>live in very liberal city with very liberal friends
>come out to them as bi and trans everyone is obviously accepting not one problem
>even the ones I thought would say something against it actually want to defend me against nothing but it's nice to know they have my back
>call me brave
>call me beautiful
>I don't really feel brave or beautiful but it feels nice to get the acceptance
>ask me when I'm going fulltime tell them I'm not comfortable because I'm in the beginning of hrt and besides that I don't have the body for it and got a kind of masculine face
>tell me I shouldnt be worried about passing beauty is all a social construct and being a woman isn't all about beauty and I should be comfortable calling myself a woman either way
>I kind of agree but I'm trans so I'm still aware I can be seen as a man in a dress so idk
>I still don't feel comfortable they offer to help with makeup and get my hair done
>I go through everything and I feel postive about my transition because of my friends
> I give away all my old boy clothes and prepare for full time
>my friends do my makeup hair and then I put my clothes together for the first time look in the mirror and I look like shit
>they tell me I look hot
>mfw I fell for the hug box
I get what they where trying to do but I think I messed up I wish I waited to tell people but I got caught in the excitement. I just want my oversized hoodie and jeans back. How can I let them know that I appreciate them but passing is kind of important for me. Or is it important am I making a big deal out of it should I just say fuck it and do my thing even though I obviously don't pass.
Could be bad self-perception, you could post some kind of photo to give us an idea of whether you really pass or not, or drop one in passgen.
I attend a trans support group at my uni. The phrase going around is "passing for safety". I'd just tell them that.
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They probably don't understand how dysphoria works and why you're still uncomfortable.
Be grateful for the support, but continue to work towards what makes you comfortable.