Lost Opportunities :(

I know that feel, anon.
6'1 17.8" shoulders checking in.
Life is suffering.

Even with FFS and HRT and a tracheal shave I would still never pass thanks to my fuck off massive frame, and there's no surgery to fix bone structure.

Maybe in 20 years I can get turned into a qt android but I doubt it.

I feel like you do, I just want to cry about the opportunity I lost and I should've done it when I had the chance. All I feel is regret. Regret and misery.

>>8450136
You lost your chance to be a real girl when you were yet to be born.

>>8450167
No anon I could've done it I could've been one and hung out with all the girls and gotten looked at by all the guys and now I'll never have any of it because I was too fucking stupid as a teenager.

God I hate myself so much.

>>8450196
Thanks for the kind words anon but it's all I can think about it's literally my every thought lately. I know what I am inside and it's not what I am outside.

It's agonizing knowing that I'll never be able to be what I truly am, and I'm not sure how much longer I can carry that weight.

>>8450260
I mean I'm sure that's a possibility but I've always my entire life been extremely concerned by what other people think of me, and to be honest if I had to go out and didn't pass as a girl and was getting clocked all the time I think I'd die of shame and embarrassment.

I just want to curl up in a ball and make it all go away.

>>8450136
I know who you feel.
>tfw want to be a girl my whole life
>tfw age 10 knew it was weird to want to be a girl never mention it
>tfw age 14 knew it was weird and I'm a guy not a girl repress
>tfw age 15 find out being trans is a thing think it's possible I'm trans
>tfw 18 pretty much accept I'm trans but I don't really have bad dysphoria so no reason to transition
>tfw 20 dysphoria is getting worse but I think it's too late to transition
>tfw now I'm 24 and going to transition because I will probably kill myself otherwise
Holy shit I wish I transitioned sooner it got sooooo much worse over the years. Now I'll probably be a hon and I have no one to blame but myself.

>>8450299
>>8450136
How much did you change between each of those years?

>>8450577
Well I for sure would've passed if I started at 10 or 14. 18 I kind of stayed andro. 20 I started to get more manly grow more hair everywhere and now I'm 24 with the same problems as 20 but even worse. Each year it got slightly worse.