The first time you ever felt Les/Gay/Bi/Trans

>>8411480
One of these were the first time I felt trans I don't know which episode came first though. When Jimmy Neutron switched bodies with Cindy, when Timmy Turner became a girl or in Code name kids next door when everyone got turned into a girl and girls took over the world. I didn't even know being trans was a thing back then, but I wished I could turn into a girl and I was like 7 or 8 at the time.

>>8411505
Same tbqdesufam
So much shit seems obvious in retrospect

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>>8411505
>>8411528
>Jimmy Neutron making people trans

>>8411536
They changed bodies and Jimmy became a girl and I sat there like "I wish that would happen to me".

>>8411480
I don't remember why I did it but my first fapping was while crossdressing and since I can remember I've imagined being a girl during it.

>>8411480
I think the first time I ever felt sexual feelings for the same sex, I was in 6th grade. I was kind of a weird kid who was quiet and had particularly long hair. I wasn't good at sports and in general I was fairly effeminate.

That being said, I use to get bullied by a couple of the guys for being "gay and girly". You know, the usual stuff. Thing is, I'd never heard of the term before (naivety is my middle name) and so I looked it up on my computer the same day. I thought it was gross as hell.

But overtime I started to get kind of weird around the guys (particularly one of my bullies). Locker rooms were uncomfortable but I think passing glances of him changing made me realize that something was up.

He was my first crush. And a complete asshole to me up until high school when I completely reinvented myself. By then, he was reduced to a weirdo pothead that was into conspiracy theories and occasional hard drugs.

>>8411575
That's a pretty cool story. Never thought someone could fall in love with their bully

>be four
>look in mirror in my room
>start crying and I can't understand it

>>8411589
I feel like it's kind of common. The power struggle is kind of hot I guess. If that were the case though, you'd think I'd be into BDSM and shit like that but nah, I'm fairly vanilla as far as gay guys go.

I think it was just because he was hot, had a nice body for a 13 year old (yikes), was fairly extroverted and liked by all of the girls. It's kind of like wanting something you can't have. Yeah that's about right.

Not sure what he's doing now. Don't really care desu.

More bi-curious than anything, but

>12 year old me
>on paddle boat with friend middle
>friend falls off
>pull him back on boat
>lands on top of me
>gonnanut.txt
>pretty normal rest of hangout
>later remembers what mom said would happen if was gay
>amcri.wav

>>8411623
I feel that. Alot of people enjoy having a good looking powerhouse as their dominant partner.

Mine's a little less interesting

>11 year old me watches tv late at night
>Sees two dudes kissing on some weird reality tv show
>Realize I'd probably really enjoy kissing a guy too

Makes sense though, apparently I tried to make out with one of my male friends in kindergarten but I don't remember that.

>13 year old me goes to dennys with senpai
>waitress calls me sir
>felt really amazing up until senpai corrected her
>soul searches later at home
>maybe im not a girl
>took a test for school later
>i was homeschooled so it was a once a year thing and the teachers dont know what you look like till you get there
>teachers called me he/him
>almost cried
>went home and extensively researched
>google: my teacher thought i was a guy and it felt good
>google: wait disregard that last thing that sounds weird
>five hours later
>so im a dude nice

>>8411589
Sounds pretty much like stockholm syndrome to me

>>8412148
Why didn't you go to school?

Desperately wanting to be mistaken as a boy, cutting my hair, getting mad when people called me a girl was my first clue.

Thank god those feelings went away and now I'm good with being cis.

>>8412197
dad didnt want me around other people i think.
it was probably a good thing in retrospect since being public schooled would have sucked with all the trans issues.
Why do you ask?

>>8411575
Justice!

I discovered it through porn. I wish I had some crush rather than porn preference telling me this, because pornography is not for 14-y.o.s

>>8411480
no bullshit.
early in elementary school, we had to do an assignment where we wrote a letter to one of the presidential nominees. they had huge pictures of everybody in the running up on the wall for weeks. that picture of obama was the first male i really had sexual feelings for.
for the record, i wrote my letter to huckabee to tell him that the hat he had on in his picture looked stupid.

>>8412337
>elementary school
>in 2008
I was already on 4chan then...

>>8412344
shhh

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>>8412337
>2008
>elementary school
Are u a qt twink boi?

>>8412430
no i'm kinda chubby and like weird art movies

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>>8412435
Do you have a qt butt at least?

>>8412439
working on it.
again, fairly masc.

>>8412448
Damn, so I guess ur a top?

>>8412467
probably.

>11 years old
>mom brings me to swim meet at some college
>I'm bored while she's swimming
>go in locker room to get out of sun
>college boys showering naked
>daaaaaaaaamn
>spend day figuring out how long/often I can stare without being noticed
>somehow don't realize I'm gay till college

When I was little I had a very odd perception of relationships. I was basically told that I had to marry a girl someday because that was what good men were expected to do. So when it came to girls I had ranked them based on whether or not I would wanted to marry them, and the answer was always... no. The fact that I had 3 brothers, no sisters, and 95% of my friends were male should've clued me in on the reason a bit early but I was young and stupid
I did actually realize my sexuality around puberty though. I had learned what porn was but still had it hammered in my head that I should be attracted to women and basically forced myself to masturbate to them. Then I found a gay porn site and it went downhill from there

When I was 12 (6th grade) I remember there was some guy in gym class I was attracted to. I was raised Christian my whole life so I thought that same sex relations was wrong until later in life. I remember being legitimately angry and upset at myself as I sit in gym class gaining an erection looking at this guy, and wondering what was wrong with me. I basically tried to ignore my feelings and avoid looking at him, eventually once I got near him I stopped liking him because
A. He didn't look nearly as attractive as I thought he did from afar
B. He's a fuckboy
C. He's a faggot (unlike me)
I remember a large feeling of relief realizing that I no longer liked him, because I was no longer sinning. I later left Christianity around 8th grade and in highschool started being honest with myself about my sexuality. I've never told anyone I was bi though, I've never felt the need to for now, also in person I generally find myself attracted more often to girls than guys but I do often fantasize about being with a man.

>>8412435
eraserhead and shit?

>be 8
>early 90s
>Still okay for teachers to call kids fags
>watching X-files with parents
>one of those monsters of the week with girl in Latex
>Go to bed after 10
>Quietly maul over what it feels like to wear so much latex
>Suddenly mind really gets going and can't sleep as I begin contemplating what cute dresses feel like.
And thus the stereotypical thing of: "I must never tell anyone these thoughts begins."

>boy scouts
>could just stop there
>tent with kinda flaming gay guy
>super smart and adorable
>kiss and blowjobs
>9 years later
>meet up
>friends again
>he has a serious relationship
>I'm kind of a side bitch
Time to date other boys... a little scared though.

>>8414739
stuff like that, but i haven't gotten around to lynch's stuff yet.
kinda like Funny Games type stuff

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>>8411480
I think I was 8 or 9.
>dad takes us to a YMCA ocassionally cause we liked the pools.
>after we're done swimming, dad makes us wash up before we change.
>me and my brothers can either go to the showers in the male public restroom or we can take turns in this small family restroom.
>usually use family restroom.
>but we need to dry our swimming trunks and there are these drying machine things in the public restrooms.
>anyways, when I go to dry my trunks, I usually never see any naked guys
>but sometimes I do and I always stared for too long
>first naked guy I saw was this chubby man who was in his 50s
>Didn't know what "gay" meant at the time, but as I was trying to peek at his privates, I felt like I was doing something taboo.
he hade a big dik btw

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>>8411480
>be like 4
>see my mother putting on her makeup at an old fashioned crappy vanity she has
>she was curling her eyelashes with one of those old fashioned curlers and it looked really complicated to me
>"golly gee I can't wait until she teaches me how to do that!"

>she never did
>still never has
>i pass now and have lived fulltime for over a year
>she probably never will

im ready to fucking die. i really am. pull the fucking trigger, man.

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>9 or 10 ish
>driving home from trip to visit brother
>brother introduces me to a show called Torchwood
>asleep in car because long trip
>Ianto Jones gimmie that Torchwood in dream
>was more like just cuddles but I wanted to make pun
>wake up
>boys don't kiss boys ??????
>ohshit.gaypeg
>several years later get called faggot a lot in school
>not sure if acting gay or just only insult these cretans abusive fathers taught them
>meet QT senior
>fag up to him make jokes about fuck all the time
>had GF at the time so it's ok
>one day realise I really do want to be held big boy like next to warm Man Chest™
>bout 20 mins later jerk off to gayporn for first time
>really sorry girlfriend
>continue to date her and let relationship wither and die

>>8414739
trash movie

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>>8414796
any man watching twin peaks during the 90's would be lying if they wouldn't let cooper kiss them on the lips and hold them gently whilst he whispers his dirty secrets into anons ear canals

>kindergarten
>all the other girls get this idea that they should "infect" the boys with cooties
>by kissing them
>literally the girls chasing the boys around the playground trying to kiss them
>get the idea that I need to cure their reverse cooties by kissing my girlfriends
>it worked
life just got gayer from that point onwards desu

>>8415125
trash opinion

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>>8415146
It was the sheriff that did it for me

>fantasizing about being a girl in every spare moment for 3 months
>Love every second of it
>"Wow, that was weird"
>Repress it and just go about my life complaining about how features on my body aren't feminine enough and not copping on until 15.

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Elementry school
>big kids(4-6th grade)and small kids(1-3rd grade) separated
>by a line on the black top
>almost always played with my friends when its recess
>they dare me to go to the other side
>do it
>whole lot of 6th grade girls found me cute and basically coddled me
>i was in first grade
>towards the like last 5 minutes everyone left
>except one
>she stayed with me until the end
>really pretty
>gave me a kiss on the cheek as a goodbye
Im still shook. Also in middle school i really liked this girl, but that was when i already admitted i was bi

>>8414979
>first naked guy I saw was this chubby man who was in his 50s
good taste anon

>be 9 or so
>talking with mum about intersex people
>mum tells me about people who grow up female but once they hit 10 or so grow a dick (no idea if this is actually a thing that happens)
>secretly really wish this would happen to me
>severely disappointed when I get to about 12 and this doesn't happen

>be 14
>see gay shit on internet
>confused, ashamed because i like what i see
>decide to hide the gayness forever

>>8415000
Aw anon, I would love to lend you my eyelash curlers and teach you how to use them. <3

>>8416284
>no idea if this is actually a thing that happens
There is no intersex condition where you grow new body parts, no.

>meet a guy I find particularly handsome
>"no way a straight guy could be that pretty"
>ask him if he's gay
>tells me he's straight
>don't buy it at all
>only later realize it was I who was gay

>>8416867
Thats how i feel about most of you feminine guy i dont understand and some of you can be so beautiful it confuses me

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>jack off to traps while using my dildo for the 30th time
>they all look too feminine for my tastes at the time
>"don't think about that anon that's gay"
>wait a second
>I have a 10" long and very thick dick up my ass
>that's literally the gayest thing I can think of
>remember all the times where I had crushes on my friends
>welp looks like I'm gay
>have sexual crisis for like 6 months where I don't want to touch women at all
>eventually stop trying to force myself to fit a label
>now happily bisexual

Still can't find a fucking boyfriend though

>be 13, freshman year
>there's a guy in my biology class named Michael
>decent guy, average looks
>for some reason, I start having daydreams of him kissing me
>I'm terrified that somehow he'll find out
>I spend the rest of the school year trying to avoid him

>>8411480
Between the ages of 5 and 8, I had an imaginary friend with a blue-tinted face in the shape of Jesus's and an obsession with the idea of me wearing girl clothes and being in female roles.
We once had a talent show in which there was a cheer squad during which he expressed, persistently, a desire for me to join them.

I'm fairly sure he evolved from my idea of god, since there was a stained-glass window in my church which showed a blue Christ being baptised in the river Jordan.

>>8411480
I was in middle school I think I just started thinking about men after reading things online where it was girls talking about having sex and their perspective. It was surprisingly detailed about the guy and I started to get erect. I thought about it that night and had the realization that I was bi. I came out to my best friend and he was accepting in a school of usually homophobic students.

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>>8411480

>Be in middle school
>I become friends with one of the smartest kids at the school and we hang out usually
>Remember times were we would get too comfortable with each other with this one time going as far to rubbing on each other in the middle of class
>We some how drift apart and don't see each other after Middle School

High School
>I develop feelings for my closest friend
>Watch him get fucked over constantly in relationships even though I know I could love him better than any girl he dated
>All I wanted to do was ask him the same question in the gif

He's one of the first people I came out of the closet to since i trusted him more than anyone at the time

And I remember this one moment from Senior Year

>Me and a group of friends meet up to watch Guardians of the Galaxy after school
>He's with us and sits next to me
>Both of us were enjoying the movie and we end up pressing up against each other like a couple

I have other moments with him in particular but I don't know if I should share them

>>8411480
>7th grade 1980's (yes I'm old, bite me)
>cis male, masculine, no gender issues, just a nerd.
>No birds & bees talk from parents
>They assume the Health Film I was forced to watch in 5th grade was perfect.
>Figuring out puberty as I go along
>wetdream.exe
>the dream was of a guy (just a male, didn't know him) jerking me off in a public bathroom.
>dafuq? But feelsgood so don't get skeeved out.
>Later that summer riding bikes with a friend my age.
>Big park, wooded, fields, trails
>Essentially empty because it's a weekday
>We're off the beaten path a good ways
>anonfriend suddenly says, "I dare you to ride your bike naked up the path and back!"
>me: lolkek "Sure if you do it too"
>AF: keklol "Ok, but you go first"
>Strip get on bike seat rubbing ass
>rogue boner
>AF: lol, "what are you a fag?"
>ride up the trail & back
>I wanted him to jack me off so bad
>He's naked. He's hard
>lol *You're a fag, Anonfirend!"
>I wanted to jack him off now
>nothing happened
>Epilogue: it was some years later after college that I took my first cock.

Be in high school debate
I'm mtf now but didn't know about it for my first years of high school so I considered myself gay and really effeminate, I never dress up in suits like other debaters always some semi girl stuff.
At one of the events I was sitting and talking to some friends and one of the debaters from opposing schools walks up to me and starts talking, during the conversation we some how start talking about facial hair and he asks me if I even can grow facial hair and then takes his hands and puts them on my face to feel, idk this is pretty weak but I just blushed and since then had a crush on him.

>>8411480
> about 17 y/o me in highschool
> male, extreme introvert
> method of acquiring friends: wait for them to talk to me first
> got a friend w/ this method I'm the first year
> just friends for year
> starting to really like him. don't really know why. just find him really attractive
> introverted so can't push myself to say anything
> half a year passes
> one time, hang out in the classroom after school as usual playing games
> he suddenly hugs me
> omgwhatdoido.png
> hug him back
> the "just friends" status still stands
> some time later playing games after school again
> just won a round
> he stares at me for a while
> whatareyoudoing.jpeg
> he leans in for a kiss
> all of my yes
> kiss him
> we continue to do so for about half an hour
> become really close afterwards

it continues, but this post is already long enough. If anyone's interested in how this ends (spoiler alert: not good) just say so. Don't wanna complain about my life unless someone's interested.

>>8421177
Go ahead, Anon. Really enjoyed reading your story so far, I'm curious how it ends

>>8411480
>be me
>10 or 11
>watching naruto
>see Haku for first time
>instantly have crush
>find out it's a guy but doesn't care at all
>like 5 years later, walking home from the gym
>decide to man the fuck up and tell my parents
>go into house and tells them
>parents are cool with it
>been bi ever since
>first boyfriend half a year ago
>fuckyeah.jpeg

>entering highschool
>make a best friend
>she's a true soulmate, we are brainwired to each other
>literally spend whole time laughing at things no one else understands
>tell mom everything about her after school, can't stop talking about her
>"easy to get a crush on her, right?"
>"lolwut mom, what are you talking about"
>can't stop thinking about her, confused af
>saying goodbyes for summer break
>she hugs me a little longer and tighter than usual
>I don't really mind and don't really want to let go
>heart racing, cheeks blushing
>eventually let go because there are people around
>realize mom was right
>still reminisce how this one hug felt after ~8 years

Also, she died in an accident after we graduated from highschool.

>tried to be straight after that
>tried even more after failed approach to threesome with ex who decided to pick up another girl since I'm supposedly bi and he thought I would be okay with that
>fastforward to this year
>make a friend online
>share literally all interests, sports, music, true soulmate
>she lives 1000km away so I don't bother much, but can't help thinking about her all the time
>excited on every message from her
>imagine what would it be like to meet her, find myself wanting to cuddle her and do romantic things together
>want to literally go and visit her
>she says she would love to meet me too
>realize I fell for her hard
>tfw in a relationship
>tfw adult people don't give up 4 years of relationship for an online crush

Here I am, 27 and finally embraced that I fall for people who are soulmates, regardless of their gender. And currently hopelessly lovesick and feeling guilty for being unfaithful to my bf in my thoughts.

>>8421244
It doesn't end well.

> keeping out relationship secret
the following events happen over the course of about one year
> starts out great
> hugging and kissing in the dorms when no one is around
> occasionally visit each other at our homes
> do some sexy stuff
> start learning more things about each other
> he's into BDSM
> deepbreath.jpeg
> alright, can handle
> he's into petplay and has dome hypnosis
> deeperbreath.png
> alright, probably can handle.
> he's into breathplay
> ohfuckwhy.tiff
> alright, can't handle
> still love him so I try to handle it, even though I know I can't keep it up forever, but denying the fact
> even do breathplay for him a few times even though I absolutely hate it from the bottom of my hearth
> things eventually start falling apart
> become progressively more and more "incompatible"
> broke up about a month ago
> he had to leave for a week right after because of family matters
> used this time to stabilize a bit
> cried every night for about two weaks

I didn't believe in love before. Now I need it. And I don't have it.
Never talked to anyone about it. This is the first time I told my story.
Also, this is an extreamly shortened version.
There is much more to it.

Be 11-12
Friend 13-14
Playing videogames and truth or dare.
Show and tell.
He has a HUGE dick to my small little kid one.
That night we sucked eachothers balls and jacked off and sucked dicks. Was fun we did more in months to come.

>>8411480
hot.

well, idk
>as a kid, always got aroused by shit on tv
>HBO, cinemax, other channels that showed porn or workout videos
>usually jacked it to strippers or shows on cinemax where they get naked/have sex
>mostly girls, or m/f sex scenes
>never knew homosexuality was a thing that much, or bisexuality for that matter
>one day, a weigh-lifting commercial came on TV
>muscley guy, shirtless, huge arms and abs, big chest lifting weights
>find myself jerking off to it
>after i cum, tell myself "this is the last time ever"
>eventually do that often, but stop once i move into a new house
>meet girl online
>she talks about being bisexual and coming to terms with it
>i start questioning my sexuality at age 14/15
>friends whos gay helps me out
>i start experimenting with gay porn, get really aroused and turned on by it
>i like thinking about the idea of being fucked in the ass
>but also like the idea of fucking a girl
>just accept it and come out to friends
>still havent told conservative parents

>>8421439
Damn, that sounds rough..
Didn't realize it ended so recently.. Hope everything turns out alright.
(Got a discord?)

>>8422023
Like I said. The worst part is behind me.
And yes, I do have discord.

>>8411480
>In early teens
>Move to a new school
>Meet a guy walking home one day
>We start talking and he introduces me to new music and hobbies
>One day his mom isn't home and we start watching porn together
>Porn is straight, and we never masturbate but I start to think about what his dick is like
>Days pass, we get in sort of a fight and start wrestling in his living room
>Get a boner and let him beat on me a bit

Nothing ever happened between us but this is when I started to know something was up and I got into trans/shemale porn.

>>8422023
Would you mind popping back to your 4chan discord alt for a minute? Managed to lose your contact

>>8411480
> 4 years old
> Tell classmates I'm a boy
> Teacher tells my mom
> I STFU for 14 years
5/10 life

>>8411595
Ah fuck. Too real

>>8411480
7th grade, I moved and went to a new school and there was an extremely cute boy in my year that was a late bloomer and looked several years younger than he was, I had an instant crush, we did end up making out quite a while later, he was my first boyfriend.