Story on how fucked up my life is

The second year I thought I'll start fresh but fuck no. In first month second mathematician quit the job and I was having math once more with the same fucking dick. I was doing really good actually till I had health problems - the pituitary gland and thyroid. I started to make huge trips all over the poland to actually get some help from several doctors (polish public healthcare is a joke. I would have to wait 3 years just to go to the specialist). I skipped only 2 weeks of school. The dickhead started same shit once more. He kept saying that i'm not ill, that I just skip school like last year and said that he is not going to pass me this year and that I don't have to attend math because he doesn't care. He fit it perfectly in my depression episode. Just like he was waiting months just to fucking kick me in the guts. This is when I completely broke down. I barely could get out of my bed. After a month I think I went maniac. I just... stopped caring? I kept saying I can't do anything, I wasn't depressed. I was happy. I was making plans on dropping school and starting to work. Now when I look at that I think that I just mentally broke down. This isn't normal for a person in that situation to be happy isn't it?

After that I visited psychiatrist couple of times and got prescription for antidepressants. Everything was fine. I thought my depression has ended and I've stopped taking my pills. I regret that.

It started just like every year. I wasn't feeling well, I didn't know what I want to do, I stopped enjoying the little things like playing my favorite games, watching youtube... and I started watching romantic movies. This always fucks me up. Always. Mainly it's because I've never had a proper boyfriend, like a physical one. I never had a person which I could be 100% comfortable with, who I could hold hands with. Mainly it's because i'm obese (thank you very much thyroid). The only guy that was into me suffered from chronic depression. I can't take that. I can't even handle my depression. Additionally he fell in love with me just in few days and only by looking at my pictures. I think now you get the image.

I don't know what to do anymore. I've been writing this for 3 hours already... I think i'm a little better thanks to this. I think i'm gonna tell me mom that it started again. and maybe ask her if she can afford gym pass so I can forge some of that shit into workout and maybe increase my self-esteem?

>>7513304
People like you should shut the fuck up on things they don't know about. I bet you're still this closeted "frat bro" who just likes to suck some dick

>>7513337
>you should shut the fuck up on things you dont know about
>proceeds to assume the circumstances of someone's life
kek

>>7513244
>This isn't normal for a person in that situation to be happy isn't it?

yes, it is normal.
it is called bipolar syndrome or manic/depressive syndrome.

you shouldn't just stop taking your medication.
start taking it again if it helped you before.
sometimes it takes awhile to find the right one that works.
mediation also helps.
there are also support groups that let you talk to other people with similar issues.

also, don't take the class if the teacher is abusive.
math isn't that important anyway.
can you do homeschooling?
transfer to a different school?
take different classes?

don't give up.
there is help if you keep looking for it.

Just letting you know your post didn't go unnoticed, I read the whole thing. Definitely go to the gym, it helps with self confidence more than you could imagine. Be careful though not to go too hard initually, or you'll burn yourself out and not want to go back. Best of luck and stay strong

Try courses online. Then you don't need to go to class, you only need to pass tests.

Just eat less you fat fuck. Your body isn't a plant and can't run on water, air and sun.

>>7513242
>seasonal depression
This caught my eye before I read anything. Get some sunlight or take vitamin D pills, you butthead.

>>7513304
Where in fuck did you find that image

>>7513387
Like this person said, does Poland offer the ability to test out of college courses and get credit, OP?

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>>7520010
no clue