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Previous thread >>7796228
ahh finally, an edition for me.
I miss him
>>7797810
cute ass swinging around
>>7797799
>not every thread is nim's thread
>>7797789
Then you're doing your part. Get drunk, pass out, hope it isn't as bad when you wake up. Or, alternatively, you can take up mindfulness meditation, which is healthier and what I do when I don't just want to indulge my death drive.
>>7797817
Its true.
>>7797817
based OP
>>7797818
lol, ran out of it today
desu I can't handle being sober most of the time
Sink cat
Is there anything better than shoving a thick, meaty delicious sandwich down your throat?
>>7797836
yeah
penis
>>7797834
caramel corn dog
>asked my friend who interviewed and got an offer from the company I'm interviewing with tomorrow how the technical questions were
>she said they were fairly easy and whatever the recruiter told me to review ahead of time is exactly what'll be asked
>tfw also said pay is $70k-$90k starting and includes health insurance and stock options, plus they'll pay at least 75% of whatever I need to go to grad school if need be
>they usually let people know within a couple of days of interviewing if they got the job
jesus if I land this i'll be the happiest human being ever and accept it in a heartbeat
on the other hand if I don't land this i might kms, or at the least get blackout drunk off cheap beer at the campus bar
>>7797814
GOD i miss her
hi pookie
>>7797823
>>7797822
I'll fix it soon!
>>7797840
Oh yeah, that.
>>7797845
Good luck! Do your best! <3
>>7797836
yeah
when your bf shoves it down there for you
>>7797841
thats funny
>>7797846
I'm not pookie, I'm jaime
>>7797841
I said
Hop. In.
>>7797852
you're the one that's funny
>>7797850
thanks
I'm really nervous because I crashed and burned in the last technical interview I did
>>7797858
What sort of job are you going for?
I need the approval of others
sue me!
>>7797863
software engineer
>>7797866
C U T E
U
T
E
>>7797854
scared
>>7797866
vry 2006
I think everything's going to be okay
I just have to pass this driving test on Friday
I am...so very scared, but excited. My life is coming together.
>tfw faggot
>>7797883
same
I miss them.
>>7797885
Well that shouldn't be much of an issue
Cause you are!
>>7797879
Good luck! Careful to make sure you have enough room to pull out again after you parallel park, that's how I failed my first time -_-
WHERE'S MY BF
>>7797831
What's your favourite poison? I don't mind being sober, and actually I'm joking when I say I drink to stave off my bad feelings since when I get depressed I actually don't want to drink or do anything that might ruin my state of mind.
>>7797836
Getting your boipucci eaten out.
>>7797845
What's the job?
>>7797868
cool :) well good luck, sounds like you got the inside scoop so you should do fine :3
>>7797871
we can be friends now?
>>7797889
thanks
I think this is how I stop feeling bad about myself
>>7797817
i think a lot of people are annoyed with your guys 8 year old roleplay
>>7797815
i have so many good wubums now a days
>>7797845
Good luck! I'm sure you'll do fine!
>>7797866
Very nice. Throw a little makeup on and you'll pass for a super cute girl no problem.
A cis girl was really nice to me today, she said I was pretty
I'm sure it was just pity but like, it still feels really nice
>>7797900
eh, I'm am anything but stable
I'm proud of having waited until 2pm to get stoned
I have a problem desu
I prefer weed over alcohol but I have a serious weakness for mdma, like, life ruining weakness
even my druggie friends cut me off with that stuff, and they're almost worse than me
>>7797913
I doubt I'll pass desu
then again I have 4 sisters so I'm very critical
>>7797903
okay :D
>>7797895
Parallel parking is not covered in the driving test in my state
>>7797914
Cis girl pity is great at first.
>>7797923
nice!
>>7797922
Really, the only things holding you back from a clear passing face is your skin and your hair being a little messy. Not even that they look masculine, just that the fact that they aren't being prettied up makes them not seem as girly. Of course your body can bring your passing down, but throw on a bra with some padding and it'l be enough.
>>7797928
Then you got this, just pay attention. The only other guy who failed his test in my class completely brainfarted and tried to pull out on a red light and would've T-boned someone if not for the teacher brake, lol
>mfw i want to cancel on the date i have with fuckboy i'm infatuated with tomorrow because it's just gonna make me want him even more
>>7797942
>tfw no dress
:c
>>7797947
Edie, that uh vanilla enema you mentioned like 3 months ago, is it a real thing or like just a meme?
>>7797941
I could take better care of my skin but, I already spend 2 hours a day on my hair, getting the hairline like that isn't easy
and I thought my hair was my best feature
>>7797947
>does this work?
>>7797947
Fuck him for us Edie.
>tfw sad
>>7797528
>can't you borrow from your parents?
lmao gud 1
my mother is as poor as I am and my dad is a dickwad
>>7797536
Melbourne Australia
chels bls
>>7797952
it's a real thing :o just put a small amount of vanilla extract in the water.
>>7797956
does cancelling on guys help you not like them as much? a lil lol. mostly cause you don't fuck them which makes it easier.
the second a man's dick is balls deep in me and he's kissing me telling me how much he likes me i start to catch feelings.
>>7797959
aaaaaaaaaaHHHHHHH
i want to real bad but i'm pretty sure it's gonna end badly. in the sense that we'll fuck and i just won't see him for awhile again. rip
>>7797953
It's definitely really good, just a little messy, probably inevitable after you've been out long enough. A quick brushing would make it fine, and I doubt it's that noticeable outside of a closeup.
>>7797967
I mean you do that with all guys anyway. Go get that dickin.
>>7797917
Are you me?
>>7797967
Thanks :3
>>7797974
>you do that with all guys anyway
usually i'm the one who stops seeing them tho!!! this is the first time a man has ever treated me the way i treat everyone else AHAHAHAH
I HATE IT I DO NOT LIKE THIS TASTE OF MY OWN MEDICINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
http://v1rg1n-wh0re.tumblr.com/
No one cared who I was until I put on the dress.
>>7797917
I wouldn't really judge anyway. I mean, obviously it isn't healthy, but I would probably do the same if I could have dependences, but so far the closest I've ever gotten to having an addiction was self-harm, and I just turned that into a fetish so I wouldn't do it out of hatred, so even then I don't have that addiction. Maybe sex.
>>7797967
>just put a small amount of vanilla extract in the water.
Welp, I know what I'm trying sometime soon.
this asshole cat is in my lap
jamming his claws in my knee
god damn these leggings were cheap you bastard but i liked them anyway
Sometimes I post here pretending to be a chaser just to make you girls feel better about your futures. Does that make me a bad person?
>>7797972
lol, the slightest gust of wind makes me look like a fuzzball
that's about as straight as my hair gets, normally it's all frizzy or wavy and stuff, that minor fuzz is tame for me
>>7797983
why
>>7797987
lmao
post current mood
>>7797999
>>7797999
>>7797999
>>7797999
>>7798007
oopsy, dropped my trip
>>7797990
???
>>7797999
Does Alice still come here? I kinda miss her presence.
Hi MTFG
How are you? ^^
>>7798021
feels
much feels
I am really confused. My dad's an alcoholic, and he's been married to my mom for 33 years. Tonight at dinner, he called us into the living room to admit he has a Drinking problem. He's never acknowledged it before, cept once where he claimed he wasn't an alcoholic when one of his friends claimed he and him were alcoholics. I'm super confused. Idk what caused him to finally admit it...
>>7798022
cute ferret needs to come out of her cute hiding hole
just like maeve
>>7798023
Good feels or bad?
>>7797999
>>7798024
alcoholics quite often don't think they're alcoholics
>>7798024
sounds overall positive for sure
>>7797999
>>7798028
like, one, the other, both and neither
feels weird desu
>drake leaves, edie arrives
sick of this trade desu
>>7798006
With the mdma problem, fondness of weed and disliking drinking
>>7798042
maybe, wanna meet up and get smashed?
apparently I'm cute
I did more drugs to help with the existential torment
Being a girl would be so great. I would be so happy.
>>7798021
Hi Caroline!
I am feeling GOOD!
I think I'm making steady progress and stuffs gonna be alright!
>>7798047
thats basically what I look like now
more or less
>>7798045
I can get some peng pills
Alcohol is best drug
>>7798060
wrong
itz cool tho desu senpai
>>7798053
I don't think I pass that well but I was somehow stealth for a bit, with strangers, friend's, people that didn't like me and weren't very friendly to trans people. Ended up getting outed and death threats over a meme I posted on facebook
>>7798060
never seen ketamine spelled that way
>>7798018
There are like 10 different "Alice"s. In other words, Not sure.
>>7797999
Pic related
Anyone have a real job here? I'll have my masters in May and am Kinda freaking out about what I'll do after that. Kinda use to living on University dime. Is this the power of adulthood..?
>>7798053
It's been 4 years and I still don't know what peng means but sounds good to me
U top or bottom?
>>7798060
What happened to the advanced drug addict Elanna that I fell in love with?
>>7798060
that's a funny way of spelling lysergic acid diethylamide
>>7798059
eh, ambivalence is like a drug to me
idk why but feeling good and terrible at the same time just feels better for me, it's kind of cathartic
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oF0FFOExxUo
>>7798060
that's a weird way of spelling girldick
>>7798083
Its ok I still love you.
>the drug i enjoy the most is better than the one you enjoy the most
someone tell me the point of this conversation
i think i asked my bf for too much in a tfw broke manner that he hates me now.. he went offline for some reason while i was in class, how do i make him not hate me????
he's perfect and i don't deserve him, but i still want him.....
i just got 1 of my calculus midterms back!
i got 92.5% !
& i was so worried (⌒∇⌒)ノ"
>>7798102
people on the internet love quirky arguments about inane subjective shit
if only my armchair psychology degree helped me understand why
>>7798111
Well done :D
thats really good :D
why am I not happy
I was a minute ago
I really hate mood swings
methylenedioxymethamphetamine!
>>7798085
LSD is pretty great but it's too much of a time commitment :(
>>7798046
Why do you feel so tormented?
>>7798125
molly?
>>7798080
Peng means good. And bottom
supple conetits
>>7798128
ugh, muricans
>>7798125
>tfw MDMA used to be your favorite drug but you did it too much and now it just makes you feel really fucked up and nauseous
>>7798124
:(
hugg ;-;
>>7798120
thanks ( ノ^ω^)ノ
>>7798128
Ecstacy was my thing big time
>>7798124
I even fucked up that haiku
>>7798131
oh ok, makes sense
and cool, hopefully muh dick still works
>>7797999
Anger tears
>>7798126
dimethyltryptamine then
>>7798127
a bunch of things I would rather not go into
I think my pinterest has effectively converted me to the republican party
>>7798146
yea, it's not that great.
that was 19 syllables.
just keep on trying
>>7798124
>why does drowning my hormonal system in estrogen give me moodswings
>Texting the girl I went on a date with last week
>"Melanie's birthday is friday so we have to do something fun for it"
>Is that one of your roomates?
>"No, she's my headmate"
>What?
>"One of the other people in my head"
Oh god, I'm getting into some shit here aren't I?
>>7798157
Give it time. The ultimate red pill is realizing that all parties are trash and that none of it matters.
>>7798157
hi snickers :3
>>7798162
I knew some people like that on irc a while ago they seemed nice and functionable so idk
>>7798162
Yeah, that is pretty much "Get out: The Signal Fire"
>>7798157
thank god
i hate not being able to bully cinnamon posters when they spout lib/marxist crap
>>7798102
I guess it's pretty autistic
>>7798141
>what I thought
I have no end
I am immortal
>reality
I can't feel my face and I look like a serial killer
>>7798163
yeah, I agree
politicians just screw us over
that's why I adamantly defend republican lawmakers and the GOP :^)
>>7798147
Is 5'6" tall?
>>7798162
May as well call her the Fourth Internationale with how many red flags she has.
>>7798149
Okay, well, any way a guy could cheer you up?
>>7798161
drake I'm sorry for being forward but pls send me a dickpic
>>7798162
This what we call a red flag. It means you run the he'll away
>>7798157
based Snickerdoodle
hey
>>7798169
I mean, she seems nice but this is all kinds of crazy. Now she's saying one of her headmates is one of her (the one talking now) polyamorous partners, and another is her 6 year old girl. This is gonna take a lot of getting used to at the very least.
>>7798180
an inch shorter than me
p hot desu
>>7798177
Yeaaah idk.
MDMA makes you look like a fucking zombie
>>7798160
I think I'm actually retarded or something
>>7798174
yeah
it really brought to my attention the fact that I couldn't hold leftist beliefs and be a housewife at the same time.
So I had to choose
plus those memes had really convincing arguments
>>7798083
>usually tasty
my only issue with that list
if it tastes good I can't drink much without feeling sick :(
only exception is white wine, but even that makes me nauseous but not in the same way all that sugar does
>>7798192
I want a desk setup like that, look super comfy!
>>7798185
this shit makes other anons who flirt with drake look bad :c
>>7798195
trust me I know
after a festival we all ask eachother how we look and everyone looks like an actual corpse
>>7798192
Graced base
>>7798105
pls help he is still offline and idk if it's the benzo plus opiate comedown, but i don't want to lose him he is perfect and somehow doesn't hate me and likes me enough to be my bf
>>7798200
stop being a pussy
don't you have any saved?
>>7798162
Abort abort abort abort
>>7798041
>Actually liking drake
>>7798205
After a whole festival you certainly feel like one too
I have a love hate relationship with MDMA-like stuff. Every time I've taken it lately I wish I were sober idk
>>7798196
synonyms often help.
pros use alliteration.
stream of consciousness
>>7798221
shit
>>7798219
sounds the same for me and weed/alcohol, like I want it but it doesn't seem to make anything better, sometimes worse
might not be the same tho
>>7798216
aww
he's a nice guy
>>7798157
LMAO!
>>7798221
>using the phrase stream of consciousness in a stream of consciousness
>>7798201
yea but i like to stretch my legs out
>>7798204
>>7798207
hi
What do you call the feeling when a boy comes up to you at the fufu organic grocery store and thinks it's adorable you can't talk but you're like why the fuck are you talking to me bro I'm a guy, and it doesn't feel like it's happening to you, but to someone else, and you just take his number because you can't really talk and tell him off?
>>7798233
well, it was 18 syllables, but thanks anyway
>>7798228
No it's pretty similar, but I think it's just that I don't get any of the same effects I used to like about it. I just feel fucked up in an unpleasant way, no desire to talk with people and no empathy
>>7798194
Nah I'm a bit of a chav desu
>>7798229
Except he's a racist dick who flies off the deep end, so he's objectively not.
>>7798240
Fuck you
>>7798216
>not liking drake
>>7798229
>deadnames
>posts people's nudes
>nice guy
??????
>>7798242
Tbh* to be honest not desu, I'm vexxed
>>7798184
perhaps, I could use a good hug
>>7798237
It's called:
Chronicle of Losing to Cock Foretold
>>7798245
You wish, beanerino
>>7798234
I always used to sit like that when I was younger
>>7798239
but it's in poor taste
drakey deserves wholesome flirtation
>>7798251
cherrypicking: the post
>tfw no money
am i pretty enough to camwhore/prostitute myself
>>7798041
drake is edie confirmed
>>7798260
I really don't.
I thought you were my friend man..
Not a lot of times I think that.
I can get sex whenever I want.
But just fuck you seriously
>>7798229
Let me spell it out for you, he's friends with sexual abusers on here and constantly laughs off rape and worse as being "fake news", and that's without going into what he does to his online "relationships" with trans girls
like even the edge posters just wish they were as eternally broken and fucked up as him, and dropping meme for half a second, I have 0 respect for people that like him honestly
>>7798266
You definitely have some RBF going on, I have no idea how cute you are when you smile.
>>7798271
>>7798267
>>7798251
please don't be mean to me
>>7798266
You are, but you have to put in work to makeup, fashion, etc.
It's not like look, I'm a prostitute and money comes in. It's hard work.
>>7798268
yeah but it's what i do every day in hopes of boobs
>dont deadname unless its really funny
Don't do that.
>she posted mine first
Move on and drop it.
Remember how I said you don't have to be like this yesterday? Be a man and take the high road.
>>7798261
ah, maybe its better for you then
>>7798247
Eh.
>>7798269
K I don't really care
>>7798286
aww 3:
>>7798271
but faye
he's cute
>>7798278
He's just giving you positive attention.
>>7798239
nah
jk
I believe it's the governments job to ensure everyone has a decent standard of living
and that isn't possible under our current system
>>7798278
cute trip
>>7798266
If you really need the money you could cam, but please stay away from the latter, makes me worry for you
>>7798277
this is the best I got
>>7798280
yeah lol
I guess i need to be able to afford makeup and clothes first huh
that's a bummer
>>7798278
>please don't be mean to me
You're unable to differentiate between "kind" and "kind to me". That's weak, sorry.
>>7798278
I could get liking one of the histrionic sociopathic cam girls, they're fun at times, but liking drake is comparable to liking scat play on top of wounded animals tbqh
>>7798298
look at those happy eyes
>>7798286
not changing myself for you gracie
and im not any different than yesterday
im not 'man' enough yet to avoid wanting to get even
and there are tons of good men with revenge principles
>>7798283
you got it mate
i think shes one of the people who back me up a lot so she definitely deserves it
>>7798294
no of course its not
but its the best system we currently have for it
>>7798240
yeah, I don't get the feeling I wanted, instead I just don't feel normal, sometimes it makes me freak out a little
>>7798291
>>7798301
>>7798299
>>7798303
omg!!!!
>>7798286
hey grace,
i don't like thinking you're upset me..
>>7798256
*wraps a pair of arms around your shoulders and holds you tight against him*
>>7798303
I'm basically Tiny Tim
>>7798310
you dont really understand those kind of posters yet carol
they hate everyone who likes anything they dont
>>7798311
bird in progress
>>7798242
so, what county do you live in?
>>7798310
I hope this is a meme lol
>>7798305
Oh sweetie, don't try and frame this as revenge. If this was revenge you wouldn't waste so much time here, you'd be focused on your target.
Also, you're not changing for me, you're changing for yourself. You ARE the one who admitted you aren't a very good person yesterday.
I saw a glimpse of you being a good guy yesterday, I really think you should try and focus on being that over this edgy vengeful disruptive child you seem to prefer being.
>>7798298
Well, I don't know where to start, lol
I have 0 experience in prostitution, desu.
>>7798316
>clear skin
literally stop
i got big ol' pores everywhere and the hormones and making my cheeks look like they have full blush on 24/7
>>7798319
oh wow thats really good
the shine on the eye is perfect
i hope you get the lighting angle right
>>7798319
what a qt, keep at it emi!!!
>>7798327
>and making my cheeks look like they have full blush on 24/7
On the up side to this people will ask you if you have makeup on and you'll just be like nah bitch I'm naturally fab
>>7798286
<3
>>7798268
lol
I am best autist!
>>7798325
what??
what are you talking about?
im not posting here for revenge lol
i posted her nudes because she posted mine, for revenge
i just like this place
>edgy vengeful disruptive child
oh
well that ruins any want of me to be friends with you
i forgot how obsessed you are with changing people
later gracie
>>7798331
no grace it makes me look like a clown!
>tfw your mom was LITERALLY A CLOWN in the 70s
the estrogen is activating my clown genes!!
nah they were already activated in my feet lol
speaking of ppl being awful and maybe being better i watched this vid today and it reminded me that i need to try to be the best person i can whenever i can
i love her vids they rly help me get back to my center desu
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p7r13a0a8QM
why are epilators so expensive
jfc
>>7798338
No one thinks you're bad or disgusting, Caroline.
>>7798330
eva this petroleum jelly is working on my lips!!
they're gonna be kissable in august <3_<3
>>7798320
Uk, there's no guns and you can walk down the road in a main city smoking weed like it's a cigarette
right, just before i stepped inside the shower i thought for a second that my ass looks a little rounder
>>7798335
>admit you're not a good person
>recommend you change if thats what you think of yourself
>WAH STOP TRYING TO CHANGE ME YOU LIKE CHANGING PEOPLE YOU WEIRDO
Also have you ever thought perhaps the punishment doesn't befit the crime? When was the last time she posted your nudes? And you're still doing it why?
And why should you get a free pass for what you do to other people, exactly?
>well that ruins any want of me to be friends with you
If you wanted that you would have showed me you can change, I'm not gonna be friends with a guy that's bullied me and basically everyone else here because he was nice to me a single evening.
>>7798345
;_;
>>7798344
worth getting the braun silk 9
it's like 80 bucks but it's supposedly hurts less and is more effective
and judging by the fact it hurts like shit that must mean the other ones are unusable
>>7798346
t-that's good to hear!
>>7798338
Hugg!
>>7798357
now if there's something i can do about this perma-blush the mones are giving me
how long HRT until I stop liking this song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ETtTUN77OhY
>>7798348
you realise I'm english right?
like as long as you're close it's all good
>>7798344
what's an epilator?
>>7798347
lmao
are you with the moap squad?
would you drop me if we werent talking to each other anymore?
also vanessa is definitely an ally
>>7798351
i dont post her nudes lol
i havent in a really really long time
and i did it because she was still gossiping about me nonstop
and i wasnt trying to show you ive changed at all, i was just talking to you
im not a woman so i dont have hundreds of alterior motives
actually i dont even really want to talk to you since you regressed back to this grace
>>7798362
you kidding me dude?
classic eminem is really good
>>7798362
>tfw listening to this song while picking up your hormones from the post office
https://youtu.be/hefh9dFnChY
>>7798351
i liked that vidya
>>7798362
14 months
>>7798356
It hurts less as your hair thins, but to start off with it's pretty bad
Gonna get my blood tested for hormones n stuff tomorrow, I'm not supposed to take my estrogen before the test right?
I'm going to try to touch my gt...h-here I go..
>>7798361
m-maybe I can kiss it better...
>>7798369
>what's an epilator
it's like a giant grow of spinning tweezers that pull your hair out by the root so it takes longer to grow, grows in weaker and your skin is left 100% smooth
it just really hurts the first time
I feel really spoiled by my bf sometimes he just bought me Chinese food from a nice restaurant (i even got to pick what type of food I wanted so it didn't have to be Chinese) just because. he's so sweet and loving to me i feel like i dont deserve it sometimes <3
drake is nice
it's just not easy for him
idk, it's like a defence mechanism
>>7798375
yeah ive noticed
ive done it twice on my arms and it takes a lot longer to grow back in, and it grows back in lighter
pretty worth that first epilation desu
i just wish i could use it anywhere besides my arms and legs
>>7798381
aww c:
thats nice of him
>>7798378
that'll just make it worse silly ^^
>>7798377
thanks for the report, soldier
be sure to check in once youre done
>>7798379
what the hell dude?
that sounds terrible
>>7798382
what?
could you explain????
idk anything about sewing but im doing it anyways ama
>>7798389
what are you sewing? c:
>>7798389
can you sew me to an anvil and drop it into the ocean
>>7798368
I'm welsh
>>7798383
Are you not supposed to use it on your torso?
It hurts like hell but so I've neglected doing much, but I do a little.
>>7798369
Moap doesn't cause much trouble anymore
must adapt
Hey guls
>>7798370
how does this grab ya
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7sWP_6YFEgw
pants or dress?
hate fags?
the answers 'yes'
>>7798387
well I gotta try it anyway!
how did the drawing go today?
>>7798397
i tried it once and the scars are still faintly there after weeks of exfoliating lol
>>7798389
are you planting your hotdog tree early this year?
>>7798401
i tweezered my entire face anyway
>>7798365
Coolio
>>7798367
Neat
>>7798369
Don't even talk to me about regression seeing as you went from a touchingly honest and remorseful guy yesterday to a middleschool bully today.
>>7798371
Its real comfy.
>>7798382
>tfw uncertain if anon is based
>>7798388
sometimes you can be a bit of a dick, although no more or less than anyone else here desu
but it mostly seems to be you just entertaining yourself
idk, like I know it isn't malicious, but sometimes it goes a little too far, even by my standards
but this is on either end, there are plenty of others here who almost seem worse about it
>>7798404
that bird pic is the result of 2 hours of work ;-;
>>7798402
kinda cute
like your style
>>7798412
this is important r u rude and nude while you sew?
>>7798396
Got death threats over making a shitty valentine's day meme about a chav
>>7798416
just gotta keep up with it
I missed a few my first time around so ive been having to pluck a few more every day or so
>>7798414
keep at it if you still can! I really like the eye area!
>>7798396
shame
have fun with the sheep
>>7798412
no the jews are okay with it
>>7798410
cool image
i'm tired of waiting for my famicom's power supply (ノ・Д・)ノ彡┻━┻
>>7798424
i get nervous im gonna mess it up so i stop ;-;
>>7798416
sure, visit Ukraine and grab me from here ffs
>>7798408
Poor dog. Imagine the pressure of the earth against its body and the panicky feeling of struggling to get out of the ground.
;-;
>tfw your nose knows
anyone else nose this feel
>>7798425
No sheep only chavs
>>7798402
i was gonna rate this out of 10 but i cant tell because of the angle
>>7798399
yeah.. she used to be really antagonistic
i really liked watching her do her mental gymnastics until the person she was arguing
>>7798410
havent done anything to bully anyone lol
and i havent changed at all
you just started wanting to argue with me for no reason today
i guess i can forgive you if youre hormonal but im not too interested in being friendly if youre gonna act like that after we were being nice to each other yesterday
since you didnt counter anything i said im assuming you understand my point, though
>>7798413
oh, you understand me pretty well
it IS very entertaining
definitely go too far on accident sometimes
>>7798435
oh
like a 7/10
Our aim was to break you down to the bone
>>7798441
until the person she was arguing with couldnt go on anymore*
>>7798443
no it's okay i asked the head jew(or is it the nose jew) and he said it was alright
>>7798443
ok good bc my Anne fanclub membership was on the line there. dude why is getting a script do hard in Louisiana?
>>7798447
just for fun right
>>7798441
well, my body really isnt that good, should have thought about transition years earlier but started at 28. No surgeries done
>>7798441
I'm the same grace that was here yesterday. The same Grace you've bullied before. If you wanna be friends with me i need to see that I can trust you. If you're being nice to me but still causing trouble and don't seem open to criticism or the idea some changes in your actions may be called for, yesterday's Grace can't trust you.
>>7798453
forgot to add pic to this one
>>7798438
so
shall we start to call you chavshaggers then?
>>7798441
she's still pretty cool
haven't backed a (((dude))) since maki
so it's refreshing
plus some dork renamed the group already
>>7798435
soviet occupied Ukraine or Ukraine Ukraine
>>7798441
I know you well enough :)
>look in mirror
>weirdo with bug eyes and clown makeup on stares back
>one chance at life
>born with monster gt
why live
So I talked to the guy from work today who asked yesterday if I wanted to go on a date with him.
I think it really was just bantz. We weren't alone either time though.
I stopped by work and he said hi so I went over to talk to him. He showed me the tomatoes he just cut. I said hi to the other person there. He then asked out of the blue if I'd marry him. He's kind of a random guy I guess...
I was amused and he told the other co-worker that I wouldn't go on a date with him because he didn't like coffee. I said that's what I said but maybe I was being a little mean. Then he said he did like cappuccino though. I said that's close enough and that counts. He started talking about the drinks he liked at Starbucks.
Then he said he'd have to ask his girlfriend's permission first. I realized then this was his weird playfulness and said that would be a good idea. I remember something vaguely about him having a girlfriend once he said that but it was months ago.
He also said he liked some barbeque place. I said we should go to one of those places sometime. He agreed.
So I do think it was just banter. He's a weird guy. Co-workers and customers say he has too much energy. He's got the hipster glasses and that overtop haircut that transmen like so much; so I was starting to think maybe he was gay or bi. But now I'm pretty sure he was just fucking with me.
So, shit. I didn't think I came off as a gay guy anyway.
>>7798472
*qt
>>7798472
Are you me?
>>7798467
>soviet occupied
>>7798477
yes she is cute
>>7798474
es big?
>>7798477
no i just broke into your house and looked in your mirror
>>7798472
once your hair gets long it really helps your face look less weird. have you stopped cutting it while it grows?
>>7798476
a qt with bug eyes and clown makeup?
>>7798453
>no surgeries
oh wow
you turned out pretty well didnt you?
nice tattoo too
>>7798457
apologized for bullying you because it was a huge misunderstanding
but if thats not good enough and you need to peck at me more for it then idk what to tell you gracie
i just like talking to you
dont want anything more than that
dont understand why there has to be such a huge trust level for it either
>>7798470
better than like 99% of the people here
i can tell just from those few lines of yours
>>7798462
yeaaah
i havent been talking to her the past few days
gotta try again
did maki turn out to be a boy or gril?
>>7798482
thats a dumb way of saying you're both cute
b-by the way
>>7798484
v big : (
>>7798467
civil war as it is, with US support on ukrainian side and Russian support for Donbass
>>7798487
qt eyes and blushing qt face
>>7798486
my hair is past my shoulders lol
ive had it trimmed once but other than that i haven't gotten a haircut in like a year and a half
>>7798474
Ywn lovingly lose to cock with one of your best friends
>>7798474
You can make a cavernous vagina out of that.
>>7798472
>Bug eyes
Wtf? People tell me my eyes have gotten bigger and someone said I have bug eyes.
>:(
>>7798490
some ppl don't really mind. mine is 6in about and my bf isn't put off by size
find someone that likes you as a person and treats you how you want to be treated and the rest will fall into place
>>7798502
eyes get bigger?
>>7798503
is 6 inches big?
>>7798504
hrt tends to make eyes open up a bit
>>7798489
I am sorry maybe nim is but I'm not
>>7798499
Extra mayo please. ;)
>>7798488
rumor is he popped in and admitted (s)he wanted to be a girl
I didn't see it
i wish i had money mtfg
>>7798509
my eyes already look massive :\
>>7798511
you're DEFINITELY one of the cutest people here
>>7798509
I've also heard the opposite. People ending up with beady eyes. I'd believe they would look bigger. Maybe dumb asses put on weight?
Is my bathroom agp
>>7798488
it's cool
you're nice
>>7798518
it's a good thing they stopped EMA because kids these days would just spend it on estrogen and seductive legwear
>>7798505
If you're 5'5" it's big. If you're 6'6" it's small
why does posting pictures of yourself crossdressing on r/traps make you a whore and a degenerate
but girls posting bikini pics on instagram is normal
>>7798530
no i get ema in wales
but i need food and food is expensive ;w;
>>7798505
its about average but ppl that like you won't really care about size ya know?
same with boobies of a person likes you they like you regardless
>>7798525
idk sometimes they look beady and sometimes they're bug-eyed like tonight
>>7798533
because youre on reddit
>>7798532
what if im 6'0
>>7798527
It looks nice
>>7798526
sometimes I think they look too big
>>7798533
because the girls on instagram are posting pics on a platform that not only has their friends (and possibly family) but they're like
out in bikinis having a nice time or enjoying their life. not wearing striped socks over hairy legs and taking requests from a bunch of fat neckbeards in basements furiously jacking off to the idea of your dick in their mouthes lol
>>7798449
no nim i dont wanna!
>>7798450
there are like no doctors here
and the few that i have seen have been SHIT
last lady was cool at first but made me schedule a visit every 6 months when i needed a refill, instead of just writing it in to the pharmacy. and she wanted to do bloodwork every time. that shit was too expensive. i just started self medding.
and if its shit here in new orleans i can only imagine what its like outside here yeesh
>>7798447
fuck
>>7798480
im gonna make a lot of $$$
>>7798527
looks normal to me bb
>>7798545
don't get sad about having big eyes, it's feminine ^>^
>>7798549
wtf anne :(
>>7798534
>You may be able to claim Education Maintenance Allowance (EMA) if you’re studying in Northern Ireland, Scotland or Wales. EMA is now closed in England.
devolution was a mistake, it's like affirmative action for the non-english
>>7798527
yeah
the shower curtain
and can't read the sign but it has a faggoty symbol on it
>>7798551
>>7798490
I'm sorry
is very nice but I know is not good feel :(
>>7798555
It says don't make a mess with yr gt sit down to pee
Melly and Neptune made it :3
>>7798531
>no srs master race
>bitching about penis size
you are pretty fucking retarded
>>7798567
juni juni juni
>>7798547
>Mfw reading this
You just destroyed anon and reddit.
>Dropping friend off for clinic visit to get hrt
>Decide to come in after a few minutes to see how much I owe the clinic (my insurance hadn't covered anything).
>One lady makes a phone call and the other types away at the computer
>The consensus was "we don't know, ask us again in a few weeks"
>Last appointment was nearly 4 months ago
I guess they aren't in a hurry.
I need a scientific analysis as to why Nim and Eva are so cute together
>>7798547
Woah woah stop body shaming the hairy legged girls, that's not ok
This is where I cum to myself in drag erry night
>>7798547
isn't attention the bottom line though??
thats more what I was comparing
obviously not ALL girls on ig
like clearly there is some angle to look attractive, its not just 'hey look my vacation' for EVERYONE posting pics
>>7798505
yeah it's a decent size, I'm 6-6.5 but it should shrink soon
Ok, I actually wanted to show you the difference of 1.5 years transition, but started whoring out like clueless bitch. Here we go
>>7798569
i didnt ask for this
and neovag just isnt the same
dont be mean
>>7798563
happi eva :3
>>7798562
>Used to
So this eye thing reverts at some time?
How are you girls doing tonight
>>7798578
my connect just came over with pine
so im really happy
im gonna enjoy vidya again thank god
juni notice me
>>7798576
this is lauren tier
like what are you doing
>>7798587
and kinda now
>>7798558
>>7798574
>>7798577
>>7798579
LMAO SORRY I MEAN IT'S NOT LIKE IT MATTERS, as long as you're enjoying your life then do whatever you want!!! just explaining the difference since they asked.
>>7798583
everyone desires validation, but those girls desire it from their peers, both female and male.
people on /r/traps or whatever are not your peers. most of the time the ones begging for you to fulfill their needs for free are beneath you.
>>7798580
looks like the bathroom of a real dudebro
Carolcarolcarol <3
>>7798488
I really do appreciate your apology, but the trust is needed because how do I know you're not gonna turn around one day and do something mean like deadname me because you thought it was funny? Additionally it is hard for me to be on good terms with you without at least making an effort to say something when I feel like you're crossing my morals, or I see you unsatisfied with yourself and only further perpetuating why you are.
>>7798589
>>7798601
<3<3<3<3<3
>>7798598
>people on /r/traps or whatever are not your peers
ye I guess you're right :/
>>7798591
im p happy actually. my bf just dropped off some food for me and we spent like half an hour talking and kissing in his car
besides that in stuffing my fat face with food and playing dark souls 2 you?
>>7798588
idk, penis reduction then?
how big is it? not using it while on hrt makes it shrink a bit, happened to me, may help you depending.
>>7798605
I like the necklace
>>7798593
luckyyy
my drug package won't come til tomorrow evening
trying to play xbox rocket league but I fucking suck
>>7798559
>well im undecided but i dont think it would be worth it personally
Yeah, the money could go towards ffs. Or ba or just life in general.
Surely a person should change as little as possible about themselves to make themselves happy. Especially when it comes to surgery. If you're at most indifferent I wouldn't either.
>>7798598
50 shades of being a slut
Too complicated to figure out the difference between peers that are secretly beneath you and orbiters and anons that are openly beneath you and orbiters desu
>>7798620
ehh...
it looks tacky and makes the whole thing look overly religious
clothes shopping makes me feel like crying
>>7798541
I'm 5'7" and have a 6.5"
wanna see?
it looks yuge!
my grapes are tiny, they self-tuck when I get hard
>>7798614
you should still feel free to do whatever you want and whatever makes you happy tho tbqh.
sometimes doing that kind of thing helps people reach a point of security in themselves that helps them in other aspects of their lives.
>>7798622
i don't cam for validation, i cam for cash lmao
>>7798628
i think pretty much anyone would say men who feel entitled to naked pictures of you are beneath you, but it's open to interpretation i guess
>>7798606
hmmmmm
>>7798622
Why should I be friends with someone who enjoys not being a good person? That doesn't make much sense to me. When I get into bitch mode I recognize afterwards it is immature and that I should try to avoid doing it in the future. I wanna be friends with people who strive to be their best.
>>7798598
based edie
too savage
>>7798636
>wanna see
no srry
>>7798547
>taking requests from a bunch of fat neckbeards in basements furiously jacking off to the idea of your dick in their mouthes lol
self burn?
So the average height for females in this country is 4'9" and I decided to shop for clothing after therapy.
XS -1,000,000 options
S- 999,000 options
M- 500,000 options
L - bathrobes
LMAO. I really need to get out of this country.
>click find friends on my new girlmode facebook
>childhood best friend I've not talked to in years besides one phone call a few years back is the top of the list
WTF HOW?!
tfw no (you)s
>>7798499
man, i always love that meme.
so tastu (⌒ω⌒)
>>7798617
That sounds really nice
I'm not doing anything tonight
Just being sad and waiting for tomorrow
>>7798639
your such a sweetie! >///<
>>7798568
like I said, it's a defence mechanism
just try to control yourself y'know
>>7798649
gotchu family
Is it worth it to switch from 4mg Estrofem sublingually to 10mg injections?
>>7798628
>Desiring validation
This will be my undoing. I know it.
tfw no orbiters
>>7798657
you'll miss the taste of being a girl
>>7798641
it's just the truth
>>7798645
i don't take requests for free from anyone, least of all for validation.
my shows are structured in a way so i choose what i want to do and i do it for the monies i want. and i accept degeneracy for those actions.
but again, i do it because it pays me extraordinarily well. not for the validation of men or people i think are my peers.
>>7798662
i hate dem desu
>>7798657
Yeah injections mimic estrogen 100%
>>7798653
ill finish the bird tomorrow okay :(
>>7798662
*orbits u*
uwu
>>7798659
I make my own validation and it's my way.
>>7798662
tfw no gravity
>>7798662
they like stalkers, but on the internet?
>>7798662
cause some trouble
make the thread good
>>7798638
scummy regardless
>>7798640
i enjoy being a good person and a bad one
thats the whole chaotic neutral thing
i dont betray friends though regardless
thats exactly who i am, no girl stuff
if you arent okey with that even theres no more to talk about really
i do strive to be my best, also
thats the whole point of my career
>>7798655
i dont wanna
i love going too far if someone attacks me first
revenge is so sweet
>>7798527
I hope you don't use that St. Ives apricot scrub on your face...
>>7798666
Can you post that vid you made on injections again?
I'm also buying 3mL needles with 18u filter needles and 25u drawing needles, does that sound right?
>>7798678
a-are you not supposed to
>>7798667
that is okay, go get some rest! try to finish the birdy and start the next one! drawing is number 1# priority this week!!!! ><
>>7798598
you really dont know how fucking unhappy some people are
just stop
for once just stop and accept the fact that, like you've said a million times
you dont get it
>>7798638
its really sweet you answer posts like this
hrt basically took away my desire to post pictures like that, but even before starting it had been a while since i did
it did help me feel good about myself at one point though honestly
seriously though its really cool you help with stupid shit like this, you've helped me with hrt dosage and stuff too, like its just cool to have you around to help anon posters who will never help any sort of "credibility" here or whatever word you want to use
like you're just cool and helpful is what im trying to say
test
>>7798686
tset
>>7798683
awwww encouraging her to draw! that's sweet
>>7798686
>tfw no test
estro
>>7798686
osterone
>>7798688
drawing is so hard
i got bored and decided to try to draw a minotaur a few days ago
i made really slow progress and got like a quarter of it done in an hour
i was able to make it look like it didnt come straight out of deviantart though
How do I get girlvoice
I have a stupidly low man voice and I hate it
>>7798676
Wanna tell me why you're being a shit to edie?
>>7798682
Use something way gentler than that... that shit will scour your skin, there are bits of apricot shell which is apparently really brittle and sharp... its fine for your legs and arms, but don't use that shit on your face :/ The same brand they have an oatmeal one, much better :3 I always have some around somewhere, though I found making your own is best ^_^
>>7798676
i didn't respond to them with an explanation to a question they asked to show myself off as mother theresa with 5 lbs of makeup added on
i did it to explain the differentiation of a girl posting pics on instagram and a "trap" posting crossdressing pics on reddit.
there is in fact a difference and that's all i'm really trying to say. but ya'll can do whatever you want!
>>7798684
wat
>>7798685
d'aw ;_; LMAO THAT'S SO SWEET and here i thought everyone thought i was just being a bitch
really tho i mean backkk in thee dayyyy when i posted pics on trapchan and /b/ it helped me lots. but looking back, idk.
i kind of wish i hadn't and that i could have found other ways to get more confident. but we all have insecurities to work through i guess.
i'm glad you feel good and that you're on mones and all dat. sounds like you're on the right track!
>>7798670
That's really should be my goal, and I love the way you just do your own thing and give no fucks. But I guess my brain doesn't work that way.
For all my rebel pose and stuff I guess I just want to be somewhat normal, fit in and be liked and appreciated by those people who I like and appreciate.
But at the same time I am who I am and I guess some people will like me and others won't.
>>7798689
ayy
well meme'd
>>7798676
revenge isn't worth it drake
>>7798700
what do i use if i have big ol pores and redness on my face and hyperpigmentation marks ><
im kinda bored
what do
>>7798701
ugh fine
keep talking about things you dont understand
christ woman
>>7798635
I've given up for now. Why wear clothes that literally don't fit me?
There's a female my height (6'0") who just started at work and I nearly asked her if she had difficult finding clothing that fits in an effort to hear where she found luck. But I already pointed out we're the same height so it'll become obvious why I'm asking I think.
As far as female clothing goes I have a few plain Hanes female shirts in size L. They actually fit alright; if just a tad short after washing. I have no faith I'll find pants this year that fit. I guess next on my list is a few socks and maybe a hoodie. I have too many black ones and was wanting some more color. I know, how wild, right? Leggings sound fun too...
Until then it's just guys V necks and skinny jeans.
>>7798688
I do my best
>>7798708
Cuddle w me please
>>7798711
im 6'0 but larges are always too big for me :/
>>7798712
you are the best!
>>7798706
dunno, but I wouldn't use that, I would use something way more gentle if you already have redness... which is probably from using that stuff on your face... Look up your condition in google there has likely been someone who wanted to know the answer to the same question, right? :)
>>7798714
*cuddles you*
>tfw the gif failed to upload
i hope everyone elses images arent uploading
>>7798699
'course
she was bullying someone for posting trap pics of themselves when she does the same thing on video
very scummy
wasnt bullying either, was just saying my opinion
i dont think we dislike each other even
>>7798704
thats what my dad says
but it still feels wonderful
maybe ill grow out of it
im only 19
>>7798719
do the best you can tomorrow! >///<
I'm gonna go sleepi soon
>>7798710
i've done the whole "popular trap on online forums" thing and it was due to me seeking validation in my womanhood and being insecure in myself, so
i know a lil something about it. i don't judge the people who post here for things they do because i think low of them, i'm often critical simply because i don't want the girls here repeating my mistakes.
>>7798728
okokokok ^^
>>7798723
im just getting makeup stuff
>>7798698
girl voice
vocaroo.com/i/s0CILq3vHjJH
boy voice
vocaroo.com/i/s0mCAuKKhyZ7
>>7798716
It's possible these just run small then. I thought i was ordering one type and they sent another with the words "Nano Tee" in it. The main issue is length; bust waist and hip are fine. I like them because they don't make me look as fat as my old oversized t-shirts were; without any female fit what little boobs and chest fat I have makes the rest of my torso look bigger.
10mg/ml e injection a week? thats it? seems kinda low desu. here i am taking 42mg a week by pills...i mean a lot of it gets destroyed by the stomach im sure..but...
>>7798726
I hope you do
it's whats best for you
>>7798733
goodnight <3
>>7798725
Ty ily!
Just got home.
delivered 6 steers to market.
I'll get to pay some bills next week.
>>7798737
my ribcage is actually not too bad(33 inches) but it's flared so it looks a lot bigger on my build
once i get my brace and get it fixed it'll probably get to like 31 inches
>>7798741
sweet dreams qt <33
>>7798739
is your estrogen micronized?
>>7798742
ily2 :3
>>7798701
>i thought everyone thought i was just being a bitch
nah no one should view you that way honestly
I don't want to get too gay and flowery but im glad you post here, idk what what else to say
you've legit given me useful advice!! that is worth a lot to me, and you had no reason to
>>7798726
might as well be a bad motherfucker for now though
let it out
go super saiyan
>>7798731
you're right, i'm sorry
all ive ever wanted is to be called cute and now people are calling me cute idk
it's sad but I'm actually happy for once
>>7798739
10mg in injections is like 4mg estrogen a day in pills
and 20mg is like 8mg
I'm curious because I keep hearing both yes and no to this question but is the idea that HRT shrinks the penis true? I know I've heard the testicles shrink.
>>7798758
both true
>>7798758
the mechanism that shrinks your penis the most is the lack of erections
>>7798758
I think so
Does anyone know how much it shrinks it? I don't want it to get too small ;~;
>>7798739
injections are more potent. your levels will spike higher on them (and crash to the ground as the week goes on) than they ever could on pills.
>>7798752
;_; well that makes me legitimately teary eyed irl and i'm glad that i could have helped in any way.
>>7798754
i think that's great!! i just wish that you could feel that way without doing that. but i understand that it's not that easy.
i just wouldn't want you to regret it in the future or anything. everyone is beautiful in their own way and every day that passes just makes you more of who you are.
you're like...a constantly self-improving form of artificial intelligence...except...not artificial. so yknow. just a human.
you'll get called cute more and more and get better lookin the more you come into yourself. this won't be the only time ppl find you desirable. just keep that in mind!!
>>7798753
you know i really feel like youre the right anon and will give me the good ending
>>7798769
did you ever figure out the problem you were having with your levels
im thinking of switching to them myself
>>7798726
But I think her point about peers is interesting, I'm not sure I'd call her scummy.
>>7798745
>33
Yeah, I definitely still need to buy a measuring tape...
Mens small definitely fit and those run like 34-36" so I guess mine runs no more than that, right?
What's the brace like?
So my gf just sent me this on fb
>Well then keep dwelling. You're going to keep fishing for compliments via your online friends, you're going to see therapists who are supposed to help you but clearly don't. You are never going to be happy as is, so you just went thru two surgeries for nothing I guess! I'm not going to continue to tell you otherwise bc it's not enough for you. If you continue down this path you might as well commit yourself to a hospital bc it's insanity. Or transition back although you no longer have any male facial features to pass as a guy. Just stop, please just stop. Your self pity and loathing are incredibly old. People are dying of starvation, are being killed by family members, people are blowing themselves up to hopefully experience mythical virgins. Wake up, your life is not that bad!
I hate hugboxers
>>7798780
i asked my mom to go to an orthopedist to get a brace for my "posture" and she totally called me out on and said i just wanted to make my chest and waist smaller
it was pretty scary lol
anyway i was just gonna put this brace on really tight
https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B01400XVLA/ref=ox_sc_sfl_title_1?ie=UTF8&smid=AHBIWSHUUGALN&th=1
>>7798772
if not there's always next playthrough
I picked such a good goddamn image for this post fuck
>>7798769
I wish I could feel this good about myself
>>7798745
>my ribcage is actually not too bad(33 inches)
RREEEEEEEE get out small torso easy mode cissy
>>7798788
yeah but it's flared out and gross lmao
>>7798794
are you getting them from inhouse
are we gonna be injection buddis
>>7798786
ive had really good images the past 4 posts of mine now
wanna shoot up moot with me?
wtf an imageboard without any images
>>7798775
>>7798778
uh well basically when my levels are low i start to disassociate a bit. i fixed it by taking estrogen pills on my off days.
also my caffeine intake i think had a bit to do with my inconsistent mood while my estrogen levels were good so i fixed dat.
>>7798787
desu https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3361IaUB2m4
>>7798795
>but it's flared out and gross lmao
literally most everyone's ribcage "flares out"
you have a small torso so any change you may need will be minor anyway
>>7798797
ssssh ye. but dont tell everyone or theyll run out uwu
my image
http://i.imgur.com/DF59WVq.png
>>7798801
hmmm
i guess i could just take pills on my off days too if i start getting weird feelz
>>7798805
That sucks
I get it from a compound phamacy here.
They make it on site
why does it feel so much nicer when a relative you love says ur pretty compared to a friend?
>>7798798
well yeah cause he's a cuck
but this is japmoot's doing
and after we saved them money on the F-35 jets
Sad!
>>7798810
They just want to make you feel good
>four months in and only look slightly feminine
is this normal or should i just an hero
>>7798806
didn't see that one coming
OK, so I think I know how to fix it to remove the flashes.
>>7798800
thats a textboard
>>7798816
normal
>>7798816
normal. give it three to five years.
>>7798783
girl. i think you need to calm down & think rationally.
if what your girlfriend is true (why would you have 1 btw?), you need to start having a positive outlook on yourself.
either that, or go back to being a guy.
i do not want ANYONE to have to go to the hospital.
albeit one who apparently can no longer pass as a guy.
although i haven't seen you, so i'm not qualified to make that assessment.
i think it's time to @ least be satisfied w/ your efforts. you really have no other options.
i do not want you going through yet ANOTHER surgery. don't you worry that it could be botched?
does it even occur to you that it could possibly be botched?
this isn't a practical way for ANYBODY to live
>>7798807
either that or do the shots more frequently, like once every 6 days. idk that i'd recommend it doe. 10mg a week is pretty high as it is.
>>7798810
in my experience it's due to them knowing you their whole lives and the fact that we all crave validation from our moms and dads and stuff deep down.
when my mom used to tell me i was beautiful after i first told her i was trans i would cry lol
i still cry whenever i talk about her to ppl AHAHA SO IDK THERE'S PROB SOME PSYCHOLOGICAL REASONING THERE
>>7798812
oh wow i actually just forgot during that post that hiro took over
it feels so weird still with jap because moot was there for so long
>>7798816
An hero
Don't listen to the hons here
>>7798816
normal. it took about 8 - 9 months for my face to star looking girly
Can I ask a serious question?
So I've got Cypro on the way and I plan on starting pretty much as soon as it arrives since I just want my gt to sorta go away in order to try fix my dysphoria.
I'm aware the effects will be permanent, which I don't generally mind, however the only thing I can really think of that worries me is infertility.
What's everyone's thoughts on sperm banking so you can maybe still have kids one day if you end up a transbian/get a surrogate?
I've looked in to it, initially it'd cost about £500 to get to the centre, pay the fees and come home, then 150 a year after that.
It's not something I could afford right now, so if I wanted to do it I'd pretty much need to wait at least a year to save up and get it done, which would mean delaying starting to transition.
Anyone care to weigh in? Anyone who's been through a similar situation?
A huge creepy Mexican guy followed me to my car and cornered me and when I tried to motion I can't talk he said he had a cure for that, then just nodded his head and walked off
I want to cry
>>7798824
it's angie posting that just don't bother with her
>>7798834
i banked before i started
cypro brought my T levels down to 25 in 3 weeks but i think i had low levels to begin with since my sperm count was 0.1 million and the average for my age is like 50+ million
cypro will dry you up pretty quickly, make that decision before you start it
>tfw cant fish for compliments because theres nothing to compliment
>>7798834
Waiting a year reaaallly doesn't seem worth it for sperm banking
You can lose a lotta potential in a year
I guess how much do you want kids?
>>7798837
but he could've cured you :(
>>7798825
my dad and step mom were talking to me on the phone recently and said I was beautiful and it really made me cry like a little baby. idk why but it made me feel so happy and like I could trust what they were saying since they had no reason to lie
info love my dad a lot and we have a really good relationship so hearing it from him (and that they've been knowing for years I was trans in denial) hit me right in the feels
>>7798766
>I don't want it to get too small ;~;
why not?
>>7798825
>IDK THERE'S PROB SOME PSYCHOLOGICAL REASONING THERE
read up on childhood attachment theory.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Attachment_theory
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Attachment_in_children
Yeah, there is a lot on it.
Mine is fucked up along with being bullied at school, so I now have complex-ptsd.
>>7798805
>tfw your forget your bank account number so you have to dig through your mom's purse while she's in the shower for it
>>7798842
Okay when I said I want to cry, I might really be crying
>>7798804
it still makes me feel gross :/
>>7798853
oh no im sorry! i was just joking!
t turns some men into creeps
they have to ruin some girls night just to get some cheap thrill
sorry faye :(
>>7798837
*HUGS*
>>7798855
where are you getting your needles?
im getting a set of 100 from allegromedical along with some filter needles!
>>7798853
Holy crap no! Fucking disgusting pigs.
I'm so sorry bby.
>>7798860
lol already got mine from there for my progesterone. they came in like 2 days i was shocked lol. the ampoule pretty much shattered so its v wise to get those filters
>>7798845
Well like if it got too much smaller it'd look weird wouldn't it?
>>7798864
oh gosh
what's your progesterone dosage?
i heard you can get the same results with progesterone cream without having to inject yourself
>>7798837
People are REALLY scary :(
>>7798865
that's when it becomes a feminine benis
>>7798865
i guess so, but i didn't think benis size was too important
>>7798868
But like... if it got much smaller it'd be REALLY small, like just goofy
>>7798873
it'll just look like it does when you can't get it up
I woke up from a nap and now I feel like a face just floating in a pool of water, with nothing underneath. Is this how my dissociative, existential fits are going to be from now on?
>>7798818
Flashes? What flashes?
>>7798837
I would have tried to murder him. I get incredibly hostile to weirdos in public. It takes quite a bit to push me to violence, but I have problems from childhood that make it really easy for me to hurt bad people in public. I hope you're doing okay now, senpai. Try to get comfy and maybe watch a movie or something.
>>7798840
You're cute.
>>7798866
ye prob but its too late. i bought 15 100mg/ml. made my tiddies hurt lots today but idk. might do them every week too seeing the half life is llike 48 hours
>>7798879
idk it's the progesterone in the cypro that was making me depressed or not so idk if progesterone injections are good for me
>>7798874
That's pretty goofy >.<
>>7798883
so you think dongi always look goofy when they're flaccid?
>>7798881
its just the cypro prob. it made me super depressed for the first weeks taking it so i cut back and do 25mg every two days. seem to b alright now.
>>7798885
Mines does!
>>7798883
If it makes you feel any better, your future boyfriend will usually view your naked body from behind, so your tiny, goofy penis probably won't be seen very much.
Well I guess my time here has come to an end, mtfg.
I guess I just want to live and not use this place as a crutch for interacting with people who I'll probably never meet.
Don't get me wrong, there's people here who I love as much as one can love someone you've never met and I treasure their friendships with all my heart, but it still leaves me thirsty and wanting more, wanting the real thing.
I guess ever since I've seriously started to transition, I don't want to settle anymore. I want to love and be loved, I want friends who I can phisically interact with and who I can trust and be trusted by and who I can learn from and who they can learn from me in return...I guess I just want more and I don't want to settle for anything less.
I'm not good at making clean breaks so I guess I'll eventually post something or drop in to see what's up.
But if you ever want to chat, my Skype handle and gmail is alessiafova.
So I guess I just want to say I wish u the best and take care.
>Inb4 literally, who the fuck is sass
>>7798890
sorry bae : ( we can build a bunker together and live there for eternity if youd like
>>7798893
See you in a few weeks.
>>7798886
i cut from 50mg to 25mg and my libido started coming back
so im trying 37.5mg tonight
now you're making me wanna buy progesterone injections too :thinking:
wouldn't that just make your legs/butte like twice as sore though
>>7798830
Your face is girly?
>>7798802
Interesting, and by use it I assume you mean having sex?
Hey that makes me think, am I the only one totally disgusted by the idea of having sex using their penis?
>>7798893
bye
>>7798901
>am I the only one totally disgusted by the idea of having sex using their penis?
it's complicated..
>>7798893
ily ull b ok. go out there and find a cute boy or cute girl and snug them. wish only the best <3
might die from a blood clot lmao
>>7798907
wtf why
>>7798893
bye sass!
good luck in the real world :3
>>7798898
You're never on anymore, and you use your post to make fun of me?
I'm actually flattered, dork. :p
>>7798893
i'm going to say mean things about you when you're gone
Pill bottles consolidated. For my ME/CFS I get these pills that only come in 30 count bottles. They take up to much room, and I go through a few bottles a week. So I consolidate 6 of them into one bottle. Just got done with doing another batch of them.
>>7798878
I'm making a controller to dim LED light strings, but when I change the intensity, it flashes all the LEDs very bright for a tiny bit. I think it's coming from how I'm changing the PWM values. I need to write them as full words, not as bytes. It'll take a bit to make the change as I need to write a new multi word write library function.
>>7798893
Remember
You're here forever
>>7798900
yes. ive been passing and full time for a while. other trans can clock me easily but to cis people not really
>>7798911
I've been around the last few days... >.>
But Im glad you're flattered lol.
>>7798893
Good luck friendo <3
(hugs)
>>7798890
Do you have anyone who can spend the night with you?
>>7798893
If your trip goes anything like mine, you'll be back in a couple years, tops. Unless the social climate changes for trannies irl soon, you'll discover that most of them who actually congregate at all are annoying af. Who knows, though? Maybe you'll get lucky and you'll meet awesome people and have no reason to come back. I just doubt it. But good luck anyway, senpai!
>>7798907
I really don't take blood clots as seriously as I probably should.
>>7798914
I want to get off Mr. Bone's wild ride
nail polish remover feels weeiiird
>.<
>>7798824
I do think rationally.
Everyone who has disagreed with me is either delusional or have low standards of how women should look like.
I posted a pic of me with my hair back for my surgeon and on a Reddit thread about guessing the gender.
Every reply I got, was Male
the OP may say this thread isn't mine but you all know deep down it is
>>7798890
Yeah, it's no fun being in that situation. I had a few tight spots when I was young. Best to talk it through with friends. *hugs*
>>7798901
>I assume you mean having sex?
Well, fapping works too...
No you aren't. I get depressed if I thrust, but otherwise and fine using mine.
>>7798930
I hate the stuff...
I miss my nail polish :c
anyone know why picture uploads arent working right now?
>>7798932
angie, you sound like a paranoid dictator who sees enemies in every shadow
but we WILL find a way to save you one day
>>7798893
who?
>>7798907
Stay active and thrombosis likely won't be an issue. Sitting at a computer all day is bad. Get up, walk about every hour. If you feel the need, wear support hose or socks. My dad's doc wears them and she's only in her 30s.
>>7798954
>sitting at a computer all day is bad
I have thrombosis don't I ;~;
>>7798942
I'm not paranoid.
My gf said this to me
>Look, you have a completely expressionless, deadpan face in that photo, you aren't wearing any makeup and you're holding your hair in a super awkward way. If people said you looked male, what they mean in your self-presentation looks male. I'd say if most cis women posed the same way and posted in that forum, they'd get the same responses. As far as your bone structure and features go, you look female. You don't have any masculinized features.
She doesn't understand. Just because someone has female features, doesn't make them female. They can still have a very strong face
>>7798954
Im sure the large quantity of blood thinner known as alcohol I drink will break up any clot long before it embeds itself in my legs
>>7798839
It'd probably only affect me if I ended up as a transbian.
If I ended up dating a man to the point where we wanted kids, unless he's sterile too then we can just use his sperm with a surrogate.
Trouble is since I've repressed everything for so long I don't know who I'm attracted to now, let alone who I'll be attracted to afterwards.
I've read countless posts about mtfs who were adamantly hetero before transitioning, yet afterwards they lost all interest in women and find themselves attracted to men.
Could that end up being me? Idk. I'm not against guys, I'm just not particularly attracted to men rn.
>>7798841
I personally am not really fussed about kids, and I have no aversion against adopting children either.
I'm just worried I might end up with someone who wants kids of their own but can't because my discomfort for being male was so bad that I castrated myself before saving any sperm.
I'd really not like to wait a year if possible though. The reason I finally snapped and order Cypro was I was tired of tearing up when I got random erections since I felt like my body was pretty much taunting me saying "Hey idiot, you're a man and always will be, see?".
I'm not sure I'm stable enough to be able to last another year so idk.
I guess I answered my own question. Thanks for the help though. <3
>>7798954
>Sitting at a computer all day
uh oh
>>7798959
post the damn pic
>>7798963
hold me nim ;~:
>>7798961
i-it's definitely not me
i have fantasies of going to the hospital and meeting my baby for the first time :3
>>7798965
no you need to walk!
>>7798941
It's not a hon myth just rare if you don't smoke and you're not 50, people do die from dvt
>>7798971
I'm wiggling my legs!
is this good enough?
>>7798975
lewd
>>7798975
wiggle more :3
>>7798957
>>7798963
If your circulation is good, you won't develop it even if you sit all day. The thing is getting up and walking about helps the circulation even in those that have poor circulation. It's also a good idea from an exercise standpoint. I likely have excellent circulation because of all the farm activity I do.
>>7798960
Who knows... It isn't the ones embedding in the legs that are worrisome. It's those that embed in the lungs, heart, and brain that cause the real problems.
so true >>7798973
>>7798959
She's also saying that you made no attempt to look the part. Women don't generally do deadpan faces in photos, and the ones who do look boring and mannish. She's saying you need to feminize your mannerisms, and you really should if you want to go girlmode any time soon.
>>7798968
And I can understand people who really want their own kids.
It's just not for me idk. I can see it being nice, but between having my *own* kids if I end up settling down with an AFAB, and getting to start transitioning pretty much as soon as QHI get off their butt, the latter is much more appealing.
>>7798984
is stretching every day in the morning and night good
>>7798988
YES!!!!!
Doing some cardio is even better.
>>7798984
I do a little cardio every day, and some leg exercises, that helps right?
>>7798984
Geeze, this is making me so stressed! Ugh. Brb smoking a cigarette
>>7798992
I-i didn't think about it like that o.o
based Putin
>>7798837
buy and learn how to operate a firearm
>>7798992
i said she had to walk >:c
>>7798990
hmmmm do i have to bike every day? :(
>tfw you're resigning from classes this semester and changing your major
CHEMISTRY IS HARD
I just don't know whether to do Communications with all the normies (ree), give computer science another shot (reeee) or take philosophy (:/)
>>7799001
What's the point. What's the point of anything. I should just smoke cigarettes in bed all day > : |
>>7799000
Not every day, but often enough to build up the circulation, and keep the blood from pooling.
>>7799008
if i take 2ml progesterone injections weekly will it help with my fat redistribution
>>7799003
a long healthy active life...
My grandpa stayed active his whole life, and went out with a bang at 106. Literally died fucking his nurse...
>>7799015
Yes it is.
Long philtrum, up turned nose, high cheek bones
>>7799018
wtf then what will
>>7799016
ur not my real grandma
>>7799014
I don't see how... What I think is most important is to have normal female hormone levels when you add weight.
>>7799020
Time
>>7799021
I do have grandkids... ;)
The Womens March worked. Trump was deposed. A pink pussy hat now president. Horny killers from Damascus welcomed at LAX by your girlfriend. Schools teach in Mexican. New Chief Usury Officer of Goldman Sachs is trans. Brianna Wu on the $100. Eye in the pyramid now Lena Dunham’s asshole. All pregnancies terminated; late term abortions turn babies into pugs. Ploughshares beat into social media brand management. All workers sponsored content ambassadors for Huffington Post. Doritos knows Black Lives Matter. New twins in Beyonce’s cunt brought to you by Audi. Lyft pledges allegiance to Sharia. Hadiths mandate polyandrous slavery to blue haired genders that OKCupid knows no word for. Something to do with My Little Pony. All porn now clips of Ruth Bader Ginsburg. Sheryl Sandberg merges with flesh NSA servers like an anglerfish, stares back at you from the place you dare not look. Honey Boo Boo’s Mom Lost 200 Pounds You Won’t Believe How Gorgeous She Is, she says in your inner voice. Like This. Justin Trudeau’s hot soft hand on your back like your gym teacher who drank before noon; his robust yoga pants package crawling and awake. Angela Merkel’s spindly tendons twitch as she palpates your Soylent incubation sac. We won, you guys. Pepsi stands against racism.
>>7799023
but should i go on them anyway
>>7799017
M'kay, see what you wanna see. The worst review I can give is that it looks like an older French woman face, but I don't have much to work with and whatevs.
>>7799027
I'm thinking of taking bio identical progesterone pills.
>>7799031
what does it do
>>7799025
its just like one of my japanese animes
>>7799033
Hopefully closer to normal so less side effects. I'm still on the fence at this point. I need to switch things up again, as that seams to be a good idea.
>>7799015
Combine that with deep set eyes and you get this
https://unsee.
cc/serabuto/
>>7799037
how do i know when they're developed
mine are lil but starting to be noticeable and they're all tissue bby
>>7799037
That's about all I hear too. I already have nicely shaped breasts, just small and on a huge chest.
>>7799040
you literally just need the swelling to go down and you're golden angie
>>7799026
http://imgur.com/a/ME6k1
I wore a dress today. It was cute.
http://i.imgur.com/dOQdkro.jpg
>>7799046
i wanna wear a dress..
>>7799040
You look like a chick in that picture. You just look a little pathetic is all. Like looking not miserable or something.
>>7799048
You can always wear a dress, if you believe in urself :0
>>7799046
I tried on a dress yesterday and my ribs poked out like a big cylinder above my waist ;~;
>>7799056
well then the next step is learning to believe it <3
>>7799053
Dress was too small, go up a size.
>>7799060
But people hugbox
>>7799063
im being serious, i think you're pretty angie
>>7799065
Im 6'0 : |
>>7799041
The breast buds grow out and get soft
>>7799056
Like I said, you look miserable. If that's your deadpan expression, then you're probably a bit emo. I meant to say "Try not looking miserable" in the last reply, but I'm basically high right now, so I'm having trouble. Cheer up, essentially.
>>7799066
Blair white is pretty
I'm a troll
>>7799067
>they need to go down a size
mine need to go down 10 sizes...
>>7799074
you're acting like her being pretty and you being pretty are mututally exclusive lol
>talking to sass
Is it weird that my first sexual encounter was my first girlfriend lending me her extra wet suit, zipping me up into it, and then her grinding into me
>>7799075
even tall girls with broad shoulders? ;-;
>>7799072
I was miserable
It was a shitty day at work and my dysphoria was hitting hard
>>7799082
your shoulders arent even broad
stop compliment fishing
>>7799084
how are 18 inch shoulders not broad anon
>>7799082
Thats why you wear dresses with sleeves:
http://i.imgur.com/mSnvxum.jpg
>>7799090
how broad are yours
my stomach is big and it wont go away for ages, and when i look feminine, im gonna have a guy gut,
It's loose skin and has muscles that aren't firm (kinda like if you don't exercise your muscles, they stop being firm)
I've been exercising for a year, I've lost 23kg/50 pounds.
But my stomach is still there...
Is there anything I can do to get rid of it faster?
Would HRT help? I am on Spiro 200mg and Progynova 2mg.
>>7799091
Im not in love with them I guess.
>>7799096
they look really nice :3
>>7799093
i got a lil gut, no loose skin tho
idk maybe plank and sit up it up
>>7799083
Okay, so then you know what I meant by pathetic. You were in a state of dejection and it's not the most flattering picture because of it. You still look like a woman, though.
>>7799098
I already do situps.
>>7799098
I didn't die nimu it was a false alarm
was weird though, I got really light-headed and had to lie down
I felt a weird pain in my left thigh and that's why I thought it might've been a blood clot
gonna book a doctor's appointment
>>7799105
i had strong pains in my legs my first few weeks on spiro
it also made me dizzy and a passed out a few times on it
get checked! get on based cypro!
I hate my junk
I hate having to touch it every time I sit down to pee
I think I touch it more times a day now on hrt than I did during my entire repression
https://unsee
.cc/duzosane/
I heard my boobs might grow a lot cause I had boobs pre hrt?
I've been on hrt for a month and my boobs are getting pretty noticeable, I can't boymode without a big jacket
Am I gonna get big boobs? c:
>>7799108
Nah Im good
>>7799081
Not really.
skinny dipping in the development's inlet, and having one of the girls from down the street grind against my leg while kissing me. I was only 12...
>>7799082
You see them in fashion magazines all the time.
>>7799110
thats not my junk or anything its just a feels picture from that transgirl manga
>>7799109
>I had boobs pre hrt
reeeeeee
>>7799115
They were just little weird boy boobs
>>7799117
unless you were a lil chunky REEEEEEE
>>7799118
oh i thought you said you weren't
idk maybe
where tf do people get all that water they put in their thermoses and stuff, are they drinking that shit from the tap?
i just get bottles of water but they always run out before the week is over
>>7799093
anyone?
>>7799126
im 4 months in
all ive noticed is smoother skin, minibobs and ded balls
>>7799124
huh
weird
I was on spiro for the first 6 months but no e so I don't really count it
but yeah I just drink filtered tap water
That's not so weird is it?
>>7799125
Its fat, some of it might redistribute, some of it wont, do cardio for a year.
>>7799130
how do you filter it qt
>>7799133
how much tho
i bike
>>7799136
you don't think blair white is pretty?
i think she is but uses a lil too much lipstick
>>7799137
As much as is healthy. That or try ADHD meds watch the fat melt off
>>7799139
I meant about being mutually exclusive.
Blair white is really attractive imo
>>7799093
If you lost that weight too rapidly your core muscles probably had no resources to develop.
Keep exercising once you've reached your goal weight and start eating normally.
>>7799145
i have ADHD meds haha
i ate breakfast, took my pill and i got so concentrated on homework i forgot to even eat lunch lol
>>7799151
Yah, just keep doing that for like a few months
Is it bad to have only a bratwurst and a dozen hershy's kisses for dinner?
happy birthday kara
what exercise routine should i do to get a good strengthened core?
if you just give me exercises without like reps and stuff i won't know what days to do it :<
im gonna bike for half an hour daily and stretch in the morning and at night!
i should try to get on injection after i get a job.... ( ・ω・)
>>7799156
yea, that sounds pretty bad ( ;・Д・)
i have to boymode tomorrow and get misgendered and deadnamed
It's gonna suck :(
>>7799164
idk you might have it
i got diagnosed when i was little
>>7799161
Thats the real bitch about fat cells. They're the body's long-term energy store. They're what your body uses just before it starts breaking itself down and you cant "target" fat loss. You either exercise like its your life, become okay with having a slight bit of belly chub, or get liposuction.
I'll be reading a novel, and think of all sorts of related, and unrelated things as I read. it massively slows my reading, but still I read a page every couple minutes. I'd bet over 2/3rds of my time is spent on thinking about plot twits, and designs I'm working on.
>>7799161
How tall are you?
83kg might be still a bit fat, depending.
Maybe try losing some more and see?
>>7799165
this is me every day..
>>7799164
shit, no way.
i'm a fucking ditz too (・。・)
>>7799156
Yes. you should have a more balanced diet.
>>7799178
omg sorry :( how do you survive?
>>7799185
do you girlmode already? ;-;
im just a boy so im used to it
>>7799170
5'9"
My brother who is slightly taller than me is also 83kg, and he doesn't have a gut.
My Doctor said weighing 80kg at my height is good.
>>7799188
I try, but I'm not very good at it u.u
I just can't stand dressing like a boy
>>7799179
I've always joked it's like I have two or three brains, all thinking about different subjects, and they share the IO channels. Rarely will they all be concentrated on one subject. It gets crazy then.
>>7799184
I had something like 5 servings of veggies mixed in with my eggs for breakfast, and a few of fruit for lunch.
>>7799192
i just dress in jeans and a tshirt
it's been my "style" since high school :/
>>7799191
I don't know, maybe it's just me but 83kg sounds kinda on the fatter side, especially since you started from 103kg.
Your brother probably has more muscle.
Your goal should be way lower weight wise though anyway, right?
I think around 60kg usually, if you wanna look skinny.
>>7799194
i'm often very forgetful.
i dealt w/ the same thing.
especially pre-hrt
>>7799196
I think the most shocking thing about coming out for me was how little anyone really gave a shit or was surprised. "Im a girl" "Yah that makes sense, you get those emails sent?"
>>7799196
I'm not very stylish yet, I pretty much just wear jeans and a t shirt too lol
Just girl jeans and girl shirt
>>7799207
Dropped my trip like a dummy >.<
i have white specks in my urine ama
>>7799210
Are you looking forward to your death?
>>7799205
Same. It was pretty much business as usual. Some people were obviously relieved the guy charade was over and that's all.
>>7799210
why
>>7799212
Move out, and if you care to (because you dont have to tell them shit) let them know and see if theyre more interested in having their child in their lives or holding onto your views. Or not. Just move out.
what kind of skirt would suit someone my age? i was thinking long, w/o ruffles, solid bright color like white or salmon
>>7799214
Reminds me of the Mac jokes on Always Sunny. "Im gay!" "OMG FINALLY YOU ADMIT IT"
>>7799225
im moving out in august, we'll see if i can hide me being on hrt for a full 10 months
i don't think my mom would stop talking to me but i don't think she'd agree to stop calling me by my deadname and calling me a girl
idk if i can put up with that for the rest of my life
>>7799228
it was a lil weird for mac to actually come out this season
like isn't that part of the joke, that he always denies it?
>>7799227
can i pat your head until it stops hurting
>>7799230
Well you're making a huge life changing decision so you're kinda gonna have to.
>>7799235
oh that would be so nice! human contact!
>>7799230
you'd only have to put up w/ it for the rest of hers
>>7799243
if its still like this in the morning i'll do that
i've had this happen before where it'll happen once and then i'll be totally fine.
>>7799238
but it'd be weird if i stared at you intently while i did it right
>>7799242
You dont have to, she doesn't have to, the only thing either of you have is time. If you say "Im not talking to you until you stop doing this shit I hate" there's only so much time most people will put up with it before capitulating.
>>7799251
maybe
id want it to be earnest though
>>7799196
>jeans and a tshirt
jeans and long sleeve turtleneck for me, a couple sizes large. I even have some light weight summer ones. That's been my "uniform" for over 30 years.
>>7799203
Forgetful can be from chronically being in a state of fight, flight, freeze, or faun. I remember things well from times I was relaxed.
>>7799205
>I think the most shocking thing about coming out for me was how little anyone really gave a shit or was surprised.
same with most of my current friends. Fun bit, another in the group came out a bit after me.
>>7799212
>religious on both sides
I'm sorry... I had a born again grandmother, and a stuck up pastor to deal with. The other pastor was cool. I'd have told him I was trans when I was young, but my aunt was divorcing him.
>>7799214
Hi! Hi!
why cna't i upload any images ;----;;;;
>>7799249
yeah but a good kind of weird. i like weird.
>>7799257
then you will have to put up with her doing things you dislike. Which is fine. Alienating your family is not the answer but there is only so much you can do to change someone elses mind.
>>7799262
yeah but what if i crabwalked away when i was done
>>7799262
anne.
when is crawfish season?
>>7799264
im just loathing the moment where i go to see my family in puerto rico and i have to explain to everyone why i look like a girl
they're not as accustomed to these kind of things over there..
>>7799015
>ada, are you a cuddlebug at all?
I think I would like to be cuddled, I've never experienced that though...
>>7799260
freeze & faun
what are those from?
>>7799271
okay well I'll swim over now, just make sure nobody mistaked me for one okay
>>7799271
awww anne! that was sweet!
>>7799269
Then dont go to Puerto Rico. You dont have to listen to anyone if you're an adult and if you're not an adult just claim its what the girls are into these days in America. Guys throughout history have gotten away with a lot more femininity than you would be trying to hide it just by claiming it gets them laid (see. new wave, hair metal, emo, scene, etc)
HAPPY THOUGHTS NOW
I can't wait to have Christmas as a girl, I love Christmas!
It's gonna be lotsa fun
I'll wear a cute Santa hat ^v^
>>7799280
Keep dropping my trip :/
>>7799277
>just dont be ornery or wear red
okie okie
>>7799262
>i like weird.
yes you do queen anne. of mtfg.
>>7799274
Additionally recognized modes of fight or flight. Typically seen in abusive situations. Read this:
http://pete-walker.com/fourFs_TraumaTypologyComplexPTSD.htm
I tend to do flight and freeze.
>bugger, I scraped my upper leg again. It ran down to my sock.
>>7799280
this place is pure happy thoughts
most used words in the last 30 days are hugg and based
this might be the most positive general on 4chan
>>7799287
I think mtfg is really positive half of the time and really sad other times
I mean, that's how transgirls is right?
>>7799289
Every choice requires sacrifice. It doesnt mean you cant get to where you want but it does take time. Just take it one day at a time and keep trying to move forward. You'll get there.
>>7799293
thanks aife!
you're sweet :)
>when you have a dream that's so much better than real life you wake up at 5am to cry for half an hour
I'm tired
okay i have to go to sleep goodnight!
https://unsee.cc
/bezatogu/
>>7799296
Huuugggggg
>>7799285
freeze & fawn sound the most like me.
freeze especially.
but i don't think i should believe that it is attributabe any kind of trauma
>>7799298
Nini nim! Sweet dreams~
>>7799306
Yeah it took me a few seconds to realise it wasn't real and those were very happy seconds
>>7799306
so i guess i'm the "classic domestic violence victim"?
that really sucks for me
>there are americans awake RIGHT NOW who have work/school tomorrow
well i mean okay, have fun being all cranky and shit, i guess
>>7799310
I woke up to one where I was cuddling in the arms of a gf in front of a fire and it was so nice, then a damn bull bellowed.
>>7799314
I was a victim of school bullying back in the '70s. Culminated with me getting beat up by 4 bullies with baseball bats. I never went back to that school again.
>>7799316
>tfw business to business sales
>work ~5 days a month
stay mad eurocucks
>>7799322
i'd rather be the model secretary
>>7799322
you have been brutally beaten up to the point where you should have died on three separate times?
alright.
now i'm a warm & comfy blanket burrito
>>7799326
i work 0 days a month, so blow it out your ass, statesider
>When you accidentally say a word you're reading absentmindedly but all that comes out is a high pitched yip and you wonder how that came out of your mouth
>>7799341
when are you getting ffs, srs and a boyfriend?
>>7799306
I'd be closer to the fight type in most situations. Though my flight response is always engaged in some others; non-aggressive physical contact makes me very jumpy. I can veer into fawn when trying to salvage a relationship.
nini everyone
>>7799334
Still freezing here. Those old stone houses are hard to heat to a comfy temperature. They stay cool without AC in summer as long as you keep the shutters closed, though. So right now, I'm "wearing" a faux fur blanket from the 70s as a cape... I don't want to think about how silly I look.
Should I drink tonight mtfg?
>>7799350
do you have anything planned tomorrow?
>>7799351
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
no
>>7799352
then like
go nuts
>>7799345
I can't get surgery for 6 months after
>>7799354
so in July and then again in January?
i hate dysphoria
i hate myself
i hate life
>>7799328
I suppose that was the gal at the front desk of a friend's modeling agency when I visited. She was obviously a former model. So were most working there. The owner tried to get me to model, but I was to scared to and also didn't want to deal with the psychological BS models do. I knew it would be bad for me. Those that hire models will compare and contrast your body attributes with others right in front of you. That takes it's toll. Many models end up quite fucked up mentally. The suicide rate is quite high. I already was suicidal with two attempts. I didn't need any more reasons...Then there was being male and modeling women's clothing. They actually did it a lot, but to be transsexual was something many clients would run from. I didn't feel I had the mental strength to fight that fight too. What happened to Tula a couple years later just reinforced that feeling.
>>7799332
Yeah, sucks. Life is unfair. Part of why I have issues with living in cities anymore. I often just want to run off to the wilderness and live alone, or with a very trusted lover.
>>7799346
I figured.... tfw I know to much psychology shit... How are you this morning?
god i dont know how much longer i can keep going
>>7799363
Tired. My sleep is way too fragmented recently. Also, my oldest free email address dies tomorrow. Been spending an awful amount of time forwarding everything I wanted to keep and changing it in every website account linked. 20 years of stuff to go through, and I'll be done in time... That feels strange.
>>7799371
wait free email addresses expire?
>>7799370
keep on trucking, little truck
http://move.loveisover.me/foolfuuka/boards/lgbt/image/1484/20/1484209971120.jpg
All the lights in the sky
are falling to the ground
>>7799374
If the provider goes belly up or stops providing that service. Unlikely with gmail and I guess that's what everyone uses these days. I used to have a club-elle.fr address in the 90s. Not Vogue, but Elle was still nice. They gave up the free email gimmick when it became more commonplace, sadly.
>>7799371
>>7799379
I had the server where I kept my domains die last year because my brother stopped wanting to take care of it. I'm conflicted on keeping them up on some other server. I had 4 domains. Running my own email server was a pain I'd gladly do without, but it also meant I was secure too. I want to get my first name on the new .art domain, but cost and hassle...
>>7799382
I've been meaning to get my own domain for the email address and a few other things. Not quite my actual last name but how it was spelled four centuries ago. Never been comfortable with using my accurate identity online, I always threw in discrepancies. Even long before big data was an issue.
so since images are broken when are we gonna make a new thread?
>>7799406
Never, /mtfg/ is cancelled by order of Hiroshimoot.
>>7799406
No images, no new thread...think about it.
https://archive-media.nyafuu.org/vp/image/1479/61/1479615242535.png
>>7799411
right didn't think that through
sad
real sad
too sad
>>7799411
We can always hijack slower threads as our own. /cislesgen/ would be the best place to start.
>>7799396
I want a shorter one. Still, I've had one for 2 decades.
I'm betting many on phones are having issues with the length...
I'm fading fast. I should sleep again.
>>7797799
I've come to the realization that as a man I would never fully accept change no matter how big but gradually would and it would stunt me when I realized it late.
I'll come out to my parents as possibly being trans-female until I'm sure by Cross-Dressing and asking my doctor for a psychologist. (if Health-Net covers it or until I get a stable job.)
Does anyone know where I can get Cross-Dressing Generals?
(I was anon who wanted kiss his brother better.)
test
dead
I'm betting many on phones are having issues with the length...
I'm fading fast. I should sleep again.
>lots of connection errors now.
is 4chan still kill?
>>7799446
yay!
>tfw cant headpat Amy when she wakes up
Still can't upload an image, but posing is back.
>>7799416
no new threads, no dead threads, think about it
>>7799441
What happened? Everyone went to sleep? (it's 1:08 AM for me)
>>7799453
posting died for awhile so people wandered off.
>>7799457
also the thread is ludicrously long because of the image problems, so some phoneposters might struggle with it
>>7799464
it used to get to 1000+ regularly
>>7799466
I remember a coupe that made it over 1400.
i wanna give up
I just figured out how to make packet ramen taste like regular ramen
add a teaspoon of apple cider vinegar and some tabasco
BOOM nommy ramen
>>7799477
mommy ramen
>>7799479
*feed u ramen*
>>7799479
Mommy ramen has a hard boiled egg
>>7799484
*soft boiled, so it opens up and makes everything gooey
>>7799487
soft boiled and marinated in soy and ginger
didn't think it would be possible but i feel both stressed and empty at the same time
this is all I've achieved in an entire 3 months of hrt.. is it time to give up?
i've been trying to tell you about reptilians this whole time!!!!
>>7799503
mommy
PICTURES ARE BACK
>>7799503
>If that really is you and not just bait.
Hell no, you're looking amazing. Keep it up, you're gonna make it :)
holy fuck images are back
AHHH PEOPLE PLEASE HELP ME
I'm exactly 4 months hrt, and I was just casually playing with my boobs
When I squeezed my nipples slightly stuff came out
It was a mix of some clear liquid and blood!
What does this mean? Is this normal? Why would there be blood? Do I need to see a doctor??
>>7799512
yeah that's normal
chill out\
<3
>tfw no brother to fuck
I dunno, if I had one it would probably be gross, but since I don't...
She's nobody's angel
As I dispersonalise I taste a real life
And far from the pacifist you believe I exemplify
I am the fury, I am hypocrisy
I can sing higher, soaring disbelief
The day I take control
The day you'll believe in me
>>7799510
this is like that one scene from castaway where tom hanks spends like twenty minutes flicking a light switch on and off
i'm moving in with my mom, sister, niece and nephew and i'm kind of stressed about presenting in front of them. my sister tries to hurt people's feelings whenever she's bored and my mom said she'll never see me as a woman.
i'm nobody's angel
>>7799533
you're my angel
>>7799531
Why are you moving in with them?
im not well
>>7799537
I've started posting them when I'm thinking about you
lol
go to sleep
wake up 5 hours later
same thred
>>7799538
you ok ada?
>>7799536
can't find a roommate
can't afford rent
i really need someplace to just gather my finances and start to get on track with my career and idk..
how's life as olive?
>>7799537
they just aren't understanding of trans stuff
:/
>>7799538
you'll find yr hope
>>7799547
no im really really not
>>7799539
i post song lyrics with the rainbow pics when im thinking about someone usually, sometimes its when im thinking about myself lol
space pics + random phrases means internal reflections and stuff or just wanting attention
im weird
sorry if i got you worried with everything going on
>>7799551
im beginning to see my family is similar. my housemates are becoming blatantly misogynistic and make a lot of anti trans jokes and its very upsetting.
I dont think most people will ever really get it, at leat not till you start presenting full time. maybe they will think different if you girl-mode around them.
Hows the float center plans coming along? wasnt that supposed to happen this month?
>>7799558
what's up?
if you don't mind me asking?
shpuld i go back to highschool or just wait to die
>>7799562
you should probably check you're phone nep, I messaged you in like 3 places when I saw the skype message you sent me
and yeah I was kinda worried, but I'm more upset with Cody. I thought he would be more mature than that when I told him to talk to you about what was going on.
>>7799564
high school desu
>>7799563
deep seated psychological issues stemming from an abusive childhood
My thread has lasted forever.
>>7799564
high school or ged
even i got through high school dragging my feet like no other
just do the minimum and get the diploma
it'll be worth it
>>7799571
oh, ok
I probably can't help then
sorry
maybe try venting some anger or sadness
>>7799571
(hugs)
It's ok Ada, we love you
>>7799564
yes
as an aside I always have dreams of being back in highschool as 16 year old cis girl me and then have to come back to reality.
its like... my life is stuck at my 12-16 years and yet I'm 14 years beyond being a teenager
i married ada dont tell her
>>7799582
she's extremely lovely
it's hard to not love her
hema looks fun.
>>7799583
yeah part of me really wants to feel.. normal in that way
would be nice to let cuties suckle
>>7799551
financial problems are the worst
life's ok
I'm getting a haircut tomorrow and dunno if I should get bangs or not
>>7799571
Oh, I thought you were going to say "upset stomach" or something like that.
This is a bit beyond my expertise.
>>7799599
i love bangs
i've always loved bangs
but some people don't like em
if you don't want em don't get em
but
they will look and feel super cute
choose wisely senpaisely
>>7799605
I want to do bangs but I have like the worst fucking cowlicks for them
>>7799588
Its hard not to love everyone here, everyone is so lovely <3
>>7799618
ava is top tier tho
>>7799617
U ok frogelsa?
>>7799622
Not really
Don't really wanna talk about it though. Not on here anyway
Thanks though <3
smol li'l girl penis
Selfhate very high :(
>>7798596
what's Lauren tier
i hate how clover fucks up copy paste between diff threads
I have nothing to say to my therapist and he intimidates me :c
Is anyone else having trouble posting
>>7799638
apparently
>>7799638
lauren, i need help posting
Lauren and frogposter are cute
>>7799624
It's ok, I'll love you regardless <3
Like I haven't even started yet officially, but just *knowing* my hormones are on the way and presenting femme in private and knowing I'm doing this makes me so much happier.
I can't thank you all enough for pushing me in to this. Like I said, I'll love you all forever :)
>>7799635
Clearly amazing since you're so lovely.
>>7799628
(hugs)
>>7799617
(hugs)
>>7799583
(hugs)
You don't want me do you?
You don't want me do you?
Know what I'll do to you
Wish I never knew you
I wanna know what you do when I'm gone
>>7799638
I think 4chan is getting ddos'd
where are u
Goodnight
>>7799671
goodnight
>>7799671
(hugs)
Night, buttercup
>>7799671
Goodnight sheen
>>7799667
somewhere between white teens & bernie sanders
>>7799680
you should be more ironic
>>7799656
sorry you're not feeling good anna
but it'll get better
>>7799689
soviet russia then
>>7799693
but that's less ironic
>be me, passing, conventionally attractive
>live with best friend and his gf
>she regularly voices jealousy towards his friends because he likes to have time away from her on occasion
>notice recently she's been discretely taking fashion advice from me, copying and sprinkling bits of my wardrobe into her own
>the entire time I've known her she's never given a fuck about her appearance
>mfw she's trying to compensate by emulating me
LEL
>>7799696
she gets to have babies
you do not
feel very cold
>>7799667
apparently this is mine
>when you go upstairs and the holding back tears finally fails
>tfw you're a 6'1 skeletal tranny dyke who abuses rc stims and vapes in public
would my parents by proud?
>tfw ur body is tarded and now wakes you up at 4AM
>>7799705
but where on the nazi/commie irony/sincerity chart
>>7799701
don't go into the light, frangi
>>7799717
i don't have that one.
>>7799667
>where are u
i'm in my room, looking at pictures of animals on the internet
>tfw not dead
>>7799715
Just lots of sadness today
>>7799713
im proud
>>7799718
liberalism is hopeless, it only delays crises and gives minor concessions
>>7799627
>:(
>>7799714
it's just your brain that's retarded
>>7799726
(hugs)
you'll get through it, I believe in you <3
>>7799734
Girls settle an argument, can a boy pick up and twirl around another boy or is that just for girls?
>>7799731
only for as long as it's being run by elitist halfwits
Perfect ramen?? Miso stuff, garlic,yellow onion, scallion, mushroom, spinach, one habanero, black pepper. What else?? My grocery store only has so much
>>7799737
If they're small enough sure
>tfw pretty big and boys can't pick you up and twirl you you around
>>7799734
My brain usually is pretty ok I feel like my body is just shifting the blame
>>7799739
capitalism will always have elites
>>7799742
>My brain usually is pretty ok I feel like my body is just shifting the blame
your brain is the one that's retarded, your body is just broken
the early bird gets the worm, but i mean fuck, i don't think even the worms have woken up yet
I had a dream about stuff that'll never happen
I wish I didn't have to wake up
>>7799696
how do you get a sense of fashion and personal style?
>>7799754
Tfw also 6'3
>>7799737
>can a boy pick up and twirl around another boy
absolutely, but only if one of them is smaller than the other one, otherwise it's not cute and shouldn't be attempted
>>7799755
adolescent feminine socialization
>>7799744
are you saying that liberalism is inherently a capitalist ideology?
>>7799760
ofc lol
is 5'6 short enough to be held?
I feel like it wouldn't work
>>7799764
Lose some weight then fatass
>>7799769
I think 1k posts is a bit too much for one thread.
>>7799773
Dont be a bitch
>>7799773
Probably
>>7799779
I don't think I could though
>>7799764
>I feel like you're bullying me for being a good worker drone.
pretty much
you used to be cool
>>>/pol/113797710
BEING HAPPY IS effeminate
>>7799799
Neato
>>7799751
badfeels