To this day, I still enter into a major depressive state when I think of anything related to an ex-boyfriend I met here on /r9k/ in 2014 and who dumped me in 2015. He was perfect for me, and I want to cry because I want to talk to him and tell him how much I've needed him all this time.
But he hates me: the last couple of occasions in which we exchanged correspondence were terrible. He broke up with me and I cried all night; then I told him that I didn't think we could be "just friends", and we ceased contact. Then I tried contacting him everywhere for a couple of months, and he eventually got back to me telling me that he'd file a restraining order against me if I messaged him one more time - he mocked me, and then told me me and him were never going to be together.
What is wrong with me? Why am I obsessed with him? Everyone I meet just seems so shitty compared to him. The only people I find attractive are those that resemble him, and I end up losing interest in them because they don't look "enough" like him, or because I realize I'm settling.
I think I need help. I need him so bad. It's not true that "time makes it go away". I've been waiting two years, and I still cry when thinking about him and I still want him to come back. I still can't find any real flaws in him.
Well. This could be a multitude of different reasons, could be how you saw yourself with him or you how you felt when you were with him. The person you fell in love with is different from who he is now. And i know its hard to let go of it but it is in the past.
Ill be rooting for you OP you are never alone c: fighting!!
>>7866407
>hooking up on 4chan
>>7866511
>Ill be rooting for you OP
What's there to root for? I know he's not going to ever take me back. It's a certainty. I'm sure he's with someone else now, anyways.
I remember a few weeks after he broke up with me and after we'd cut off contact with each other, I went on his Twitter out of morbid curiosity and I saw a tweet mentioning me as just another "ex" in the most casual way possible. I think it was something along the lines of: "oh, yeah, I had an ex who wanted to do something like that too."
And he was an attractive guy: people were always hitting on him, always wanting to be his friend and wanting to go out with him. Even though he was anti-social and hated people, he somehow got all the attention, and had that charisma that made strangers drawn to him for no reason in particular. Not like me - I could sit there forever, and nobody would approach me. I always have to be the one being outgoing in dating sites, because otherwise, nobody would ever even check my profile. So yeah, I'm sure he already found someone. If not that, I'm sure he's over me, and that he got over me the week after we broke up.
He certainly didn't seemed flustered or even bothered when he broke up with me and did that "we can just try to be friends shit". I couldn't stand it, and I felt depressed every single time I talked to him "as a friend", whereas he'd get pissed at me for even talking about trying to be together again.
So why do I like him so much, that I can't let go of him? It's killing me. And it's been so long too. Everyone always says "oh you'll get over it in a few weeks, and then you'll forget all about it xD"
>>7866585
Well thats the thing. You arent supposed to forget about it. Yes it happened. And its over now. But sulking and feeling like youll never be happy again will not help. You will be happy again. You will find a boyfriend. Who cares about your ex anymore. He obviously doesnt care about you. You have to muster up enough courage to say, maybe i dont wanna be sad today, you arent tied down to anything, you arent lost, you just feel robbed, but at the end of the day its fine. Let them take. Fighting!!! Anon-oppa!!!
>>7866669
>You will find a boyfriend
Only if I settle. It won't be anyone like him. I'm not even attractive enough to get someone I actually find handsome.
I feel like my ex- was a once-in-a-lifetime fluke. I'm not attractive: what are the chances a 10/10 is just going to drop into my lap like he did?
I guess another reason I can't let go of my ex- is that - regardless of our break-up - there was a period of time where he was the one that needed me. He would call me crying telling me he needed me desperately, or he'd get sad that I was going out and ask me to try to get home not-too-late so we could talk. It's just something that's never happened to me: it's always me that's doing the asking or is the dependent one.
This thread makes me sad because it makes me realize that things never go away and they always stay to haunt you.
All of /lgbt/'s advice is useless.
>mentally ill (probably ugly) fag complaining about his fake 4chan relationship
>posting about it on /lgbt/ in a desperate bid for attention and pity
your parents must be proud op
>>7866407
We've all been there, phamalam
>tfw can no longer feel any romantic feelings towards anyone because of him
>>7866407
He doesn't deserve you. Not if he can mock and mistreat you like that. You are hurting, wounded, and still suffering over this break-up.
Unfortunately, you need to accept that you won't be able to rekindle what was lost. Acceptance is the first step that must be taken towards moving on. It will be the hardest part, because a piece of you is refusing to move on. You need to do this for yourself. Until you can take that step, there is no way you can move on from there.
Did you ever actually meet in person?
If so, how many times?
>>7869571
>>tfw can no longer feel any romantic feelings towards anyone because of him
this is me
>>7869565
t.normalfag