When I was a kid I was raped by my babysitter, and I remember

>>8632566
It could be, but it doesn't matter. Everyone's sexual orientation is influenced by their experiences during puberty.

>>8632572
Is it weird that I sometimes think of that moment now and get really turned on? I don't condone rape but, the thought of something like that happening again is arousing.

>>8632617
Yes, but not that it should bother you. I was molested by my first grade teacher and now have a fetish for getting molested by fat gross women.

>>8632566
it could be, but we can't know for sure because doing a study would be homophobic

>>8632566
Could have helped trigger it.

There's a decent amount of evidence that that homosexuality is caused by some mix of genetic and developmental factors. Plenty of straight guys had the same experience you did and didn't become gay, so it's obviously not a one-to-one correlation, but it probably did increase your odds.

>>8632566
>>8632617
>>8633658
>people say getting molested or raped as a kid doesn't cause irregular and unhealthy sexual development

#RapedbyBabysitterNowaFag

>>8632566
yes.

it happens all the time. and for what it's worth........it's not your fault.

>>8635272
I know it wasn't my fault. I was just a kid and didn't know what was happening.

>>8632566
Is she hot?

>>8635526
She? My babysitter was a guy.

>>8635546
Was he hot?

>>8632566
yes

>>8635560
He was pretty good looking desu.

>>8635040

No you wouldn't be able to do such a sutdy now, since it would mean that a considerable proportion of gay men are acting out a trauma and are not really homosexual.

>>8632566
>raped by my babysitter
greentext pls

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>>8632566

Homosexuality is genetic.
Sexual abuse does not change orientation.
It can lead to post-traumatic stress, however, and it can cause a lot of doubt, anger and confusion.
Talk to a licensed clinical social worker about your experience.
They can give you tools to deal with the confusion and anger and stress.

If being sexually abused made you gay, there would be a lot more gay people in the world.
Unfortunately, it is fairly common.

Full disclosure: i'm a cis gay male who was sexually molested by a female babysitter whe I was a child. I had a hard time coming to terms with it and for years I thought that she had made me gay. I have come to realize that what she did was wrong, but it did not change my core personality, in fact it had nothing to do with who I am today. I am my own person. I am in control of my choices and the direction my life takes.

>>8636251
I am not really angry about it tbqh. I am a little confused about why it happened and why I seemed to like it though.

>>8636394
you liked it because you're gay, he's hot and sex feels good.

>>8636469
I might not be gay in a sense.

>>8636527
You're pretty fucking gay, dude.

>>8636534
Well I like guys but I haven't talked about something in this tread.

>>8636549
You like girls too? Surprise, bisexual

>>8636555
No its not that. Something other than sexuality.

>>8636605
>"Ooh! So mysterious! I wonder what it could be OP did not tell us yet!"

No one fucking cares you tremendous fag.

>>8636637
I'm a tranny.

Who trusts a male to babysit their kid?

>>8636689
Someone who isn't a misandrist?

So you got assfucked by your babysitter and now your into penis?

>>8636689

Who would trust a gay couple with a child?

>>8632566
This is the most common cause of becoming gay, you were raped and your brain was seriously shocked.
To diminuish the pain of that trauma your brain release endorfines and it tell you "it's ok, it's all ok" and you accept to become a submissive bottom.

>>8636809
Basically

>>8635252
I don't think anyone says that. Its pretty much the main reason statutory rape is a thing, diddling kiddies can fuck up their sexuality in unhealthy ways.

>>8636862
Can you tell the entire story?
Do you panicked and submited?
There was some violence or he just charmed you? etc etc

>>8636885
>Be me
>be around 10
>it's summer and both parents are working
>they hire a male babysitter who is about 15
>he is very fit but skinny
>day goes well for the most part
>at about 3pm he asks me to go up to the guest room to do something fun
>we enter and he locks the door
>he asks me to lay down on the bed next to him
>we lay down together and he holds me tight
>a bit of time passes
>I ask him what tthe fun thing we are doing is
>he lifts my chin up and he kisses me
>I freeze and don't resist him and I start to feel tingly
>he asks me how I liked it
>I tell him that I felt kinda weird but sorta good.
>he asks me if I would like to try something else as he grabs my crotch
>I am very shocked so I don't say anything.
>he says "I'll take that as a yes."
>he tells me to get on my knees and he unzips his pants.
>he tells me to open my mouth and that he will do the work
>I open my mouth and he starts to make me suck him, I feel even more tingly than before.
>after about 5 minutes he stops and he forces me on my hands and knees
>he tells me to put my head down and by butt high
>I do and he calla s me an "Obedient little boy"
>he tells me that what he is going to do is going to hurt but will feel good after the pain goes away
>he puts himself in me
>I try to scream but nothing comes out
>the pain subsides after a little while and I start feeling good
>after about 10-15 minutes pass I have my first orgasm and I feel absolutely amazing
>a little bit after he cums inside of me and slowly pulls out.
>he rolls me over and pins me to the floor and kisses me for about a minute
>asks me how I feel
>I say I feel good but not great
>he says I hope I enjoyed it and he tells me not to tell my parents.
>parents come home at 5 he gets payed and leaves

I never seen him again after that and my parents don't even know to this day.

>>8635252
literally the only people who say it doesnt fuck your sexuality up are pedophiles

>>8636123
>not really homosexual.
how does it make someone any less homosexual if they became that way as a result of childhood sexual abuse?

>>8638469
OP here.
Please ignore the larping pedophile.
That is not how it happened.

>>8638492
It's disgusting and depressing to realize how many people on this board write shit like that and enjoy writing it...

>>8636251
>Homosexuality is genetic.
Is this a consensus already? Not 100% sure about it

>>8638492
Ummm. No? I'm actually OP.

>>8638518
The consensus is that its heavily influenced by genetics (I remember the number as 70% but I can't find it)

>>8638518
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Biology_and_sexual_orientation

>>8638492
That is genuinely how it happened

>>8638518
it depends on what you define as homosexuality
if you define it as being attracted to members of the same sex, then it's not exclusively genetic
if you define it as something else you're probably some kind of weirdo or elitist who thinks about this stuff too much

>>8632566
I was sexually molested by a really femme gay man when I was young and now I have a trap fetish. It happens.

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>>8638631
>it's not exclusively genetic
[citation needed]

the fact is nobody knows what causes it.
but if it was from bad parenting or sexual abuse then there would be a helluva lot more gays in the world.
since it occurs at the same percentage (1-3%) in all human societies, it is most likely a genetic mutation.

>>8632566
How big was his dick?

>>8638639
I doubt the two are related.
You probably jerk off to traps (that's not a fetish, btw) because you saw them in porn not because some queeny guy tried to suck your dick.