How has Death effected your sexuality

>>8013453
I'm sorry, I didn't know you did

>>8013453
You lost your mom and you're les? It's not that clear in your post. I lost my dad and I'm les, so I'm not sure it works that way.

>>8013453
I'm sorry, I didn't know you did either

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>>8014519
I'm mtf / bisexual, sorry I should of specified I wrote this right before falling asleep.

>I'm not sure it works that way.

It's hard to explain, and yeah you are probably right.

>>8014521
>>8014491
Not sure if troll or what but it happened so long ago it's rarely something that I think about, at least consciously. I'd say I turned out to be relatively well adjusted all things considered.

>young child me
>trying to avoid being girly
>sexually taken advantage of by "friends"
>want to die my whole life
>a good friend dies, families sent spiraling
>grandparents are dying
>running out of people to disappoint
>high school classmate kills himself, mourn privately with his girlfriend after the public show of appropriate mourning is over and people who never cared want to move on
>get a boyfriend
>his grandfather dies, he brings me to the funeral
>everyone is nice and polite
>my cousin dies
>boyfriend leaves me
>my last grandmother dies, a lovely woman but bigoted and uncompromising
>try to keep moving forward
>come out as trans
>spiral into sadness
>try to kill myself
>death doesn't want me
I'm clingy and as emotionally fragile as sugar glass so I guess death had some effect on my sexuality?

>>8013453
Cease this navel-gazing

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>>8015135
>Cease this navel-gazing

Leave me alone, I hardly ever make threads about myself. This board is dead anyways, at least I'm contributing something.

>>8015070
>I'm clingy

Yeah I think death has also turned me into a navel-gazing emotionally clingy mess as well.

>>8014761
I'm not trying to troll, I've spoken to you in other threads and feel bad about constantly talking about dark things.

>>8013453
I don't even know if this is related, at all. My father was diagnosed with brain cancer when i was nine and spent five years as a terminally ill, bed-ridden man incapable of recognizing any of us, then died when i was 14. I had already started showing signs of being pretty fucked, at around 13 I started going full time boy-mode and it never stopped. Turned out a FtM tranny in the long run. Now, my family only had females in the bloodline, the males were limited to grandpas\father\uncles (aunts' husbands), everybody had female children. I'm still debating whether I happened to be like this to balance shit out, to replace the man that was gone, because it left an imprint on me or just because I would have turned out this way regardless of his death. Sometimes I still wonder.