Do you ever feel so lonely that it hurts?

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>>8608400
Haha! No.

>>8608400
Yes friend

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>>8608400
all the time

>>8608430
>>8608453
How do you deal with it?

>>8608476
i listen to music

>>8608495
i'm listening to this atm: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uabDFDmxaNk

>>8608400
I feel this everyday so you're not alone

>>8608476
A bitch about it on 4chan. Other than that I'm trying to get out of the apartment more. I put myself on dating apps/sites.

Idk. That kind of thing.

>>8608517
I've been listening to the strokes and unreleased Weezer stuff

>>8608476
My GP prescribed me pills to help me deal with it today

>>8608400
To the point I get stomachaches. Between lonliness and anxiety it will be my undoing.

>>8608531
you're not here with me..

>>8608476
Smoke weed then listen to music. It's nice for an hour or two.

>>8608400

I am the definition of a r9k khhv that never goes outside, never been in a relationship and only text one message a month to a friend but I don't feel lonely at all, I guess somethings wrong with me

>>8608546
>dating apps/sites.
people on those are very hostile towards me

>>8608555
>GP
?
trips though

"It is the fate of all great and noble minds to be alone." -some lonely sad sack

>>8608609
General Practitioner, I think they call them family doctors in America?

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>>8608400
Here listen to this OP.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=7JkVlZoRjjg
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=luM6oeCM7Yw
Maybe if you feel even more depressed/lonely, than your usual depression and loneliness won't hurt.

>>8608595
then what afterwards?

>>8608610
that's dumb

>>8608604
Why?

>>8608589
Do you mean lonely coming from a physical or emotional desire (or both)? Because emotionally p sure everyone who answers 'yes' is gonna be supportive.

>>8608617
those songs are not interesting

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all the time.
finally met a great girl irl but she moved across country and im having a hell of a time finding a job

>>8608476
I self harm. It seems like a meme, but it helps a bit

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>>8608675
Woah woah pal, you may wanna go to the doctor about that. That's not healthy.

>>8608633
i'm very shy and have anxiety issues. Furthermore people don't want to talk to you if you haven't made a fullpage of your entire life, occupation and so on.
I wanted to talk to someone and start from there, instead i got a dating machine.

>>8608685
nothing in life is healthy

>>8608640
both

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>>8608692
I mean... what self harm do you do? Is it just something small or serious?

>>8608675
i got pills for that, still think about it all the time though. kinda wish i didn't go for the arms now, can't wear t-shirts outside.

>>8608700
self flaggelation with cables, rubber band snapping, hitting myself with thin things like shashlik sticks, hurting myself with points of toothpicks, punching wood

>>8608672
you're doing better than most senpai

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>shut in with no friends, never dated anyone and rarely leave my room because I hate myself
>surround myself with stuffed animals and other inanimate objects to feel less lonely, feel myself growing more insane every day
>had dream last night that I saw a shooting star and wished for true love

I feel like I'm in a nightmare and I can't wake up.

>>8608711
get medical help senpai

>>8608732
fuck that im not going to chug happy pills and get turned into a lifeless blob

>>8608720
get a rescued dog senpai

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>>8608720
Just go out and meet people Anon. Join some community clubs or something and get to know people. Maybe get a pet?

>>8608735
>into a lifeless blob
i take "happy pills".. i'm not happy but i'm not as sad as i used to be, i'm getting more stuff done and getting more outside.
You're not going to be much different senpai, just less suicidal.

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>>8608727
Because I'm ugly, confused about who I am and I'm not where I want to be in life.

It doesn't help that I have a younger sibling that is better than me in every way. I haven't had a friend since elementary school and I'm still a khhv. I want to believe that things will get better but every day is the same.

>>8608738
>Just

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>>8608746
Than work on getting fit and not ugly. Start an exercise routine and see if anyone will join/help you with it.

>>8608736
I have 4 cats. They're not mine though, I'm staying with my mom's friend temporarily until we can move next month.

>>8608738
I can't drive and I have severe social anxiety, plus I'm moving to another state soon anyways so I never bothered to make friends here. It's much easier to post anonymously.

>>8608746
>younger sibling that is better than me
there's always going to be someone younger and better than you senpai, don't that get to you. You do what you wanna do.

>khhv
???

>>8608753
Yeah that's what I'm trying to do. I want to get back to the gym as soon as I move.

My face looks fine and I'm not that fat, but I still hate looking at myself in the mirror.

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>>8608755
Than you're gonna have to deal with it until you move.

Yes:
>I'm gay
>I am from the middle-east, so I can't tell anyone I'm gay; therefore, I will probably never find love
>I only have a few friends
>I find most people stupid

You're not alone, OP.
We can be lonely together.

>>8608773
>I am from the middle-east
>I find most people stupid
probably a correlation there...

>therefore, I will probably never find love
are you muslim?

>>8608773
You're not that guy from Jordan are you?

>>8608746
>>8608783
hookup

>>8608400
Feeling lonely is better then thinking about one person every ten minutes for nearly a decade. Having them, and the losing them at the drop of a hat. I wish I was lonely, that'd be much better then this.

>>8608810
>is better
entirely subjective

>>8608816
True, but as someone who had zero friends until the second decade of my life I have experienced both extremes at some point.

>>8608604
Yeah people can be adsholes. At least in my area they might drop you for being trans but they are at least polite about it.

>>8608838
have you had any luck?

>>8608718
but now im unemployed and living with my parents

>>8608866
are your parents nice people?

>>8608873
thankfully, but they dont like that im bi.
p much think im going to hell cause i dont just like cis women

>>8608897
hell is full of gays... i've heard..

>>8608908
i prefer transwomen and ciswomen tho ;_;
or femboy/traps instead of regular dudes

>>8608400
I haven't felt another guys touch in 7 years and I'm no where near as attractive as I was in high school so I've pretty much excepted I'll be alone for the rest of my life. I'll probably kms one day but life is decent right now

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>>8608913

>>8608913
Why? transwomen and femboys/traps are so close to girls that Idk why someone would prefer them to ciswomen

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>>8608931
the personalities of them.
Their life experiences are also more relatable.
The closeness to ciswomen/androngyny.
Im bi, not gay.

tho with femboys/traps I'm less attracted for a regular relationship because they'll turn into regular men as they age, and I'm not attracted to that (outside the odd fantasy here and there).

The biggest issue is finding a transwoman who is also a switch, because playing one role all the time is boring.
free shrugs


>>8608927
?

>>8608944
Oh
Now I understand, thanks :)
I'm gay and I HATE women including passing mtf.

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>>8608948
No problem.
It's kind of difficult to explain, cause I'd be fine with a plain old ciswoman as well.
>tfw people call you a chaser but you arent one.

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>>8608948
>I HATE women

>>8608948
Why?

>>8608863
Had a couple dates. Almost had one dicking but it turned out he was an asshole.

Currently talking to about 3 people right now but no one j this round knows I'm trans yet so it's basically like talking to no one because I'm 90% each of them is gone when I tell them. But honestly I just need the conversation.


So yes and no. But I've met a couple people who don't care about the trans thing so if I do it for like a few months I think I'll find something.

>>8608976
are you looking for a relationship or hookup

>>8608972
Why do I HATE women?
If that's what you're asking Idk. I've just always been violent toward girls/women even as a child. I wish I didn't hate them but I just find them repulsive and have had violent fantasies about harming girls/women since I was little

>>8608990
sounds like you should talk to a doctor

>>8608993
Nah I'll be fine as long as I stay away from women.

>>8608997
>as long as I stay away from 50% of humanity

>>8609006
Isn't it more like 60%? I know what you're saying tho but I'll be good I have hurt anyone in a long time.

>>8609031
>males is 51.9%
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Human_sex_ratio
depending on where you live tho

>>8608781
>I'm gay
Not him but guess

>>8609062
there are gay muslims, they don't live for long though

>>8609031
*haven't

>>8609056
Huh
That's good news I guess.

>>8608989
Both honestly. Like I want a relationship but I haven't had sex in like 2 years(not counting some oral I gave) so I'm just taking what I can tbqh

>>8608400
No. Grew and got me a wife and kids. Didn't even have to turn into a man to do it.

>>8609119

See, I've never thought that line of reasoning of going for hookups was a good idea. All it will do in the end is just keep lowering your self esteem. Always shoot for a relationship in mind. A hookup may make you feel happy in that moment, but what about the next? You will feel even worse then you did before.

>>8609370
Yeah that's a fair enough point. I'd rather have a relationship desu. It's not like being open to hookups has made anything happen anyways. I might as well just be upfront about shit. I mean if they're getting past the trans thing I somewhat doubt that not wanting a hookup will be what does me in.

>>8608476

sometimes i wander out onto the hills near my house (i live in a very rural area) and just shout and run around until i'm tired and my throat is sore

then i will fall asleep, in a certain sheltered area and wake up at dusk, then go home and do housework till i need to sleep again

sounds weird but it's only about one day a month and nobody has ever heard/seen me, it's very cathartic

>>8608400
>having feelings
>not loving solitude

lol what a faggot

>>8609387

I'd say just keep your chin up, you said earlier that you have people you are talking to so maybe one of those will work out. I can't really give much advice past that since I can't say I have ever gotten past that step myself. I believe its better to just accept the fact that you may have to be alone sometimes and that's OK instead of hurting yourself trying to create something that just won't happen.

>>8609612

You give good advice anon

>>8609618

Thanks, I try my best to give some advice here or there to those that are struggling with the battle that we all fight called life. Depression is a hell of a battle in and of itself and talking to people over the internet helps me out. Someday some of us will find love, or at least some sort of companionship, but until that point comes we have to stick together and slog through it all.

>>8608400
every day
Im not autistic and crave company, but beeing depressed and selfhating Ive isolated myself

I dont know how to break out

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>25 yrs old
>never been on a date
>khv
>no friends irl
>no friends online
>spend my free time playing vidyas to not think about how lonely I truly am

>>8609693

stop copying me

Take bars you literally won't give a fuck and say what's on your mind and people will respect you for it. Just don't go full bartard

>>8608753
I have seen a lot of fit ugly people.

Yeah. But you have to lie to yourself and try to be happy anyway, otherwise nobody is going to like you. Just stay busy man.

>>8609733
Sorry desu.

>>8608400
Yep. I breathe in and out deeply because it makes me feel something in my heart.

>>8608400
I've got used to it more or less.

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Loneliness contributes a lot to my depression and even though I'm less depressed now, I'm still pretty lonely. I've tried to except that I'm a mentally ill nutcase that isn't really meant to be close to anyone, but I can't do it. Yet the act of getting people to want to be around you is exhausting to me, I can't fucking win.

>>8608689
>dating machine
it is a dehumanizing dating machine, parameter search/match, first impression from a photo - its terrible

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>>8608400
A guy I really liked blocked me and it
really really hurts. I thought I finally wouldn't need to feel lonely anymore.

>>8613418
I'm sorry *hugs*

>>8609417
see a doctor.

>>8610213
if you can't be honest to yourself, then why try at all?

>>8610647
go to a doctor and talk it out, senpai.

>>8613418
Sorry senpai, now you'd atleast know that you wouldn't have to be there for someone that doesn't care about you.

>>8613459

it's me, hill anon

what do i say?

"hi doc, give me a bf pls, also make me ok with wanting a bf pls bc i am insecure and lonely"

there's nothing wrong with doing what you feel you need to de-stress as long as it doesn't hurt anyone

>>8613555
running around and screaming sounds like a serious issue you should talk to a professional about

>>8613595

I've been doing it since i was young (i'm 20), i run for exercise anyway but sometimes i just get the urge to vocalise (?) it.

i don't see the problem, i know it's a little weird but i'm willing to take your advice, i'll see if i can think of a way to frame what i do as a coping mechanism rather than some kind of breakdown

>>8608400
yes I just want someone to kill me already

>>8613691
you dont, you want someone to help you get out of this misery, ask for help and accept any that is offered

>>8613653
>but i'm willing to take your advice,
Don't be so paranoid over your behavior.

unusual =/= need to talk to a professional

>>8613704
anyone who comes to me under the guise of """helping""" me only does so for selfish reasons, and when they're through with me I'm thrown away.

>>8613704
Different anon.
I tried that a few times. All that was ever said to me were to grow a beard,get buff and turn straight.

>>8613734

I dunno anymore man, I can accept it seems out there but if it's a sign of some deeper 'problems' then i'd be happy some anon picked it up.

I only worry about being seen, and if i get a bf will probably not feel the urge as much anymore, although i did the same thing before i really knew what sexual attraction was

Don't really want to get sent off to the loony bin

I have tried all the common sites and apps with no results.

>>8613790
Natural behaviors aren't signs of deeper problems. And this is natural, just unusual. Everyone gets emotional impulses, like smashing things when they're angry, but they rein themselves in. Dealing with those feelings a different way, like using the wilderness where you can express anger by smashing or screaming, is just another way of handling normal emotions.

>>8613811

Strangly nice to hear that, I should point out I go running in the same places as I go when I scream and then sleep outside

I'm glad I don't smash stuff, just need to work on the loneliness issue (like everyone else in this miserable thread) to let me chill out

>>8613842
You've worked the emotion activity into your exercise and outing routines. Cool.

You can smash stuff, the same way you scream. Smash sticks, kick logs, hurl rocks at trees, etc.

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>>8608720

I'll be your friend. What's your contact information?

>>8609733
>>8609693
Literally me. Only I'm also a tranny, a gay tranny just to rub it in further.

>>8613895

I've never felt the need to smash or break things, I'm not really an angry guy but man I do feel like I need to let some things out

I guess that other anon was just trying to dupe me or something, I dunno

>>8613954
I guess they fell for the idea that anything unusual must be a mental issue and that whatever the issue a psych is the answer.

>>8614029

I can see where the concerned anon was coming from but the same logic can be applied to the treatment of LGBT people in the past, in that 'u r different? not in my house, off to therapy u go xD'

I'm happy and that's all that counts, thanks for your responses

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yup still lonely tonight

>>8614053
let's be lonely together

>>8608400
>have loving amazing sweet af BF
>he's not here tonight so i'm lonely af
hold me

>>8614053

cute miata, how have you not found bf if you drive that gaymobile?

>>8614061
r u a qt, if so lets cuddle
if not lets play vidya

>>8614078
somewhat cute I guess

if I was really cute I wouldn't be lonely :(

>>8614070
but that'd be cheating you filthy slut

>>8614084
not true
>>8614074
>tfw not picking up qt mtf in a my nonexistant miata

>>8614098

>mtf
>miata

shit taste confirmed, hope you spin out into a tree

>>8614108
Sorry gayboi, ain't slamming that boi pucci unless you're at least Andro. Men are gross

>>8614129

>implication that i would go anywhere near a miata fan

sorry but i could do without the autism and vaping thx

>>8614147
>implying im autistic or vape
meet me on the toogay

>>8614295

ffs man i can't get away from you fuckheads on /o/ and now you infect my fagboard

>stating 'i'm not autistic' and then weebing

>>8614324
>being this much of a beta autist
learn to enjoy life instead of being a faggot about everything, this is why you're on here instead of getting your boypussy beat up

>>8614336

yeah i was joking but autistics don't tend to get humour

i prefer cars to men anyway, they don't cheat on you or whine and complain all day

>>8614358
>joking

also
>implying cars dont whine and complain all day
i like it when my engine whines you homo

>>8614362

>engine whines

oh baby that pushes my buttons

>joking

i don't really want to you die for being a tranny chaser dumbo, what do you actually drive f4m?

>>8614387
im a dude but just a '11 civic atm.
Looking for a new job, and looking for an older car from the 80s-90s, you?

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the sexual tension in this thread right now is palpable.

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>>8614391

i daily drive a 99 civic atm but have an 88 civic project car (pic related), it's good shit and v.cheap now i have no money to run a second car as it's off the road

i have an old car habit which tends to put off bfs as it can get a bit out of control and i spend a lot of time messing with my cars

sold my 87 mr2 aw11 recently to pay for college ;_; fml senpai

>>8614414
>sold the mr2
noooooooooooooo
im going full blown weeb and hopefully gonna have enough within a year to throw a good sized down payment on a JDM (if i can find a dang job)

>>8614425

I'll find an mr2 pic later, the only thing i would change was it was red and i wanted a black, white or beige one

what kinda JDM you after? your choice will depend on the country you live in (i'm assuming your buying used?) as some countries have very restrictive laws, i'd explain if you care

>>8614442
US.
IE 25 year cuck rule.
Looking at my lame ass Toogay cars + shit I used to use in the games I played growing up.

>>8614449

>US

damn still got better citizenship than me, enjoy those guns, low taxes and ACTUALLY free speeches.

There are some shady shops I hear of that might be able to dodge the rule but unless you are a fan of the late 90s round corners aesthetic there's not much post 1993 stuff that you're interested in anyway

Over here anything goes as long as taxes are paid and it passes the loose yearly inspection, although this means there is a thriving JDM scene prices are very high

>>8614497
yea a GTR is like 20k+ ezpz ;_;

>>8614513

I'll buy you a GTR if I can marry you for US citizenship and a green card although I think you are the tranny chaser so we have separate bedrooms. Deal?

>>8614521
I'm not a chaser, lol.
also sure thing

>>8614532

If you're not a chaser then I'm only half joking m8, I need to leave this shithole

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>>8614564
I hope you can escape oneday anon <3

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>>8608400
Not these days, no. Ever since I cleared most of my social contacts besides family, I've actually been pretty happy. I enjoy being by myself most of the time besides work and the time I spend with my brother. That doesn't mean I dislike people, I just like being by myself and most people really don't seem to respect that at all. That's mostly due to me just not clicking with very many people though, being an introvert with social anxiety doesn't help with that.

>>8608476
I know that at any time I can go to a bar or a club and enjoy someone's company.

If you struggle with meeting strangers and maintaing relationships you will always feel lonely.

>>8608476
I don't and I want to kill myself