MtF regret

>>7551429
How old are you

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>>7551434
20, I started just before my 20th birthday after spending years tossing up if this was a good idea or not and going to a dozen or more doctors and specialists who told me I suffer from BDD and gender dysphoria

idk what the fuck to do, if i stop this I might regret it later, but If i keep going I might regret it, can I just slow the breast growth down?? i hate this so much

You feel regret about your breasts because you're afraid you won't pass and people will notice them and clock you. Not because you don't actually want breasts.

So your real question is, should you keep transitioning with the risk of not passing. That is something everyone struggles with. It's up to you. If you can possibly, at all, in any way live as male, then do that. But if you would rather commit suicide than live as male, then transition becomes your only option.

try getting in shape. its your mind and body you know.

everybody loves boobs
i mean it's [current year+1]

>>7551429
you can take serms to prevent boobs and dont get on high E dosdage
CPA is also more likely to give you boobs than other AAs

you will never be ok, sorry, it sucks where you are not 'full-trans' but can't be a man either

>>7551452
>But if you would rather commit suicide than live as male, then transition becomes your only option.

I don't know! I can go days without feeling dysphoric and days where I can't make it stop unless I take spiro and prog

>>7551460
can you explain these words to me please, I'm retarded

>>7551462
Think about your future. Consider not taking any form of HRT. You will further masculinize. Think about aging as a man. Compare that to aging as a woman. Which is preferable?

You really just have to think this part out yourself. Consider your options. If they come down to suicide or hormones, then take hormones. If they come down to live as male or hormones, then live as male, because if you can do that without killing yourself then it's the safer bet.

>>7551481
what does early transition count as? is 20 early-mid?

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The only thing I can tell you is that, in five years, you won't regret this. Stay on the pills.

I also wouldn't recommend purposefully trying to slow the breast growth, because it might have far-reaching implications for how they end up, when you've stopped flailing around and would rather have big tits. The reason you feel bad about them is because you think you won't pass, people will notice them, and you'll get shit for being a "freak". This might be true for the first year or so. But as you start passing better, as you keep working on your voice and learning how to carry yourself, that won't be the case.

Just stick with it. Being trans is fucking brutal but us early transitioners and... Early-mid transitioners? Will make it eventually.

>>7551485
Oh sorry, I deleted the post to add an image. But yeah, 20 is considered early-mid here, not the best but not the worst by any means. Just be glad you'll never be a true hon, and you'll actually have a bf/gf eventually

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>>7551502
Can I ask when you started and how it's been going for you?

>>7551462

SERMs like Raloxifene prevent estrogen activity in breast

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>>7551507
I started a bit earlier than you, so idk how helpful this will be. But I pass well now, don't get clocked or misgendered, go out a lot, have partners pretty often (though I can't seem to keep them). Still trying to figure out school, find a job, find myself, it's not perfect but it's basically a normal life with a side of trying to save up for surgeries.

I'm so glad I didn't give up or repress back then. So please, don't do either of those things. The advice I would give you for passing, is to WORK on it, work on your presentation, your voice, save up for FFS if you think you'll need it. Don't be a stay-at-home NEET like so many other girls, thinking they can just work on it later. Socialization is important NOW, and even more important than that, is making memories you're proud of.

If you want more help, you can give throwaway contact info and I'll be around.

>>7551429
not a trans, im your average bisexual dude so i don't know much about this subject.

don't stop taking hrt, why is it so hard to accept who you are inside, sure people are going to look at you and talk shit but that would be the case weather or not you had boobs, it would just be for other reasons.

don't go around pretending this isn't what you wanted try and be happy i know this is easier said than done, but everyone has reasons they should smile.

>>7551540
Not OP but, how did you handle coming out to your parents and family?

>>7551562
I came out to my therapist, and then he helped me come out to my parents. They were kinda surprised, but not unaccepting, and now they're very supportive. My grandparents don't approve because of their religion, but they still see me. My step-mom was the biggest obstacle, but she's not in any of our lives anymore, she was evil lol

>>7551452
>If you can possibly, at all, in any way live as male, then do that
Even crippling depressed but not quite enough to kill yourself (though possibly in the future when your body gets even worse)? You don't have to be outright suicidal for transition to be a better option.

>>7551795
>Even crippling depressed but not quite enough to kill yourself

Personally, I'd say so, yeah. It's not a one-size-fits-all thing, though, so it may be different for you I guess. But this is how it is from my perspective.

>though possibly in the future when your body gets even worse

Factor that in when considering it all. That's why you have to think of your future, aging like a man, and whether you can tolerate it.

>>7551818
I don't know, that seems like a pretty shitty existence, especially considering that transitioning unsuccessfully can't possibly be that much worse, and in the best-case scenario could actually improve things. Not transitioning is guaranteed to never allow things to improve, while transitioning is at least something.

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You are a diseased and mentally unstable person. There is nothing you can but go deeper into the delusion, because doctors don't offer an alternative.

>>7551831
But say you could carve out a life, albeit a depressing one, as male. But you transition instead. And if you fail to pass, now you can't make any sort of life for yourself, because of the deeply embedded and widely accepted discrimination against non-passing trans women in society. So where you previously had a chance, now you have none.

>>7551846
As you said it's a matter of perspective. I don't consider that a life worth living. If option A is to do nothing and guarantee a miserable but marginally bearable life, and option B is to transition, which could result in anything from a happy and comfortable life to something slightly worse than option A, I'd take option B. The reward of the safe option isn't good enough to justify not taking the risk.

I also object to giving up your personal happiness and comfort to satisfy society, least of all one which has an irrational or misinformed objection to you taking the only treatment to your medical condition which makes you horribly depressed. You also have to consider that such an opinion is transient, and could change over time or be different somewhere else, so giving up your happiness for it could be unnecessary even assuming you could tolerate your shitty non-transition life.