I don't know my own body anymore

>>8500290
Get help, Anon. There's hope for you yet. Please don't hurt yourself.

>>8500290
are you losing weight?

>>8500290
How have none of your friends suggested showering in the dark?

>>8500304
I don't eat food anymore except when my family brings it, like I said. I don't really feel like I deserve to eat. I did have some McDonald's breakfast and some pasta with sausage today though.

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>tfw 8 months on hormones and I love seeing my slender body on the mirror before taking a shower because of how well it developed

>>8500324
Bait too obvious, my friend

>>8500335
It's bait but also truth

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>>8500290
Shut up you fucking cry baby
you just have body dysmorphia which is a bitch baby version of gender dysphoria.

The different between you and me though is that I didnt have a fucking choice in mine.

You got to choose the life that lead you to this point in time.
You could do something about it.
I cant fix mine.
If you dont want to try and be happy, then you deserve a shit fucking life.
So fuck you and fuck your own created problem.

You have a chance at life that I will never ever have and you are just throwing it away.

So fuck you. I hope you die a slow painful death.

>>8500345
What's wrong?

>>8500311
thats not healthy at all, you need to manage your diet and eat enough but also burn calories - do butt and hips exercise to gain nice proportions

sounds like you really have it bad and you need to talk to a therapist

Plastic bags?

>>8500445
I use those when I'm trying to pass out (from alcohol/drugs), so that I'll pass out while the plastic bag is sealed.

>>8500290
>not the real me

Tell me about the real you, OP.

>>8500566
Don't do that you'll just get brain damage.

>>8500647
Wouldn't that be better than what my life is like now?

>>8500606
She died a long time ago.... But I think she would have been a good friend to everybody, and she would have made people smile. The world, or at least this town and my whole friend circle, are probably a lot worse off because of what happened to me...

>>8502052
And what is that

>>8500290
Please be careful anon, this is the kind of talk that gets people committed.
You should probably talk to a professional about this, and you can even do skype calls with some if you need to. Keep your suicidality out of it, get help and be safe.

>>8500345
you're angry

>I look like a monkey or a caveman wearing human clothes when I wear most of my old shirts now
Iktf
>it's also uncomfortable for me to be naked with my big shoulders swinging around and my gyno tits visible
Iktf

But as for me dissociation really helps. I keep distracting myself with video games until I totally forget about my ugly repulsive alpha male manbod.

>>8503490
Having to live as a tranny.

>>8503865
My mom threatened to today, but my insurance doesn't cover the real hospital anymore, so she can't. I would have to go to the bad place, she won't send me back there. I really miss the food in the real hospital though. It's one of the few places I would actually eat three meals a day, and the food was good.

>>8504174
I didn't have an alpha male manbod until that person. I hate what they did to me, and I don't even know who they are. I used to think I had a pretty good bod. But it was only "for a tranny". Now I have to cover the mirrors and the shiny parts of the faucets and the extra showerhead.

>>8504254
>I used to think I had a pretty good bod.
Same.
But then I realized the sad truth that my bod will look fem or cute and that I will forever be a hips-less curvy-less caveman.

>>8504286
Yeah.... Same.....

My friend came over today though because they were worried about me, and I tried to explain the differences between my body and a real woman's body, and I tried to tell them that most trans people live in an alternate reality about this stuff. But they just started crying.

>>8504414
WHY CANT I HAVE CUTE CONETITS LIKE THAT

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>>8500290

Try exercise.