defo wasn't a beta), but athletically, and going on t blockers has kind of ruined that.
And yeah, I'm almost certainly going to end up worse looking after I finish my transition. Fucking sucks, I could've atleast been a Brad if I actually liked being male.
You'll cowards don't even smoke crack