i have been trying for 5 years but i cant over my crush on my straight best friend
i don't like girls. i don't like guys. im completely asexual except for this infatuation with him.
You don't want to die, you want relief from emotional torment.
Your also trying the same thing, and expecting different results
Suicide won't make you happy either
try something you haven't tried before, even if its strange or uncomfortable.
>dont want to die
suicidal feelings are NOT a desire to die, they are a desire to have relief from your stress by any means necessary.
>same thing, different results
your being attracted to your friend, wanting him to love you, and it never works. your being insane if you keep trying it. Honestly try getting out more, maybe even finding a sweet girl to take on a date, JUST to try something new
>suicide won't make you happy
as said above, do something you haven't done. Get out, talk to people, go to places you wouldn't expect, and just see how it is
a stagnant life is the worst for your spirit
absolutely not. That will just make it worse, as he will deny you, and you will feel unreciprocated. Doomed to failure, and a crushed ego.