>get a fantastic bf
>he loves everything about you
>constantly wants to spend time with you and make you happy
>Dysphoria worsens, severe anxiety about showing him pictures of myself, talking on voice chat, or video chat
>Constantly feel like I don't deserve him, despite his protests to the contrary
>When he says I'm pretty at first I get happy, and then I get sad and start crying and doubt him
>Constantly feel like he might drop me for a cis girl, and even feel like he should.
>promised him I wouldn't think like this anymore
>can't keep promise
>can't stop crying
>can't even keep myself together
I have brain problems or something. At this point I don't even think I'm meant to exist in the first place.
>>8628699
sounds like you were a victim of abuse
>>8628699
I'm exactly like you so let me start by saying you're just an REALLY insecure retard and this is "normal" but unpleasant, no offense.
Just try to improve the way you think, do you realize you're wasting your time overthinking about this while you should just live the moment and enjoy his arms warmth?
Hold him close and stop being like this or he may end up leaving you because he thinks you don't want him.
>>8628699
Go to a good therapist and maybe get on some meds
>>8628699
Do breathing meditation everyday for 5 or 10 minutes for at least a month
>>8628699
>tfw I know someone that wants me but he is too insecure and self deprecating and says I need someone better
YOU FUCKING CUNTS
YOU ARE THAT BETTER
YOU MAY NOT NOTICE BUT IT FEELS LIKE A COLD SHOULDER WHEN YOU REJECT SOMEONE LIKE THAT.
STOP
FUCKING
DOING IT
>>8628699
he sounds fucking boring
shouldnt be showering you with attention and compliments, thats not whats best for our brains
>>8628699
Are you me? Fuck this life. Do you pass?
>>8629138
not everyone wants to be in a abusive relationship
>>8629149
According to him I do. I don't know. I feel like I don't really.
>tfw you will never have a qt trans gf to make feel good