Whats more important? Uni or Transition?

i was thinking about going to med school but after starting hrt my bpd got worse and stuff and i lost all motivation to study and live in a non-english speaking country and all my friends live an ocean away and all i just want to do is leave

honestly most likely i'll be camming for money and at worst prostitute myself

so i'd say transition

You can't take a year off and go back or something? Or cam or sell drugs or something that isn't too draining in your spare time.

>>8027023
Why not stay in uni, keep transitioning on hrt, and leave laser and surgeries until you can afford them?

Why do you want to be a scientist? What field of science?

>>8027032
how did you end up studying in a foreign country?

>honestly most likely i'll be camming for money and at worst prostitute myself
how can you let yourself do that?

>>8027070
>how did you end up studying in a foreign country?
by being born here ugh. shit sucks but whatevs my friends are helping me move out

in the mean time i have absolutely nothing in my life and i have like no self image or self worth and idc what happens to me

camming is just what's the likeliest thing to happen and at worst i might end up prostituting myself if i run out of money

>>8027038
In Aus honors has to be done the year after you graduate

>>8027065
Because my dysphoria is crippling, I'm not even sure if i can make it through another year of uni. I keep breaking down and start crying and hitting myself while i still have assignments i need to do. But i keep telling myself not to give up, and keep going with uni until i fail.

I study biology, and this year my honors is a genetics project. I always wanted to be a scientist so i could find a way to turn myself into a girl, ikr, my life is so fucked up and ironic.

>>8027104
>Because my dysphoria is crippling,
But you'll be on hrt. It's just the rest that comes later.

>I always wanted to be a scientist so i could find a way to turn myself into a girl, ikr, my life is so fucked up and ironic.
That's tragic. Do you think you'll be able to make a difference when it comes to that as a scientist? You'll be the greatest trans woman in history if you do.

>>8027076
why were you born there if you're from an english-speaking family? unless you aren't and I misinterpreted what you said

>camming is just what's the likeliest thing to happen
why aren't there alternatives?

>>8027151
>why aren't there alternatives?
i dont see myself as a real person

i wouldnt be able to get a proper job because i have no degree or qualifications or whatever and i just don't have the self esteem or anything to deal with it while transitioning

camming is the only thing that'd work for me because i'm such a fuckup

prostitution is a scary idea but i'll just have to see

K so here was my similarish situation.
I was premed, excelling, finally realized that I could actually transition, albeit way to late, dropped pre med, and only focusing on my chem degree, and other stem minors. I'm full time, a total fucking hon. But I'm happy.
My dysphoria was p bad. But honestly, if you need/want surgeries, that's alot easier to save up for if You're not working minimum wage. You'll be better off in the long run learning hair, be a year later in your transition, but not struggling.
I guess as long as you can actually pay for t blockers or a burdizzo off eBay, stay in school.
Also, the remington ilight bullshit is totally working for my facial hair.
I'm almost to the point of not needing foundation/concealer to cover my honbeard.

>>8027023
You are on HRT stay at Uni - everything goes well
And you will get money for hair removing it is not too much

>>8027143
ahg but like hrt is making it worse, i can see my face becoming cuter an feminine and its makes me so happy, but having to shave my face everyday and still having viable beard shadow is becoming unbearably painful

>Do you think you'll be able to make a difference when it comes to that as a scientist?
I think i was delusional, i was using delusions of grandeur to cope as a method of repressing

>>8027023
I guess as a follow up, have you been on hrt for like a month, and not seeing any changes so you're freaking out and reevaluating life?
Cause if so, just calm yoself, don't do anything drastic.
Also, fill your spare time with a shitty part time job. You'll have more money to spend on clothes, ect.
Do they not have thrift stores there? Jfc alot of clothes are super cheap--shoes are expensive, and the occasional "gotta have it" first hand clothes are costly

>>8027180
Stay as a scientist. I currently work in in a genetics lab, working on this blahblahblah that'll end up (hopefully) with a gene therapy treatment for deafness

>>8027104
>In Aus honors has to be done the year after you graduate
why? that's horrible and stupid.

>>8027159
>i dont see myself as a real person
;_;

can't you find a job to do that doesn't need a qualification? or force yourself to study and get one?

>>8027104
Same reason I went into science. Doing EM staining all day every day for like 2 months literally killed my testes--wasn't following osha protocol at all, osmium's lucky stuff--it's actually what spurred my transition.

>>8027210
i feel so mentally ill around other people that idk if i can do it

i could probably work as a cashier or at a fast food place but seriously what i said above

i have severe bpd problems too so they're not helping either

and like i said, i cant study here its just useless and takes too much time i want to get out of here as quick as i can but studying? no never

i'll either move out of here soon or end up in prostitution and dying

>>8027184
I'm in my 7 month now, and the changes have been amazing, but i feel like i need to socially transition to be happy, but i cant do that while i have beard shadow.

I want to comfortable with my body and be able to masturbate, or oneday have sex, without crying about my genitals . The surgeon i want has a nearly 2 year long waiting list, and you can't reserve until you pay a deposit.

How my body is changing on hrt is making me extremely more aware of the things that are not changing , and its making me feel stuck and it sucks :(

>>8027222
Ayy twinsies.
But okay seriously. Try it out the remington ilight. I almost have zero blue shadow, and about 1/3 the hair density after a month of using it. It's 200$, but by far the best purchase so far.
Also, literally learn makeup. As long as it doesn't grow super fast, that covers everything. There's tutorials specific for covering up beard shadow.

>>8027180
Then keep the HRT whatever else you do, and script and save and beg and maybe gofundme or patreon for hair removal money!

>I think i was delusional,
Why do you still want to be a scientist then, when the alternative is doing your transition sooner?

>>8027222
Suporn? I take it you're straight?

>>8027261
>Why do you still want to be a scientist then
I dont know anymore T_T

>>8027274
yep

>>8027289
>I dont know anymore T_T
Oh anon. You need to answer bigger questions than what you asked in OP... You need a lifestyle or ambition to drive you.

>>8027023
You need as much money as conceivable for transition. If an extra year helps that goal then good.

>>8027416
>You need a lifestyle or ambition to drive you.
i just want to be a girl, its what I've always wanted. I was only ever learning science so i could use it to fulfill my own eccentric delusions

>>8027467
But if you don't really expect to make yourself a girl that way and being a girl is your heart's desire, then why both with the uni? Just transition and do what you need to do to get the girl lifestyle you want, like finding a husband.

>>8027504
>finding a husband
i want this ^_^

>>8027522
then focus on that and transition, if university and being a scientist were just things you were doing out of habit so to speak.

>>8027467
Don't dismiss eccentric delusions so easily, they have driven many a great person.
A good education will help you for a lifetime, and I can easily see someone regretting missing out on it.
On the other hand, as long as you are on HRT, you are not really losing much by delaying surgeries and the like for a year.
Also stop being so superficial, people can find you cute without expensive stuff.
So unless you know that it will seriously fuck you up in the head, I recommend uni.

>>8028057
>lso stop being so superficial, people can find you cute without expensive stuff.
muh dysphoria

>>8028173
You need massive amounts of money for your surgeries. If an extra year gives you a masters then the extra money will help you get that. I've never heard of anybody buying surgery on min wage.

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>>8028227
>surgery

mfw

>>8028227
The extra year is for honors, its basically a precursor to a phd, and basically worthless on its own.

Also minimum wage in Western Australia is $18 an hour

>>8028340
what's up with this? >>8027200

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I'd say transition. My sister is studying econ, but her life's a complete mess making it impossible for her to be successful with her studies, and this is making her life even worse. It's no trans stuff, but the results are probably the same as yours if you keep going wanting to transition, hating your body, and living under high stress because of your studies.

>>8027023
fucking man up and do both

>>8032710
>but her life's a complete mess making it impossible for her to be successful with her studies,
Why?

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>>8032841
I wish I knew. I'd like to help her out, but we haven't talked since 2013 or 2014, until recently when I decided to be a good brother for once. Nevertheless, she's a good example of how OP should transition before completing their studies, as otherwise it will be extremely painful.

>>8035029
Maybe OP's like her and her life will be a mess regardless of transition.

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>>8032841
>Why?
Negative self talk
If you don't believe in yourself
it is hard to get things done