dysphoria thread

THAT ONE HAIR ON THE CHIN THAT ELECTROLYSIS DIDN'T GET RID OF AND IT'S NOT WORTH GOING BACK TO DO ELECTROLYSIS ON ONE HAIR SO EVERY FEW DAYS IT HAS TO GET PLUCKED AGAIN

>>7678486
I have some of these, never had to get electrolysis tho, I figured lots of girls just had stubborn hairs. Should I get electrolysis anyway?

>>7678537
Decide between electrolysis and laser. From what I can tell dark hair = laser, mixed or light hair = electrolysis

>>7678576
Is it really worth it for just a little bit of hair tho? How much does it cost?

Ftm here. Tall guys and big hands always get to me.

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Small hands, big feminine hips and ass, small chin.

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>>7678248
muscles
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=foghZxnCcNA

>>7679119
don't forget about that feminine hairline

>>7678344
"Dysphoric," not "horny." Different emotions.

>>7678248
100% it's tall, solidly built and very masculine guys (especially if they have a strong "guy smell").

Just dizzying waves and waves of "oh god wtf I'm a tiny little girl kill me" and it's the worst ever. It's been better since my voice dropped, so I'm hoping it just continues to get better as I masculinize.

Guys closer to my height (5'8"), guys who are skinny, guys who aren't "alpha," they're generally fine and don't bother me.

I avoid the first group like the plague.

Once I got invited to a friend's birthday party and she wanted to go to the community wave pool. When we were there, the whole group got into this game during the waves where the boys would play-chase the girls, pick them up (using the buoyancy of the water for help) and throw them across the pool. I tried to avoid the whole mess and stay on the sidelines, but one of the boys spotted me not involved in the game and made a beeline for me. I tried waving him off like, "no, I don't want to play," but he ignored me and picked me up like I was made of feathers and hurled me several feet away from him.

Unfortunately, I hit my head on something (can't remember what) and sort of greyed out and sank to the bottom of the pool where I just laid there stunned and 80% unconscious. I distantly heard him go, "oh SHIT," and then dive under the water. Next thing I knew, he was scooping me up and he carried me to the surface cradled against his chest and stood in the shallow water with me like that calling my name and trying to get me to open my eyes.

With what little consciousness I had, I was vaguely aware that I might have drowned, vaguely relieved and grateful that he'd rescued me, aaaaand...dysphoric as hell that he was able to bodily pick me up, cuddle me like a girl, and just generally "rescue" me like a damsel in distress in the first place. I had the vague thought that I ALMOST wished I'd died instead.

>>7681427
that entire anecdote made me dysphoric in the reverse direction
>not small
>not damsel scoopable
fuck

being 5'0 and size 00 with size 6 feet

>>7678248
Cute femboys with wavy short hair.

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everything
my voice
my hairline
every interaction i have
my face

Being reminded how small I am, people constantly assuming I can't carry anything over 30lbs. A customer at work joking asking to make me his wife and me being unable to correct him because not passing yet. Lesbian porn or porn of girls getting things rubbed on their clit, reverse traps in general. And dudes flirting with me, which you'd think I'd enjoy because I'm bi, but they have this very specific, condescending way of flirting that you know means they think they're talking to a girl.

>>7678497
They don't look that different

>>7681427
It does make me dysphoric. I want to look like that and I'm ftm

>>7681554
This 100%. I'm a straight guy but I wouldn't even mind guys flirting with me if I knew they saw me as a man rather than a girl.
I didn't know anybody else had the problem with porn too. I can't watch lesbians at all unless one has a strap on maybe, and anything that involves the vagina other than getting fucked like normal is a huge turn off and dysphoria to me (fingering and clit stuff).
I have friends that regularly call me "girl" as in "hey girl". Another one is maybe when I'm forced to dress slightly feminine (usually I downright refuse to but when I have to) everyone saying "oh you look so pretty! You should do that more often" etc

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>my younger brother growing out his hair
>going sailing and the cisfolks just stripping out of their shirts
>young john travolta
>old photos of greasers dancing
>george michael
>sailors

>>7681427
That anecdote made me cringe, jfc. So sorry you had to deal with that, dude ):

I just got back from PAX, but on Friday, there were so many good cosplayers and me, self conscious about my Moustache that grows full only 2 hours after shaving, I didn't even bother to put makeup on as I was bunking with classmates and didn't want to get into all that. I had to run to the bathroom to cry 3 times on Friday over someone dressed as Princess Peach. I hate myself for letting this shit get to me.

>>7678248
Nothing. I'm not mentally ill, unlike you faggots.

>>7681427
It's good that you had that happen. Maybe you'll realize that your body and brain are meant to be girly, because you're literally a girl.

>>7681687
Sorry anon, just kidding. He's my biggest mancrush, but I know what you mean.

>>7681554
Working in customer service, I found lesbians flirting to be even worse than straight men. I especially hated it when it was a lez couple and they would look me up and down and then wink-nudge each other like "one of us, one of us." Wanted to murder them.

>>7681720
It's kind of a funny story now.

Old fashion, man! Wish people still dressed like basically anything from 1920-1950.

>>7681876
Hi, repression-anon.

And nope, too late! I'm deep-voiced and hairy as shit now, isn't that just terrible? Oh, just terrible. I just hate how much happier I am. So tragic.

>>7681920
>tfw you will never toss a girl "like a feather" onto the edge of a pool and then cradle her against your chest after she nearly drowns

why even live?

>>7681454
We're counting 5'8'' as "small" now? Where did your tranny standards go?

my dick

>>7681974
>tfw you will never toss a hairy, deep-voiced trans man "like a feather" onto the edge of a pool and then cradle him against your chest after he nearly drowns
ftfy

>>7681700
Oh man, that's nice to hear someone else has the porn problem. Yeah, I'm good with strap-ons, and also oral, surprisingly. But the clit stuff issue makes it even harder to find porn where the girl actually seems to be enjoying herself, and half the time I end up at gay porn just because it's all dicks and has zero chance of setting off my dysphoria.

Also, having the libido of a teenage boy but being freaked out by my own junk is actual hell.

>>7681909
I guess I either don't look like a lesbian or I'm horribly unattractive with my pimple face, this never happens to me. I still think I'd probably take that over creepy old men, though. It takes everything I have to not yell 'HOW DOES IT FEEL TO BE GAY? BECAUSE YOU ARE'.

>>7681974
Really though. Also, tfw your girlfriend is way taller than you and you can't pick her up or anything at all.

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>>7681909
I can't pull off the greaser look quite (and anyway I am far too lazy to do my hair every day), so I tend to go for the 80's greaser throwback instead. But yeah, old school shit was what really pushed me to the fact that socially I definitely wanted to function as male.

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>>7682061
>being freaked out by my own junk is actual hell.

What would happen if you learned to love yourself?

>>7682127
>what would happen if you didn't have dysphoria?

Well, I wouldn't be in this boat, now would I?

>>7682177

loving yourself =/= euphoria

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>>7678248

Viewing pic related's instagram makes me want to fucking kill myself. Especially since we're both from NJ and it strengthens the reminder that I've known several women like this in real life.

>>7681427

I hope he apologized and wasn't acting like you needed to thank his stupid ass.

>>7681454

>not small
>not damsel scoopable

Yeah, normally this shit would make me dysphoric but I wouldn't want to be thrown around by a goddamned retard either.

>>7681554

>And dudes flirting with me, which you'd think I'd enjoy because I'm bi, but they have this very specific, condescending way of flirting that you know means they think they're talking to a girl.

I have similar experiences as an MtF, but replacing dudes with girls and girl with guy. And it's not condescending, but like this expectation that I am or will do "something." I'm not quite sure how to describe it.

>>7681876

No, it is not a good thing that happened even if you're self-hating shit like yourself. That's a fucking brain injury, you nigger. Not to be played with.

>>7681920

So what's that guy like with you now that you have transitioned?

>>7682056
I kinda don't mind this version as much.

>>7682200
Oh yeah. He apologized profusely. He got carried away, but he wasn't a total idiot.

And he was very chill with it later on. We went into the same uni program and consistently gendering me as "a guy he went to school with" helped the rest of the program accept I was just a funny-looking guy when, by rights, I should not have passed.

Like four years ago when I had to detransition and got a new job I was a cashier in a Walmart who worked mostly with girls

Like second day on the job a big old guy comes up and asks why the pretty young girl got replaced with an ugly rat like me and that he wished he didnt have to look at me and wanted her back

The other girl he was talking about was a really nice girl and she was at the doctors since she got pregnant and was getting tests

I kind of just froze up and didnt know what to say or do

Please kill me

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Doesn't even trigger my dysphoria as much as my AAP. Y'all have to suffer with me.

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>>7683508
>muh AAP

>Browbone
>Adam's Apple
>Stubble

My brow isn't all that bad but on bad days it bothers me.

My adam's apple is without doubt the thing that bothers me most. I have a slender neck so there's no way for it to not stick way out. It's the first surgical thing I'm going to have done, hopefully before summer comes otherwise I don't know what I'm doing to do.

I've had 8 laser sessions now so hair isn't as much an issue but...

>tfw a few hairs just under the skin on my chin this morning turned me into a dysphoric mess for the entire day.

>>7683546
Funny because most AAPs write gay porn fanfics in their free time.

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pics of army dudes always hit me where it hurts

>>7684237
>>tfw a few hairs just under the skin on my chin this morning turned me into a dysphoric mess for the entire day.

this. why does dysphoria have to be so time consuming?

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>>7685207
Why do you have to be triggered so easily?

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>>7678248
Be me (mtf)
my ex gf dating a cis single mom
it's over - we will never be together again
i really need to regain control

Pls advise. I met her gf and everything was OK but I am thinking about backing out of the friendship to where I only talk to her occasionally via text or on the phone.

>>7678248
>tfw 6'
>tfw 15.5 in shoulders
>tfw visible adam's apple
>tfw hair grows like a disgusting jewfro
>tfw extremely prominent brow, deep-set eyes
>tfw large hands and feet

>>7681554

Thirding the porn problem. I'm not even into dudes, but I'd watch gay porn over lesbian any day if I could only pick between the two.

>>7685336
>>tfw 15.5 in shoulders
...is that really a dysphoria thing for you?
t. ftm with 16.5" shoulders

>>7682088
Lmao friendo just to let you know you're an abundantly boring and uncreative person and without your female-gendering, or your family's wealth to rely on, you've got everyone else also letting you know that to look forward to. (Every day your feelings are going to become less and less interesting to people, and their patience will go too.)

(Just try to name a single time you, a woman, have been generous to a man - as in, to anywhere near the point of generosity women can expect from men.)

>>7686378
...wrong post replied to?

>>7686464
No, O.B./C.B., I'm definitely replying to you.

>>7686331
I guess it could be worse, it's really their square shape I don't like.

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>>7686490
Those are not my initials, and everything else you said about me is pretty much entirely off. But here's a (you) for you, sorry you got hurt.

>>7686743
>sorry you got hurt
Thanks tho