Positive feels

>>8615860
>make repression thread
>been successfully repressed for a few years
>people meme its impossible, and you will never be happy
>answer few questions, help a few people
>people troll with gay douijins specifically designed to encourage homosexuality
>feel uncomfortable, but repress anyways, because I know the consequences
>get spammed with demands to kill myself because I am logical and provide evidence
>I have obviously won because its nothing but insults and demanding I kill myself, take up the ass, or kill myself while taking it up the ass
>lols are had at the anons butt hurt at me lacking a hurt butt
>Good times =)

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>>8615860
>meet nice guy online
>we hit it off, grow close, and both really like each other
>guess I fucked up or something because he blocks me out of no where
>now I get to remain alone, but at least I get to the privilege of listening to my friends go into detail about their relationships!
>I get to have the humbling experience of going online and hearing about happy trans people in fulfilling relationships!
>I fucking hate my body and 'm suicidal but it's okay, at least I haven't made any attempts in recent history!
nothing but good times here friends ^^

>>8615860
>parents tried to talk to me about moving out
>threatened that I'd kill myself for the first time this year
>had specially not done it for a while so it would have more impact
>it worked
>hopefully stopped them doing some other things too

>>8615860
>Happiness in being a cute girl
What a retarded concept!

>>8616015
???

>>8616058
Conforming to any gender roles is absurd.

>>8615938

I'm sorry he blocked you, Anon, but don't let his stupid actions make you feel bad.

>>8616080
but y?

>>8616108
What is their purpose? These sets of behaviors don't produce any real outcome. They are just silly social games. Being too involved in them means that you have no better priorities. It's sad.

>>8616118
but sexuality

>>8616126
What's about it? You can have enough of sexual stimulate to relieve tension and improve mood with any body.

>>8616015
It's true though

>>8615986
You got surgery?

>>8616134

humans are made of learned and societally instilled behaviours

You too exhibit many even if you don't use the gender ones (which you do, pretty much no-one removes anything but the most superficial bits of that belief).

>>8615938

There's more fish in the sea. Also LDR's suck, for a lot of reasons. Far harder than in-person relationships once you get past the initial hurdle of actually finding a person and looking semi-fuckable.

>>8615860
such sweet, hope to be a bf like that one day.

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>feel ugly
>dont want to show my bf pictures of myself because I feel ugly
>Show him anyway because I'm already sad
>He practicall creams his pants
>He really likes the way I look
>feel less anxious about sending him pics now
>feel less afraid to finally meet in person

I guess im pretty happy rn.

>>8617163
Iktf
I always think I look absolutely hideous, but my boyfriend is always unironically enamored by my pictures. He thinks I'm the most beautiful girl in the world.

>>8616363
I'm sure you will, anon! You'll make a girl (or guy) so happy if you do!

>>8615860
are you me? literally word by word. I'm so happy you're experiencing all that,

>>8617546
It's a very good feel. I just want to hold him already!

>>8618129
And I'm so happy for you, too! We're all going to make it, girls!
>>8618354
I find that the wait makes it that much sweeter when the time comes. It's worth every minute and every cent in the end, though. Pure bliss.

>>8615860
i missed the boat by 2 years sadly :(
guess you were able to transition really young?
happy for you, enjoy life to the fullest!

>>8617163
This post made me happy.

>>8618408
>i missed the boat
Why, anon? :(
>guess you were able to transition really young?
Sadly, no. I'm 19 and have been on hormones for a few years. Really, really wish I did, though. But it seems to have worked out in the end, anyway!
>happy for you, enjoy life to the fullest!
Thank you, I hope you'll enjoy your life as well. You can do it!

>>8616313
It's retarded. I've never been attractive, and I've made my life work just fine. I used to be insecure about it, but then I realized you are what you project to the world, and I was projecting ugliness and insecurity, so that is what people saw. Instead, I decided, you know what, I'm going to project fucking awesome from now until forever. And it worked. I got laid by lots of attractive people. I got a good job. I ended up going to medical school. I am going to be married soon. I've traveled the world. All I had to do was realize that the skin I wear isn't as important as who I am.

Do what you can with what you've got, but disregard your insecurities and bullshit and be fucking awesome. There's no reason for you to be a bunch of sad sacks of pathetic shit. Boo hoo, you're not a cute girl. You know what though? Most girls aren't fucking cute even when they're cis. Sorry laddettes, that just isn't how it goes. So deal with it like they deal with it- by recognizing reality and doing what you can, then moving along with your life and doing the shit you need to do to get by and live a meaningful existence.

>>8618470

I started shortly before 20, and basically puberty didnt really hit me until 2 years before that... grrr. almost 3 years hrt now, post (botched) ffs but I still hate my looks and would never be able to wear dresses. I am girl leaning andro I guess. but yeah, trying to make the best out of it, never giving up!

>>8615860
why do other people get to be happy but not me? ;_;

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After not swimming all summer long I finally went with a few friends last night and I wore my favorite bathing suit and everyone was totally cool with it and even gave me compliments.

>you look pretty hot as a girl anon
>mfw

>>8615860

>9 months HRT

>still living in boy mode because no confidence
>fuck it all, I'm transitioning for a reason, today I'll go girl mode
>go to train station
>try the women's bathroom
>stay there, pretending I've found something in my make up and I'm staring my face at the mirror, but not, I'm checking what other women do
>nobody says a word, all women behave naturally
>suddenly a girl comes out of the bathroom and washes her hands
>realizes there's something unconfortable in the wat she put her panties back
>ups her skirt, puts her panties at place, pulls skirt back to place
>in front of me
>If she perceived me as a MAN, shw ouldn't have done that
>she didn't realize I was a tranny
>OH MY I'VE PASSED, I'M PASSABLE, SHE DIDN'T REALIZE!!
>NEVER FELT SO VALIDATED
>MADE MY DAY

>>8620416
They only liked it because you were wearing a male suit and they got to see some tatas.

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>finally got endo letter from therapist
>will hopefully be on pills in half a year
>no chance of ever passing though
>at least I somehow sometimes manage to pull cute gay guys with my failed femboy look

It's a bitersweet feel because it's not really what I want in life, but so close I can almost touch it ;–;

>>8621185
you are not even on pills, you don't know

either way
>in half a year
that's an extremely long time m8, just self medicate meanwhile

>>8621198
Not really. I was stalked in the male bathrooms and then outside by a guy once and since it's in public then obviously nothing is going to happen so the validation is just nice. It's not like that anon groped her pussy or gave her lips a lick and her girlcocc a few massages. She was just passing in the women's restroom (which is pretty significant).

>>8621214

Thanks for the helping hand, anon.

>>8621205
nah, my body is passable but my face is irreversibly fucked. I looked into self-meding long ago, but it's pretty much impossible where I live

>>8615860
Off topic, but what defines going full time? I hear it said all the time, and never know

>>8615860
>been textingnthid new guy
>had instant chemistry on our messages
>have phone call last night and the say he talks is absolutely adorable

I have to tell him I'm trans but he seems open minded about things. Honestly though even if I get dropped it's nice to know that there are people out there i can click with so well.

>>8621354
In my case it meant changing my legal ID and going girl mode 100% of the time.

>>8620892
Congrats anon! How old are you?

>>8621354
For me, it was just presenting as female 100% of the time. Basically making the full social transition.

TELL ME HOW TO PASS

TELL ME HOW TO GO FULL TIME

>>8622366
>>8621475
Thanks. Kinda what I thought it was but I was kinda like "fuck did I miss something?"

A friend of mine has a ritual with all the girls she befriends where they go skinny dipping in lake Ontario on the last day of summer. I was invited this year, and while I don't think I'm going to go, it made me feel like /realgirl/

>>8622510
>this will never happen to you because boymode4lyfe

>>8622580
why not present female?

>>8622580
Become girl
Problem solved

>got into uni
>5 months on hrt so im starting to see some stuff happening
>my tits are nice and growing :DD
>finally get to move out of the abusehole i have to call home

finally convinced my gf(male) to let me suck her dick.

10/10 can't wait to do it more even tho she doesn't really like it.
>tfw she's a complete submissive slut for me even though she hates her dick

>>8615860
>this will never be you
HOW CAN I BECOME AS HAPPY AMD PASSABLE AS YOU FUCKKKKKKKK REEEEEEEEEEE

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>christian parents want me to kms
>I want to kms
>future hon
>masculinized body
>neet
>my parents wont pay my tuition to finish university if I take skittles
>growing up I was physically and emotionally abused by my parents
>I wasnt born trans, Im trans because of these trauma but I cant fix dysphoria
>always tell me to apologize for having dysphoria
>enforce extremly strict gender stereotype
Thank you Jesus.. I feel your unconditional love..
Death is the only way to honnor my pure holy christian family and make them proud.
I feel happy for you that you have supportive parents, transitioned early and be passable.

>>8624821
If you're talking about me (OP), I didn't transition early, though. That's why I'm so surprised. Please don't give up. Maybe you could get a job and move out? How old are you?

>>8624909
sorry..

>>8624821
Jesus despises Christians.

>meet qt girl(male)
>all we do is fuck and smoke weed
>she pops her pussy(ass)for a real one(me)

>>8615860
I just recently came out to my best friend and family and am 3 days in for mtf meds! I'm pretty happy, plus I got some undies and thigh highs today too. Finally starting to feel happy for the first time in my life :D
Even the captcha is making me pick out dresses lol

>>8618478
>just don't be yourself bro
>just be awesome bro

Are you going to post any actual advice, or just spew meaningless platitudes?

>>8625861
Nice nice! Wishing you the best, anon.
>>8624909
I'm assuming you transitioned at 16 or 17 since you said a few years before you were 19, and while it's not ideal (most AMABs look indisputably male by then), it's still a better position than those who transitioned in their 20s, who are by now finished growing and are covered with hair.

>>8615938
Maybe you can find someone else.

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>>8616094
>>8616352
>>8629126

this anon here (>>8615938)

thank you so much for your kind words, but a couple days ago he actually contacted me again to apologize! we've been talking a lot again and it's been going great!

so I guess I have a positive feel to contribute to this thread after all!

>>8629285
Awesome! Did he say why he left?

>>8629298
yes, we talked about it a lot. a bad mood and some big personal issues, mostly. he is extremely kind and caring, so I suspected something deep and personal must've been up. we agreed to communicate our struggles more.

>>8616333
VFS

>>8629317

aw yis

>>8629418
How was it? What're the results like?

>>8615860
>be transbian
>meet straight trans girl
>give her the fug
>happy ending

>>8615878
>Make 3 repression threads
>Consider repressing being a fem fag
>See how ridiculous i sound
>Laugh at those anons insanity
>watch the birth of insane personalities like curehon and depressed anime posters
>Decide i don't want to be miserable like them
>2months into hrt and i feel great as a femboy, i couldn't see how great life was before.

>stay with mum
>she says she sees how happy I am with my gf
>had never been anything but supportive of my relationship

I just wish my gf had a mum like mine

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oh do I feel good today, anons.
>spend the day with my brother's fiancée
>come out to her on accident
>she's completely nonchalant, just "huh, that's news. have you picked a name?"
>paints my nails
>takes me to get my ears pierced
>come back home to stepmom
>come out to her
>"anon, I love you as a person, I consider you my son, or daughter, I don't care, I love you for who you are

it's been a good day

>>8633687
also, shaved my face after a week of NEETness.
looking at my face in the mirror, with painted nails, pierced ears, and a clean face, my dysphoria has never been lower. but I'm getting hormones as soon as I have the money, and I'm gonna crush that little fucking GID bug.

>>8633687
>>come out to her on accident
HOW

>>8633737
I was smoking, and we were discussing the difference between unfiltered and filtered cigarettes, and I brought up that it would be better if I just stopped all together, and then half mumbled to myself "especially if I'm on hormones, because I hear that that fucks with things"
i didn't realise I was talking out loud, but then she reacted and there was no going back from there.

>>8633754
>things that never happened

>>8633775
sorry mang, I don't know what to tell you. I do dumb shit sometimes. but does it even matter? it's 4chan, only a fool would believe any of the stories here.

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>>8633794
thanks for your words of encouragement, anon! I'll be sure to kill myself reeeeeaaaal hard this time!

>>8633775
I can imagine it happening, although it does fit a fapfic too.

>>8633794
Please stab be 119 times with your dick

>>8615941
Your a piece of shit for playing with your parents like that.

>come out to dad
>listens and nods
>asks how much
>wot
>how much is it going to cost
>no idea, plus bamboozled af
>grab a laptop, figure shit out between therapy, pills, and wardrobe
>"doable"
>he goes back to his book
On one hand, I was expecting a fight. On the other, I was expecting a reaction. Good feels though, made it sound like something perfectly normal.

>>8634629
>should have just got kicked out

>>8634688
Thanks anon, I laughed out loud. Cool as fuck.

>>8634709
Should not have been a parasite pos in the first place.

>>8634809
one good reason why not

>>8634820
Not getting kicked out.
Unrelated, kys.

>>8634832
lmao

>>8615860
>going through tough period
>money tight, relatives have died, work sucks
>have a guy whose cock I suck regularly but that's about it with him
>pretty alone
>go over to buddy's house
>up to his bedroom, fool around
>we're naked and I blow him
>edge him a couple of times and them he cums in my mouth with the force of a thousand suns
>crawl back up to him
>he never did this before but he wrapped his arms around me
>I threw a leg over him and suck my head into his chest
>first time in a long time I felt so close to someone
>very comfortable
>we fall asleep for an hour, wrapped up in each other's arms
>best thing that's happened to me in a long time

>>8615860
>Be Bi
>see trump ban trannies from the military
>feels good, man

>>8635124
this desu

>>8615860
This is kinda like mine (with passing and whatnot), but I came out as a senior in high school so everyone knew me as a guy first, which sorta hurts

starting college soon across the country so I think ill be happy there :)

>>8635124
>Be trans
>see trump ban trannies from the military
>feels good, man

>be trans
>dodge the draft
>:3c

>>8618478
How the fuck does one 'project fucking awesome'?

>>8622510
>tfw you're in the GTA but have no ability to make friends
>tfw other people are out having experiences and making memories

>>8636653
tfw live in gta and repressed till 25.
tfw lonely and want to kms

>>8618656
Who did your ffs?

>>8616352
Fuck you Lord of The Rings was a good movie

>>8637640
Would you be interested in meeting a tranny NEET couple?

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I just have a few questions - I don't want to insult you all, just need to know why?

why are you doing this to yourself?
why can't you be happy with what and who you are?

it's okay to call yourself a girl/guy even if you're not, just damn it...why mutilate yourselves - your body treats your "pussy" as a wound - which it is...so why?

>>8639754
I shit you not, I've been up some nights really pondering this - what created this hysteria? I know - we all know, the greatest mystery of em all is ourselves, what great purposes to reach within the steps we make in connecting with one another, to relate to God or the Earth in general.

I've always felt accepting one self was key to unlocking the wherewithal to face our daily challenge, please look into yourselves, and let go of all that mess, love yourself and you could do no wrong.

>>8639754
Because even if I was somehow happy as a guy, I'm a million times happier as a girl. And I love being cute and feminine, and skirts are bae <3

t. OP

>>8639824
somehow?

And that's great by all if you are being truthful, I suppose there really is no definitive way to know for sure besides taking your words as face value.

However, still the question - why? what was the burner that brought this to life?

>>8639855
>somehow
Because I can't remember any happy moments as a guy. Whatever happiness I could find can't even hold a candle to how I feel now.

I just felt incredibly uncomfortable as a male. I know you ask why I can't just be happy as a boy, but it just felt so wrong (not even on a conscious or surface level, but on a very deep and intense level). It felt like the core of my being was completely messed up. I couldn't recognize who I was in the mirror, and it felt like I was watching life through someone else's eyes. Just a spectator, rather than a player.

Not a single regret. Being able to pass AND be pretty is just icing on the cake. I would still have transitioned if I was ugly.

>>8639754
Female brain meme is the best way I can explain it.

It's the only thing that makes sense to me. I spent 4 years coming to terms with it because the last thing I wanted was to be a faggot doing all of this for attention. The science is sound. I've been hating my body since I was 3, tied it to the fact that I was a boy at 6. Never knew there was a solution until 17. So I've just been repressing these memories all this time. Refusing to put 2 and 2 together because I figured it was fruitless.

>>8639973
I was so repulsed by my own body that people having crushes on me made me depressed. I didn't want to be with someone who liked this about me.

At points I grew out a monobrow because I knew it'd make me unattractive.

>>8615860
>Mtf
>Be mistaken for girl despite dressing vaguely Andro
>Recently given a third raise at work, the third one in the year
>work to switched it's insurance to cover all trans related expenses recently too
>Everyone refers to me respectfully by new name
>Recently lost a ton of weight too because dieting

Basic things but, I'm happy regardless

>come out to my mom as AGP
>she's fully supportive
>now can take hormones without guilt
thnks mom

>>8638656
bart.

>>8640650
how do you come out as agp?!

>>8640710
>ask if I can talk about my sexual fantasies
>she laughs and says go ahead
>explain erotic target location error
>she says it's okay to get off to one's self
>add the catch (that I insert myself as female in any fantasy)
>she's still cool with it
from there I explain dysphoria and the rest.

I just couldn't lie to my mom. I knew she would accept me either way but saying "huehuhu I'm girl trapped in a man's body" or "I've always been a female" or shit like these would be insincere.

>>8640907
the erotic target part doesn't make sense unless she thought you were gay...

>>8622372
It's simple you just have to cut the skin off of young women and wear it as your own.
hope that helps (:

>>8617546
It's the same with my gf, she loves my pics and stuff. It just feels like a dim light in my hopeless feelings about being a clocky as fuck gross bitch with a huge ribs/shoulder complex

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>>8615860
>MtF, 6'2 and more hon-y than a beehive
>3 months of HRT
>go to mall in dress
>nervous as fuck
>people staring, one guy comes up to me
>"Dude, why you in a dress? Haha, lose a bet or something?
>mutter something, eyes gravitate to the floor, tears barely escaping
>repress for two years

>3 years of HRT, and one year living fulltime as girl
>go to same mall in same dress
>some other guy comes up to me
>"Hey, I hope this doesn't come off as really weird, but I just wanted to say you're really beautiful and I'd love to get your number"
>success

>>8641859
Pics pls

>>8641859
!!!!!!!!!! Nice

>>8641859
I'm so happy for you! Always nice to see when other tall girls make it.

>>8641859
Wouldn't it be funny if it was the same guy.

>>8641859
I'm happy for you anon. Amazing how much hormones can do.

>>8636653
>>8637640
Hey u 2! It's >>8622510 here!
Strangers a friends u just haven't met yet!!

>>8641859
Now this is an inspiring story

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>>8615860
A boy who I've been friends with for a while has been getting more "romantic" around me. I'm still boymode but I'm going full time soon and spent the last 2 years just trying to be as passable as I can be. Guess I did something right cause every time I see him he tells me how girly I'm getting.

The general implication I've gotten is that he wants to see me as a girl before doing anything cause nohomo. I don't mind. Just need to find an occasion to get pretty for him and see what we can do!

5 bucks says i get smooched soon

>>8644347
pics

>>8639754
>>8639781
If you have ever felt that feeling of "I can/could have do better" it is basically the same feeling. Knowing that it is not what was intented, but want to change and fix it. Attempting to feel satisfied with yourself. It's not about accepting who you are, it's knowing that it would be better if you fix it.

>>8644367
dix 1st

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>>8641859

>>8615860
Kys

>>8620892
What the fuck is up with women? From my experience, men certainly don't feel comfortable fixing their underwear in front of each other. Congratulations though.

>>8616080
Why?

>>8622510
Do they know you're trans?

finally came out to work and friends and entire senpai and there has been nothing but support. sucks I am a hon tho