What should I do?

>>8238954
here is the plan op

you spend your money on a male prostitute to fuck you while you're dressed up like a girl

then you jump, it's cheaper than the gun

>>8238954
buy more hormones obviusly

>>8238968
this, OP, please consider it

post pics. we'll honestly tell you if you should end it or not.

>>8238954
Don't give up, OP. You need FFS, right? Well, persevere and save for it. As long as you keep trying there's a chance you'll make it, but if you give up now that chance is 0%. Fight for yourself, OP. Find happiness.

>>8239079
not op but the hurdles seem insurmountable at times to where I'm not even sure myself if this is what I want.

>>8239086
I was a coward and an idiot and didn't act when I could. I regret it every day. If you can still salvage your life you owe it to yourself to try to do so. People are tougher than they know. When there is only one way through, they find the strength to go through. I wish I could give you some piece of advice that will fix your life but I can't. I just know I immensely regret not trying.

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>>8238968
I'm scared of heights and probably wouldn't do it but there is a bridge in my that connects my city to another one on the freeway that I thought about climbing and jumping it was my first method when I thought about suicide but I feel like forcing myself to pull a trigger and jumping are two different things for me idk it's weird either way it doesn't matter as long as it's successful.

>>8239020
I just feel like it would be a waste you know I'm not gonna pass I'm not as worse as a hon I got some alright changes with hormones but not enough for me to be like holy shit girl.

>>8239028
Yea sure like I said I thought about jumping as my first method so maybe.

>>8239059
I erased all the pictures I had out of a really bad breakdown I cut my long hair and just gave up and have been crying for hours if I manage to pull myself together I'll post my pic in a new thread or something

>>8239079
I've been fighting for years to be myself. I feel like it's to far gone for me now. I come here and see all the passing trans people mtf or ftm and it just hurts. I'm not saying I was extremely passable in the past but it would have been better than what I have to deal with now. Ffs is just so expensive and I read all the skull autist stuff and seen the failed ffs threads I'll probably turn out like them. But you do make a good point if I give up now what would all the fighting have been for???
>>8239086
I feel like this too but I know 100% this is what I want so it's pretty much try or suicide.
>>8239203
Same here anon I wish tried harder....

>>8239410
Look for what it's worth I really really hope you'll make it. Don't listen to the haters. Keep on trying. Hold on. Believe. Please.