Your "Oh fuck im not straight/cis" story, stay kind,

>>7660299
Op here to start,
> be me
> be 13
> did the whole "i watch str8 porn to focus on dicc and its not gay"
> totally gay
> never had a gf or was much interested in girls
> always really close with guy friends
> aunt was gay
> watch gay porn out of curiosity
> biggest nut so far
> holyshitexestintialcrisis.jpg
> wonder if anal feels good
> stick finger in ass and massage prostate
> nutted so hard almost passed out
> decided "bi"
(no hate to my bi friendos ilu all)
> meet current bf of over three years online
> been gay since

>>7660299
>Early 2000s
>Just starting puberty
>I am absolutely horrified and repulsed by it
>Read about trans stuff online, realize "fuck, I'm trans"
>Try to come out to parents
>Doesn't go well at all
>Young transition doesn't happen because early 2000s
>I live the rest of my childhood and teen years in absolute hell and misery
>Fast forward to college years
>Trans visibility is starting to shoot way up, I see all these transition timelines and my repression starts to fail.
>I decide "it's too late for me, puberty already did its damage", and repress further
>Finally break at 25, start HRT
>"Fuck, I'm a hon"

>>7660324
:( that sucks

>>7660324
lol

>>7660299
>born in christian household
>elementary was crushing on boys by day, drawing busty stick figure chicks at night
>graduated elementary a successfully groomed christian
>get into all girls high school
>started watching lesbian hentai
>STILL thought i was straight
>even had the gall to fight gay guys online about their 'sinful ways', quoted leviticus of course
>halfway through high school i started crushing on several girls
>holy shit i'm a lesbian??? (no)
>spent years wallowing over how much of a filthy sinner i am
>meanwhile my friend group were making out with each other, and probably laughing at how oblivious i was
>finally left church, graduated high school 99% sure that i'm lesbian
>enter uni, get slapped on the face with a massive guy crush

and that's how i found out i'm bi

>>7660324
You are me.

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Hmm let me see
>Be me
>16
>Never really interested in girls at the time, or ever, just good friends, and I preferred it that way
>Band fuck
>Band leader fuck
>That "what's up cutie" to a guy humor
>Kinda (I wouldnt say homophobic around gay guys just nervous which made me thing I didn't like gay guys, in a homophobic way) alittle when it came down to it
>Lesbian friend constantly telling me I should be gay
>Haha ok sure no
Anyways she ended up telling this 10/10 adorable asf guy to chat with me, long hair, beanie with the side tassles, button up flannel, 130 pounds maybe, soft freckles
>He comes over and chats, hitting on me cause Les friend told him I was gay and he thought me dancing on the field while playing was cute so
>My ironic gay humor style making him think I was gay actually
I know I was cancer I know, I cringed at my personality back then now
>Well I was about to play again, for secondary show thing
>He scoots close and takes my arm on the bench
>Cool what ever idc
He was actually very very sweet and it made me happy, I regretted not keeping in contact with him after I moved
>Show schedule comes up and I gotta get dressed in my band uniform
Hey, I gotta go James, you know, trumpet section has to warm up
>Him
It's ok anon, I'm playing after so I gotta go too
>Me, taking this chance at some humor, like the retard I was
Only if I get a good bye kiss
>He smiles
>I smile thinking hes taking it as a joke
>He stands on his toes and kisses me actually, that slow one where the lips are soft omg I died
>I was kinda frozen and just staring at him
>He smirks and walks towards his friends
Wtf wtf wtf
>My friend saw, said "I told you so" when I went to put my clothes on
It was like a spark in a room of gasoline that made everything so clear, like, just that bit, made me want more of that feeling, so the next two years were just trying actually being gay and wow have I not regretted my decision one bit, everything was so personal and romantic.
>Thas it

>>7660299
I never really thought I was cis. As long as I knew about trans I knew I was something like that and not like normal people.

I thought I was attracted to girls. Discovering I was happy with boys too was a gradual process.

>>7662038

Shit that's hot.

>>7660299
I had a crush on this really nice, sweet guy in college, my first true crush for guys and it got me thinking about things. He was honestly the nicest, sweetest person I had ever met.

I let it pass because he was also deeply religious with his Mormon church, and more importantly, engaged. I felt that even telling him would put an unnecessary strain in our friendship since I had no intention of pursuing a relationship. I just let it go and eventually found another guy. I never met his fiance but I hope she deserved him.

>>7662604
>Mormon
You should have transitioned and asked to be his second wife.

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>>7660949

>quoted leviticus of course

ayy lmao

>>7662614
I wasn't about to complicate this guy's life if he was happy, and he seemed incredibly happy with his mormon wife. The thought of being his second wife and being treated as such to keep things from being gay is kinda hot tho.

>>7662625
>The thought of being his second wife and being treated as such to keep things from being gay is kinda hot tho.
A G P
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>>7662627
Probably yeah, it might be more than a fetish. I don't control my dick, even if the thought of it no longer functioning makes it hard as steel.
>tfw bf happily indulges it
true bliss

>>7662651
>bf who indulges your agp
Living the dream!

>I don't control my dick, even if the thought of it no longer functioning makes it hard as steel.
I think you need to tell me more.

>>7662688
We're getting gay married in a few months and when he fucks me he calls me his wife. Ridiculously hot but also fulfilling in its own right, like its the rightful state of things, it's hard to describe what I get out of it but it's more than just sexual

And when he lets me crossdress and plows me doggie style and calls me his woman it's really great

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>>7660299
>12-ish years old
>play a ton of vidya
>get incredibly horny with the jak and daxter game series
>so horny that i used my ps2 controller to put it inside my undies and make it vibrate until i came
>never realised that i was horny because of the characters, i thoght it was some kind of sickness
>never had proper sexual ed because i studied in a religious high school (while dodging all the pedo teachers)
>staring at every single cock my eyes could look at in the locker room
>"i'm not gay desu"
>proceed to grab casually a cock, that duderino never talked back to me
>"well, i guess i shouldn't do it again"
>16-ish years old
>had 2 crushes on girls, and one had 3 nipples
>google the info about the sexual ed i never got
>"HOLY SHIT, what kind of eldrich monstruosity is that thing? What is that? A vagina? Well, guess who is going to stick my dick in there, yeah, not me"
>there is a fucking huge folder with gay porn on my computer
>"im not gay lel" I said to myself
>later on, i got fucked by a dom russian girl that awakened the true bitch i am, and i discovered that i love bondage and i'm masochistic
>step into university and i instantly get a huge crush on a dude, who is also a classmate
>2 years of confusion later, i kiss him (first kiss with a dude)
>"sorry anon, i'm bi but i'm not into you, we can still be friends"
> cry for 5 months
> fuck a random dude after a party because i drank too much vodka and i stopped caring about my internal dylemmas
>2 months of confusion later
>"OH SHIT, im a potato... i mean.. im b!!! OMFG i'm so blind"
And that's me

>>7662718
Adorable. I guess it's fulfilling for the same way cis girls enjoy being made to feel feminine. You have that same love of being the woman and having him as the man.

Also, I love the use of 'gay married'.

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>>7660299
>be me
>student, 19 years old
>at a party
>hey anon check out those ladies
>come on dude ask her out
>why women are so boring ugh no thanks no
>gasp
>tell my best bff, she doen't understand, seems to be a faghag(TM) light
>few weeks pass, i have to do something about this
>come out as trans
>have first bf
>gasps were had again

nah but seriously i had those 'im trans'-moments in kindergarden, met some hons at age 9 and then went in full-repressio-scared-silent-aspi mode and came back to being open about myself when the thing happend at 19
Never got why my friends at age 11 liked girls and started doing their penis-thing, i repressed so hard that i didn't even seem to remember what happend before the traumatic hon-event

pretty good huh

>>7663033
>silent-aspi mode
why is this so common for mtfs? i thought the ftms were supposed to be the ones with asd brains.

>>7663039
I'm not aspi but looking back i think of myself as extremely awkward and silent
I even remember when some people called me fag cause apparantly i had a fag voice and just everything with liking men and being trans just went through me, i got extremely anxious when even hearing about such stuff
pretty weird that that changed so drastically when i came out and moved away, i immediately had sex with different guys, had 3 bfs during the last 3 years and have pretty much relived my teens from age 20-23
i'm 24 now, time to get serious, taxes, job, research

regarding ftms, 90/100 times they stayed aspi even after starting T
just met 2 a few weeks ago and they had been on T for years and they were soooo fucking weird, one wanted to date me right on the spot and gave me his business card with a picture of him and some photoshopped in cars, and his profession (chef)

>13yr old
>start going to karate lessons
>make friends with a guy the same age as me
>practice together as often as possible
>enjoying the fuck outta being close to him
>think about him often too
This was the first time I started suspecting something.
Fast forward a couple of years later
>hanging out with the dude and some friends
>drunk, playing truth or dare
>"I dare anon to kiss him"
>do as dared, felt gr8 m8
>oh dog, I still have a huge crush on him
>confess later on
>"I'm straight lol let's be friends tho"
>get over it, fall for a girl
>get laid, enjoy it too.
>fap to straight and gay porn, it's all good
conclusion:
Bi. Or pan, whatever.

Also I've always questioned my gender since I was like 16, at 23 I still have no clue but I no longer even care so fuck it. I'll just do what I want.

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> 12 yo
> made out with best friend a few times
> he stays over night
> comes in my bed
> I put my penis between my legs and say I'm his gf

I always wanted to be a girl but thought that's just what being gay is so I never researched it more.

Hetero porn has done less and less for me
Girls have been less interesting to me
I don't know what my sexuality is but the only thing that gets me hard is the thought of forcing a man to his knees tearing off his clothes and pushing myself into him, Kissing him and making him moan

>>7666982
This is why the T should separate from the gay. It only causes confusion.

>>7660299
>7th grade
>New kid comes to our school
>Scope him out
>Really cute Mexican with a nice smile
>Catch myself gawking at him in the locker room when changing for gym class
>Think about him when I go home
>This continues for a month
>Come to the realization that I'm gay
>Try to kill myself
>Realize that I can't OD on Flintstones multivitamins
Heh. Heh heh.

>be on muh shrooms
>realize that no it's really fucking not normal to "try out" estrogen and hate yourself whenever you see qt girls because you can't be them, etcetc
>finally clearly see how retarded i was for denying for so long

When I moved from fapping to Bailey Jay to fapping to gay porn... and imagining myself as the bottom half the time.

And then later when I started ERPing with a few Internet friends.

>High school turd
>Loner for all my life, no friends fron the time I was little to my freshman year, but in the last 4 weeks of school instantly hit it off with a girl in office hours over some weird phone app
>She invites me to lunch w/ friends, where we both nerd out over anime
>Go to her house almost constantly over the Summer break
>BFFs 4 lyf for the next two years
>Slowly realize I've been nursing a pretty deep lesbo crush on her
>Start having hardcore wet dreams
>Become quickly embarrassed to be around her
>Avoid her for most of senior year
>Drop out of school, go to community college, sent no word to her or talked to her at all
>Get invite to a party out of the blue
>I feel really guilty about me ignoring her for months like an asshole, but I accept
>Go to party, awkwardly hang out with her a bit
>After a few mins we all start playing vidya games
>We don't talk much afterwards, and she mostly hangs out with her other friends who don't like me all that much
>Realize she isn't gay, and isn't interested in me in the slightest
>Mope in corner, go home early
>Months later, still haven't talked to her
>Still have hardcore lesbo fantasies
>Wat do

I have an animated vid about bathrooms I made with two different endings. I lost one of the endings but here is the surviving vid.

Should I recreate this definitive video or let it stand as it is?

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ZsKWC46OEn4

People should be allowed to choose whichever bathroom they want to use at any particular time for their personal reasons and shouldn't be Forced to use or choose any particular one.

The vid is my own creation, I used plotagon but might redo it using something else as it was difficult to achieve the limited voice emphasis that I was able to wring from it.

Blah blah blah, Nobody's upvoted my very latecoming voice to the bathroom argument.

>be me just moved to new neighborhood and school system
>hang out with neighbors, making pretty good friends
>no vidya, no cable, we run around like wild animals without any electronics- it's 1976. Tv stations Shut Down at night.
>hang out with friends
>friends little bro says that his older bro got in trouble with Danny Something and that's why this person I've never heard of had to move away.
>dude what did you do rob a bank?
>don't tell him little bro
>maybe I will he says
>you're not allowed to
.>holy fuck
>I drop it
>we pick berries, make pies, steal bicycle parts to fix frames we find
>make motocross bike work
>we share it, taking turns being the driver.
>um anon, parents ask, do u want your own ride?
>I got one
>no u need your own
>lets go shopping
>I get one, race my friend
>chain breaks in race
>argument happens and I slap his face with greasy chain grease fingers. His face is streaked
>I feel something
>we never speak much after that
>I move away
>I come back to old neighborhood
>friends little bro says hi, come see this-
>wat?
>it's my friend being forcibly driven to prom with a girl because his parents are catholic dicks
>omg he's gay?
>yeah, and he laughs
>I see the look on their respective faces and see pain and a look of joy at someone else's pain.
I realize ppl suck :(

>>7667225
Continued

>as a young teen I always had tummy troubles
>read in Encyclopaleodia Brexita about methods using water, i.e. Enema
>solve problems with red rubber bag and tube already in the house, only use it about twice a year when I'm in agony
>have 12th birthday- after year and a half of half assed fapping have first orgasm ever.
>months pass, learning to fap really well
>discover that enema makes tummy feel better, but also cock rock hard/ how odd I wonder.
>taken to physician and put on Simethicone to cure tummy bubbles, with a diet change, but suddenly enema set disappears
>decide to take an interest in Veg, peeled carrots, peeled potatoes
>decide I'm NOt gay, but like butt stuff
>years pass
>see friends Own bro mocking my friend and friend's sad face as he was driven away forced to take a girl to prom
>years pass
>lgbtq bathroom use issues become problem for some idiotic backwards people.
>make a video on Plotagon about it like three years later. Sorry senpai, I was busy
>I'll change the ending to the original in a bit

>>7662038

No homo

>>7660299
I kind of always knew something was up with me. When I was like 3 I remember watching my mom put on makeup, thinking it was cool, and being like "Wow, I can't wait for her to teach me how to do that!"

I crossdressed a lot growing up. Usually in secret. Most of my friends were girls, I was shit at sports, all that stuff. That being said, I still loved video games and had a dinosaur phase, but other than that I typically played with stuffed animals and dolls and shit.

I was 14 when i came out, although I had really confirmed it about 8 or so months prior. i just looked into it and realized it was something i needed to do. 420chan's tg board helped me a lot with that.

My family didn't take it well, but they've gotten better about it. They're pretty liberal too all things considered.

I started taking hormones when I was 17 or 18. I pass well. Been living fulltime 2 years now. Have a BF. It's nice.

>>7663056
>chef
Avoid, theyre a drinker

>>7667146

And now you'll have a gay ol' time

>>7667204
>>>/r9k/