/mtfg/ taco women edition

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im a taco ama

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>>8502699
my gf smells like a burrito, not a taco

>>8502708
When did you become a taco?
Is taco a good situation?

>>8502708
Mild, hot, or diablo?

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104 for emma is an abusive hon that was attacked in vengence by a mob of trannies that cut off her hand.

>>8502714
The hottest one

>>8502713
I have always been a taco

Reminder that everyone is a hon except Dollface, Kayla and Korra. Prove me wrong. And no Dollface, you're not a hon.

give me a (you) if you're a cuck

>>8502725

>And no Dollface, you're not a hon.
yes i am, just ask all of the ppl who talk about how ugly i am in mtfg all of the time
it doesn't fuckin matter tho because there's a lot more to life than the way you look lmao

>>8502725
I am not hon
See >>8502708

>>8502725
I'd rather not be on a list with Kayla and Korra.

>>8502719
Am I the only one who's kinda getting tired of this drama now? Wheres the new scoop?

>>8502725
Yes u r wrong

>>8502725
i am not a hon

i am a proud agp hon

learn the difference baka

>>8502735
Good because she was wrong to put you on it.

>>8502733

You get almost compliments every single day and the ones that say you are a hon are jealous hons themselves.

>>8502700
Where

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>>8502722
>The hottest one
best taste

>>8502725
dang

>>8502725
i'm not a hon yet desu

>>8502747

not everyone who finds me unattractive is a hon, beauty is subjective. just like music taste. that's why it doesn't mean anything lol

>>8502749

right here

>>8502739
>learn the difference
agp hons suffer from testosterone poisoning?

>>8502769
You are so cute

>>8502725
I know I am
Please end me so there's one less

>Get back
>See this again

Goddamnit lassies are you serious with this bullshit? I literally just ate and then Elenna has to post her jelly donut.

Admittedly it looks delicious tho.

>>8502769
>beauty is subjective. just like music taste. that's why it doesn't mean anything lol

Finally, someone else says it afaik.

Also you look great~

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>>8502709
You're right on everything ,sadly...
I think I look even worst without the hat. And desu my nose isn't even straight.

>>8502707
I'm not going to stop taking the pills if that's what you mean.

i know there's more to life than looks but when i look like a monster it brings down my quality of life so much that there isn't any enjoyment left. i wish i looked notmal, not attractive or anything. i'll always have dysphoria breaking me down crying because of this, i won't find love because nobody could be physically attracted to me, i will always be an outcast socially for being a freak.

>>8502803
get your eyebrows done and style that hair so less fourhead and you fine

>>8502769
whERE????????????
h - one cutie booty
o - always down for cuddling
n - now thats a good girl

>>8502803
you're not ugly, i would say you're attractive in an unconventional way, like a Velma

i think rounder glasses and a fuller hairstyle would do you good

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If I kill myself I'll be reborn as someone else and have another chance at being cis or transitioning young right?

>>8502809
What do you think is wrong with you, anon?

>>8502845
We'll all probably be reborn as trans guys

>>8502845
Careful you might also be reborn as a house fly, reincarnation is risky

>>8502847
the bone structure of my body and face makes me look like a man, and i can't change that.

>>8502852
I'll just kill myself again to reroll the dice, fuck.

>>8502854
House flies live one day and don't have consciousnesses so I wouldn't remember it.

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>>8502845
the universe is basically an n-dimensional mandelbrot set

every sentience is the godhead navigating its boundaries, so yeah, but also don't because experiencing every particular life is neat

>>8502854
cute girl

>>8502803
good keep at the pills and all that
I think your nose looks fine and you have pretty eyes but I don't have any advice so anything more I say is just gonna be a vague compliment or weird flirt

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>>8502774

no

>>8502784

looks don't matter at alllllllllllllllllllllllllllll in the real world idk

>>8502809

don't look in mirrors then. or smoke so much weed that you realize it doesn't matter and evolve past looks !!

>>8502831

i mean i am always down to cudd

>>8502870
>neat
That's a weird way to describe agony

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>>8502803
You should smile!!

>>8502883
I'll try my best to look my best and improve myself everyday but I'm doing it for myself. I could care less what people think of me, but I still find it "heartwarming" when people give me a compliment but that's natural I suppose.

>>8502835
>>8502803
I'm too scared to get the haircut I need, so that's taken care of.
Annnd same for the glasses actually. Those one are like 3 or 4 years old and they're broken (right eye side is desoldered, left side on pic due to it being flipped for some reason)... My mom's been bugging me for like 6 months to get them replaced.
And the eyebrows are even worse than you can see on the pic, but hopefully I'll be able to learn how to take care of that soon enough.

Tbh being unconventionally attractive mean nothing, it's like saying chasers like masculine girls with a bepis, then every tranny is unconventionally attractive by default.

Now for a more targeted question, is there a standard method to adjust statistics to take hugboxing into account?

>>8502877
desu I don't know how to answer to that, never been flirted with, and I don't believe the compliments people say because it's all hugboxing.
In fact, it's even better, because I know for a fact that receiving compliments and criticism affect me emotionally, but I also rationally know I'm the only person with the ability to truly judge me, so in the end the emotions related to critics and compliments are just parasite over streamlined mental work. I know I don't deserve compliments for the work I do, because I spend most of my time slacking, and I can be rationally sure of that. But apparence is just a mess because I know my opinion on myself is affected by a lot of factor that make it completely unobjective (which it wouldn't be in the first place).
But I'm completely digressing, I'll take any of that if you're offering.

>>8502909
No, my smile is creepy, I don't want to.

>>8502943
eh, and wrong quote, meant to quote >>8502820 instead of >>8502803

Ahaha that's hilarious in context:
https://youtu.be/Lwdi93hdm8w

want a hamburger?

>>8502943
>I'll take any of that if you're offering.
ey I'd offer a date but I'm poor

>>8502883
i posted a pic of you in response to someone who said no one makes it, and got lots of angry you's

tfw never gotten you's like that before, lol

>>8502943
You just have to do it for your happiness. Its scary getting a haircut, your eyebrows groomed, and picking out girl glasses but you will be way happier after.

I know because I was like you and miserable, I had the same gross hairstyle, terrible guy glasses, and bushy eyebrows. It was effecting me so much i started failing classes since i didnt want to wear my guy glasses.

I think you care more about passing then being attractive and thats some of the first things you need to do that will improve your apperance a lot. Its not about being attractive you are just messy..

Do that before worrying about how people on 4chan think you look like. The reward of feeling better about yourself is far worth the anxiety of trying to go to a hairsalon for the first time.

>>8502979
yes pls did you make it?

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who else here /hrt gave you pancake size areolas/

$500CAD and I rid us of the Elanna menace once and for all

>>8503028
>$500CAD and I rid us of the Emma menace once and for all
do this and i will give $500 usd

>>8503021
tfw pancake sizes areolas but smol nips

>>8503021
mine are more like an egg yolk

>>8503032
deal
how do you want it done?

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>>8503042
Scaphism

>>8502725
>>8502668
>kayla
>korra
Kek
>>8502700
O wow lemme see dem tiddies
>>8502733
> there's a lot more to life than the way you look lmao
Y u lyin?
>>8502735
Tbh same

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>>8503028
>>8503032
Everyone knows traps make the best assassins です。

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>>8503054
Good choice.

Where is everyone?

How do you console someone whos gf may or may not have decided to cut all contact with trannies (including her gf) and go into repression mode.

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>>8502943
i did say "like a Velma" and Velma is cute despite not being any kind of cultural standard for attractiveness, i'm not trying to say your masculine fetishist bait or anything

>my smile is creepy
doubt it

>>8503097
Discord probably, but everyone is still here

>>8503098
don't you have any cis friends that could talk to her?

>>8503098
that's a bit personal to be posting here

>>8502725
>if you're not 10/10, you're a hon

Go away chaser

>>8503115
Im fucking panicking ok i dont know how to help her and besides its no one from mtfg

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>>8503021
mine are bigger than a toonie

>>8502943
>No, my smile is creepy
are your gums very visible when you smile?
google "gummy smile" if you think so.
Theirs maxillofacial surgery that can fix that if that is the case and can reduce your midface length.

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>>8502988

ppl are always very angry with me idk why

>>8503069

lmao

>>8503098

you just be there i guess idk. there's not much you can do.

>>8503125
Probably doesn't have a good tooth to gum ratio

>>8503130
>says more to life than looks
>needs to be attractive or she gets upset

This jogs my nog

>>8503119
suicide risk?

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>>8503011
ahaahah, wait I got you a picture of my room.
I can't take care of anything, like I don't have enough willpower, I can't even stay up and awake for my day of work, I end up getting back home like a zombie, having my eyes actually glitching/spazzing and generally extreme tiredness symptoms (and I can't take coffee because it makes it worse, and if you're going to ask, no, all that didn't come with HRT, HRT actually improved it a bit), if I don't get a dysphoria attack on the way home because it's the moment I am most vulnerable and tired.
The few thing I manage to do is music and programming, sometimes assembling RC planes or building electronics (but then I somehow get sick and start hyperventilating because my appartement is so tiny and cramped and I can't move in it). I constantly get shit on my music byr friends for some reason, and somehow I can't process the compliments I get on it. After 5 years of messing around with FL i'm barely getting to the point where my music is listenable to.
I can't take more than one problem at a time. I should've gotten my car's brake pad checked last week, but I couldn't. More on that I had to complete ALL my studies and get a job to even think about fixing my 'depression' (I didn't expect it to be bad or time critical really, I actually thought for a long time everybody was feeling the same ikr that's classical.)
I don't even know how I managed to get work and finish my studies (I actually did NOTHING of the last year because 'I had no one to do the group projects with' and somehow fucking completed most of them alone in the last 2 months, group projects that were meant to be completed over multiple months), but I guess a combination of extreme willpower and being broken somehow always manage to get through does it?
And somehow all over that I think I look okay. It's 'hilarious' (you know, from the rational perspective), how violent and short my bad moments are, it's like they don't even exist.
Cont.

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>>8503154
Does ever damn tranny have a messy room besides me?

tfw no gf who likes watching cute animal videos with me

im a trap

>>8503163
i would like a hamburger

>tfw not a lesbian housewife

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>>8503158
I keep mine pretty clean* and am an avid clean room advocate!

*is messy right now due to renovating another bedroom in the house, I have furniture that isn't mine sitting around clogging the room

>>8503179
wugg

https://youtu.be/E6Qh3VTmtxU

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>>8503140

i don't really care much about looking attractive at this point tbqh lol. i used to a lot, but idk
ever since i realized while high out of my mind that my natural self is pretty i stopped feeling like i needed to be unnatural to be attractive
if that makes any sense

>tfw your brain is too broken to have a clean room

that room is pretty comfy looking except for the green walls being hideous.
My room is a little messy because I dont have anything to store stuff in. Only have a dresser completly full of clothes a tiny desk that only fits my computer and a bed.
Really wish I had some bookshelfs and that my room wasnt super small.

>>8503179
And the other wall of the room, from the view of the seat?

>>8503154
Continued:
Truly Neckbeard ain't it?
I'm an awful person. I keep talking about my life, no one need to know about my life. I know you're there saying that kind things only because you feel sorry for me. And who I am to take the right to make you feel sorry?
I'm horribly selfish: see there's a funny way to turn the sacrifying for friend thing. You can actually be selfish by sacrifying yourself, because you'd rather have them loose you than you loosing them, it's a bit stupid right?
I'm tired on tugging on life to have it work my way, I've always been tugging. I horribly need holidays. Everything I got in life required a immense amount of mental work, and I'd probably not even have gotten HRT if someone didn't ask for, i'd maybe have taken some more months to ask, but hopefully this one time I had a really good friend with me.
I just want to stop tugging all the time, it's really tiring. I just want to lay in bed, somehow get a bit of food, maybe internet access, and just do nothing until I'm motivated to do something. Usually the problem if I actually start something is that'll have to clean the mess afterwards, but usually I already empty all motivation at this point.
I have a feeling my writing is getting less and less consistant, can anyone confirm?
Anyways, I could probably do it, I could get a haircut, get nice glasses, groom my eyebrows, but I don't know why I'm scared? Maybe someone will say something? I'm not even sure it even ever happened in my life, I don't know what to do. Every time I have to do something it hurts somehow, but like not hurting, I think I'm starting to cry.
Why am I self aware of all the shit that goes completely out of wack in my mind, I'm painfully aware at all time I can't enjoy life for shit, I know I'm reacting completely wrong to an enormous amount of stuffs (like the times I couldn't drive the car for week because little stuffs happened, like when there is conflict with coworkers and I somehow completly panic,
Cont.

>>8503173
;------;same

>>8503173
>tfw not a straight housewife ina lesbian relationship with hubby's other girl

>>8503205
i just want to love and support someone and also not have to go outside

Someday

I will become a ninja

>>8503158
I don't have a messy room. I have about ten. I probably should move to a smaller place, could be easier to keep tidy. But I'm not sure how I'd fit all my junk.

>>8503210
why would you want to marry a boy theyre mean

>>8503173
>tfw you want to be her lesbian housewife but you cant cook at all

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>>8503203
Ah yes right, the TV

>>8503219
it's easy you just have to follow a recipe

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>>8503154
you're literally me and tetra except 100x more productive and successful, room included

>>8503204
you're pushing yourself too hard and maybe doing things for appearances or to prove to yourself that you're worth something in some particular context, rather than for the sake of actually enjoying it

you need a break

>>8503220
are u a 1337 gamer

>>8503215
>she doesn't want to get looked after and petted and made into a submissive model gf

>>8503154
>>8503204
same my room looks even worse but you gotta pick yourself up and face your problems even if it's one by one in small steps. I would post a pic of my room if had space to take a pic but it's like a half recording studio and half collection display and half dump. coffee mugs, cameras, a midi keyboard loads of medication and much much other crap is everywhere here.

I'm will take off a year to find out what to do with my life and travel around a bit meet up with people and have a good time for once.

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>>8503219
Your girlfriend makes some amazing looking food though, isn't that enough.

>>8503172
i ate it. sorry

>>8503236
i want all that but with a girl

How do i stop being an irredeemable human piece of garbage and a total monster, preferably by means other than suicide. I feel guilty every day and I cant fix it.

>>8503220
Hm, then there's no bookshelf and the door is next to the bed. I disapprove.

Add the books and switch the closet and door and it'll be a top tier room imo, an exceptional use of a relatively small place.

>>8503243
See a psychologist and or mindful meditation for self loathing and guilt

>>8503239
But i want to make nice things for her!

tfw not one of the cute trans girls in loving relationships

omg weave's room is comfy as af

>tfw bugs in your room

>>8503241
i want that with a boy and then have a girl cuddle me too and tell me how well out boy has trained me

>>8503262
don't you have spiders in your room to catch the bugs?

>>8503231
I wanna be hardcore but Noseburg won't let me, he needs my help

>>8503250
I got rid of one of my shelves to be a little more minimalist, plus it wasn't getting much use at all. And thats kinda the best place for the bed when thinking about the computer desk. The corner the desk is in has no rooms on the other side, thats exterior walls so its more ideal for not having family hear me talking. There isn't much reconfiguration I can do while keeping the desk where it is so the bed has to stay put.

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>>8503240
Oh :( Was it atleast a scrumptious burger?

>>8503252
Well I'm sure you have other talents that will compliment hers that she appreciates you for.

>>8503275
it was okay

>>8503272
They don't get them all

>>8503271
I want that but with a butch girl training me and a femme girl cuddling

>>8503189
so cuuuuute
>>8503204
I'm not even sure anymore how I get by or got by in life.
I probably need help, but I won't get it, and no one know how fucking broken I am except some random people on the internet.
For all the people around me I only let them I'm a extremely strong person that continually manage to get trough an improbable amount of stuffs that get throw at me by life, while keeping the smile on.
They dont know tho, but I'm happy to keep the smile for them because I'm happy to see them happy.
After all I don't want to kms because I have so much things to see and do, it'd just be wasting myself, and it'd fuck it up for the people near me, and they don't need that, they have their own problems. If I was believing in god or some other bullshit like reincarnation I'd be off, maybe, not even sure.
but no I'm just there like 'oh yea better live that one out because I won't get another'. I can't stop (wink >>8503230), because then I'd be wasting myself.
>>8503237
I'm only worth what I earned to be worth, I'm a successful, productive member of society, with a good paying work full of responsibilities. and I'll suck it up to not have somebody prove it otherwise, because I worked so fucking hard to get there, I can't give up, but I'm still taking the mental hit, and it hurts.
I'm 'productive', because I force myself, and because I hate myself for not being productive the times I could have been (namely, the year I did nothing).
Now I have already taken steps, many steps, SO MANY FUCKING STEPS. And yet I'm so far away from anything, it being transition, work, my life in general, work is already taking 90 % of my mental management capacities, because I work longer hours than I should. I actually have opportunities for other positions open right now which would fit my preferences more, I'm too scared to ask for it. I work too long in my day and it affects me, but I'm too scared to ask for reduced hours, because I dearly need the money.
Cont.

Who would win: Emma vs Chara (piety)

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I feel really relieved. My bf said he dated one trans girl before me, and that she was on hrt for 3 years. I always thought she was probably really pretty and passing since my bf is really good looking. Well he showed me a picture of her and she was hideous and still in boymode after all that time. Im pretty cute but I always thought he was out of my league but geez idk how she managed to get him. Makes me feel a million times more confident about myself.

>>8503289
get more or better spiders then or set up fly traps like a bowl of beer catches all the flies.

>>8503301
it's mostly these gross beetles
every time I try to clean i see them and get nauseous so it's kind of self perpetuating

>>8503296
do they win a therapist

>>8503252
>>8503252
Ive been recomended the first alot by a few people and even had offers from family to pay for it but idk.

And I used to meditate years ago but gave it up, took too much time.

beepbeep is a nice and cute girl I like her

>>8503309
sociopath vs psychopath

What the hecky heck

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>>8503295
as an armchair psychologist, i'm going to claim objectively that you live for others rather than yourself, for their appreciation and respect rather than your own, and you need to stop because no amount of others' respect and admiration makes up for the suffering you inflict upon yourself to get it

birdy is a sweet boy and I wish he was my bf

what would happen if chara and emma dated?

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>>8503315

>>8503295
just take a break for some time you probably still have many years of work in the future so it's ok to take a break.

i feel like a worthless coward :3

>>8503295
Fuck I write too much, no one is reading this right?
. And the 10 % left are taken by social interactions such as playing tabletop rpg.
Seriously I don't even know how I'm still alive. I got bullied my whole life until I got out of public school then somehow alternated between not doiiing shit then working my ass off and somehow I'm still there, completely incapable of taking anything normally like a fucking normal person. I'm telling my life story complaining how i'm fucking retarded on a taiwanese wood carving image board.
>>8503319
But I don't care about other people, I only care about them because they make me happy. Everything I do is my own choice, no one I know enjoy RC planes, no one I know enjoy electronics, no one I know enjoy my music (heck, i don't even know anyone that even share my music tastes!). And like I said earlier, The compliment or critics of other peoples don't directly affect me!
>>8503333
I would like to... I'm taking one in august uh that's not a pause, that's interacting with family. I don't actually know how many free days I can take.
It's funny because I got proposed therapy by the doctor but I said I didn't need it. I'm fucking crazy, am I?

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>>8503219
>tfw learning to cook to be lesbian housewife

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_kdTZK3-fcY

Planks for feminine shape after starting HRT? How are they?

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>>8503320
Too bad hes a fragile little cuck and in love with someone who already has a girlfriend :)

are we still doxing jon?
i found his parents online

>>8502733
GET on skype

>>8503352
boring and not very effective

>>8503342
honestly like 75% of what you wrote could have been from me but you gotta love yourself to love other people.

>>8503340
Why

>>8503356
No, whats the point.

DOLLFACE CURED MY DEPRESSION. NO JOKE

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>>8503342
you may not be doing it to show specific people all these things you accomplish, but you do have an obsession with being productive for the sake of it, to prove to yourself that you're valuable, but why do you need to prove it to you when you already know you are?

there's something in you telling you you have to appear valuable, and it's not to make yourself happy because you are definitely not happy

so why are you choosing to do this?

>>8503365
to hopefully make them kill themselves of course

>>8503361
I'm 3 and a quarter months in and asked in another thread but didn't get much if a reply and was wondering if cycling minor weight gain and loss would get my shape there better than losing as much as possible in one go then regaining a lot, both options of course with good diet and exercise.

>>8503356
people were doxing emma? omg lol

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>>8503219
I will cook for us

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>tfw have worse manface at 22 than most trannies have pre-HRT starting at 30-35
I don't even have anything else to be proud of, even if I try I'm only ever desperately clinging onto the meagrest of accomplishments filtered through the heavy compromises I have to make due to mental and physical disability
frequent drug usage is literally the only thing keeping me going anymore

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>It's 1:16 AM, Tuesday in Swampville
>2 DAYS UNTIL I GRADUATE

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

>>8503377
also r8 my evangelion bodypillow

>>8503376
No i want to do nice thing for you

>>8503377
I'm not dead because of you robin. You are a good person. Don't forget that.

>>8503342
What kinda music do you like?

>>8503368
Because I want to?
I want to build rc planes and pilot them, I want to do music, etc... That's what I want to do.
The problem is those things require to be productive in some ways. You don't make good enough music just starting, you have to work years to produce something you'll appreciate listening to.
For the rc planes I need to be productive because I need the money to buy the parts.

>>8503369
Thats pretty disgusting.

>>8503377
>>8503385
Cute hair and cute pillow 8/10.

>>8503391
Trance, mostly, I enjoy most genres, but I just prefer Trance and Trance-related styles.

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>>8503386
I will cook us spaghetti pizza ok?

>>8503219
>tfw she had to teach you how to heat up a pizza
im literally hopeless at least as far as cooking is concerned

>>8503396
Relationship ended with elanna. Now co worker chan is my lover.

i dont know how to keep being alive

>>8503377
why be sad? just shoot more ket.

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>2 days

Oh my GOD I AM SO FUCKING HYPE IM SORRY

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If I got fucked in the ass am I gona burn in hell.

Ive been meaning to get christened for a while and I was thinking maybe it might help seeing as because of this stupid vein thing in my head im gona be dead in the next ten or twenty years.

>>8503395
Trance is pretty cool but i haven't really listened to it a lot since i was a kid, I'm more into weird folk-punk and ANIME RAP

What're some trance artists you like?

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>sip of coffee for the first time in weeks
>that rush of energy
>that feeling of drowsiness disappearing

I posted this in /repgen/ but maybe ill get more conducive answers here.

>email therapist about setting up a consultation
>she responds quickly
>asks me whats concerning me, my gender issue etc.
>its going well and responds quickly to every email
>she asks what my work schedule is so we can plan a meeting around that
>tell her i lost my job two weeks ago and am unemployed (but have disposable income should i need to use it)
>stops responding
>that was 26 hours ago, still no response.

Should i find a different therapist

>>8503406
>shooting anything
I snort it senpai but yes you're right I'm about to do a fat line so I can get to sleep and wake up in time for my orthotics appointment tomorrow

>>8503390
who this?

as i'd order pizza for you, emma.

>>8503293
i want to be a femme girl myself, and instead of the femme girl a tomboy, and instead of the butch a boy

>>8503412
I love Aimoon, Craig Connelly, Orkidea, Solarstone, Antares 101... lots and lots

https://youtu.be/oM1E4WPjfbI
https://youtu.be/WYwH22ED_-g
https://youtu.be/7TeGpC9sHf4
https://youtu.be/FblZayef1Yo
https://youtu.be/Yqc4AYFFpQg

>>8503424
I mean yesterday was sunday, maybe she doesnt respond to emails then?
I guess it wouldnt hurt to research another therapist in the mean time

>>8503424
26 hours isnt a long time for a reply is it?

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>>8503428
*Takes emma's pizza, covers it in mayonaise.*
nothing personel, hon

>>8503365
i keep being sad but i can't shake the feeling that i shouldn't complain because everyone else has it way worse than me
but im still sad
and angry and disappointed in myself and
yeah
it's pathetic

>>8503443
Nah, I'm a guy!!!

Emma can afford her own pizza.

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>>8503451
I was refering to emma as a hon, not you.

>>8503433
'ey I'll listen to these, thanks, the first one sounds pretty good already

do you usually work on trance music whenever you fuck about with FL? any time I try and learn musical production i forget how to use the audio workshop, get overwhelmed and fuck around for an hour or so

>tfw you love her but she doesn't love you back
why go on desu

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>>8503455
She isn't that bad.

Christ almighty, you should see the hons that work at my job. One of them is this 6 foot 5 person who has bigger hands than me and who has a jaw that would put Clark Kent to shame

>>8503459
just rape her desu

>>8503443
lmao, funny but dont be mean plz.

>>8503447
Everyones got problems dont feel guilty about complaining just make sure youre expressing yourself in a suiitable way to people who can handle what you are telling them. You know like a counsilor or a best friend or someone who offers themselves as a friend to listen.

We all need to vent sometimes anon dont worry you have people who are there for you.

Emma emma emma emma senpai desu kawaii

>>8503459
>tfw nobody will ever love you

I hate memories
every time I found happiness it was forcefully taken away from me.
every god damn time.

>>8503462
Trip on Eugenie

I'm absolutely amazed that any of you even buy into the fucker's bait. He literally does it for fun and laughs when you sperg out telling him to leave.

Don't even say his fucking name, he just gets a kick out of it and the only reason he wastes his life on this board is to troll the shit out of young transgirls and laugh at them.

>>8503469
faye, faye, bo-baye banana-fana fo-aye fee-fi-mo-maye faye

>>8503481
raping intensifies

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>>8503457
I basically spam the piano roll with notes until I have a melody and a chord progression, then I decide if I want to do something with it or trash it.
For example, I drew mountains for the melody of this one:
https://clyp.it/ndnxku03

why the fuck do I bother?

>>8503493
>fruity loops
smdh

>>8503442
Seems like it when she responded almost 5 minutes after my initial inquiry. All of which took place yesterday

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>>8503498
There's nothing wrong with FL heck you

I use Ableton and Reason and Cubase too but FL has always been the most intuitive

>>8503498
it has the best piano roll.

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>>8503408
lawbreakers beta?

>>8503392
i mean i guess, but you're killing yourself to get there and it's not healthy

>>8503493
goddamn I really like this
where do you upload your stuff usually?

>>8503485
Who? Emma? Faye?

>>8503499
ah, well id wait another day and if shes still taking her time maybe look into another if its easy enough for you and wont complicate things.

Sorry I dont know what to suggest really.

>>8503486
Stop trivializing my feels

tfw no gf that doesnt cheat

Friendly reminder that Pandora is an abusive asshole who uses Gloomy for his own benefits and only transitioned because he is a sick fuck

>>8503502
Pro tools> FL studio

>>8503506
I'm not, it's being unfit for life that make it all more complicated. It's my problem but not my fault.

>>8503502
I'd personally use Ardour if the midi editor in it wasn't so fucked up...

>>8503508
Thanks.
Souncloud, can't link without basically doxxing my whole public internet life.

Reminder that Faye is a cutie and looking for a wife to impregnate

tfw want to ask a girl on a date but im anxious about it

>>8503515
i'll be your bf that doesn't cheat

>>8503377
time to drown yourself edgar

>>8503515
I'll never cheat on you

>>8503468
it's just that my problems seem so insignificant compared to those of others
and it feels like i'm subconsciously making shit up for attention or something

more often than not, i feel like i am not worth anyone's time and that i'm just wasting time people could've spent with more interesting and generally better people

i have told this in lesser degree to my psych, but i'm scared of sounding even more pathetic than i already do to them

last time i went in saying i recognized a few symptoms of dependent personality disorder
not worried, just trying to understand myself better or something
and they completely misunderstood and they kept going on about how silly it was that i even looked it up and that i shouldn't try to label myself and other things like that

>>8503515
Im not cheating on you ;---;

>>8503540
>tfw was nervous as fuck to tell her i liked her
>tfw she was just as nervous and liked me just as much
Just go for it

>>8503552
You two havent even met in person yet.

>>8503530
yeah that's alright, would it be weird if I asked for a discord or something so you could show me some other stuff?

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>tfw not in love

>>8503552
maybe next time i see her, im afraid of ruining things

>>8503529
Pro tools is a daw for mixing and editing
For music creation/composition its subpar, and the midi functionality in pro tools is shit

>>8503551
Are you dating beep behind my back?!

>>8503554
1 month. we booked a hotel.
>>8503563
do it

>>8503540
How long've you two known each other?

>>8503564
Yeah i was meming i mostly use logic pro 9 and ableton.

>>8503567
pls dump elanna and let me hump your butthole

>>8503569
its been a while

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>tfw emma actively wants to DM me and chat with me, even going as far as to add me after i remove her
>tfw its only because i have lots of bitcoins and cryptocurrency too
>tfw money is not affection

fucking hell
i didnt sign up for this


btw you guys bullied emma hard >:(

>>8503529
does the producer edition of fl studio not count? we are making p good progress with it so far

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Is there any point to me trying?

>>8503576
Who are you.

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>>8503576
Bend over I'm going in dry

>>8503577
has she ever threatened you or physically assaulted you? if not I'd say she's probably gonna be into a date

Fun fact

Folds of a brain is called a gyri

>>8503556
Well I found this very dank this thing on my desktop: https://clyp.it/ovkkiltr
and here is a targz of all the things I ever exported on this computer:
https://www.mediafire.com/?vgg1ga8vo01507d
If you want the project files, ask away.

>>8503589
yeah it's just a matter of perspective

>>8503579
Yeah lots of people seem to be mean to her, how is she holding up?

>>8503583
Haven't tried it desu. When i get back into production il see if i can pirate it.

>>8503559
>tfw in love with this horrible person who I hate

>>8503579
hope she dies

>>8503621
hope i die

>>8503600
oh shit, thanks, I'll listen through.
the project files would be cool but if it's too much hassle don't worry about it.

>>8503579
is she trying to get money from you?
or just talking about bitcoin stuff?

wanna go out?

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I've literally met trans people who started HRT at over 60 and pass and then there's me
existence was a mistake

>>8503617
Of all my 3 relationships, I've only loved one. My other crush was someone I knew who didn't want to be with me.

I've only been in love two times lol

>>8503645
Can you send me your shinji fuckpillow case (case ONLY I don't want to risk smelling your gross ass pillow) when you inevitably kys? I kinda want one

>>8503632
here: https://www.mediafire.com/?8me7e5cin85vbqn
You'll find most of it is shit though.

>>8503634
Emma likes talking about memecoin stuff, she doesnt need money from anyone.

>>8503638
Where we goin???
>>8503575
>9
Why not 10? It's much better
Most people can't afford pro tools anyway.
When i work i def prefer PT tho
>>8503565
Shes my wife

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>>8503608
Not that well.

Doesn't help that I added her today, and instead of talking about her problems and shit, she just blabs on about cryptocurrencies. It's the ONLY thing that interests her. I have to talk about crypto and memecoins with this neckbeard at work, I don't want to come home to talk about crypto SOME MORE.

>>8503634
She wanted me to get her pizza, top lole. I nearly did it till I realized I was being retarded and I just went away again. >>8503657 Like she says, emma is already loaded as fuck.

what to do when you feel broken?

>>8503663
>Why not 10?
Because 9 is the version that was out when i purchased it and i didnt like the look of X on our school labs. Unless you can make it not so black and look more like 9

>>8503668
sleep

>>8503668
Smoke some fucking dope, pound back some boozers, ride a cycle like its a cock, get some sexy loving, scream at the top of your lungs.

or

>>8503671

>>8503668
you die
you aren't fixable
the only way to fix things is by dying
don't fall into the delusion that there is hope

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>>8503645
hugg :(

I use snapchat filters to make myself happier when I'm sad

>>8503651
I've had one lol, for a year, turns out she was cheating on me the whole time, never again.

>>8503666
How loaded are you talking?

>>8503677
also this lol
if not for being broken, just die for being a tranny
it's a cruel joke anyway

>>8503688
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6vwNcNOTVzY

>>8503666
I'll never understand why people buy or give anything to Emma when she can buy it herself without a second thought.

>tfw she shows off her pecs

>>8503677
>>8503692
:(
>>8503676
drugs are bad
>>8503671
maybe soon

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the rare and elusive beaver duck....

>>8503654
it's double-sided, has kaworu on the other side
got it off amazon, it's like £30 equivalent

why does everyone assume I smell? because I'm disabled and struggle to wash I'm probably actually more thorough and paranoid about cleaning than average people; I clean my ears, neck and bellybutton at least twice a week (in addition to a normal routine)- how often do you?

also, ket time, time for emotions to gtfo and me to dream about a world where I never existed
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cwBs3VsNfdY

>>8503704
she was a broke neet for years up untill the bitcoin meme started

>>8503684
How old are you?

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>>8503605

What perspective is that?
I feel like a fool. I can't keep track of my own stuff and I'm not doing anything. I feel like I'm too weak to move foward. There's no point.

:(

>>8503717
No shes always had money.

>>8503719
24

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>>8503714
i see you purvey the tale of the Beaver Duck, but have you heard the good word of the Dota Duck?

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>>8503666
Why did I get satanic trips...

I'm a man of god.

>>8503724
No she wasn't. I knew her as early as 2013, and she barely had any cash. She just invested smart and got lucky with the BTC crash in 2013-2014.

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>>8503726
Really? I expected you to be a lot younger.

No offense

>>8503728
And yet people still to this day give her things. It must be nice finding people easy to manipulate like yourself.

this is also good music
https://youtu.be/BMnE-fp8wu4

>>8503716
Hey Robinnnnn

I like that deleted End of Evangelion scene.

I think youre the only other person I've found who's seen it.

cool!


>>8503735
Eh, I'm naive. Thought she would've changed. ;w; A man can dream, right?

hey


does anybody wanna dance... come dance with me

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>>8503668
veterinary tranquilliser

>>8503747
awessmoem
im getting peettyh fucked up now i think im gonna listen to KID A IN FULL
manybe thom york tpyes the wayhe does because of ketamine

or maybe its just dyslexia

>>8503731
:(

Na, none taken kek, I don't really act my age.

A lot of people think I'm younger than I am, got asked for ID sometimes when buying smokes and Alcohol only a year ago. (I've quit both now though)

Just curious, what made you think I was younger?

>>8503728
was she really into bitcoins back then? i knew her almost 2 years ago and she had almost nothing to her name although maybe she lied.

:( but harder this time

can't stop thinking of suicide

suicide cant stop thinking of me

>>8503792
Whats wrong?

heyp peeps Im just checking out how you're all doing!

is everyone well? I <3 u all

>>8503771
>I've quit both now though
Good on you! I've quit smoking too although I smoke weed once a month.

>Just curious, what made you think I was younger?
Well, I can sort of determine (for myself) how or what someone is by simply looking and analyzing their way of making posts. I expected you to be around 18 to 20.

>>8503656
ey it's fine, I still appreciate it, it's neat getting to see into someone's hobby they're passionate about either way

>>8503801
i want a bf/gf/cuddlebuddy

suicide is my only option

>>8503833
No it's not, it's not option, it's opting out of all the options. Just hold on it always get better.

>>8503793
>>8503797
>>8503833
https://youtu.be/n7E82A6PPng?t=17s

>>8503827
then get on discord already lol

>>8503842
>it always get better
no it doesn't
if that were the case i wouldn't feel like suicide is the only option
i want to stop crying and this is the only way

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>going to doc to talk about hrt
>feeling really shitty, have arm hair and stubble, considering asking to stop taking moans
>records say my boy name and male because I don't wan't to put anyone through that when I look like this
>female nurse brings me to patient room and looks over my records
>she asks if I'm here about hormone treatment, yes I am
>"Oh, you look so good!"
>her face brightens up, starts joking around with me, leaves when doc comes
>tfw she probably thought I was ftm
Weird thing, she started acting like I was "one of the girls", I wonder if actual ftm have to deal with that shit

Should I tell my Boss about the hour thing, the open position thing, and maybe the trans thing?

>>8503850
What is bringing you down?

>>8503869
im an ugly monster that will never find love or happiness

any other transfemme ace lesbian enbys here?

>>8503872
Do you want love for love, or love for happiness?

>>8503813
Nice, quitting was the best thing I ever did.

>I smoke weed once a month
Only thing I do is shrooms, once, every winter.

>I expected you to be around 18 to 20
Maybe I'm just emotionally stunted haha.

>>8503847
too much drama i just want dong

>>8503878
Yep, same here

>Shrooms
Oh me never again

>Emotionally stunted
Hmm...

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>tfw sass gets ignored.
ok ;~;

>>8503879
>i just want dong

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h7vVkkru6OU

>>8503877
i dont understand the distinction
love for love would make me feel happy

>>8503885
First class!
Hugg uwu

>>8503879
So you want dick or girl dick is what you are saying.

Tfw you read your ex's texts and miss her really badly and feel terrible
;-;

>>8503883
It's nice to just, disconnect from the world once a year, and have no worries for a while, just blissful trippy nothingness.

>>8503902
tfw you read your ex's messages and remember how badly they treated you

>>8503891
well do you require love for happiness, or is it a way toward happiness?

>>8503902
where'd she go anon

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>tfw my favorite person from the tranny discord isn't even a tranny

what does it mean?

>>8503887
this looks how i feel
>>8503899
I DONT KNOW
>>8503902
all mine turned out to be really shitty people. except one, really, but we were too young and were never going to make it.

>>8503912
>tfw your ex got fat and uggo and I just laff at her cause she is a horrible person

no bully she was really mean

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>>8503922
Well Miss Edie, it means you favor a person from that Discord compared to other people in general you simply click with.

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>sudden feelings of extreme guilt adding up to the rest of my self-hate appear at 3am in the morning

>>8503933
ohhh ayy it's already 3.

Maybe iz time for sleep.
I also have a bottle of Rhum and vidya game.
Which do I choose?

>>8503922
Is it higgus?

How can I join this tranny discord

>>8503938
gib me your discord and i will see if you qualify

>>8503895
<3 alex <3

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>>8503938
by Invoking stuffs using dank memes and drugs.

>>8503938
Don't do it nigga.

If I could
begin to be,
Half of what
you think of me,
I could do about anything,
I could even learn how to love
Like you... night x

ok i did the discord idk how anything works im scared

>>8503941
Can I get in too am bored?
Using buffer account tho, won't post main here Twenty#7050

>>8503904
Iktf though

>>8503923
>this looks how i feel
Finally someone gets me.

>>8503938
Offer your soul to the uppergods of the universe

>>8503951
Maddie#9761
add me and il walk you through it