/mtfg/ - Male to Female general

>>8337922
Cashiering is legitimately the worst job in any grocery store it's so stressful and monotonous
;_;

>>8337953
She must have been a fountain in kebabland

:/

The dream is gone.

\:

We had fun though..

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>>8337959
>tfw

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>mention to my sister I'm going to a guy's house that I don't know
>she gives me tips on how to stay safe just in case he's a creep

I love my sisters~

>>8337962
fuck off slut

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Respond to this post with your favorite place to go out to or your breasts will come out with one side as an A cup and the other as a D

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>>8337959
>tfw part 2

>>8337968

I like to go to smash tournaments
that's kinda it honestly

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>>8337964
>>8337969
I do a lot of drugs, what's your excuse?

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>>8337959
Retail in any form is just awful

>>8337966
aww sweet she's coming concerned about her little sister :3

>>8337959
>Cashiering is legitimately the worst job in any grocery store it's so stressful and monotonous
>;_;
Yeah im sorry you still have to deal with it. But not for much longer!!
Also
>talking to faye when you scolded me for doing so

NEXT TIME ON THE NEW SERIES OF BLACK MIRROR
http://metro.co.uk/2017/05/23/mum-and-daughter-tricked-into-licking-feet-of-poundworld-staff-who-rode-them-like-horses-6656279/

>>8337968
I like being in my car at night when it's raining. Does that count?

>>8337962
beanboy
what you've got to remember is that literally every person who enters your life is also going to leave it at some point, no matter how good it gets- whether it's by breakup or by death eventually- and you'll do the same to everyone who ever knows you, too
enjoy the time you are given with people rather than trying to artificially prolong it and you'll be much more satisfied

>>8337974
Ughhhhhh it's so hard not toooo it's like poking a bear with a stick

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>>8337973

I also told her about how some strange man tried to touch me and she said "you ain't seen nothing yet"

being a woman is scary

tfw elanna and faye will never hold you down and puke on you

>>8337986
>ywn go drinking with elanna until one of you pukes and the other has to hold the others hair back while they spew into the toilet

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>>8337971

>>8337971
My dad was dying in my arms?
I ran too hard once?

You know it's obvious when someone has an issue with something, because self centered people tend to see their own problems in others

So what's your fascination with it?

tfw just ate some food I normally eat and now want to puke.

>>8337987
thats pretty good too. tfw no tranny gang to dominate the streets with

>>8337984
yeah the whole dynamic of how we approach and interact with people changes once you're full time

it's def in our best interest to be cautious

>>8337990
>I ran too hard once?
That nasty exhausted nauseous state you get into if you exercise to much. I'm getting it over dong easy tasks, and even thinking to much. CFS sucks.

>>8337968
I like walking on the train tracks :>

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>>8337996

I guess this is my life now
what's up, Korra?

>>8337996
Being cautions means you will show that you're nervous and thus can clock you

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>>8337990
You seem to puke due to mildly stressful situations so it's funny to imagine you as the soldier nobody wanted to sit beside on the helicopter

>>8338000
eh its not so bad. you don't need to be nervous or afraid but like consciously aware of where you are and who you're with on case things ever go wrong and you're not caught by surprise you know? it's one of the reasons I like to stay sober so I can always have my wits about me

uhh things are on the upswing still, my waitressing job is going okay and I recently purchased a car from my friend.

the only thing holding me back rn from from driving it is not being able to afford insurance with my current finances so I'm job hit for a second one to supplement my meager income

besides that enjoying my apartment by myself and get really trying to keep pressing forward no matter how hard it is

im trying to be a flight attendant within the next 3 years or less

>>8337968
I don't go anywhere bc no friends
I want super boober anyways
>>8337967
Why so angerey

is being a nurse trutrans or agp

>>8337975
http://abcnews.go.com/Primetime/story?id=1297922&page=1

Well at least it didn't end with your bosses fiancé sodamizing you

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awoo or uwu

Why is my dysphoria so much more violent on evenings...
I can't even play vidya games, I just get bored, get a dyphoria attack, then go to bed as soon as possible...

>>8338003
It only happens when I'm emotionally invested, in rarely emotionally invested
>>8337998
._. The worst

>>8338021
just b urself

>>8338009
>working a second job
Being poor must really suck lol

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>>8338009

I guess... I keep feeling kinda paranoid now. Maybe I'll get used to it. Glad things are going well for you.

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>>8338018
Annnnd that triggered me somehow.
COMPLETELY RANDOM FEELINGS PLS STOP UR NOT FUNNY
>>8338027
> pic related

How do I b myself

>>8338033
it gets easier with time believe me. the longer you spend full time the more comfortable you'll get being urself

>>8338032
i dont get what's funny about that at all

>>8338044
It's not. People r just mean.

>>8338041
get hobbies. find out what you like and believe in.
>>8338036
sor

>>8338044
It's funny because you're in your mid 20s and don't even have a good job.

>>8338050
Lol, not your fault, I even like the image, it just made me cry a bit for some reason.
And definitively awoo.

>>8338053
i fail to see the humor in someone having a job and aspiring to more in life. everyone starts somewhere we all can't be born into wealth

>>8338053
If you think this will change in her 30s

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>>8337968
A bookstore where i get classic literature and academic books. Didn't get into uni 2 years ago and ive just been NEET and educating myself in fields I'm passionate about but that I'll probably never get to contribute to because I have shit concentration and organization skills and can't succeed in school, so I'll never be more than an amateur to society.
>tfw you will never be a girl
>tfw you will never be a professor of philosophy

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>>8338061
Does it matter if we're real

>>8338058
By your mid 20s, you should have life already sorted out, graduated college and have a career already.
Sorry that you're a loser.

>>8338060
Probably won't

>>8338060
Too bad you can't buy a personality or an SO with all your money you vapid cunt

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Hey mtfg, why am I still so scared to do everything? If I know this is what I want, why am I so frightened?

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lol not even worth a pity (you)

>>8338069
fuck off. Your opinion of "should" is bullshit. not everyone can be idealistic

i just finished my book :c

Its so bad I deleted half of it.

Feels good to complete something at least.

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mood

>>8338069
>I never had any childhood problems or trauma and get to get to go to school on daddies money: the post

>>8338076

doing things is scary
just gotta push through it
uwu

>>8337968
I don't usually leave the house
There's a stretch of road near the military base that is quiet and calming to drive down with the windows rolled down and with the wind in my hair as long as no one is flying into the base

>>8338089
From experience, that only works if your willpower > your fear.

>>8338079
That is why you still live with mommy and daddy.
Korra wouldn't be in financial troubles if she was actually smart and motivated.

>>8338084
My parents never paid for school. I was fortunate to win scholarships and was in the NJ stars program which gave me a free ride.

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>>8338094
>My parents never paid for school. I was fortunate to win scholarships and was in the NJ stars program which gave me a free ride.

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>>8338089
>>8338092

Doing things is very scary.

But hormones give me +10 will. Sadly, they are illegal and also give me shame.

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>>8338094
what is student debt

>>8338097
It's called being a good student.
Were you a shitty student who kept failing?

>>8338099
Well if you somehow manage to get desperate enough to do thing out of spite, you get infinite will power, it's not safe for life tho.

>>8338101
Post scholarship acceptance letter.

Am i a loser, guise?

>>8338101
>suffer dysphoria as a teenager
>can't succeed in high school because you constantly want to kill yourself
>can't get scholarship bc poor grades
This isn't difficult

>>8338100
Student debt is for those who couldn't get scholarships or into programs because they were either lazy wth not applying to them or applied but had no luck. I was luck in that aspect.
Even if one is to have a loan, most loan services will only take out what a student currently makes

>>8338101
You know when you have dysphoria and are insanely depressed because of it during puberty, aka highschool, its not always the easiest thing in the world to get good grades. You would think you would understand that posting on here of all places.

what does it mean when a boy calls you attractive

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>>8338100
>>8338101

A good student who works hard and finds the right scholarships and is poor enough and has just the right amount of weird things could, in theory, get a free ride.

>>8338109

>Never went to high school
>Get GED at 16, 96th percentile
>This is about the time when the dysphoria started, even if I didn't know
>First semester of college: straight As
>Second semester: Academic Probation

>>8338106
My letters are long gone. You expect me to keep letters that are 7 years old?

>>8338109
I had Dysphoria also but I didn't let it stop me from achieving in school.

>>8338117
That is true also.

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>>8338018

>>8338115
it means he thinks you are cute i think not 100% sure

>>8338118
>doesnt keep scholarship letters
Confirmed larping.
>I had Dysphoria also but I didn't let it stop me from achieving in school.
Congratulations on being a transtrender who didn't actually have dysphoria and is only now pretending they did.

>>8338118
Dont kid yourself.
Everybody knows academia is based upon your family structure, community, and schooling during adolescence.
I graduated with a 3.9 gpa in HS but literally didnt know how to study well enough to get through my first semester of uni.
Upbringing/background is key.

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>tfw u were a model student and graduated high school in the high 90s and then dysphoria became too much and u almost flunked out of uni

>>8338026
I'm beginning to understand why some doctors say they would rather have AIDS than CFS. God this sucks. It's even robbing me of thinking. I'm a brain user. I think, design, and program.

>>8338072
She grew up in an abusive home, then was further abused later. That shit really fucks you up.

>>8338097
She isn't the only one to get good grades. I got into community college between 7th and 8th grades due to having excellent grades. Then into college with a full ride.

>>8338109
>>can't succeed in high school because you constantly want to kill yourself
I succeeded despite 2 suicide attempts, and nearly being killed by a beating by bullies.

>>8338125

wat 2 do when boys think ur cute
he's also pretty fucking cute

>>8338067
...are you asking about transgender people or the nature of reality?

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>>8338101
>>8338112
even as a "good student", I didn't win enough scholarships to get a full ride - all I had was something for getting a good score on the SAT

You're either exceptionally smart, or exceptionally accomplished. Most people are neither, and have to either pay for their own tuition, or beg someone else to do it for them.

Still, I fundamentally agree with what you're saying in that it's entirely in someone's power to to get a college education if they can feed themselves and complete their work.

>>8338117
>>8338135
>99th percentile in every standardized test I've ever taken except the ACT
>3.5 GPA my first year of college
>2.9 GPA third semester
>had to resign my fourth semester because I realized I was completely off-track and needed to re-evaluate what I wanted to do with my life

>tfw 3 hours til date with cute boy and no idea what to wear

>>8338128
>you didn't get depressed when having dysphoria so your Dysphoria must be made up.

Great logic there

>>8338132
Probably because you didn't know what your strengths and weaknesses were in your type of learning style.
I would tackle each subject with a different or same learning style.
My upbringing had nothing to do with it.

>>8338101
yes

>>8338094
I just graduated high school and I'm 18. I'm starting college this fall. You can't even strawman when you know nothing about me, you three-legged mongoloid. If anything, I'm going down the ideal path you're using to ridicule Korra with
>>8338147
Nature of reality

>>8338141
kiss them i think

>>8338150
As I said, I got lucky by being placed in the nj stars program http://www.njstars.net

I was able to get a free ride for the university I went to.

>>8338150
2.9 is what qualifies as off track?
I managed to crawl back from a 1.9

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>>8338150

It really gets into everything in life, doesn't it? I enjoyed learning, I was excited for school, and that was taken away from me.

Granted, I picked business as my major, but it was the only thing that felt right at the time.

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>>8338153

something... cute

>>8338160

!!! WHAT

>Hey I'm bored, I should masterbate

>What should I think about
>is my brain going to think about hot chicks?
>oh wait nope
>I'm going to think about how it feels the next day after you've gotten pregnant, but still don't know it yet, and you're sitting there with your future husband having brunch in a cafe

>>8338153
Should one ever consider meeting up w a chaser irl? He claims to not be about sex

>>8338150
>Pretty good grades all throughout high school
>Grandfather willing to pay for basically all of college
>Combination of dysphoria, depression, ADHD, and general lack of ability to live alone cause me to flunk out in a year
I done fucked up.

>>8338170
k i s s
i
s
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>>8338162
I don't live in NJ, but I qualified for NMSQT

>>8338165
Oh, I thought I was going to fail half my classes my third semester, and had to drop three in my second after spending a week in inpatient.

>>8338167
>Granted, I picked business as my major
there's where you went wrong. If you love learning and you're picking business for a major, you need to rethink some life choices.

>>8338174
I should probably ask my grandma if she can help, but I don't feel like I'm that close with her...

>>8338174
>dysphoria, depression, ADHD, and general lack of ability to live alone
are you fucking me
and by that i mean are you me, though the proposition stands

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>>8338176

but what if he doesn't think of me like that
he's known I'm transitioning since day 1 and has been commenting on changes he notices, so he could have just been complimenting me without trying to flirt

>>8338173
Oh he's not a chaser though, met him on OKCupid, told him I was trans after a couple days of talking to him over texts an such.

>>8338170
And yeah that's the problem I don't know what'd be cute rn I showed him too many of the main outfits I use this week we've been talking

>>8338185
well if you kiss him you can know what is or isn't ;]

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>>8338183
Actually, now that I look at it, if I had gotten a 680 on the essay portion instead of a 620, it would've gotten me a full ride to a lot of places. Funny how that works out.

>>8338183
It could be the thing that helps you get closer to her, or it could risk her getting mad that you just want something from her. Still, if she cares about you she could help.

>>8338184
Pretty much, you're just the pesimistic console version of me, seems like.
And if you came out to visit I definitely COULD be fucking you...

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>>8338183

It was a combination of factors. At that point I was 20, 21, starting to realize, hey, I might actually be a girl, terrified that I'd fail as a person if I didn't get into school right that very moment, and the fact I tended to just kind of accept what people told me at the time.

I'd been working retail at the time, and when I do a job, I do it well, and I was in control of my own little area, so people kept telling me I should go to school for business; I think a part of my parents still think I should, even if they accept that being a nurse is probably the best career path for me.

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>>8338190

what the fuck
I DON'T EVEN KISS PEOPLE

i have to work everyone please be good to eachother

>>8338150
>You're either exceptionally smart, or exceptionally accomplished.
I was both.
Now that I look back on it dysphoria was a major contributor to my dropping out my second time in college. I didn't realize it at the time.

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>>8338203
you and him soon

>>8338135
>tfw top 10% of high school class and graduated college with high honors but haven't been happy in ages
Grades are meaningless if you hate yourself and wanna die on a daily basis desu

>>8338202
>being a nurse is probably the best career path for me.
You could always end up a head nurse...

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>>8338209

Korra WTF
but he walked me to my car when we were done hanging out and we had our arms around each other (I initiated it) and I got kinda... well I'm really sensitive to people touching me

>>8338172
hot

>>8338108
no, you're one of the best people I know.

>>8338198
>pessimistic console version
this sounds borderline insulting

ok i'll keep that in mind for..... further referece

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I have no idea what I'm doing in my life and there is like no possibility of me being able to go back to school while trying to pay bills every month living alone

is this the end

>>8338189

I dunno, I've never been on a date.
I might wear a dress personally?

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>>8338198
I'm not sure if I want to get close to her. I know she was supportive and knew I was trans well before my parents did, but I still don't want to get hurt.

>>8338202
>I tended to just kind of accept what people told me at the time
:(
this is how most transgirls end up waiting until late into their 20's to transition.

>>8338208
The only reason I pushed through college when dysphoria was hitting hard was because I knew my parents would essentially pay me to run away if I told them I was going to do college. Now they're cutting me off because they realized what was going on.

I'm probably just going to take the next year off and stabilize everything, probably have SRS done or something.

>>8338220
If you get your gender changed, you get more opportunities for financial aid. Use them.

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not ok atm

>>8338219
Lol, no offence met, you just seem generally a lot more sad and depressed than me. And you play consoles when I play PC.

>>8338210
They mean nothing to you personally
They do open doors though

>>8338227
male privilege at work i see

maybe ill go back to school when im in portland with kara and after i get my birth certificate changed

>>8338221
leaning towards a dress with leggings that I wear sometimes

https://unsee.cc
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>>8338234
kari is a cute

>>8338229
:^)
don't forget neurotic!!! i'm also more neurotic

and yeah we should play WC3 again but i'm terrified of my 700 ping

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>>8338214

That's where I'm thinking I'm heading. I'm not sure how I feel about all that responsibility, but if it increases my chances of helping people I'm all for it.

Not to mention, I hear that the medical community, and hospital workers more so, are really tolerant and accepting of each other. Kind of like a "we go through a lot of shit already, we don't need to give it to each other."

I'm considering applying at the hospital and the surgical center when I renew my CNA.

>>8338220

This is life. Your tutorial is over. Now comes the part where you git gud

>>8338223

I am 28 and just now starting. I know that I'll never look good, but I couldn't keep going any longer. It's probably for the best, though. My family was not in a good place when I was younger. They still aren't; my mom hates being with my dad. But I think if I had come out back then, instead of now, it wouldn't have gone so smoothly.

It's funny, though. I guess it was pretty obvious to my brother that I'm transgender.

>>8338234

That looks pretty cute! :3

>>8338239
Sounds good to me! We should play some more FF14 with Jazzy too, apparently we left off right before we got access to dungeons lol

>>8338234
What other color tights do you have? Do you have nude pantyhose? how does it look with bare legs?

>>8338223
No need to worry about that, she's your family and she is supportive, she won't hurt you.

>>8338237
>>8338248
Thank you both :D Yeah I think I'll go with it :3 He said it was one of his favorite outfits that I showed him as well so it works out


>>8338251

I do have nude pantyhose but I tried wearing it out once without leggings and it kept riding up almost so much you could see my panties so I have always worn something underneath to extend it ever since. I do have a black skirt I could put under it to extend it but keep it looking like just a dress.

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>>8338244
I mean, promised myself I would transition instead of killing myself a year ago. Apparently not many people think this way?

>>8338250
;_;7 o-okay senpai
i still need to do my thing it's just so hard to plan everything out!!!

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>>8338258
>she's your family and she is supportive, she won't hurt you
It wouldn't be the first time that someone "supportive" in my family decided to hurt me "for my own good". I know she wants to be a part of my life and wants to help, but I'm afraid I'd be making a mistake.

>>8338260
Part of wearing a little black dress is pulling it down every so often. ;)
How about the black skirt over it? What style of skirt is it? I'm assuming tight due to being able to wear it under. Pleated would nicely go over it.

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>>8338262

Everyone is different. I came to the same conclusion, it just took me longer. It really depends on what level of emotional maturity you're at.

>>8338272
It's a very tight skirt, goes just a little longer than the dress and hugs body almost the same

>>8338272
So, it that really like, normally just part of wearing small cute dresses? I always get nervous.. Also I tried on the skirt underneath the dress and its actually almot the same length.. so it doesn't help.

>>8338207
hope you have a good time at work beeper

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>>8338266
No problem, just lmk when you want to play! Also, all joking aside, how likely would it be for you to actually come visit?
>>8338268
I can see why you'd worry, but I think it's ultimately unfounded.

>>8338293
>visit
i've got like no money
i'm saving up for moving out and i have no idea what i'm doing after that

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>watching legacy of the void opening cinematic again and again
>thinking about how it was pretty good but blizzard killed SC2 by the time it came out

I swear Blizzard should just stop making games and just make cinematics or movies, like Ubisoft

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>>8338296
Ok. If you're looking for a roomate, me getting a halfway decent long term job is looking more likely, so I'm also looking towards moving out.

>>8338299
isn't brood war remastered coming soon

>>8338304
well idk
i really need to get myself stable so i can make an income
at worst i might have to apply for disability

>decide on pantyhose, rip the only nude pair of pantyhose you have

A-at least its at the back of the knee? Maybe I can salvage these..

>>8338307
Yeah but like what's the point of playing it anymore

On HRT and at 25 my reflexes and motor skills are like 1/20th what they used to be when I was 17

idk just watching this cinematic makes me fuzzy inside very few people can consistently make such hype trailers

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>>8338309
I would definitely apply now if you haven't, imo you qualify, and they backpay you if they take forever to approve you (which they do, I've been trying since I was 14 and only now is it looking likely)

>>8338317
idk if i can though? i mean my medical history basically started with my aspirin overdose in march
idk
i think i probably do qualify tho
>adhd / major depressive disorder / bipolar disorder
>completely dysfunctional
and i'm not certain but i think i might have some kind of social disability, though my therapist thinks that's because i never got to interact with kids my age IRL

>>8338316
you can still play just for fun but i understand its frustrating if you can't get the level you want to be at

>>8338311
buy more!

>>8338320
I could.. don't have SC2 or the BW installed since I lost interest in the game

But anytime I need to get goosebumps or chills down my spine I watch the legacy of the void trailer

Who was that teenage cis girl that used to troll /mtfg/

>>8338321
If I have time.. I've got to do makeup rn and then got to be there in 2 hours so have to leave in a bit over 1 hour.

>>8338327
chara was only pretending to be cis
they also had multiple identities that they used here / in discord

>>8338325

Play SC2 with me Seiryu

>>8338334
You'll probably stomp me since I haven't played properly in years

I just like the cinematics okay

dont hit me

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>>8338319
As long as you have diagnosis for those it should be enough. The overdose will likely add to the case as well. Idk how to start the process but I'd definitely do it, maybe try to find a representative, they don't charge you unless you win.
>>8338332
Really? I thought she pretended to be trans for a while until she got found out, then got bitched out of the thread because of it?

>>8338337
i'll talk to my therapist about it the next time i see her
but yeah i'll look into it
how does it work if you move out after yo uget on disability?

>>8338135
>tfw you were a broken depressed mess during high school and had largely terrible grades and now you're in grad school somehow

i hate hearing about trannies who arenmt depressed, and worse, trannies who have never been depressed
i just don't get it

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>>8338342
Idk, but I think it just depends on how much money you make. I forget the number exactly but pretty much for me to unqualify myself I'd need to have a full time job and be making like $20+ an hour and, that's just a lowball off the top of my head.

>>8338345
people just have different lives and different circumstances

Reminder that Pandora's trip contains the string 'Agp'.

>>8338343
Saw a hon on the tube
Everyone was looking
Cringe

i want pizza and death

>>8338347
i mean like, moving from state to state

>>8338349
an ex friend got this for me
she claimed it was the first one that popped up but idk ;_;7

>>8338349
What's wrong with being an AGP fetishist? I'm an AGP fetishist.

>>8338350
me irl

>>8338159
It sure matters insofar as what you consider real is going to influence your behaviour, but whether something is ''real'' or not doesn't change any fact about it. ''Real'' is a tricky word. Anything that exists is real by definition, but ''real'' doesn't have any meaning without an ''unreal'' to compare it to, but as soon as you point to something and describe it as ''not real'' you've acknowledged the existence of /something/ there. When we say that something is unreal we generally mean that the essence of the thing is different from what it appears at, so an image of a dragon isn't a physical dragon, and there are no physical dragons as far as we know, so we say dragons aren't real, but the concept of a dragon surely exists, and people have been acting as if they were real, even using the concept usefully to describe things they experienced. If you study physics, you ultimately learn that nothing you experience is real, as everything is made from something else, raw materials then molecules then atoms then quantum entities that are in a superimposed state between existing and not existing, but none of these things aren't real, they're concepts used to make predictions about the observable world, and can't even exist in any way you can understand, so you go back to the only thing that's not reducible to anything else, which is qualie, direct sense-data: colors, tastes, shapes, but then these change entirely from one person to the next, so they can't be real either. Abstract concepts are the same. Ultimately everything turns out to be unreal, in which case the concept loses its meaning once again. The only thing you can say in the end is that existence as a whole is real, and no single thing you have a concept for is real in itself. Realizing this is the first step to understanding the true nature of the world, which lies beyond puny concepts like ''real'' and ''not real''. The concept of reality points to something it can't define.

Does hair grow faster, change texture or none of the above on E?

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>>8338355
Oh, that I have no idea desu. I wanna say that I started the process in PA and moved here so I think it should work fine, but I'm seeing judges and shit from my state now so idk. I'll ask my mom about it later if I can remember.

>>8338361
Texture changes.

>>8337948
Not trans but headpats are godly

>>8338361
Well it tastes like candy now ._.

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>can't sleep more than 4 hours a day
>no job
what am i supposed to do with all this time

>>8338357
She looked about late 30s/early 40s
Broad shoulders
About 6'0"
Frilly skirt
Glad I started young.

>>8338372
Music!

>>8338361
mine had texture change and doesn't get oily as quickly
>>8338367
>Not trans
thats what you think

>>8338350
My future desu

>>8338366
Okay I'm regrowing my hair on E right now and I was sure the texture is a little softer but thought it was in my head.

>>8338375
heck off
I am very much cis.

>>8338380
Says the person on male to female general...

>>8338360
>qualie
meant ''qualia''

>>8338381
I saw something I liked, headpats, so I commented saying that I like headpats.

>>8338372
What how'd you lose your job?

>>8338378
I saw another hon on the tube last year. Fuck me I saw her adam's apple from the other end of the platform it was so big and she was so tall. I just don't get it, always the most masc af guys transitioning

what's going on in the thread?

>>8338385
>liking headpats
trutrans af

>>8338390
Nyet.
Being loved tenderly doesnt mean trans.

>>8338393
watcha doing here?

>>8338393
well you're right about that.

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Is this the average /mtfg/ tranny?

>>8338405
looks cis on the rightest picture.

>>8338349
moar /mtfg/ easter eggs pls

>>8338405
please don't post my timeline

>>8338405
3rd pic is pretty cute desu

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wew we did it

>>8338386
fired
>>8335167

>>8338405
i feel like the length of her face /skull is all thats keeping her from passing

>>8338387
gender dysphoria doesn't discriminate towards the pretty, unfortunately

>>8338420
If it did it would be hilarious though.

>>8338417
tfw long face
>>8338434
uhh... not really

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there was one pp appointment slot left next week for hrt consultation and I let my friend who also wants to transition take it
the next slot isn't until july
I know I made the right choice but please console me

>>8338439
Why wouldn't it be?

>>8338440
I'm sorry Anon. Is there one like in another city you could get an appointment at and make a trip to?
>>8338441
why would it? if every single tranny was ugly we'd be an even bigger joke to society than we already are

>>8338444
Oh.
I meant the other direction. Have gender dysphoria only affect pretty peoples.

>>8338444
Probably, I'm trying to find one but I don't have a car
There's hopefully other healthcare centers nearby that offer

It turns out it's life that makes me miserable and not this place
Maybe I should just leave life desu

>>8338293
I feel like she wouldn't support me if she knew I was applying for food stamps because of depression.

>>8338469
same

>tfw daydreaming about my future NHS pussy

>>8338405
lol she looks better than me, desu.

>>8338440
you have a good heart

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>>8338472
I'm trapped in this place forever anyway

>>8338469
ahhhh. don't. whatever you do don't. life changes everyday

>>8338480
life is a prison
we are born into a bondage with no choice

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EX-TREME-LY FRIENDLY REMINDER

>>8338480
Hi Ambiance.

>>8337968
Near other who like me

>>8338469
want to leave life together?
im ready to go too

>>8338488
i went outside today and i had an exam

it was a very warm day for britain, annoying as shit.

>>8338488
people will see me if I go outside though

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>>8338489
Hey
How's your day been?
>>8338484
But I have the option to leave
It's just that option is leaving everything forever
>>8338493
I'll give myself to the end of the year
Then I can be ready if things haven't improved
>>8338488
I get the /mtfg/ one for all three though

>>8338499
Well no shit doc but isn't the whole purpose of being trans to showcase that you're stronger then the avarage bear?

i know i complain a lot but i need to get stuff off my chest, feel free to ignore the blogpost

england was hot, weirdly hot based on the two times i had gone there, and my train had no air conditioner

i hadn't slept for 24 hours so i put out the eating tray and went to sleep

i woke up(though with my head still down) to two girls behind me taking about my hair

one said that even though it was sexist she thought long hair on men looked unattractive, they both began commenting on how gross i was and how greasy my hair looked from me sweating in my sleep

and she was right in that statement, i looked disgusting because i sweat like crazy over nothing even when im 7 months on HRT, even on anti-perspirants

i looked in the mirror several times today in different locations and saw the sad truth, i saw my brow cast a shadow over my eyes, i saw the way my sister and her family looked at me when they realized it was me

people see me and see someone who is not well, and i can't not care anymore or im gonna be an outcast forever

i most likely will cut my hair into a masculine, short hairstyle in the next few days, ill continue taking HRT even though it has made my mental state 10 times worse because i could never forgive myself if i stopped then started 3 years later even more masculine than before

this whole trans thing has been a pipe dream, and being with my wonderful sister and noticing her sense of humor and how it's similar to mine has reaffirmed my want to be normal

i don't want to be seen as a freak, i don't want to a recluse anymore, i just want to be an average joe with a happy relationship and none of the baggage of mental illness

my sister set up a game night with a bunch of kids around my age she works with in order to set me up with a girl i think, it hurts knowing that i won't allow myself to have a good time

even when i feel well i feel like im waiting for the inevitable to happen, or maybe im just waiting for anything to happen

i hate the person ive become

im so happy for you that can actually pass as women and live a semi-regular life

im gonna try to stay off here for the rest of my trip, this place just brings bad thoughts

>>8338505
no it's to be a woman

>>8338498
Wear a sundress or bikini?

Not during the exam obviously.

>>8338493
>tfw can't sudoku because mum is sure to plaster my face all over the news attacking the NHS for "failing her daughter"

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>>8338471
Does she need to know that? And if I loved someone then knowing that would just make me more likely to help them, but I know she's from a generation when that sort of thing is frowned upon so idk.

>>8338484
what's going on? what's got you down?

>>8338506
>i most likely will cut my hair into a masculine, short hairstyle in the next few days
You will spend up to two years regretting this stupid decision. I did the exact same thing and I'm still beating myself up voer it.

Absolutely do not fucking do this.

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ここで僕を殺して
死にたい
REEEEEE

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>>8338506
>and she was right in that statement, i looked disgusting because i sweat like crazy over nothing even when im 7 months on HRT, even on anti-perspirants
this stuff changed my life. i suggest getting some and just rubbing it on your scalp anytime it gets greasy but you cant have a shower.

Im sorry you are feeling like shit and dysphoric but please do not cut your hair. Just take a few deep breathes and try to relax. You will 100% regret cutting your hair for a long time if you do.

>>8338517
my hair looks like a frizzy mess, it looks awful

>>8338513
Waiting for Kara to get home and just melancholic about future.

>>8338521
Try a different hair care routine, don't just cut it all off, there's a lot you can do to fix things other than going with the nuclear route.

>>8338520
yeah what do i do about having my back covered in sweat from just sitting in a car?

>>8338521
Do you shampoo and condition every day? do you comb it?

>>8338523
ive tried several different things, it just isn't styled or straightened so it looks disgusting

>>8338506
>thought men with long hair looked unattractive
Well you're not a man anymore! Please don't do something you'll regret, you just need to keep working a little longer to get to the point where people stop seeing you as different.

>>8338498
>>8338498
Sucks to be you, I rode my bike around Highgate then went to meet some peeps in Soho. Feels good being NEET.
>>8338501
Up and down, bike ride was fun, met this nice FtM guy but was generally miserable about having to boymode in 25 degree heat. Wait a sec you're not seriously considering killing yourself are you? I didn't know you were suicidal ;_;
>>8338508
You were a lot more chill and positive pre-HRT

>>8338521
Then you need to style it better. Maybe you need a haircut that gives it a nicer shape, maybe you need to use hair products for frizz (I believe you already do). You can fix frizzy hair through certain methods. Cutting long hair takes literally years to fix. Don't be a fucking moron like I was in November last year, please.

>>8338525
no, yes after the shower usually

>>8338524
Maybe your estrogen dosage is too high or maybe thats from cypro. Try taking bica and slightly less E and see if that helps.

>>8338526
Yeah that's my hair too, I have to straighten it every day if I want it to look good.

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>>8338512
I'm not sure. She's very different from most people her age - my cousin told my grandma I was trans right around when I decided to transition, and my grandma waited an entire year for me to tell her myself, even coaxing me to be more open with her during the summer.

I'm just scared. I know she wants to help, but I'm scared that she'll turn on me like everyone else did.

>>8338531
>no
If you feel like your hair is greasy i would suggest shampooing and making sure you rub down that scalp with it every day if possible. I know mine got super fucking greasy if i didnt do that when i first started hormones

>>8338532
i was like that pre-hrt too, im just fucking gross

guy sitting next to me got up and went to a different cabin

>>8338524
Just for the record, today was a disgustingly hot day for britain, 25C felt like 30+C because of how humid this country is. I was sweating tons today and I've been living here for months.

>>8338508
emi! rest up for a few days, enjoy the sun.

you're beating yourself up because you're tired and some mean girls were bitches to you.

this is a crisis i swear it will pass. wait until you get back to take a decision on your hair.

i cut my hair off in september and that just triggered a stupid repression crisis that Valq helped me overcome until January.

we're different individuals with different life experience but we go through similar things.

I<3 u. take care

I wish I had a mommy

>>8338528
because im a transtrender and hrt is causing me to go insane

>>8338539
>o, im just fucking gross
No, you arent. You just need to live somewhere cold like canada.

>>8338535
i cant straighten my hair because having feminine hair would look even more ridiculous than how it is currently

Japanese metal songs about sexual abuse r best

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>>8338536

Then don't worry about it! You're just letting your fear get the best of you, there should be no reason to expect anything like that will happen.

>>8338546
If you really believe this then stop taking hormones for 2 weeks and see how you feel.

>>8338522
future is a fucking melancholy trip. I'm sorry about this. this happens to me often.

>>8338541
obviously i was sweating enough for those two girls to whisper about how gross i am while they thought i was sleeping

honestly what kind of cunt even comments on strangers they see on a train like that

i've seen so many fucking different people in trains from like cybergoths to the unpassingest hons and I never even thought to stare at them or make shitty unflattering comments? why do people even care about strangers?

>>8338506
damm that's honestly a really shitty experience, those girls were cunts, I can't even imagine that happening. I'm really sorry but I think in a few days you'll feel better about yourself, no one looks good after a 24 hour journey in a hot train.

Listen you're getting a big hug from me when you're here ok?

>>8338549
Have you tried it?

>>8338557
Are you wearing baggy clothes or something?

I hope it's going to get better for you lots.

>>8338547
id still sweat, im disgusting

>>8338563
i only own baggy clothes

>>8338528
That sounds nice aside from the boy mode
I've been suicidal for a while, probably won't go through with it
I'm just in an awful mood most of the time and fantasize about kms at night
I need some kind of escape aside from alcohol

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Any of you weebs going to collasalcon? I might end up going with some people..

>>8338565
>i only own baggy clothes
Emily go get some appropriate clothes for the weather you are in jesus. You will feel much better in a t shirt and shorts

>>8338506
Are you still in London?
Were those two girls black? I bet they were black.
IKTF about not wanting to be a freak, but you can't run away from this. Go get married, you will still crack and go back on hormones one day. Instead of detransitioning why not put in some effort? You don't seem like the sort of person who takes care of themself so I'm not surprised. You can't even be bothered to eat. How do you expect to look good if your malnutritioned. You're basically the posterchild of /mtfg/; socially awkward shut in who thinks all their problems will disappear just by taking the pills. I was in the same spot until recently so this is advice not me just shitting on you. Fix your hair, eat better, learn makeup, get a nice wardrobe.

Girls what are some foundation and brush products, I just want a few items I can scoop off amazon to make my skin look more even and soft. I need something for pale skin. PLS don't tell me to read that mess of a makeup sticky.

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Someone come and kick my face in?

>>8338555
I'll figure and work something out eventually. Thanks for the sentiment.

>>8338517
Oh that's why you have short hair.

>>8338574
You're being too harsh.

Nim lives in an abusive family environment. She has plans to move out. She cannot do much in her current state. I've been there. It's awful, it totally fucks you up.

What she absolutely cannot do is give up before she even has the chance to be free.

>>8338566
Everything will be okay <3

>>8338582
I cut my hair about 1-2 weeks before I cracked and fully admitted to myself I needed to transition. I think cutting my hair short actually just pushed me past the threshold of dysphoria necessary for me to accept I wasn't going to ever be okay being a guy.

I've been growing it out since then.

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opinions?

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You know, I think I look better with my hair up. It's kind of that band between long hair and short hair where I really feel I look more feminine.

>>8338574
no they were white

>>8338565
come to canada emi its actually snowing right now lmao

>>8338573
i only brought tshirts and jeans

>>8338597
not in alberta T_T

>>8338599
look out your window. unless you're in high river rn then idk

>>8338598
go to the store and get some shorts and a non baggy t shirt when you go see sertii

>>8338559
i can't even seem to loosen up around my own family, but yet im still able to have a heart-to-heart with my sister like we always do when i come visit

i sincerely hope i feel a bit better because i don't want to be bad when i go to amsterdam

>>8338562
no i have not

>>8338595
Hmm must have been chavs.

>>8338587
Thank you <3

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>>8338602

>>8338604
i don't show my legs ever

>>8338583
Fair enough, I didn't know that
>>8338589
Cutting my hair always made me really fucking miserable

>>8338591
You need a real job.

>>8338616
i know this feel

my mother couldnt understand why i was so averse to shorts even during horrible heatwaves back home

to be fair i didnt understand it back then, either

>>8338611
i can't tell the difference between the char accent and the other accents but they were dressed reasonably nice

there were a bunch of teenage girls who got on who all had a lot of skin showing tho, maybe those are chava, i don't really know

>>8338621
i couldn't shave my legs because my mother would get angry at me when i did so i just always wore jeans and ive continued doing so until today

>>8338616
I can understand how you wouldnt want to and it probably makes you feel dysphoric but its either that or sweat to death.

alright im going to sleep, ive only sleep like an hour since i landed

if you wanna talk ill be able to check my discord when im at home at my sisters house

have a good night, sorry again about he blogpost

>>8338629
take care, nim

i know im just some weirdo in 4chan but i kinda care about you

and sleep well

How much is hrt and how do I go about getting it?

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>>8338614
._. sorry we got a little bit here

>>8338634
sheeeeeet. You are in the NW right?

>>8338640
yea

>>8338633
You can go to a doctor to get it, price will depend on if/how much your insurance covers. If you buy them online (links in the OP), it will likely cost around $60 per month

>>8338644
if this is who i think it is we should meet up sometime when we get over our anxiety and go shopping xD

>>8338440
Wow nice thats very sweet of you.

>>8338506
Just keep taking the hrt and boymode, you will regret stopping.

>>8338633
Depends on where you live.

>>8338671
yeah we should

I guess nobody cares, but the ferrin in the stool sample, thee doc says it's a polyp and because family history it will be removed and sent to a lab analysis to check for cancer and the procedure will be done next week.

so fuck it. life is short as it is. i'm still sad though, and I miss my ex so much. we're all alone in the end i guess.

should I do DMT?

>>8338695
hows dmt gonna help
>>8338696
you forgot the spaghetti

>>8338696
That looks so good :0 But wheres the spaghetti

>>8338696
Now I want pizza.

>>8338506
Iktf nimmy
The whole trans thing does indeed seem like a pipe dream

>tfw considering stopping around the same time as nim
i feel
based...

>tfw remembering the time your ex gf lost to cock

>>8338695
It's probably not cancer, chill out.

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>>8338699
>>8338700
I make normal pizza too you know ;~;

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Does Homura need to go Y/N