How does denial work? Can you spend 28 years of life without

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How does denial work? Can you spend 28 years of life without a single indication of same sex attraction and then wham ur gay?

Because I think its happening to me.

I've become aware of sex very early on, I remember being six years old and asking my mom why does my peepee get stiff when I see naked boobies she got kind of embarassed but nonetheless explained shit to me. The rest I found out myself, was a regular fapper at 7. I'd just do it then feel bad for awhile until I saw the next sideboob or a bare thigh I liked female body just turned me on like there's no tomorrow.

Then this continued until broadband internet dropped and man did it start. I had a beastiality fetish at age 14 already (doesnt do shit for me these days but then oh man) and went through every single fantasy imaginable throughout my twenties. I still fell in love with girls from school, fapped to the more attractive ones. Was very shy though.

In my twenties I mostly watched amateur videos of people fucking. First got on 4chan in 2007 and saw tons of gay porn but it didn't do anything for me or I kek'd at the campiness of it.

Then I got into shemales about three years ago and last month I finally crossed the rubicon self inserted myself into a fantasy and I came. Since then I think I'm turning gay and its a huge problem since I've already built my identity over loving women. Even like two years ago I was hugging a girl I fancy when drunk and popped a rockhard boner. I feel trolled as fuck by my brain couldnt imagine being with a dude its just the act that I can't get out of my mind. I don't think I want to actually do it either.

Since that time I got into zoophilia I never thought less of gay people because I was very aware of what I'm getting off to and being gay is tame compared to the shit I've seen. Still I'm not comfortable at all with the thought.

What the fuck is going on

Anonymous 2017-07-12 05:54:08 Post No.8571775
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Anonymous 2017-07-12 05:54:08 Post No.8571775 [Report]

thanks for the blogpost

Anonymous 2017-07-12 05:56:46 Post No.8571780
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Anonymous 2017-07-12 05:56:46 Post No.8571780 [Report]

>>8571772
Sexuality is fluid. If you're attracted to men, you're gay now. If you're still attracted to women then you're bi. It could change again in the future, maybe not. Simple as that.

pls respond 2017-07-12 05:57:00 Post No.8571781
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pls respond 2017-07-12 05:57:00 Post No.8571781 [Report]

>>8571775

I always lurk before I post and half the posts on this board is blogposts from people who got on hormones and feel bad because they still look like Freddy Mercury

surely mine is at least a slight diversion

pls respond 2017-07-12 05:59:33 Post No.8571786
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pls respond 2017-07-12 05:59:33 Post No.8571786 [Report]

>>8571780
I'm still attracted to women but dudes are just a weird kick

Just gay porn is still meh to me but throw a female in there and oh lawd. Its the most potent fantasy for me.

Anonymous 2017-07-12 06:06:49 Post No.8571797
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Anonymous 2017-07-12 06:06:49 Post No.8571797 [Report]

>>8571786
You sound bi but you also seem too obsessed with labeling it. Just enjoy what you're attracted to and leave it at that. If you want to have a mmf threesome do it! You may not even like it or it may just end up being another phase for you in which case you're over thinking something that turned out to be nothing at all.

pls respond 2017-07-12 06:28:56 Post No.8571849
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pls respond 2017-07-12 06:28:56 Post No.8571849 [Report]

>>8571797

well to reiterate - I haven't been able to get hard to a pic of a naked woman for years now, straight porn no problem

Is overmasturbation real? For years I'd do it every single day never mind if I want to watched some weird ass shit to get it up and eventually my libido tanked for a few years during which nobody at all in the real world would excite me.

This is why it all feels fucked up, I dont mind being into dudes but I want to dabble in the occasional fat chick again like I used to way back when. Especially now that I've fixed other aspects of my life.

Anonymous 2017-07-12 07:01:51 Post No.8571943
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Anonymous 2017-07-12 07:01:51 Post No.8571943 [Report]

I'm pretty much the same. Exclusively attracted to woman irl, but I love gay porn of the trap variety.

But something in my gut tells me not to fuck guys. Not because its wrong, but there is no positive energy there. Its all linked to the me that's alone and using porn as an escape, as opposed to being outside and falling for people in a more organic way.

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