I'm a closet trans girl/femboy mode right now and last night i lost my virginity to a guy i met online. The sex was bad, painful, and gross, but i feel even worse now. I was presenting female, which i don't usually do, but i thought i looked ok. But it didn't make me feel like a woman. It made me feel like a fag and a failed male. I thought this was what i wanted but now i just want to die. Has anyone else ever felt like this? What's wrong with me?
>what's wrong with me?
Nothing, you just fell for the random sex with strangers meme.
>>7520195
I mean I assume it would be better with a person you love, but does it really make that much difference?
Don't feel too bad, sex is always awkward the first time, and no matter what happens, life goes on, even if you made a mistake, life goes on
>>7520220
Yes. By a lot. Like there's none of the disgust feels for example. That's why you felt like a faggot and all that fun stuff.
>>7520231
Hm that gives me hope
Sounds like you have done inner issues you need to deal with.... What do you want us to do? The fact it sucked doesn't help
>>7520107
It sounds like he was a closet fag who wasn't treating you like a girl, so it makes sense.
Also get on hormones you idiot, how do you expect to find a "straight" guy or a nice bi girl if you have no titties to suck on?
>>7520263
I'm going to start self medding soon. I almost ordered hormones last week but then I pussied out.
>>7520291
Don't wimp out next time you go to order or you're gonna regret it. The later you start the more you will regret not having started earlier at any age.